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Energy Sensations – Update January 11, 2020

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Artwork:  “Becoming” by Steven DaLuz

 

“The purpose of life is not to transcend the body, but to embody the transcendent” ~ H.H.Dalai Lama

 

I woke up at about 8:00am this morning to a Diamond Solar Heart activation (merging/blending of the Solar Plexus, Heart and High Heart chakras which creates a torus sensation and generates the Christed energy).  It was pretty strong, so it was easy to get completely pulled into it while still half asleep. I guess it feels stronger when you’re in that “in between” state and easier to focus on the sensations.

I could feel the torus movement centering in the Heart area, but I also felt a 2nd torus sensation centering in the 3rd eye area at the same time.  This is only the 2nd time that I’ve felt both torus sensations together….usually it’s only in the Heart area.  

While focusing in on the sensations, after a while I realized that the lyrics from the song “Aquarius/Let The Sunshine In” by the band 5th dimension were playing in my head in the background “Let the sun shine, Let the sunshine in, the sunshine In”.  It was so funny because it was in full chorus just like the song. I couldn’t help but laugh because it seemed kinda corny, but I guess it’s appropriate for what’s taking place at the moment.  In my experience, the Christed state is a unified Solar energy so that totally makes sense.

At one point, I could feel the generated energy start to pour out of the bottom of my feet (anchoring) and I could see illuminated codes moving quickly through my mind in a web (can’t think of a better word to describe it). I ended up staying in bed for 3 hours while in this In-between state until it stopped.

I’m exhausted today and unable to get up and get out of bed.  Maybe from such a high influx of energy. This was a MASSIVE activation that is the result of the unification and dedication of so many.  I am filled with Gratitude for all that have participated in this creation. There is no question in my mind that Magic is real.  We always have been and always will be capable of Magic. 

Energy Sensations

I’ve been getting lots of Crown activity in the past few weeks. Most of the time it’s the liquid Bliss sensation, but sometimes it feels like the fizzy meridian sensation on my head.  A couple of days ago I felt the back of my head fluttering with a flickering sensation for several hours.  It flutters so hard, that it feels like a moth is stuck in my hair.

Nerves have been fluttering and twitching in various parts of my body and will sometimes quickly switch to different locations within seconds. Sometimes the nerves are twitching so hard, that you can see movement in that area.

Meridians have been very active and will feel the bubbly effervescent sensation flowing through different parts of the body.  The sensation seems to be getting stronger and is spreading to new areas that had not been active before.

Dreams have been extremely vivid and I’ve been having dreams about people from my past every single night.  Each night it’s a different person and sometimes it’s a person I haven’t even thought about in many years.

Toward the end of 2019 I was craving carbs and large high calorie meals, but lately I haven’t had much of an appetite and have been eating less frequently.  I’ve been craving chocolate and sugar, but don’t really want to eat a whole meal.

I noticed on January 4th that the tones/harmonics had changed.  It was very noticeable. There was a sense of well-being and everything felt clearer.   I’m not sure how to explain it, but it’s not that I felt/heard new ones, it’s that I sensed that some were missing.  Maybe it’s the distorted ones that were not there anymore allowing a sense of Bliss and harmony. Many people noticed that something was different and I saw that some people posted updates about it.  Even my roommate who is not spiritual at all, casually mentioned that he felt “good and more clear”.

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Things are definitely changing.  Maybe this will be a year of a deeper awakening to our abilities…a deeper sense of “knowing”…trusting ourselves more and allowing the flow of creation without the resistance of doubt.

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Believe in yourself and see what happens

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I had to post this version of the Aquarius song from the movie “The 40 Year Old Virgin” ~ It’s too funny 🙂

 

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Energy Sensations – Update December 16, 2019

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Things have been a little strange lately.  I’m definitely at a choicepoint right now which can feel like a void.  Usually when this happens, I feel very out of body and floaty most of the time.  I noticed today, while out in public, that I didn’t really feel like I was present…I felt like I was in a dream and everything seemed foggy.

I started a new job about a month ago and I like it a lot.  I’m working as an Incident Response Analyst reviewing documents and emails from companies that have been hacked.  It’s only a temporary job which will allow me to save money until the end of January and then I’m moving somewhere far far away 🙂

I was able to go to Sedona on November 11th and had a beautiful day with perfect weather.  There was a different energy there compared to other times. While meditating, I saw a pattern that at first thought was the flower of life, but when I tuned into it more, I realized it was a pattern that looks like the top view of a torus.  It had a red hue to it. If I opened my eyes and then closed them again, I’d continue to see the pattern.

I also got a lot of red energy in pictures which was something new.

I was gonna go to Bell Rock again on December 12th, but unfortunately, I had to work on that day 😦  I guess it really doesn’t matter where you are, because (etheric) work was still being done on my body while I was sitting at my desk!  It seems so strange to sit in a room full of people while something is reaching into my back, adjusting the side of my face and while receiving liquid Bliss Crown downloads! At times it felt like my face was turning into liquid… I guess I’m getting used to it though.  

There has been a lot of movement in my bones and bone marrow lately.  It can be painful at times, but mostly just slow vibrating movement and sometimes it feels like there are pops/cracks/pings inside my bones.  Sometimes it feels like pinched nerve pain or stabbing pain in the bone. I know that it’s etheric because it’s always accompanied by a static electromagnetic sensation on my skin near the area that’s feeling the sensation. The static energy whips around really fast and feels like something hovering over different areas.

There have been times when it feels like someone is taking a small instrument and scraping out the bone marrow from the middle of my bone (that one REALLY hurts but usually only lasts for a minute or so ). It’s very difficult to explain and I know that it sounds weird.  Usually this bone activity will only last for two days and then it will stop, but this time, it started on December 9th and it’s still happening every day since then. It’s never lasted this long before.                                                  

Overall, there has been a lot of activity and many changes taking place. After a recent soulmate experience that didn’t go very well, I have awakened to a new level of self empowerment and loyalty to self.  

The “Claddagh” symbol  and the “Love, Loyalty, Friendship” that it represents played a significant role in many of our lifetimes together as did Celtic beliefs.  It was very difficult to release this person, probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to go through because it was so very deeply connected with the Heart.  It did help to reveal the many barriers that I had within the Heart and somehow brought me closer to myself. I am very Grateful for all of the beautiful past life memories that I was able to recall with this person.  It showed me how magical life can be and has awakened me to all of the possibilities of creating that level of Love and happiness in my life now. Just meeting her in this lifetime has totally and completely changed everything for me. I am very Grateful for having met her and pray that our brief reuniting has somehow helped her as much as she has unknowingly helped me.  Even though she is totally unaware and asleep (spiritually), I imagine that our brief reuniting will be a catalyst for her as well… 

I can sense that 2020 is going to hit the ground running and I’m preparing to move somewhere more in alignment with what I’d like to create.  Something is telling me to get out of the U.S. mainland. I will do everything I can to make that happen. As of now, it looks like I’ll make that move in February 2020.

Energy Sensations

Tummo Fire energy has been very active.  I’ve been waking up in the middle of the night steaming hot!  I feel like Keanu Reeves in the movie Constantine when he comes back from a trip through hell and you can see the heat coming out of his body – lol

I’m seeing a bright horizontal indigo blue streak in front of me quite frequently.  I’ll even see it illuminated while I’m in the dark. I guess it’s something in my aura because it’s always in the same place.

The right side of my face has been repairing on a grid level.  I had a past life memory earlier this year of being burned at the stake and in the memory, the right side of my face was burned very badly.  Immediately after the vision and ever since then, I’ve periodically felt movement on that side of my face, sometimes numbness, buzzing and electrical pulses and feeling something reaching into my face as if it’s being repaired.  

Lots of movement in bone and marrow.  There’s also static electromagnetic sensation in muscle lately, which is something new for me.  I sense that there’s something neurological going on as well because of the way the etheric activity feels…lots of rewiring…

My body is releasing toxins and have been breaking out with blemishes on my face which is not normal for me.  When the breakouts occur, my joints and all of my teeth hurt all at the same time. Nerves will twitch in multiple teeth simultaneously.  It got so bad last week, that I went to the dentist and had x-rays done on all of my teeth. The dentist said he couldn’t find anything wrong and the pain went away the next day…but this happens periodically.

Have been really tired and have trouble keeping my eyes open throughout the day.  I am unable to take a nap when I do get the chance to lay down. I’ll just go into a trance-like state for a couple of hours while the Kundalini moves around, but I’m unable to fall asleep.

When I get a new insight, usually within the week, lots of people will start writing about it and posting stuff on facebook or instagram with the same message.  I guess we are all tapping into the same collective. It’s pretty awesome to see this happen so frequently. It gives me a sense of unity here on earth unlike any other I’ve ever felt while going through the motions of everyday life.  It’s comforting to see that things are actually starting to change…like REALLY change to the point that we can actually see and feel the results.  

For the first time since my awakening began, I am excited to move forward…to create a life that I’ve always dreamed of but didn’t have the belief in my ability to do it.  It seemed so complicated before, and then as if overnight, I just woke up one day and had the complete knowing and acknowledgment of my ability. The magic has always been there, it was just a matter of believing in myself. 

When we step into this power, into this self Love and empowerment within the Heart, we will emit a frequency, a harmonic that will change/transform everything around us (think Law of Resonance)

This is where Unity ignites…the Golden Fire of transformation.

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True self Love and loyalty-to-self will change your life … Let the magic begin

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Energy Sensations – Update February 9, 2018

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Photo – current Schumann Resonance spikes ~ February 7th – 9th

 

I just wanted to do a quick update…

November and December were so strange for me.  I don’t really want to write about it because I believe that it was the dismantling of something really big.  Although it did not affect me directly, I did witness the (many) people around me completely falling apart…even to the point of an actual suicide and also an unrelated suicide attempt (both happening on the same day).  It’s been bizarre to say the least…  I feel that it has to do with magnetics which are affecting the brain. I’m sure the huge Schumann Resonance fluctuations in the past few months contributed as well.

This area of Bryce Canyon has an amplifying effect to incoming energy and seems to support surges (natural and electrical) which can be intense. The tone in my right ear has been ridiculously loud and fluctuating like crazy.  Sometimes I hear a noise that sounds exactly like a “light saber” from Star Wars. I can hear it and feel it pulsing through me at the same time.  I’ve been shown that the high altitude, along with the energy of this area, will amplify effect on cellular structure.  It somehow penetrates easier/quicker?  That seems to be the message that I’m getting but not sure if I’m interpreting that correctly.

The lights flicker here a lot.  There seem to be power surges when the power will go out on the entire property for a second.  I will have to reset all of the clocks in all of the cabins. This is the slow season, so we’re not using a lot of electricity to cause an overload as opposed to Spring and Summer months.  I just thought it was weird that the natural energy is so “electric” and then we also have power surges with the electricity in the area.

There have also been phases when birds will crash into the cabins. I’ll even be in the cabin sometimes and hear them hit.  I’ll find birds over a period of time and then it will completely stop for a while…

 

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So recently, I’ve felt something new.  Every single day, I will go into an “in between” trance-like state starting around 5pm.   I’ll get this extreme sleepy-drugged feeling and will not be able to keep my eyes open no matter how hard I fight it.  When I lay down, I’ll very quickly go into this in-between state and start to feel a torus type movement.  I can feel the torus movement in the Diamond Solar Heart area (Solar Plexus, Heart Center and Thymus all blending together creating a torus movement).

When I feel that happen, I will feel the Christed energy generating and pushing outward.  I’m very aware of it while it’s happening, but now while this is happening, I’m noticing that there is a separate torus movement in my head.  It feels like it’s also centering in my 3rd eye/ bridge of my nose area.

When I initially felt the 2 torus movements, it reminded me of a picture that I saw of the Rainbow body.

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To me, the picture looks like the energy is centering in the middle of the head and also in the chest like 2 different torus movements. I don’t know if that’s what the picture means, but it reminded me of what I’m feeling.  I can understand the Heart area, but why would it center in the head too?  What does that mean?

Also, when I’m in the in-between state, I’ll hear single noises; knocking, clicking, bells, or tones (it varies day to day).  Lately it’s been the knocking noise, but I’ll write more about that in my next post.  This has been happening every single day for a couple of weeks.  When I snap out of it, I will feel completely refreshed like I had slept for several hours…but it’s only been exactly 1 hour each time.

There have been occasions throughout the day, when I am completely aware of my entire body being made up of vibrating molecules.  It’s so weird because it feels like my body is disappearing.  It’s a totally different sensation as opposed to usually feeling like I’m made out of heavy liquid or melting into liquid.

Lately when I’ve been waking up in the morning I’ve been seeing the “turtle shell” shaped energy surrounding me.

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It’s not brightly illuminated like when I see gridlines, but it’s got a very subtle illumination that seems to be a very transparent golden color.  One day when I saw it, I asked what it was, and I got the word “cymatics”.  So I’m guessing that it’s a representation of the tone that’s being emitted.  I’m thinking that when we emit these tones, our field is surrounded with these shapes/symbols.  That’s very interesting to me…I’ll have to do a little research on that.

A couple of times when I’ve slowly woken up in the morning, I saw a quick vision of a dolphin blowing a toroidal ring/bubble toward me.

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The ring comes toward me really fast and by the time it would reach me, I’ll snap out of the vision.  I’ve never had any interaction with dolphins or haven’t really paid attention to them, so I have no idea what that means. I thought it was interesting that it was toroidal since I’ve been feeling the torus sensation lately.

All of my joints have been aching all at the same time.  It’s uncomfortable but not intolerable. I’ve tried so many different things to help with this (essential oils, Bio-Astin, Omega 3’s and Malic Acid supplements, drinking distilled water with lemon, eliminating things in my diet) but nothing has helped.  I’m hoping that this is a phase that will pass.  I’m wondering if it’s due to the energy around here…maybe causing a detox type reaction?

Overall, this has been an extremely active time in this process.  I am constantly feeling so activated as my energy field is always feeling like it’s moving/pulling, melting, vibrating/buzzing or spiraling.

I’m very curious to see where this is going…

 

**I just realized that the last 3 blogs I’ve posted were all on the 9th… 🙂

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Love ❤

 

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Astral and Etheric Spiders

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Starting in my early 20’s, I remember waking up from sleep and seeing a huge transparent shadow-like spider hanging next to my bed.  There was no immediate fear because I knew it wasn’t “real”.  I just stared at it for a while, so calm and moving it’s legs like it was weaving, and then it slowly faded until it was gone.  I’d seen them on occasion off and on for several years.  I always just kind of ignored it, and passed it off as still being in the dream state.  I didn’t see any after my big awakening in 2007, until about two years ago.  I’ve just seen it one time since this big awakening, it was about the size of a tarantula and it was also on the wall next to my bed when I woke up from sleep.

My curiosity got me, so I researched it online and found a phenomenon called “astral spiders” or “etheric spiders”.  There’s a lot of negative stuff out there regarding this phenomena.  People are saying that they’re negative and that they’re parasites that actually siphon off of your aura and allegedly attack you in your sleep (yawn).  Do I feel this to be true in my experience?…No…I don’t feel any negativity coming from these beings, and I’m pretty darn sensitive.  I’m looking right at them and acknowledge them, and they don’t scurry off or show any fear, they don’t emanate any negativity or fear…they just calmly continue to weave.

This brings me to the subject of dream catchers.  There’s a Native American legend that dream catchers hung by your bed will catch any negativity or negative dreams in the web-like center of the dream catcher.  Since I’ve always seen these spiders while waking from sleep, and they’re always weaving around me, maybe they’re actually weaving a form of “dream catcher” around while I sleep ?

There’s also a legend of Grandmother Spider which is Goddess energy, and various other cultures view spiders as Creator of the universe, bringers of good luck and fortune, and even protectors.  I think I resonate with those explanations a lot better than the fear based ones !

The classic dream catcher has a pattern in it’s web that looks very familiar to me :

It reminds me of the top view of a Torus :

I’ve even woken up from sleep to see the top view of a torus illuminated in white, glistening with a golden sheen above me.   I feel like there’s a connection there, between the astral spiders, webs, the geometry of the dream catcher and the Torus, but I can’t quite figure it out yet.  I’m thinking MAYBE, the spiders are actually attracted to negative energy, and “siphon” it off of your aura because they are a type of transmuter.  That would explain the connection to spider webs, the influence and creation of the dream catcher, and definitely explain the connection to the Torus…the Torus IS the act of transmutation itself.  It cycles and renews all energy, therefore, cleansing it.  Is it possible that these astral spiders are not these big scary parasites that are stealing our energy, and are in fact, only removing the negative energy? Something to think about…

I, myself, have a fear of spiders, and I know quite a few people who have a severe fear of spiders…but why?  Why are we so afraid of them?  Past life experiences maybe?  Is it because they look ugly?  Is it programmed into us by society?  If the positive legends about spiders are true, how can something that I’m so afraid of in this lifetime be my ally?

I was deathly afraid of mosquitoes when I was a kid. Sounds silly, huh ? I would run away screaming if I saw one. My friends and neighbors thought it was hysterically funny.  My neighbors even nicknamed me “Mosquito”.  I could not live that one down… 😦 …but a few years ago, my best friend got bit by a mosquito and actually got the complicated form of West Nile virus from it…the one that causes meningitis.  She almost died.  Did I somehow know or feel when I was a kid that mosquitoes could kill you?

It’s hard to tell sometimes what the real reason is behind our fears or phobias.  That’s something I need to work on.  I’m posting a picture of a spider here, (even one with 100’s of babies on her back-LOL) to force me to look at it and figure out where my fear comes from….Yikes!

Removing the Barrier

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I went through a period of feeling A LOT of activity in my energy field and lots of work being done on me, to not feeling anything at all.  Seems to be a waiting period right now.  Maybe for the last few weeks I’ve been having “normal” dreams (not lucid) and not feeling much activity in my energy field.  I’ve gone through this before, and it seems that I feel more “alone” when I’m not being worked on.  It brings a sort of sadness with it, like my Angels have left me.  Of course, I know that’s not true, but it’s a sadness that I’m experiencing right now. The sadness of missing someone, missing their presence.

The only changes I’ve felt lately is the “Torus” feeling. I feel like my energy field around me is like a Torus and it activates and turns in on me at my center.

It used to be overwhelming when I first experienced this about a year ago, but the past few times I’ve felt it, it has seemed to flow much easier.   The very first time it happened, it felt like a huge wave of busy, disoriented energy swept through me, all jumbled, like an anxiety attack…at first I asked my Higher Self if it was a psychic attack and I got the answer “No”.  After meditating on it for a few minutes, I got the word “Torus” and immediately had an understanding of what was happening.  Since it was new, I had no idea what to do, so I took a salt bath to help cleanse the chaotic energy in my field and to try to relax.  Since that day, it gets a little easier to deal with each time it hits me.  It comes and goes with no particular pattern, just maybe once every couple of months.  In the last 5 weeks, I’ve felt it twice.

This last time I felt it was on October 23rd.  I wrote about it in my daily journal :

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I woke up REALLY tired today.  There was a huge X class solar flare that was released yesterday at 8:17pm MT, so I assume it was because of that, but this time, I don’t hear the fluctuating pitch in my right ear.  Usually I hear that ringing in my ear going up and down and it’s pretty loud every time there‘s a solar flare…today I don’t hear it at all…It’s a consistent high pitched hiss, almost to where you can’t hear it at all because it’s so high pitched. 

Around 1:30pm, I got super tired and dizzy so I went to lay down in my bed.  Started to feel the Torus feeling after a few minutes. Turning in on myself…flowing movement… taking lots of deep breaths…This time it was different because it was accompanied by an uncontrollable urge to peel something off of me.  The only way I can describe it, is like the urge to push when you’re giving birth to a baby.  This urge to shed something off of me was uncontrollable and completely overwhelming like the urge to push.  I imagined the Torus turning into the middle of me, and every time it would cycle, I would cut off a layer…except, another layer would immediately replace it and the overwhelming constricted feeling would remain.  I kept cutting and cutting over and over, but the sensation of having to shed would not go away.  The cutting was not helping to shed this awful restricted compacted feeling. 

I remembered the solar flare and asked the Sun for assistance…I  imagined the Golden energy from the Sun penetrating my energy bubble and dissolving this constricting “protective shield” around me, and after about a minute, I started to feel relief.  So I’m thinking that I had a protective layer I had set up for myself that was ready to be shed.  I felt SO firm in my decision, like I was DEMANDING for it to be removed…I felt very strong emotion – GET IT OFF NOW!!!!  It is time for this restricting bubble to be removed, or maybe cocoon?  I WANTED IT GONE…I am tired of it, I’m tired of fighting with it’s restriction, with the help of the Sun, I dissolved it away.   Now I feel like I can breathe again.  My energy is expanding, I can feel it.  

So what was it?  I don’t know, but hopefully I’ll read about it somewhere.  It was a big step whatever it was, but it was also very easy to get rid of with the stern will for it to be GONE.  I feel much better and much more free.  It was time for this to be released, removed.  No more restrictions, no more training wheels…I am free to BE  🙂

So since then, I actually did read about it in a blog from Sarah Gazala “Creating on all dimensions” posted on October 25th.  It seems we both experienced this around the same time…

http://www.sarahgazala.com/1/post/2012/10/chapter-11-creating-on-all-dimensions.html#comments

She writes:

“…So what exactly happened. Lets see, the other day I went in to meditation and removed a barrier I keep up so not to be too overwhelmed from all the energy I feel. As soon as I did that I was struck by a flood of energy to the heart chakra. My heart was taking in all this energy, love energy, and was expanding quickly. I had to take many long and deep breaths to keep the flow going. This was then followed by energy flowing into my crown and root and meeting at the heart. The state I was in was beyond unconditional love at this point. I could feel all three hearts beating quickly too and my core was very warm. I was constantly having to relax or fall deeper into meditation to take more energy in…” 

“…All of a sudden in my puddle of tears and pain I decided to remove the barrier again. This time for good. I hope. And when I did I was surrounded by love. An abundance of love. And I looked to see. And all around me were Angels. So many. flying all around me. And I saw my human and something coming from out of my human. It was me and I was a butterfly coming out of my cocoon. Dancing with the Angels. Angels kissing me. Angels in love with me. And all of us dancing in the love till I flew away, to the universe, to the stars. Released from my cage once and for all never to go down that path again. I was free. For all I ever needed was always within. And I shall always express myself as bright as the stars above for all to feel and see. (I hear East Star) Fear no longer resides here…”

Since this barrier was removed, my physical body feels much better.  All random aches and pains seem to have gone away and I can breathe better.  Other than that, I’m still a bit tired…fatigue is still there.  I keep telling myself, “ just a couple more months and you’ll feel a whole lot better!”… I will continue to hold on to that belief, two more months Elle, just TWO MORE MONTHS  🙂

 

**After writing about this experience, I found a post from Children of the Sun (over a year later).  The post speaks about a restrictive barrier around our energy called the “Morphogenetic Stress Web” and they offer assistance in removing the restrictive web…I wonder if that’s the barrier I removed?  The post can be found here : http://childrenofthesun.org/morphogenetic-stress-web-removal/

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