I meant to post this yesterday, but didn’t get around to it…
Haven’t written in a while because I’ve been at a complete stand still…definitely in a void right now. I realized that nothing about me is familiar anymore. I have no identity…I’ve been cleared like a clean slate. Not sure if it’s uncomfortable because I don’t have anything to compare it to! Everything is gone from my energy field…all preferences are gone, don’t even know what I like or don’t like anymore. Nothing appeals to me like in a “desire” kind of way, like indulging in a favorite food or smelling a favorite scent. I have no addictions anymore or cravings. But it does seem kinda “Blah” and I’m not sure what to do with this yet. I’m sure it’ll get better once I learn how to navigate. I do feel very dizzy still, and fuzzy throughout the day…like I’m not really here.
This seems to feel like I’m being rebuilt…lots of restructuring going on…not physical like feeling the work being done, but on a consciousness level, and so many possibilities are available, I’m just taking my time to choose (I guess?). ..or maybe I won’t even choose, and it’ll all just fall into place? Haven’t felt much physical “work” being done on me, but when I wake up in the morning, I feel a humming energy that is enveloped around my body. When I open my eyes, I can see it…it resembles water, it’s transparent, and kinda looks like this without the blue color:
It’s like I’m immersed in an abyss of nothingness just waiting to be created into something….something to create my whole self….only I’m not choosing anything yet.
I remember reading an article about “The Void” space you go into when you die…I tried to find it, but wasn’t able to track it down…wish I could find it so I could include it in this post. The article said something along the lines of if you can wait and not rush to choose anything right away out of fear, then you would eventually manifest/create the Heavenly realms. It suggested that when we die, most people panic and are in a state of confusion searching for any “white light” to get out of the darkness and stillness…they search for something familiar to them to find comfort because they are uncomfortable and lonely in the darkness and Peacefulness of the void (basically they are searching for something outside of themselves)…but it said that rushing into that will usually pull them into another reincarnation realm and they’ll start the whole process all over again. I strongly resonate with that article. How can you create Heaven within yourself if you’re always looking for something outside of yourself for comfort? Patience and detachment are key. Not searching for anything familiar will allow something new to bloom. So maybe that’s what I’m doing?
A theme that I also seem to be experiencing right now is two extreme polarities cancelling each other out…really can’t put it into words, but there is some mental work being done on me that involves bringing opposites together and neutralizing them…adding to more of the “blank slate” feeling I’ve been having…I feel that positive and empowering affirmations will be the next step once I’m done with this phase, but will have to be patient and wait until this part is completed.
Well, so far manifesting in everyday life is working for me…like surprisingly quick! There were 3 things that I really felt strongly (emotionally) over the past few months that should happen, and they all happened last week. It caught me by surprise and I had to really step back and ask myself “Did I really do that, was it me that manifested that?” It helped to remind me that I really have to monitor my thoughts and use a lot of discipline when it comes to thinking and feeling while in an emotional state…and I have to keep free will in mind, and take other’s paths into consideration. That’s even more of a reason to leave Phoenix and move away from my boyfriend. I’ve postponed the move until March because I’m getting a strong message to stay until then.
People are super nice to me, to the point that it’s really weird and I don’t know how to react. Been feeling a little nudge to get in contact with certain family members again. Just called one of my cousins and he was SO happy to hear from me, it was so refreshing. I feel so Loved… Yes, things are definitely changing on a more positive note. Becoming aware of the power that you have and using it responsibly is a wonderful feeling. I’ve been trusted with something so delicate and so guarded and protected. I vow to use it wisely…for the Highest of Good for all :-).
**After writing this post, I found a Karen Bishop post on Feb. 15 that is very helpful in understanding this phase that some of us may be experiencing at the moment:
**And on Feb. 22nd, I found this post by Maureen Moss:
.** I found an article similar to the one I was referring to above. This one is from Tom Kenyon channeling the Hathors. In it he says:
As with the other two transition states of consciousness, the death realm has a void point, and its dominant features are stillness (silence) and darkness. All possibilities exist within the Void, but no actuality is in existence. It is like the acorn of an oak tree. The oak, the giant tree itself, is potentially within the acorn, but it does not yet exist.
So when you find yourself in the Void, which you will recognize by the fact that you are utterly alone in darkness and utter stillness, know that you are in the central nexus of your creative powers.
What you choose to create next will determine the course of your destiny and what worlds you will inhabit or realms of existence you will reside in. This is a critical juncture.
Many persons frightened by the darkness move to the light prematurely. And what they do not realize is that in their yearning they create the light. A portal opens before them, like a tunnel, and they can move into this tunnel of light, encountering those they have known before, thereby entering back into embodiment or other vibratory realms of existence without having fully understood the consequences. This is certainly one option open to you, and one that is often taken.
Another option, however, is to remain at the void point, residing in the Void itself, becoming aware of your Self as pure consciousness—transcendent to all phenomena.
If you reside in this state of awareness long enough without the need to create something, you will discover your identity as the great I Am. And from this point of awareness you can choose the circumstances of your embodiment. You can choose the worlds you will inhabit or the realms of consciousness where you will reside.
This latter method gives you the greatest opportunities, though it is the most difficult for most people. And the reason for this difficulty has to do with the fact that most humans find it uncomfortable to not have a body. The yearning for a body and the experience of the material world often draws a person from the Void prematurely.
The whole post can be found here: