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Energy Sensations – Update February 9, 2018

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Photo – current Schumann Resonance spikes ~ February 7th – 9th

 

I just wanted to do a quick update…

November and December were so strange for me.  I don’t really want to write about it because I believe that it was the dismantling of something really big.  Although it did not affect me directly, I did witness the (many) people around me completely falling apart…even to the point of an actual suicide and also an unrelated suicide attempt (both happening on the same day).  It’s been bizarre to say the least…  I feel that it has to do with magnetics which are affecting the brain. I’m sure the huge Schumann Resonance fluctuations in the past few months contributed as well.

This area of Bryce Canyon has an amplifying effect to incoming energy and seems to support surges (natural and electrical) which can be intense. The tone in my right ear has been ridiculously loud and fluctuating like crazy.  Sometimes I hear a noise that sounds exactly like a “light saber” from Star Wars. I can hear it and feel it pulsing through me at the same time.  I’ve been shown that the high altitude, along with the energy of this area, will amplify effect on cellular structure.  It somehow penetrates easier/quicker?  That seems to be the message that I’m getting but not sure if I’m interpreting that correctly.

The lights flicker here a lot.  There seem to be power surges when the power will go out on the entire property for a second.  I will have to reset all of the clocks in all of the cabins. This is the slow season, so we’re not using a lot of electricity to cause an overload as opposed to Spring and Summer months.  I just thought it was weird that the natural energy is so “electric” and then we also have power surges with the electricity in the area.

There have also been phases when birds will crash into the cabins. I’ll even be in the cabin sometimes and hear them hit.  I’ll find birds over a period of time and then it will completely stop for a while…

 

Energy Sensations

So recently, I’ve felt something new.  Every single day, I will go into an “in between” trance-like state starting around 5pm.   I’ll get this extreme sleepy-drugged feeling and will not be able to keep my eyes open no matter how hard I fight it.  When I lay down, I’ll very quickly go into this in-between state and start to feel a torus type movement.  I can feel the torus movement in the Diamond Solar Heart area (Solar Plexus, Heart Center and Thymus all blending together creating a torus movement).

When I feel that happen, I will feel the Christed energy generating and pushing outward.  I’m very aware of it while it’s happening, but now while this is happening, I’m noticing that there is a separate torus movement in my head.  It feels like it’s also centering in my 3rd eye/ bridge of my nose area.

When I initially felt the 2 torus movements, it reminded me of a picture that I saw of the Rainbow body.

Rainbow Body

To me, the picture looks like the energy is centering in the middle of the head and also in the chest like 2 different torus movements. I don’t know if that’s what the picture means, but it reminded me of what I’m feeling.  I can understand the Heart area, but why would it center in the head too?  What does that mean?

Also, when I’m in the in-between state, I’ll hear single noises; knocking, clicking, bells, or tones (it varies day to day).  Lately it’s been the knocking noise, but I’ll write more about that in my next post.  This has been happening every single day for a couple of weeks.  When I snap out of it, I will feel completely refreshed like I had slept for several hours…but it’s only been exactly 1 hour each time.

There have been occasions throughout the day, when I am completely aware of my entire body being made up of vibrating molecules.  It’s so weird because it feels like my body is disappearing.  It’s a totally different sensation as opposed to usually feeling like I’m made out of heavy liquid or melting into liquid.

Lately when I’ve been waking up in the morning I’ve been seeing the “turtle shell” shaped energy surrounding me.

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It’s not brightly illuminated like when I see gridlines, but it’s got a very subtle illumination that seems to be a very transparent golden color.  One day when I saw it, I asked what it was, and I got the word “cymatics”.  So I’m guessing that it’s a representation of the tone that’s being emitted.  I’m thinking that when we emit these tones, our field is surrounded with these shapes/symbols.  That’s very interesting to me…I’ll have to do a little research on that.

A couple of times when I’ve slowly woken up in the morning, I saw a quick vision of a dolphin blowing a toroidal ring/bubble toward me.

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The ring comes toward me really fast and by the time it would reach me, I’ll snap out of the vision.  I’ve never had any interaction with dolphins or haven’t really paid attention to them, so I have no idea what that means. I thought it was interesting that it was toroidal since I’ve been feeling the torus sensation lately.

All of my joints have been aching all at the same time.  It’s uncomfortable but not intolerable. I’ve tried so many different things to help with this (essential oils, Bio-Astin, Omega 3’s and Malic Acid supplements, drinking distilled water with lemon, eliminating things in my diet) but nothing has helped.  I’m hoping that this is a phase that will pass.  I’m wondering if it’s due to the energy around here…maybe causing a detox type reaction?

Overall, this has been an extremely active time in this process.  I am constantly feeling so activated as my energy field is always feeling like it’s moving/pulling, melting, vibrating/buzzing or spiraling.

I’m very curious to see where this is going…

 

**I just realized that the last 3 blogs I’ve posted were all on the 9th… 🙂

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Love ❤

 

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Energy Sensations – Update May 5, 2015

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I just have not wanted to write lately…So much has happened in the last few months.

The first major thing that happened was that I moved out of my cousin’s house at the end of February shortly after our uncle died of a heart attack. (My cousin is on my mother’s side of the family, and that’s the side that I’m consciously aware of healing ancestral karma )The death in the family showed my family’s true colors and brought out a flood of emotions…Every time I’d start to write about it, I’d get stressed out, so I’m not going to write about it. I’ll just say that it’s a chapter of my life that has been firmly shut and I’ve said a vow and contract release as to never have to repeat it again.

So I’m living at my Dad’s now. I’m still trying to adjust and although a little difficult, it’s much healthier energetically, so I’m not complaining! That seems to be a theme lately…when I complain about something (I used to complain about how messy my Dad’s house was), the universe will show me that it could be MUCH worse and then I’ll appreciate whatever it was that I was complaining about – lol

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I’ve gotta work on the Gratitude department…

In February I was experiencing what I believe to be timeline slips, or some type of interdimensional crossing of some sort. At first I would get this overwhelming déjà vu type feeling and for some reason, a warmth would flood my body… then a while later I would see other timelines happening right in front of me. It was so bizarre! It looked like a holographic overlay. I didn’t know what was happening but I was able to stay calm and let it pass.

This happened briefly on two or three separate days. I’m not sure if it was because timelines were changing or if it was just a compression (deletion). At this point in the process, I’ve learned to just go with it. There is no more fear and I have full trust that it’s for the highest of good.

For the past 6 months or so, I’ve been seeing different forms of darkness projected in front of me before it leaves (before it’s being transmuted and released). I’ve seen it as a black ball of scribbles, or a black spiked ball, sometimes as a black blob or strange blob with tentacles which actively moves (that one looked weird like a cartoon)…

Miasma1          spiked

Blob               Tentacles

Occasionally I’ve seen similar brown unidentifiable creatures (actively moving), but I have no idea what the difference in color means…

That seems to be something frequent for me…darkness will show itself to me before it departs. It’s a little strange but I feel that it’s part of whatever I’m supposed to do. It’s like it comes to me so that I can guide it out…totally compliant and no resistance…absolutely no fear present.

I don’t mind doing that type of work. There’s a sense of being in control and it doesn’t scare me at all. In the last few months, I’ve also had frequent dreams of performing exorcisms and seem to know exactly what I’m doing in the dreams. Sometimes speaking in another language and forcefully commanding whatever it is to leave. I don’t know if I’m remembering past lives, or if this is merely part of the timeline merge/compression/deletion.

There are many people incarnated now that are doing this work, but not all are consciously aware of it. The message I’m getting is that they’ve requested from a higher perspective to not see it because they don’t want to trigger any fear. I can totally understand that!

**After writing this, I stumbled across an article from Lisa Renee that speaks of clearing shadow body fragments.  In the article she says:

This is a forced purging on planet, and we are the bodies that transmute the density, transit the debris and astral entities, many times through our own bodies. If you have not commanded your space and designated a place for astral releases and entity transits, knowing how to set up a portal in your space will be very helpful now. Sometimes astral entities will see a Indigo lightbody and come towards the light for help. Many times this is experienced as a psychic attack, but as one’s consciousness grows it is realized that this attack is really a call for help. Many people are getting fast tracked because our lightbody expansion is moving faster than our personality has been able to comprehend what is actually transpiring. This is common within the Indigo and Starseed population, so take a deep breath, and take in information at a firm yet fearless place.”

The entire article can be found HERE

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ENERGY SENSATIONS

In the beginning of May, I started to feel a rippling energy in my neck whenever I was in a relaxed state or just before falling asleep. This has REALLY changed as of last night. I first noticed in the evening that my right side felt tingly like it was going numb. I also had small electrical pulses or “snaps” (as I call them) on hands, arms and legs…this lasted for a few hours.

At night as I was falling asleep, I felt a very deep and profound trembling in my core. Then later I felt a rolling rippling energy in my entire head and on the right side of my body (right arm/shoulder, right side of abdomen, entire right leg). I’ve never felt such intensity while still awake (only usually in a lucid dream state). The force of it reminded me of the dream I had of water forcefully shooting up through my shushumna.

This recent experience was so massive that it just took over completely.  I managed to open my eyes briefly (only briefly because I felt like my whole head was liquefied and forcefully moving around) and saw what looked like heat waves rippling in the air.

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It was a pretty awesome experience! I just went with it and let it happen. At times, it felt like ocean waves rolling inside my body. It was really strange…This was definitely the most powerful physical energetic sensation I’ve ever felt over the years. It seems to be getting more physically intense very quickly…

My solar plexus and sacral areas have also had a strange electromagnetic sensation within them for a few days. It’s hard to explain, but they feel very “raw” and sensitive like if they’re open wide and tense. I have no idea what this is. I’ve done clearing, worn my Moldivite and Herkimer necklace, my very protective Nuummite necklace, claimed my space, protection meditations etc…At first I thought it was some sort of drain or psychic attack because it’s so strong, but I don’t think that’s what it is…this is something else new… Hopefully it will pass soon because it’s a bit uncomfortable.

The energies have slowly worked their way up my body throughout the past years. It stayed at the top of my Heart area for many years, quickly went through the throat area (only a few months) and has been in my head for about a year now.

My Crown is super active during this phase…in fact, I’ve been feeling a fluttering right in the middle top of my head for 2 days…it feels like a moth is stuck in my hair and trying to get out. And recently felt something shooting out of the sides of my head. When I focus in on it, I get the image of the halo around the head that looks like this:

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Those spots in the picture are exactly where I’m feeling the sensations.

This seems to be a new stage that I’m going through with lots of new sensations. I guess I was so used to the sensations I’ve felt in the past since the same things happened over and over for years…but now things are definitely changing very rapidly.

It’s exciting to experience something new. When all fear has been cleared and full trust is present, it’s an awesome experience to participate in. I guess this is where I can apply the Gratitude that I’ve been lacking to express in my life…

I’m so grateful to be a part of something so profound and so sacred.

Infinite Love and Gratitude from my Heart

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Diamond Solar Heart ~

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On March 12th, something shifted when I woke up in the morning… I heard 3 loud chimes (kindof like bell ringing tones, but more like someone swept across 3 keys on a xylophone very quickly) and when I heard the sounds; I saw an image in my mind that looked like white sun rays with a light gray background. It kinda looked like this but with light gray instead of the black:

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I wasn’t sure what to make of it, so later I meditated on it and got the message that it was a marker for a new level/phase/initiation. I was a little confused at first, so I asked for a better explanation. I was shown that when I hear the chimes and shown the pictures in my mind, it’s because a new (group) level has been reached. The tones represent an addition to the harmonization of signature tone. The picture is a representation of a new level. This particular picture shown to me is of Diamond Rays? At first I wasn’t sure if I was interpreting that correctly, but that’s what I got. So I did a little research on the internet and it occurred to me that the rays looked similar to other pictures that I found:

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And then I found this picture which made more sense:

Precious Diamond With Rainbow

Ahhh…. So that’s what it means. There’s a large group who has reached the level of Diamond Light Body/Rainbow Body. I was given the message that this will be triggered or beginning phases for this group on or around Spring Equinox/Solar Eclipse. So on March 19th, I woke up in the morning and felt a sensation of warmth coming from my core. It spread outward and felt like it was filling up my body. It would last for a while until I was distracted by outside noise and then the sensation would stop. I’ve felt it before, but never really paid attention to it enough to figure out what it was.

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I decided to focus on it to see if I could make it happen at will, and found that I actually could…When I focused on it, I was shown (and also physically felt) that it was my Solar Plexus and Heart chakras blending or combining together and this was creating an energy that was emanating outward. It has something to do with merging timelines or realities? I’m not sure if I interpreted that correctly? Something more along the lines of zero point, meaning that it’s a merging of HU-man authentic power energy (Solar Plexus) with Divine Love (Heart)…creating some sort of bridge/portal to anchor. The message I got was that the merging of the two created a portal that will anchor the Higher energies… I’m not even going to pretend that I understand any of that stuff -lol   …I’m sure there’s much more to it than my limited interpretation.

It was clearly a very warm energy and I could feel such a blissful comfort from it. When the warmth would emanate outward, I felt like I was expanding and leaving my body…kind of like I was expanding to a different realm. It was an awesome feeling to be able to control it for the first time, since this type of stuff has only happened randomly without my knowing or conscious direction. I was shown that now that I was aware of it, I could create it anytime I wanted. I went online and searched “Solar Heart chakra” to see if I could find anything, but there really wasn’t anything except one post about the merging of the Heart and Solar Plexus.   The author had also experienced the same sensation and called it the “Solar Heart chakra”. The article can be found HERE

**Later after writing about this, I stumbled upon a post from Sandra Walter that she wrote in May 2013 while searching for something else. I was surprised that she had already written about it and she had even posted a video about it. She called it the “Solar Heart center”.  I guess I wasn’t ready for it until now…Her post can be found HERE

Picture from Sandra’s article :

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In her explanation, she describes it as a diamond and this center being between the Heart and High Heart center. She doesn’t mention anything about the Solar Plexus though…. So now this is all coming together…it totally makes sense. I never really understood how I was supposed to create or manifest, and had tried several different techniques. Sometimes things would manifest, and sometimes they wouldn’t. What I did realize is that sometimes I unintentionally manifested stuff when I was in a state of high emotion. But the message that I’m getting from this Solar Heart experience is that this is the tool to consciously manifest and create without having to worry about the high emotion influencing the creation. It is of Christed Light, so lower energies are not even an option in this form of manifestation.

At the moment, the strongest way for me to connect to this merge, is in the half awake/half asleep state. When I wake up in the morning, if I don’t fully let myself wake up, seems to be the best time to play with this. I’ve been doing this for a few days now. I’ll keep playing with it and see if I can bring myself into this state while fully awake.

Love ❤

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Energy Sensations – Update November 17th – 18th, 2013

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November 17, 2013

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For the past couple of days I’ve been feeling what I call “hot spots”. It’s when I feel simultaneous tiny electrical pulses on different parts of my body at the same time. For example, I felt a spot on my right knee at the same exact time as on my left forearm….or I felt it on my right hip at the same exact time as my left shoulder. There’s been a consistent pattern of left and right sides firing up together.

I’ve felt this sensation off and on for the past few years but it seems to be very active in the past two days. In the past I’ve felt it maybe a few times a day but am now feeling it several times an hour. Since it’s been so much more active, it’s given me the chance to really focus on it and figure out a better way to explain it. I used to explain it as a poking sensation, but now as I’m tuning into it, I’m getting the message that it’s an electrical pulse “firing up” sensation. There is some heat to it and it only lasts for a few seconds. When it happens, it lasts for the same exact amount of time on the two simultaneous locations on my body.

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I’m also getting that this is on an etheric level, so maybe it’s activation of smaller nadis? I’ve read that there are something like 72,000 of them, so that’s a lot of nadis to awaken and cleanse. Maybe it’s the pulses firing up through the nadis that have normally been congested or stagnant and are now becoming active causing the discomfort? While I was searching pictures, I found a picture that had the quote “Nadis – the real burning bush”. That makes sense to me. “Firing up”, “electrical pulses”, “burning bush”…. I guess the nadis do look like branches of a bush, don’t they?…Maybe the activated nadis completely “fired up” could be the true meaning of the burning bush in the Bible? I can see where Kundalini Tummo fire would play a part in that…

I’ve also noticed that the liquid light type energy that I feel moving around on my body now has a thicker and slower sensation. I can compare it to feeling like the consistency of warm water in the past, but now feels thick and slow flowing like honey. I know it sounds weird but it actually feels REALLY good. It’s very soothing. It seems to spend a lot of time at my temples and pulling on my lower back.

For the past two days I’ve also been feeling pulling sensations on my Solar Plexus as I’m falling asleep or in a very relaxed state. The energies in and around my body are extremely active right now and have many different things going on at the same time.

I’m seeing lots of tiny grey, bright white and blue sparkles of energy manifesting around me throughout the day. I just walked from my bedroom to the kitchen and I completely walked through something in the middle of the room. I looked back to see what it was, but it was gone. It looked illuminated white and came up to the height of my abdomen.

That loud annoying tone in my right ear is gone and it’s now back to the high pitched hiss sound. I like that sound better because it’s easier to ignore. Sometimes it’s so high pitched that I can barely even notice that it’s there.

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November 18, 2013

Last night I had the “turning in on myself” feeling which I imagine is the Torus movement. When this happens, I tend to feel like I’m losing my breath and I need to relax and breathe deeply. It didn’t last too long, maybe 15 minutes. After that, I had the sensation of air moving through my Root chakra. It feels like I have an actual hole in my body and that air is forcefully moving through it. I usually get that sensation in the Sacral chakra, but this time it’s just the Root. I also noticed an increase in the energy flooding out of my feet, so maybe there’s some heavy grounding or anchoring going on…The Root sensation is still active today.

I realized today on a Spiritual website that someone had a profile picture that looked kind of like the “turtle shell” energy I’ve been seeing :

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I thought that was pretty interesting because this person creates pictures from what they see in visions. Maybe they’re sensing and seeing the same energy that I’m seeing? I wonder what it means or what this energy represents ?

I went to the grocery store earlier and couldn’t help but realize how people are constantly on their i-phones and not paying attention to their surroundings. I’m not exaggerating when I say that every single person I encountered in the store either bumped into me with their cart because they were reading messages on their phones, were at a complete stop and blocking the entire isle while flipping through their phone, or was not paying attention that they were next to checkout because they were too busy texting.  It’s like everyone is in programmed robot or zombie mode. They all seemed to walk slower than normal and were numb to their surroundings.  I saw a guy walk into the middle of the street the other day while he was looking at his phone and he almost got hit by a car…

That reminds me of a photo I found :

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They’re EVERYWHERE and they’re taking over ! – LOL 🙂

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Energy Sensations – Update October 24, 2013

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(The picture above is from the website http://www.universallifetools.com/)

I had a pretty cool lucid dream this morning.  I was shown that I was in the middle of an illuminated 12 pointed star and the star points were coming out of my body.  I’m thinking that it was the 12 pointed lightbody being activated (as explained by Earthkeeper Tyberonn as the Mer-ka-va).  I changed the picture above to pink and lavender tones because that’s how I saw it in my dream…

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But I was also shown how this 12 pointed star lightbody worked in relation to the “13 crystal skulls”.  I was shown that the skulls would be activated by a person/people, not just by the physical 13 crystal skulls coming together.  The activation was going to be by activating the 12 pointed star lightbody and the person/people being “crystalline” was what would act as the 13th crystal skull activation.  From my understanding, it is“Crystalline” fully merged and integrated with Feminine Christ Consciousness aspect (aka  the 13th disciple) as being the key.  I don’t know, but it seems that was the message…It’s a bit confusing and I’ve been having a hard time putting my visions into words lately.

I understood that NOW or “in this now” this could not be accessed by anyone with the “wrong intentions” (like they show in the Indiana Jones movie – lol) because you must attain crystalline (balanced) status to be aligned with it…and we all know how much Light work that will take!  That’s just my limited interpretation of it, but I’m sure there’s much more involved…(**See video below, from Magenta Pixie, at very bottom of this post for update**)

 

I woke up from the dream because my tongue was burning with an electrical flickering sensation.  I’ve had a subtle consistent electrical pulse running through my tongue for a couple of months now and it got so strong during this dream that it startled me awake.

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When I fell back to sleep after I briefly woke up, I had another dream that I was in a car with my best friend (she’s also going through the Ascension process on a very physical level).  We were driving at night and noticed that the dashboard of the car was not lighting up and I couldn’t see the speedometer.  I completely stopped the car and tried driving again, and the dashboard lit up completely that time.  I wasn’t steering the car with my hands though, I was steering with my mind…and the road was moving and curving into the direction that I wanted to go…like the road was fluid and it could move any way I wanted it to.  It was pretty cool to see the road and the middle lines moving and shifting.  When I woke up, I got the idea that the car was also symbolism for the lightbody.  Maybe there’s a large group going through this level of lightbody activation right now? That seems to be the message I’m getting…

**Quite a while after writing about the lucid dream, on February 22, 2014, I got a newsletter email from Earthkeeper Tyberonn.  In the email, he included a video of the Crystal Skull “Sha Na Ra” that was taken on 12-12-12.  The video shows purple/pinkish energy coming out of the top of the skull just like the colors I saw in my dream…Pretty awesome sync 🙂

Video of Sha Na Ra Crystal Skull:


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As I mentioned above, my tongue’s had a pulse of energy running through it on a daily basis.  In the past few days, I’ve also had nerves twitching in various teeth and a strange burning feeling in different places on my teeth, gums and jaw.  I’m assuming it has to do with the energies.  I know El Collie has mentioned feeling like all of her teeth were aching at the same time during her Kundalini experience.  I think it has to do with the energies once they reach your head and upper chakras.  I’ve had a lot of energetic activity on my face, jaw, tongue, upper palate and upper chakras lately.

On Tuesday (October 22nd)  I had one of the worst sinus migraines I’ve had in many years.  I felt like my head was going to explode.  I’m 100% sure that it was my sinuses.  Sometimes when our sinuses get inflamed, it can radiate pain to our teeth since the sinuses sit right on top of the teeth.  It can mimic a full on toothache.  Here’s a picture of a panoramic view x-ray:

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The pink area is where the sinuses are…notice how they sit just above the back teeth.  That’s exactly where my teeth were hurting when I had the sinus headache.  I could feel really heavy pressure downloads in the Crown and 3rd eye area and my Crown was swaying throughout the day, so I’m sure that’s why I got the sinus irritation.  It seems to happen when I get the “heavy” downloads as opposed to the “blissful” ones.

I’ve also had multiple nerves twitching like crazy in my thighs and buttock muscles on both legs for a couple of weeks.  They’re twitching so hard that you can see my skin moving and flinching on my thighs.  It’s so bizarre.  What do my thighs and buttock muscles have to do with this process? Maybe it’s due to meridians? I don’t know… I’ve also noticed that the tone I usually hear in my ears now sounds like a hiss sound.  It’s like it’s so high pitched that it no longer registers as a tone.

Crown downloads, migraines, nerves twitching, tongue pulsing, hissing noises…  I can only imagine what I sound like to the average person…LOL

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**On August 9, 2014, Magenta Pixie posted a video speaking of the Crystal Skull activation…She speaks of the Crystal Skulls around the 8:20 mark…Pretty awesome sync! 🙂
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Love ❤

Energy Sensations – Update April 4, 2013

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I had to post this picture…it’s just too funny :-).  I saw the movie “Life of Pi” and thought it was really good…beautiful visual scenes throughout the entire movie.

It’s been a while since I’ve felt like writing anything.  We went through the Spring Equinox and full moon, but for me, nothing out of the ordinary happened…same old stuff, Crown chakra energies coming in, nerves twitching all over my body, extreme fatigue….blah…I’ve just been resting and it seems like my days all blend together as one never ending day…it’s like I have no sense of time anymore, I forget what day it is, I never know what time it is, and if I take a guess, I’m TOTALLY off…Besides this blog, I  keep a daily journal, so that helps with keeping track of time.

Saturday (March 30th) was interesting though.  I woke up in the morning and was in that half awake half asleep state…I heard a voice tell me “You’ve been baptized by water, next you will be baptized by the Sun (fire)”.  In the dream state I understood what they meant, but now that I think about it, I’m not sure what it means – LOL …the only thing that comes to mind is solar flares maybe?

Lots of reference to the Sun lately…I’ve come to the understanding that the white energy glistening with gold that I’ve seen is the energy of the “White Sun” which is the same as Christ Consciousness, which is the same as Cosmic Consciousness.  It can be difficult to fully understand this when so many different people, so many different points of view or interpretations give different names for basically the same thing.

I went through the same in the beginning of my journey with trying to understand the Merkaba, the Light body, the Rainbow body, the Diamond body which are all the same thing with different names coming from different teachings.   It’s been explained to me that that’s the very reason why it’s so important for me to have my own interpretation from a clear mind without prior teaching in this lifetime. To come into your own mastery, you have to experience and actually feel the realizations within your Heart, your whole being…it’s so much more than just reading it from a book or having someone tell you…you have to experience and integrate it within yourself.

Lately I haven’t been resonating with anything I’ve read on Spiritual websites or blogs. I also noticed that a lot of people hadn’t written much over the last couple of weeks either, so maybe it’s just an overall phase that we’re all going through.  I’m not sure why I feel so disconnected from everything around me, but this seems to be another phase of integration…only this time, it needs to be done without any outward influence, or a more “quiet” and peaceful setting…no distractions.  Whatever it is, it’s very deep and seems to go much deeper than previous phases that I can recall.  I have a feeling that it’s because there is a manifestation aspect of it, but I don’t really understand it, I just “feel” it.

I’ve been doing very well with dealing with my boyfriend and with rude people in public.  This mastering of my emotions thing is going VERY well.  I’ve never been so patient in my entire life.  My boyfriend and I haven’t argued at all because I don’t react to what ever it is he does that would normally upset me.  I’m not just ignoring it, I’m actually really NOT getting upset anymore.  It’s so weird to be so patient and non reactive.  I realized that I even drive speed limit now, and am never in a rush to go anywhere. For me, that is a HUGE change, unbelievable actually !

I remember when I had my first Reiki Tummo attunement in 2008, the Reiki Master said that since he had been doing the Tummo and Heart practice for many years, that he had totally changed and was now very patient…he mentioned that he even drove speed limit…I thought to myself “Oh no, I don’t think this will have that effect on me” because I was from L.A. and drove like a mad woman always in a rush to be somewhere, honking at people and yelling…  But sure enough, here I am, completely changed and feeling so patient with a clear mind.  It’s amazing how much we can change in such a short amount of time.

Symptoms and Energy Sensations

Last week I felt like my Root chakra and Sacral chakra had wind blowing right through them.  It literally felt like I had holes in me and a continuous gust of wind was blowing through me… it was a really weird sensation and I don’t like that one too much.  It lasted for two entire days and then it went away.

Yesterday, I had an electrical pulse running on the left side tip of my nose which felt like a flickering all day long (still feeling it today too)…also a subtle pulse running through my tongue. There was also a nerve twitching on my left ear drum yesterday and it was a pretty annoying tapping noise…symptoms seem to be mostly focused on the left side of my body lately.  My body has been buzzing all day and I feel anxious, but also extremely foggy and tired…also feeling the need to eat small but frequent meals like my body needs more fuel or something.  I’ve been taking lots of naps and then having trouble sleeping at night which seems to be a phase I go through every so often…

I’ve been hearing tones in my room when I wake up in the morning.  It’s been happening quite frequently.  Sometimes they sound like they’re internal (loud in my head) and sometimes they sound like they’re in my bedroom.  I noticed the other night that my bed had a bright magenta aura emanating from it…my sheets are turquoise, so I know it wasn’t a reflection from anything in my room. This happened while I was wide awake and the light was on.   It wasn’t coming from me, because I checked my own aura and it was still bright emerald green as usual…not sure why my bed would have that color around it and why it would be so bright.  It was emanating about 4 inches outward from my bed.

Tonight I’m feeling something on my left side, like someone touching me on my arm…it’s been moving around me for a couple of hours now…and also goosebumps on my scalp…my Crown is very active and swaying, but very slowly.  It feels good and very relaxing.

I haven’t had the energy to pack my stuff to move to California…I’m stalling again…I think it’s because I really don’t want to move to my Dad’s house…ANYWHERE else, and I’d be out of here by now, but I have absolutely nowhere else to go, so I’m stalling.  I was going to write a little rant here about the living conditions over there, but it’s not important.  I’m just going to stay here in Phoenix as long as I can and see what happens. Just take it day by day… I pray that something much better comes up and I’ll have a suitable place to live.  Something’s just telling me to wait a bit longer…No hurries no worries…

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