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The Awakening ~ Part 1

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The Awakening ~

When I first had my Kundalini awakening, I had absolutely NO IDEA what had happened or what I was feeling afterward.  The force of it blew me completely out of my body and I was suddenly in another realm.  I passed through the black void of nothingness  until I saw the essence of the Red Mahakala swirling around in the darkness. It looked like red smoke that formed into the face.

I had to pass through the Mahakala to enter the next realm. In this realm, out of the darkness, a beautiful swirling galaxy appeared before me. The stars seemed to have white and pinkish colors sparkling as the galaxy spiraled in motion (I had never seen the movie “Contact” at this point, but years later when I saw it, it brought tears to my eyes when Jodie Foster saw the Galaxy in the other realm).

I just stared at how profound and beautiful this Galaxy was, until I saw a disembodied face with a tall headpiece (like the Thai Buddha statues) appear before me. It came from the left side of my view.

The face was animated and had a violet/pink color emanating from it and I realized that the face was me!  It stared at me for a while, smiled and winked at me and then I was pulled back into this realm where my physical body was.

Once I came back to my body, all of my chakras were completely blown wide open.  As a result, I was feeling a swaying and tickling sensation on the top of my head (Crown) and in the middle of my chest (Heart Center). I was also seeing symbols floating in the air around me and would begin to see gridlines.  I would spend a lot of time staring at the top of my head, in the mirror, trying to figure out why I could feel it moving, but couldn’t see anything moving lol

Long story short, I eventually got on Google (aka my Guru – lol) and searched “feeling movement on the top of my head” and found information about chakras which led me to the info about Kundalini. Until then, I had no clue what a chakra or Kundalini was and didn’t know (remember) anything about Buddhism.   I did find a lot of stuff that would talk about “Spiritual Emergency” and about some people not being ready for Kundalini and having all sorts of problems.  After extensive research, I decided that the best thing for me to do was to remove as many blocks as I could, and to learn how to work with this force that had completely ripped through my body.

I did a lot of comparison and decided to attend some Reiki Tummo workshops mainly because they worked with the Kundalini energy, removed chakra knots, widened the shushumna and also because they are very focused on strengthening the Heart Center.  I knew I would really need to work on my Heart because I had a lot of childhood trauma and had been in protection-mode for most of my life.

I had been sent to Pennsylvania for a work related 4 month detail when I had my awakening. During this time, I was conducting an investigation on a facility in Reading.  The closest workshop that I found was in Maryland…so within the first month of my awakening, I signed up and took the 3 hour drive to attend the workshop.  I had no idea what I was getting myself into but I felt really good about my decision.

The Attunement (Initiation) ~

The house that the workshop was held at was SO beautiful.  It just felt so mystical with beautiful spiritual artwork, crystals and art pieces from other countries throughout the home.  There was a strong presence of Divine Feminine energy.  When I looked out into the backyard, there was a forest of tall thin aspen trees and everything was white and glistening from the recent snow.  The owner had Husky dogs with white eyes that greeted me at the patio doors as I was staring into the forest in awe.

We all sat in the basement as we listened to Carlos Nakai flute music and were surrounded by the soft scent of sandalwood incense.  They were very respectful and required that everyone be very quiet which made the whole experience feel so sacred. When we had the initial group attunement, I felt a massive amount of Blissful liquid energy forcefully pouring into the top of my head.  It was so strong that it caused my head to move in a circular spiral motion.  When I opened my eyes and looked around the room I could see other people moving in a circular spiral motion too.  There were some advanced practitioners who actually had huge smiles on their faces and had their eyes rolled back into their head as they were spiraling !  I’m not kidding, their eyes were completely white!  They were so overtaken with Bliss from the attunement.

During part of the workshop, in small groups, we would all stand around a person lying on the table, and would all channel energy to the person on the table.  The point and intention of this practice was to open the person’s shushumna and to clear/widen the pathway. As I was channeling the energy through my hands, I felt it start to shoot out of my Heart Center.  It was such a beautiful feeling to have this Divine energy coursing through my Heart.  It felt like a pumping motion as it was pouring out.  I was surprised when one of the instructors came close to my ear and softly whispered “Yes, that’s it…use your Heart”.  It was then that I realized that she could actually see everything that I was feeling.

At times during the workshop, I felt out of place because everyone was so patient and Loving and I wasn’t used to being around people like that.  I was still working in law enforcement and had been pretty hardened by my environment.  I knew that I had a lot of work to do and probably one of the most difficult things that I’ve had to work through was getting over the feeling of not being worthy or not good enough to experience this Divine energy.  I guess growing up around Catholics will do that to you…haha

The Clearing ~

After the class, I took the 3 hour drive back to Pennsylvania.  When I got to my hotel room, I cried the entire night.  The initial cleansing process from such a huge influx of energy was brutal!  Before I ended up falling asleep, I asked ‘God’ why I was chosen to experience this and said that I felt that I wasn’t worthy because I had so much negativity from my life. As I was falling asleep and was in that in-between state, I felt something hug/envelope my body and stroke my face in comfort. It lulled me to sleep.

I remember waking up a few times throughout the night and would see symbols flashing one after another in the air above me.  I was getting some type of download.  Many years later, I saw a video where Lisa Renee called this type of download a “ticker tape” download.  That’s a perfect explanation of what I experienced that night…symbol after symbol flashing one after another for several hours.

Early in the morning when I woke up, I saw a little bright blue orb fluttering around in front of my face.  It had little sparkles coming off of it that looked like pixie dust and it landed on my pillow in front of me as it slowly faded out of sight.

Because of the massive cleansing that I was going through from the attunement, I couldn’t attend the 2nd class that was scheduled the next day.  I ended up staying in bed crying the whole weekend.  I had lots of weird stuff happen during those 2 days in bed going in and out of sleep.  I remember that I had a painting on the wall next to my bed and it was of a lake with a tree next to it, on a sunny day.  One time when I woke from sleep, the painting was of the same lake and tree, only it was winter and snowing!  The symbols continued to download and I continued to feel something stroking my face and arm in comfort.

I rescheduled the 2nd class for a month later, but the only one available was at a totally different location in Pennsylvania.  This class would be with a different group of people.  I’ll write about that experience in another post.

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Love ❤

 

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Energy Sensations – Update February 9, 2018

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Photo – current Schumann Resonance spikes ~ February 7th – 9th

 

I just wanted to do a quick update…

November and December were so strange for me.  I don’t really want to write about it because I believe that it was the dismantling of something really big.  Although it did not affect me directly, I did witness the (many) people around me completely falling apart…even to the point of an actual suicide and also an unrelated suicide attempt (both happening on the same day).  It’s been bizarre to say the least…  I feel that it has to do with magnetics which are affecting the brain. I’m sure the huge Schumann Resonance fluctuations in the past few months contributed as well.

This area of Bryce Canyon has an amplifying effect to incoming energy and seems to support surges (natural and electrical) which can be intense. The tone in my right ear has been ridiculously loud and fluctuating like crazy.  Sometimes I hear a noise that sounds exactly like a “light saber” from Star Wars. I can hear it and feel it pulsing through me at the same time.  I’ve been shown that the high altitude, along with the energy of this area, will amplify effect on cellular structure.  It somehow penetrates easier/quicker?  That seems to be the message that I’m getting but not sure if I’m interpreting that correctly.

The lights flicker here a lot.  There seem to be power surges when the power will go out on the entire property for a second.  I will have to reset all of the clocks in all of the cabins. This is the slow season, so we’re not using a lot of electricity to cause an overload as opposed to Spring and Summer months.  I just thought it was weird that the natural energy is so “electric” and then we also have power surges with the electricity in the area.

There have also been phases when birds will crash into the cabins. I’ll even be in the cabin sometimes and hear them hit.  I’ll find birds over a period of time and then it will completely stop for a while…

 

Energy Sensations

So recently, I’ve felt something new.  Every single day, I will go into an “in between” trance-like state starting around 5pm.   I’ll get this extreme sleepy-drugged feeling and will not be able to keep my eyes open no matter how hard I fight it.  When I lay down, I’ll very quickly go into this in-between state and start to feel a torus type movement.  I can feel the torus movement in the Diamond Solar Heart area (Solar Plexus, Heart Center and Thymus all blending together creating a torus movement).

When I feel that happen, I will feel the Christed energy generating and pushing outward.  I’m very aware of it while it’s happening, but now while this is happening, I’m noticing that there is a separate torus movement in my head.  It feels like it’s also centering in my 3rd eye/ bridge of my nose area.

When I initially felt the 2 torus movements, it reminded me of a picture that I saw of the Rainbow body.

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To me, the picture looks like the energy is centering in the middle of the head and also in the chest like 2 different torus movements. I don’t know if that’s what the picture means, but it reminded me of what I’m feeling.  I can understand the Heart area, but why would it center in the head too?  What does that mean?

Also, when I’m in the in-between state, I’ll hear single noises; knocking, clicking, bells, or tones (it varies day to day).  Lately it’s been the knocking noise, but I’ll write more about that in my next post.  This has been happening every single day for a couple of weeks.  When I snap out of it, I will feel completely refreshed like I had slept for several hours…but it’s only been exactly 1 hour each time.

There have been occasions throughout the day, when I am completely aware of my entire body being made up of vibrating molecules.  It’s so weird because it feels like my body is disappearing.  It’s a totally different sensation as opposed to usually feeling like I’m made out of heavy liquid or melting into liquid.

Lately when I’ve been waking up in the morning I’ve been seeing the “turtle shell” shaped energy surrounding me.

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It’s not brightly illuminated like when I see gridlines, but it’s got a very subtle illumination that seems to be a very transparent golden color.  One day when I saw it, I asked what it was, and I got the word “cymatics”.  So I’m guessing that it’s a representation of the tone that’s being emitted.  I’m thinking that when we emit these tones, our field is surrounded with these shapes/symbols.  That’s very interesting to me…I’ll have to do a little research on that.

A couple of times when I’ve slowly woken up in the morning, I saw a quick vision of a dolphin blowing a toroidal ring/bubble toward me.

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The ring comes toward me really fast and by the time it would reach me, I’ll snap out of the vision.  I’ve never had any interaction with dolphins or haven’t really paid attention to them, so I have no idea what that means. I thought it was interesting that it was toroidal since I’ve been feeling the torus sensation lately.

All of my joints have been aching all at the same time.  It’s uncomfortable but not intolerable. I’ve tried so many different things to help with this (essential oils, Bio-Astin, Omega 3’s and Malic Acid supplements, drinking distilled water with lemon, eliminating things in my diet) but nothing has helped.  I’m hoping that this is a phase that will pass.  I’m wondering if it’s due to the energy around here…maybe causing a detox type reaction?

Overall, this has been an extremely active time in this process.  I am constantly feeling so activated as my energy field is always feeling like it’s moving/pulling, melting, vibrating/buzzing or spiraling.

I’m very curious to see where this is going…

 

**I just realized that the last 3 blogs I’ve posted were all on the 9th… 🙂

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Love ❤

 

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Energy Sensations – Update November 9, 2017

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I just wanted to give an update on my situation before I begin with regular updates again.

Wow…I can’t believe it’s been a year since I’ve written.  It’s been a tough year to say the least.  I’ve been struggling with finding a place to live, a place to call home.  But one thing I’ve learned is that I’m not allowed to go back to any of my old comfort zones.  Every single time I tried to go back to a place I’ve lived in the past (out of desperation) it had a horrible outcome.

In my search for a place to live, I was very fortunate to have found seasonal jobs that provide housing to employees.  This particular job I’m currently at is in Utah right up against Bryce Canyon and about a 1 1/2 hour drive to Zion National Park.  The owners of the Inn are very sweet and appreciative to have me here.  The season ended on October 31st, but they have asked me to stay through the winter and also to continue to work next season.  So now I have a comfortable place to live (my own room and bathroom) for a year!  Yayyyy  🙂

It was very interesting when I was initially driving to get here.  When I was about 20 miles away, driving on hwy 89, I felt a wall of energy hit my face and upper body.  It didn’t hurt me, but it startled me and was forceful enough to break my glasses!  The frame cracked and broke from the impact. I heard and felt it crack at the same time that I felt the wall of energy hit me.  It was so bizarre.  I immediately stopped any fear from creeping in and just kept driving.  I’ve passed by that same area several times since then, and haven’t felt anything like it again.

Since I’ve been here, I’ve been seeing gridlines when I wake up every morning.  Most times it’s the larger gridlines, but occasionally I’ll see the smaller ones.  I have no idea why the size is different.

This area seems to have a lot of electric energy.  Sometimes my face hurts from it.  There are days when I can see a large bolt of electricity come out of my finger and hear a loud cracking noise when I get shocked from touching stuff.  It can be very painful at times.  It’s just random, so it’s not happening everyday (thank goodness!).  My computer speakers also have a weird pulse noise on them when I get close to them.

My fire alarm in my room will act up occasionally and just ring once in the middle of the night…but I do have a history with setting off fire alarms…

There are a lot of mule deer here.  They seem to be very curious with me and will stop and stare instead of running away.  There is a female and two babies that like to come near me a lot.  I got a good picture of her the other day.  She’s very sweet ❤

After having a very chaotic and anxiety-filled year, it’s nice to be here with such peaceful surroundings.  It’s a very small town, so there’s not a whole lot going on.  It takes me an hour and a half just to get to Walmart to buy groceries. There’s a beautiful scenic route I take when I go to Walmart (Hwy 14 through Duck Creek), so I don’t mind the drive at all.  Here are some pictures of the drive:

The night sky is amazing and I can see more stars than I’ve ever seen anywhere before.  I haven’t taken any pictures of the stars, but here’s a picture of Bryce that I found, to give you an idea of what I’m seeing at night:

I’ve been given the message that I need to stay here away from everything for a while.  I feel fully protected by the canyon in my own little world.  This is some sort of “holding space”.  I feel like I’m repeating the same day over and over again with subtle changes…everyday, while going through the motions, it feels like déjà vu.  Overall, this place has been very welcoming and has allowed me to feel very Loved, accepted and appreciated ❤

**Update – On December 15th I saw a post from Maria Bethencourt called “The Transition Between Symphonic Universes” and in it she says:

“The Collapse Of interfered with Timelines has caused Timeline glitches across all matrices As The Heart Collective steps outside of time.  Many feel it is the same day again, a Groundhog Day effect, as they step outside of time and the 4d.  Others feel like they are in an era, like the 80’s, or 70’s.  This is normal. And these time anomalies will stop once the Heart Collective fully manifests their new reality on the new earth. “

I thought that was a pretty awesome confirmation with feeling like I’m repeating the same day over and over again  🙂 The entire post can be found HERE

 

Energy Sensations

I’ve been going through phases of eating A LOT.  At times, it seems that I cannot satisfy my appetite and will eat a ridiculous amount of food.  I’ve also been requiring a lot of sleep, but every once in a while, there will be a night when I’ll wake up every few hours for no reason with an anxious type of feeling.

There has been a lot of neurological activity going on…lots of nerve clusters twitching, pokes and stinging sensations. A weird cluster sensation in the palm of my hands and the middle of my feet that feels like it’s about to cramp up, but doesn’t quite reach that point.  It’s not painful, but it feels like the palm and foot are pulling inward.  Also lots of fizzy meridian sensations in the legs, torso and top of my head.

I have something weird going on with the right side of my body.  I have gout type symptoms in my right middle finger, right elbow and right knee (not very painful, just mostly stiff).  I recently noticed two very small patches of possible eczema on my right forearm and on my right eyelid.  But it’s weird that it’s only on the right side of my body…absolutely nothing on my left.

There has been a lot of Crown activity in the last few months.  As I’m typing this, I’m feeling a small stream of energy shooting out of the right top part of my head and at the same time out of my right knee.

For the past couple of years I’ve had a very strong pulsing sensation in my High Heart area, but I haven’t felt it for about 4 months now. Initially I thought it was my thyroid so I had some medical tests done (blood tests and ultrasound) but they were all normal.   I’m kind of glad that it stopped because it was so strong that it was overwhelming.  Sometimes it affected my breathing and would get extremely uncomfortable.

The Kundalini has been very active and it’s now more of an all-over-the-body feeling as opposed to only working on certain spots. Lately, it’s mostly been the tickling-all-over sensation which is kind of annoying.  I’ve been getting lots of Crown downloads and sometimes feel a weird popping or crackling on the top of my head while it’s swaying.  I have no idea why it’s changed.  In the past, I have felt the popping and crackling sensation in my Heart Center when the Christed energies are activated, but hadn’t ever felt anything like that on my Crown.

Overall, the energy seems to be pretty active now that I’ve found a comfortable place to live and am able to stay centered.

I am very Grateful to be here ❤

Energy Sensations – Update November 21, 2016

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I had a lucid dream this morning…I was standing in front of a lady and it appeared that something was bothering her.  She looked like she was in her mid 30’s and had a very heavy New York accent.   She had a strange look on her face and seemed to be disturbed, so I asked her if everything was okay.

The lady told me that she wasn’t sure if she was okay, because she’s been seeing “strange things” that she couldn’t really describe.  I asked her if they were things that weren’t really there, or indescribable shapes?  Her face lit up and she said “Yes! Exactly”.  I immediately knew that she was seeing colors/geometry/gridlines.

I told her that when I wake up in the morning, I see colors, gridlines and odd looking shapes too.  She became very excited and began trying to describe what she was seeing and during that time, she actually started to see it while she was talking to me….so she was walking around staring upward at the air around her.

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As I was watching her, I could see iridescent pastel colors manifesting around her as she stared all around her in awe….Then I woke up from the dream because I heard something…

As I was waking up, I realized that I was waking up to loud chimes in my mind.  This time it was different than the usual chimes.  I heard low/high, low/high, then low/low/low/high.  Then a minute later, I heard a loud chirp.  I know for sure that it wasn’t outside noise, because I sleep with earplugs that completely block out any noise…and I sleep with a loud air purifier in my room and can’t even hear that with these earplugs.

I have been shown in the past that the chimes were a marker for a new level/phase/ initiation. The tones represent an addition to the harmonization of group signature tone. In the past it’s been 2 or 3 tones (and sometimes a chirp), but this time it was 8 tones.  I have no idea what that means, but it will probably have to do with the lucid dream I was having.

I’ll meditate on it later and see if I can figure it out…

**Update – On December 6th, Sandra Walter posted an update that spoke of the pastel rainbow colors.  Under the headline “Plasma Visions and Bands of Light” she says :Last week during Gatework I had a vision of standing on a beach sending huge sheets of 6D pastel rainbow plasma through my hands into the sky, like a protective barrier. I was told this is preparation work for the Solar influx, and the Pacific has been presenting strongly. ”   The entire update can be found HERE

So that was a pretty cool sync after my lucid dream 🙂

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Over the years, as I was slowly coming into my conscious creation abilities, I noticed that whenever I’m distraught and out of balance (emotionally upset or angry), that bees would come to me.

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They are not angry, but they will calmly land on me and hover around me and will not go away until I leave the area.  I’ve found that over several years, this happens only when I’m upset (mostly outdoors but occasionally in the house too).  One time I was so agitated and annoyed being around my loud Aunt, that a bee appeared in her car when the windows had been closed the whole time!  We were both startled by the bee appearing out of nowhere and on my side of the car !  It’s happened so many times over the years (too many to count).  I’ve just learned to accept that they serve as a reminder that I need to control my emotions and “chill out” a bit before I get too out of balance.  This may happen to other people too, but they may not realize the connection.

There was a time at my (ex)boyfriend’s house when I was so angry, that as I was walking in the hallway under a smoke detector, the alarm went on!  Whenever I’d walk away from the alarm, it would stop, but if I walked under it again, it would start again.  There have also been times that I was angry with my ex and the ceiling above me would start to make loud cracking and shifting noises.  I’ve always experienced things flying off of the shelves or pictures falling off of the walls since childhood.  I wonder if it was just me doing that without realizing it?  As a child, I had always assumed it was a ghost or something outside of myself.

The person that I’m temporarily living with (because I have absolutely nowhere else to go) at the moment is a VERY insensitive individual (I can think of better words to describe him, but I’ll be nice 🙂 ).  I’ll spare the details, but I’ll just say that a couple of days ago he killed a deer in the yard.  He eats them….He shot it from the back door, so I was startled by the booming sound of a shotgun in the house without any warning.

He knows I don’t like hunting and that I Love animals, so without detail, I’ll just say that he thought it would be funny to leave the deer by my car so that I’d have to see it when I left for work.  The way that he did it, while he was taunting me and laughing, was very traumatizing to me and I will never get that image out of my mind for the rest of my life.  He clearly fed off of my reaction and I could see the whole process of his consumptive behavior.  It was a very disturbing thing to witness.  Some people are so broken/fragmented.  I wish I could help them all.  It can be very painful to watch.

As I was going out to my car today to get something out of the trunk, I saw some dried blood on the ground and immediately started to get upset again.  I was just staring at it while in deep thought, debating whether to clean it, to burn some sage, say another prayer etc… and within seconds, a bee quickly came and started hovering around me trying to land on me.  It just serves as a reminder to calm down.  Sometimes I talk to the bees and thank them for reminding me.  It’s a very big responsibility to keep the balance once you come into your power.  But there are beings from the different kingdoms that will lovingly help to remind us that everything will be okay and that we are Loved no matter what.  I am very Grateful

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Energy Sensations

Since I last wrote an update, I’ve been going through different stages of a more aggressive Heart opening.  Lots of movement on the front side of my chest and more recently, the back part of my Heart center has greatly expanded.  There were days where it felt like my entire back was HUGE, completely open and exposed.  It was really bizarre.  I’ve also had the sensation of heavy liquid energy shooting out of my shoulder blades.

I’ve noticed that I’ve felt more Loving and want to help people more.  It’s a very strong urge to assist in any way that I can.  There’s been a huge dismantling of the ego and it seems to come naturally to want to help without any expectations.  There’s also a noticeable increase in forgiving people .  It’s not even an effort anymore, it just comes naturally with majority of people (some people take more effort though –lol).  I don’t have to like them, but I will let go of the cords that I would have had in the past. It’s much easier to let go and to stay neutral.

I’ve had some pineal migraines off and on and also some pain in my right eye.  I’ve also noticed an increase in the feeling of a bubble slowly moving behind my eyes.  It’s a really weird sensation of something physically shifting/oozing behind my eyes.  There’s no pain, just movement.

I’m seeing more sparkles and little lights manifesting around me.  Last night, I saw a little white light fluttering around on my pillow when I was leaning on it.  I saw it more than once throughout the night.  Years ago, after my first Reiki Tummo attunement, I cried for days after, because of the massive initial cleansing process.  The first morning after the attunement and having cried the entire night, I woke up to seeing a little blue orb fluttering in front of me and landing on my pillow beside my face.  It had little sparkles coming off of it like pixie dust as it fluttered around.  This little white light I saw last night reminded me of that.

The most difficult sensation I’ve experienced so far, is shortness of breath.  I initially felt it about 6 months ago and went to the Emergency Room for testing.  They did an EKG for my heart, an MRI with dye contrast for my lungs and also an oxygen saturation test.  Everything came back normal/clear and the doctor couldn’t figure out why I was feeling shortness of breath when everything was normal  **Update – months after writing this, I had another trip to the ER and they found that the bottom of my lungs were starting to collapse, but they did not diagnose the cause.

So I’ve felt it many times since then, but recently, I felt it accompanied by some aggressive Kundalini energy moving in my chest and abdomen.  At that time, it had felt like there was a heavy warm pressure energy in my chest with some movement and also some reaching into my abdomen.  So now I know that this shortness of breath is an energy thing (since with my hypersensitivity, I feel energy movement so physically).

Sometimes it also feels like there’s a tightness in my throat like something is squeezing it.  I’m assuming that has to do with a more aggressive throat opening.  I do not doubt that I have many issues (from childhood) that will make for an uncomfortable complete throat opening.  I’m trying my best to work through it, but really, I’m totally clueless as to what I need to do since nothing has seemed to help much so far.

I’m staying neutral throughout this election crap and have not let it affect me one bit.  Overall, I feel pretty good with an occasional disturbance from “insensitive individuals”, but really this has been a pretty calm phase for me.  And should I get too out of sync, the bees are always there to keep me in line 🙂

And for some reason, listening to this song also helps to stay calm.  The whistling reminds me of celestial sounds I hear sometimes :

Jason Barty – Simple Day

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Love ❤

Energy Sensations – Update October 8, 2014

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My (ex)boyfriend took this photo on the way home from work today…so beautiful…

 

It’s been extremely difficult to put anything into words lately and as a result, I haven’t posted anything. I just wanted to give a brief and quick update on the energies. First of all…WOW…the energies that came in throughout the night and continue to come in at this very moment are SO strong! I had been feeling quite dizzy for the past few days, but today is just off the charts.

I didn’t even bother to watch the Full Moon/Blood Moon/Lunar Eclipse early this morning because mosquito season is crazy out here in Arizona…my blood type is one of their preferences ( O positive blood type) and my poor legs are living proof. So when I went to bed last night, I was too lazy to turn on my night light. I fell asleep in complete darkness which is very rare for me. I like to have a light on so I can see what’s in the room when I hear noises (which is often).  I woke up several times throughout the night and saw illuminated swirling patterns all around me. I could actually see it clearer because I was in the darkened room. It was pretty intense. When I finally woke up early in the morning,  my body was burning up hot… I was feeling disoriented and a bit dehydrated.

The swirling patterns I saw seemed to have gold, orange, and brown colors in them…I had never seen brown before, so I meditated on it and got the message that it was orange and green mixed together (or overlapping) making it look brown. So gold, orange and green with very tiny flecks of indigo/purple here and there… That’s something very new to me…

On October 2nd, I had woken up in the middle of the night and saw beautiful flickering golden symbols all around me. They illuminated the entire room and were shimmering.  When I focused on them, I got the words “fire codes”, so I’m thinking it was the same as fire letters. They were really beautiful to see and gave me a magical feeling. The next day after seeing them, I researched it on the internet and read that the  fire letters are part of the DNA activation.

Also, on October 6th, I attempted to take a short nap (but was unable to completely fall asleep) and when I was in that “in between” state, I was shown something that looked like this:

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It didn’t have the colors though; it was just showing me different tiers or levels of something. I was shown that all of these levels were going to compress or collapse together. Initially, I was worried because anything having to do with compressing or collapsing in the past has been physically painful through my body…  so I asked if it was going to be painful, and I didn’t receive an answer! I guess instead of interpreting this as collapse or compress, I’ll look at it as a gentler “integrate” or “unify” which doesn’t sound so painful (cringe) …I don’t fully understand it though…it’s beyond my scope of human understanding. Maybe I’ll read something about it later…

**On October 14th, Lisa Renee posted an update that speaks of lower mental body compression and also goes into further explanation of fire letters…awesome sync 🙂

Much Gratitude!

http://energeticsynthesis.com/index.php/resource-tools/blog-timeline-shift/2519-defragmentation

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Energy Sensations

I’m currently getting lots of Crown downloads which feels like warm water pouring into the top of my head. Occasionally, I’m also feeling the warm water sensation pouring in at the bridge of my nose which feels kinda strange…it makes my nose feel like it’s distorted or morphing into something else.  There’s also been lots of heavy movement on my face around my eyelids and temples…I can actually feel my eyelashes moving when the energies are on my eyelids. I’ve been having a lot of work being done on me during sleep time and will wake up frequently throughout the night because it’s just too intense. When I wake up, I’m burning hot and my head feels sore.  For the most part, the focus has been on my head and face.

I’ve noticed that sometimes during the day, I’ll see a light overlay of colors which is something new. It’s been different colors, but the most frequent color looks pink. It’s been very hard for me to focus and I feel very dizzy…sometimes it feels like I’m spinning and I’ll have to go lay down for a while. My Heart chakra has opened more and I’ve been feeling a strong tickling sensation in the center of my chest for the past couple of days. I’m also feeling something lovingly stroking my arm throughout the day.

It seems that I need to drink more water lately and will become dehydrated very quickly. Maybe it’s because of the “fire” type energy that’s very active right now? I just read a post by Lisa Renee and she speaks of the fire energy and recent Kundalini symptoms HERE . I just recently discovered Lisa Renee’s Ascension Glossary and it’s helped to answer so many of my questions.  Everything is all coming together…

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I had a flashback memory today of when I was a kid, about 5 yrs old… I remembered going outside and talking to the sky at night time. I knew that I had something important to do, a purpose for being here, but couldn’t figure out what it was. While looking for some type of validation or confirmation that what I was feeling was true, I would ask the sky to tell me, but never received any answers. I imagined that I had special powers, but couldn’t seem to get them to work – lol…I would have never imagined that so many years later, at 36 yrs old, an awakening out-of-body experience would change my life so drastically…and would also answer my childhood question of what that important thing was that I am here to do. In remembering that moment from my childhood, it brought such a feeling of Gratitude and comfort.

**On December 7, 2014, I found a post that relates to my childhood memory of talking to the night sky…awesome sync! ❤  http://www.bob-fickes.com/2014/12/childrens-dreams/

Despite all of the discomfort and physical symptoms happening to my body, I feel so fortunate to be here during this time…to be going through something so awesome, something I could have never imagined to be real…something that I felt and knew within when I was a child.  That just hit me today and it brought such a profound feeling of Love and comfort…so much Gratitude from my Heart ❤

My inner child is very happy in this moment…

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Love ❤

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**When I watched this video, it made me think of the timeline work, compression and defragmentation process that we’re currently going through…such a beautiful video…

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Energy Sensations – Update August 22, 2014

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It’s been quite a while since I’ve written anything…I tried several times, but it just wasn’t flowing…A lot has happened since I last wrote, but I’ll just sum it up.

I went back to Arizona on June 25th and have been back and forth to California. I’ll be back in Arizona probably until October. I found out that my medical insurance is still active in Arizona so I’m going to see some specialists for various “mysterious” health issues that nobody can seem to figure out. It all started after I had received a blood transfusion back in 2012 and has progressively gotten worse since then.  At the moment I’ll just say that my skin is burning without any sign of rash, and nothing will help.

I’ve had numerous tests done; biopsies, blood panel tests, diabetes tests, numerous yeast and bacteria cultures, and I’ve even seen different doctors just for the sake of getting different opinions. It’s sort of bizarre to say the least. It’s shown me how awful our medical system is, and that most doctors I’ve seen, just wanted to drug me up and numb the symptoms with medication instead of trying to find the cause. Any testing I’ve had, was because I begged them to run some tests and I was very persistent. VERY frustrating and very sad…

While in Arizona, I experienced a crazy storm on July 26th. (I wrote about it right after it happened, but didn’t get around to posting it and will back date it and post shortly).

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On the morning of August 17th, I had a strange dream that there was an aurora in the sky, but it had multiple bright rainbow colors in it. I sensed the presence of other beings, even though I didn’t see them, I could sense that they were there. The colors generated an inaudible tone that affected my vibration. What I mean by an inaudible tone, is that I couldn’t hear it with my ears, I just heard and felt it from within. An example would be, for people experiencing Kundalini phenomena, when they hear bells, chimes, booming noises, or chanting that nobody else can hear. In my experience, the sound comes in at the Crown chakra because I can feel it swaying when I hear the inaudible sounds. That’s all I remember from the dream but I know there was much more to it.

Once I woke up from the dream, for the rest of the day, I started getting these realizations and drastic changes in my perspective about things happening in my life. The next day on Aug. 18th while on the 6 hour drive through the desert, back to California, I got “downloads” of information. What I mean by that, is that it’s just instantly in my mind without having previously known or any process to get to this knowing…it’s not there one second, and then it is there the next. In this knowing, I had a huge weight lifted off of me, and I had a complete change in perspective of how I was going to handle the difficulties in my life. The resolutions were just there in an instant and it brought a sense of relief.

I also got some information about what is currently happening for some people on other levels. It was shown to me as many people releasing enough obstacles and being clear enough to begin the next phase of activation. The result of the energy from the obstacles was shown as causing compression that needed to be released. The compression was to be released and “spun off” through spinning whirlwind vortexes. I was shown that the spiraling motion had great importance in this process.

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It was explained to me that the outer reflection of those vortexes was mirrored in higher vibrational human fields as “axiatonal spin points”. Spin points are part of the axiatonal/meridian grid of the body. I understood that once we have reached a certain vibration and are ready to activate the axiatonal grid in alignment (balance), the body will use these spin points to quickly spin out the obstacles (stagnant energy) from our energy field. When this is done on a large scale, (meaning many people around the world, such as it is now) there will be a reflection of this in our outer world which may appear as tornados, monsoon “microbursts”, and hurricane/cyclone type weather. It was all represented by a spiral movement or vortex.  The Earth may also be assisted by Buddhic Columns in the same way as the human spin points.

Once I received this information, I understood why I had experienced this microburst storm in Arizona. It was the final push of activation of my spin points. I was shown that anyone experiencing their changes while consciously connected to this collective group grid (that are currently in this phase), will see it manifested outward and it will feel “personal” to them. They’ll have some sort of deeper realization or inner knowing that this happened as a reflection of themselves.

I realized that I had been feeling these spin points activating in different locations for a while now…especially on my face. I’m guessing they’re slowly activated one by one for a while, and then when you get enough of them activated, it’ll give one big cleansing flush…something needs to force it through to “combust” the activation. The images I received was sort of like a clogged pipe that is slow draining until it gets enough push of water to flush the pipe clean. It was made very clear that the “water and pipe” vision was just used as an example that my mind could understand, but it was actually more of a “fire” type combustion. This seems to be where a large group is at Now.

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For the past couple of months, I’ve had a lot of activity on my body. The most active sensation is when I wake up in the morning and I feel my whole energy field moving, rotating, shifting in such a way that it reminds me of the way a snake moves. It feels like my entire being is twisting and turning kind of like this picture below but maybe more of a rolling motion:

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This sensation feels SO good and when I wake up, I just lay there with my eyes closed for about an hour just so I can feel this sensation as long as I can. It’s so soothing and peaceful like a cellular massage…I have no idea what it is or what stage this pertains to and haven’t read anything about a sensation like this yet.

The next thing that’s really noticeable is the spin points on various parts of my body. The spin points feel like a very small circle of energy about the size of a dime, and it has a sizzling, fizzing type sensation. I’ve felt this in many areas, but the one above my mouth has been active everyday for about two months straight. I have no idea why that one is so active. Also, for the last 2 weeks, my tongue has had a strong electrical type current of energy running through it again. It’s really pulsing pretty hard this time.

On August 2nd I had a bliss episode hit me out of nowhere during the daytime while I was fully awake… I felt like my whole spine was filled with the liquid bliss feeling…it was AWESOME. The only way I can explain it, is that it felt like my entire spine was filled with a liquid euphoric massaging substance that emanates outward. The effect feels better than any substance, drug, or emotion that I’ve ever felt in my entire life. ..there is absolutely nothing to compare it to. I just laid down in my bed and let it take over because I didn’t want it to stop! It lasted for about an hour.

I’ve been feeling a little spacey and “dream-like”…maybe I need to ground more? I’ve been pretty calm despite my chaotic family and my patience has doubled. Overall, this feels like a really nice space to be in although it is not familiar to me. It seems that the integration is a smooth transition at the moment.

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I found a video that strangely reminds me of the movement sensations I’m feeling on my body.  It’s oddly familiar to me when I watch it and seems to sync with the process that my body is currently going through.  These are the type of visuals I get in my mind when I feel the sensations.  It’s amazing how accurate the pulsing and rolling motions are in the video…I’ve even seen the triangles connecting together and creating something in my visions…it’s fascinating to actually see it recreated by someone…Much Gratitude 🙂

The video can be found here:

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Love ❤

Walking in Harmony

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It’s been quite a while since I’ve been able to write anything.  I can’t really explain it, but it’s almost like I wasn’t “allowed” to write anything.  When I’d make an attempt to post an update, I’d get a big “NOT NOW” that would shut me down.  This has been such a deep integration for the last three months that I totally got lost in it…I saw a post from Sandra Walter recently and it was a huge confirmation to what I’ve been going through in these last few months.  The post can be found HERE.

So I finally moved out of my (ex)boyfriend’s house in Phoenix, Arizona. On March 1st,  I made a trip to California with most of the big stuff and then officially left Arizona for good on April 19th (the day before Easter).  I did realize that I left a few odds and ends after I moved out, so I recently took a brief trip back to Arizona to pick it up.  While I was in Arizona, we took a trip to Sedona (which I have written about below).

So now I’m living in Coto de Caza, California which is also known as “Orange County”.  It’s very close to Laguna Beach.  It’s SO beautiful here and the weather is perfect.  I have this serene feeling of freedom living here with my cousin.

But enough about that, I’ll get into the energetic transformation that is currently taking place…

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So the last three months have been INTENSE to say the least.  Kundalini is kicking my ass – LOL   I’m definitely not the same as I was three months ago…my body has dramatically changed and I can feel the different rewiring that has taken effect.  There’s been a stream of energy pouring in only on the right side of my Crown chakra every day for the past couple of months.  I wonder why it’s just in that same spot?  My energy is alive and constantly moving around adjusting throughout the day.  There seem to be many embodiments residing within me.

The next thing that I’ve realized is that energy on my lower legs (calves) has dramatically changed.  I’m not sure if an experience that I had in Sedona had anything to do with it, but on my recent last trip back to Arizona to pick up the rest of my stuff, we decided to visit Sedona.  It was on May 24th around the time that there were forest fires close to the area.  I wanted to go so that I could say some prayers for rain and protection for Sedona.

While we were there, we stopped at a little outdoor vendor sale with tents.  When I passed by one of the vendors, a wall of energy forcefully pulled my energy downward.  I’ve never felt anything like it, it was the most powerful energetic grounding sensation that I’ve ever felt so far.  I was totally shocked by this and walked back to the vendor to see what they were selling.  It was a booth for jewelry that claims to help ground your energy!  Well, I can definitely say that it REALLY works since I felt it even before I knew what the product was! I didn’t physically touch any of the jewelry, so the profound effect it had on my energy was probably from all of the jewelry combined in a small space…combined with the energies in Sedona, it created some sort of vortex.

My (ex)boyfriend wanted to buy some of the jewelry for himself since I had felt such a strong energy coming from it.  As I was standing there waiting for him to browse, my energy continued to forcefully pull downward…after a while, I felt something reaching into my root/sacral chakra areas and it started “working” on me.  I had to spread my feet apart and stand in a more stable position as this forceful pulling and “work” was being done on me in front of everyone.  It was so funny to have this all going on while everyone around me was totally clueless as to what was happening.   I just stood there quietly laughing while nobody noticed.  After we left, my lower back slightly ached on the right side…the only other time my back ached like that, in the same exact spot, was when I got my Reiki Tummo attunements.  I must have had a huge flush of energy flowing through me to trigger that same effect.

So since that experience in Sedona, I am now frequently feeling this strange buzzy energy whipping around my lower legs.  It’s almost as if some additional anchoring channels were opened or widened in that area.  The next night energy was strongly pouring into my feet (stronger than ever before) accompanied by the sensation of an energy enveloping the outside of my calves (emanating into my legs from the outside).  The outer sensation felt very electromagnetic.  A few days later, I realized that each time my foot hit the ground while walking, my leg would vibrate, but only when the foot hits the ground.  It’s so bizarre…it happens every single time I walk now, so I decided to meditate on it to see if I got any information…

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While in meditation, I got a vision of a tuning fork.  The message I received was that my lower leg bones were acting as a tuning fork?  Huh?  That sounds so silly, but that’s what I got…When my feet hit the ground while walking, it strikes my bones and they vibrate like a tuning fork causing some type of energy balancing effect.  I had to laugh when I initially got the message, because it just really sounds “out there” – LOL  But then I realized that we are here to bring in new codes, anchoring in new vibrations and tones…so why couldn’t it be true?  If I believe it’s true, then I agree to create it, and then it will become my reality.

**On September 21, 2014, I stumbled upon a page in Lisa Renee’s Ascension Glossary  (while researching “bone marrow” on the internet) and it was a total confirmation to the information that I was receiving…WOW…The page can be found here:

http://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Law_of_Resonance 

 

Later in the evening, after receiving this vision, I saw a picture of Egyptian hieroglyphs on television, and it showed the Egyptian god who has some type of tuning fork looking thing on his head…I’m not sure if it is an actual tuning fork on his head, but it prompted me to start searching for stuff on the internet.

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Then I searched “Egyptian tuning fork” and saw pictures of hieroglyphs with two tuning forks passing energy to each other :

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I also found this on the crystalinks site:

“Discoveries emerging from Egypt, describe the existence of a world wide pyramid temple system in prehistory, mounted like antennae on key energy meridians, which were employed by ancient priest-scientists as harmonic tuning forks to stabilize the tectonic plates of the planet’s cataclysmic geology. From the mother tongue word Jedaiah, meaning ‘The Way of the Word’ or ‘The Power of the Word’, the ancient Jedai priests used the Language of Light to tune the planet like a giant harmonic bell. Much is being rediscovered in the last days of this time cycle.”  The whole article can be found HERE.

After finding many connections, it reminded me that I had awakened in the morning on March 10th and saw an illuminated pattern surrounding me.  It was difficult to see with my eyes open, but was very clear when I closed my eyes.  It looked like many strands of DNA that were all activated and moving at the same time.  The only picture that I could find that kinda looked like it was this one:

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The strands didn’t have the lines in between them though, and the strands were all much closer together. Their movement seemed to generate a tone.  I got the idea that they were all dancing or in sync with each other.  The words that came to mind while witnessing this were “harmony” and “harmonics”…and when I looked up the word “harmonic” on the internet, I found this photo :

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So I’m thinking maybe I wasn’t seeing DNA, but was actually seeing harmonics in action.  Then to further add to the syncs, I began reading lots of posts from various sources that are speaking about harmonics.  One of the posts was by Earthkeeper Tyberonn who posted information about a “Portal of Harmony” on February 2nd which can be found HERE.  and on April 11th about the “Harmonic Trigger” which he states, began on the Spring Equinox March 20th and would continue until Summer Solstice June 21st which can be found HERE.  I’m now seeing the word “harmony” everywhere…

Maybe actual people are being “harmonically triggered” during this time and their bodies are walking tuning forks?  Hmmm…that gives me something to think about…

 

“The search for meaning is really the search for the lost chord. When the lost chord is discovered by humankind, the discord in the world will be healed and the symphony of the universe will come into complete harmony with itself.” ~John O’Donohue

 

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Love ❤

 

 

**After writing this post, I found a post on July 8th that speaks of harmonics and our spine being a tuning fork…Wow! Such an awesome sync to find that!  I very strongly resonated with what she wrote and got very emotional while reading it for some reason…  The post can be found here: http://judithkusel.wordpress.com/2014/07/07/the-awakening-deep-within/

 

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