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Energy Sensations – Update June 28th, 2020

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Artwork: Orange seeds – by Jo Jayson 2008 https://www.etsy.com/shop/JoJaysonGoddessArt

When you feel you are being moved by the creative spirit, you are in fact being moved by the Divine Feminine” – Teri Degler

 

I decided that it was time to leave the campsite in Williams, AZ.  The high elevation (7000 feet) was very hard on my physical body and after 3 months of being there, I started to feel very uncomfortable.  For whatever reason, high elevations affect my kidneys and less oxygen saturation caused severe fatigue and dizziness.  There were other reasons why I decided to leave, but not feeling well everyday was the most important.

I had been saving money so that I can move out of the U.S. mainland, but with COVID-19, that probably won’t happen anytime soon.  I just accepted that I’m gonna be here for a while and decided that the best thing to do at the moment, was to move back to Phoenix.  My former boss hired me back right away and has lots of work for me to do, so I’ve been keeping busy. There seems to be a harmony there that we didn’t have before.

While I was in Williams, I made friends with a cute little squirrel :

 

It took a couple of days to get her to trust me, but she ended up following me around throughout the day.  Sometimes she would jump on the chair right next to me.  I imagine there is not much to eat out in the desert area that we were at, so she really appreciated my snacks

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I felt a deep connection with nature while I was in Williams.  Sometimes bees would come to me and ask me for a drink of water. Rabbits would come right up to my feet.  The Ravens would copy the clicking noises I’d make to them.  I saw a lot of bald eagles and big beautiful hawks in the area. Overall, it was a nice break from all of the chaos that was going on in the cities around me.  I will miss Williams and the natural flow I experienced while in nature.

Energy Sensations

Last week was pretty interesting…

~ Meridians continue to activate.  On June 23rd, I experienced a sensation that felt like an instrument was being inserted into my right foot.  It was a little painful and would cause my foot to jerk.  I would immediately feel energy flow super fast from the point on my foot, all the way up the right side of my body and then it would stay at the right side of my face buzzing and churning.  It continued to do that for hours, shooting straight up the right side of my body.  I have no idea what the purpose of that was…

~ I suspect that the magnetics are having some large fluctuations again. On June 24th, I was cleaning a vacation rental and when I had just walked into the house, a bird crashed into the window that I was facing and then about 5 seconds later, another bird crashed into the window behind me! In past experience, when there are large fluctuations in magnetics, I have had birds crashing into the house that I’m in, so it happens periodically.

~ On June 25th, I was having trouble sleeping, so I decided to take 2 dropperfuls of High Potency Full Spectrum CBD Oil (instead of the recommended one dropperful).  That was definitely too much, because about an hour later, I got an extremely aggressive and uncomfortable reaction.  I started to get surges of energy in my abdomen that felt like an adrenaline rush exploding outward and it would roll upward through my body in strong pulses that felt like extremely strong chills. It felt like it was completely taking over my body and I had absolutely no control over it.

I started to very aggressively shake with tremors and my teeth were chattering uncontrollably.  After a while, I took some Benadryl to calm down a bit and about an hour later, noticed that when I became calm, I could tune into what was happening more clearly.  I realized that this had somehow activated the Torus sensation and I could feel it churning very aggressively. This all happened continuously for 4 hours until the Benadryl put me to sleep.

I’m not sure why the high dosage of CBD oil would activate the Torus sensation, but it did.  This felt like it was Kundalini related.  It was not the pleasant slow movement that I had felt with the Torus before, it was extremely overwhelming this time. This somehow also blew open my Sacral Chakra area, which I had been having issues with, and now I’m feeling more clear.  Although I’m afraid to go through this aggressive uncomfortable experience again, I’m very Grateful for what it has done for me.  I have an inner knowing that this has somehow “reset” something in my body and I feel very different now.

~I’ve been waking up in the middle of the night hearing something that sounds like a light saber from Star Wars. It’s like the fluctuating humming sound when it’s waved around:

When I hear it, I can actually feel my eardrums vibrating in sync with the fluctuations, so I’m wondering if the sound is internal and coming from my own energy?  I’ve heard it off and on for a few years now.    I’m also hearing sounds come from beneath me, so I’m guessing it’s coming from underground.  There seems to be a lot of activity and movement underground lately.

For myself, things are not changing, they have already COMPLETELY changed…it’s just that I haven’t caught up with it yet.  Maybe I’ve been too busy to tune into it?  I’ll have 3 days off from work this week, which will give me plenty of time to unplug and have some “Now” time.  I’m thinking a visit to Sedona will provide some insight 🙂

Many Blessings

~Elle

 

 

 

 

 

 

Energy Sensations – Update December 16, 2019

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Things have been a little strange lately.  I’m definitely at a choicepoint right now which can feel like a void.  Usually when this happens, I feel very out of body and floaty most of the time.  I noticed today, while out in public, that I didn’t really feel like I was present…I felt like I was in a dream and everything seemed foggy.

I started a new job about a month ago and I like it a lot.  I’m working as an Incident Response Analyst reviewing documents and emails from companies that have been hacked.  It’s only a temporary job which will allow me to save money until the end of January and then I’m moving somewhere far far away 🙂

I was able to go to Sedona on November 11th and had a beautiful day with perfect weather.  There was a different energy there compared to other times. While meditating, I saw a pattern that at first thought was the flower of life, but when I tuned into it more, I realized it was a pattern that looks like the top view of a torus.  It had a red hue to it. If I opened my eyes and then closed them again, I’d continue to see the pattern.

I also got a lot of red energy in pictures which was something new.

I was gonna go to Bell Rock again on December 12th, but unfortunately, I had to work on that day 😦  I guess it really doesn’t matter where you are, because (etheric) work was still being done on my body while I was sitting at my desk!  It seems so strange to sit in a room full of people while something is reaching into my back, adjusting the side of my face and while receiving liquid Bliss Crown downloads! At times it felt like my face was turning into liquid… I guess I’m getting used to it though.  

There has been a lot of movement in my bones and bone marrow lately.  It can be painful at times, but mostly just slow vibrating movement and sometimes it feels like there are pops/cracks/pings inside my bones.  Sometimes it feels like pinched nerve pain or stabbing pain in the bone. I know that it’s etheric because it’s always accompanied by a static electromagnetic sensation on my skin near the area that’s feeling the sensation. The static energy whips around really fast and feels like something hovering over different areas.

There have been times when it feels like someone is taking a small instrument and scraping out the bone marrow from the middle of my bone (that one REALLY hurts but usually only lasts for a minute or so ). It’s very difficult to explain and I know that it sounds weird.  Usually this bone activity will only last for two days and then it will stop, but this time, it started on December 9th and it’s still happening every day since then. It’s never lasted this long before.                                                  

Overall, there has been a lot of activity and many changes taking place. After a recent soulmate experience that didn’t go very well, I have awakened to a new level of self empowerment and loyalty to self.  

The “Claddagh” symbol  and the “Love, Loyalty, Friendship” that it represents played a significant role in many of our lifetimes together as did Celtic beliefs.  It was very difficult to release this person, probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to go through because it was so very deeply connected with the Heart.  It did help to reveal the many barriers that I had within the Heart and somehow brought me closer to myself. I am very Grateful for all of the beautiful past life memories that I was able to recall with this person.  It showed me how magical life can be and has awakened me to all of the possibilities of creating that level of Love and happiness in my life now. Just meeting her in this lifetime has totally and completely changed everything for me. I am very Grateful for having met her and pray that our brief reuniting has somehow helped her as much as she has unknowingly helped me.  Even though she is totally unaware and asleep (spiritually), I imagine that our brief reuniting will be a catalyst for her as well… 

I can sense that 2020 is going to hit the ground running and I’m preparing to move somewhere more in alignment with what I’d like to create.  Something is telling me to get out of the U.S. mainland. I will do everything I can to make that happen. As of now, it looks like I’ll make that move in February 2020.

Energy Sensations

Tummo Fire energy has been very active.  I’ve been waking up in the middle of the night steaming hot!  I feel like Keanu Reeves in the movie Constantine when he comes back from a trip through hell and you can see the heat coming out of his body – lol

I’m seeing a bright horizontal indigo blue streak in front of me quite frequently.  I’ll even see it illuminated while I’m in the dark. I guess it’s something in my aura because it’s always in the same place.

The right side of my face has been repairing on a grid level.  I had a past life memory earlier this year of being burned at the stake and in the memory, the right side of my face was burned very badly.  Immediately after the vision and ever since then, I’ve periodically felt movement on that side of my face, sometimes numbness, buzzing and electrical pulses and feeling something reaching into my face as if it’s being repaired.  

Lots of movement in bone and marrow.  There’s also static electromagnetic sensation in muscle lately, which is something new for me.  I sense that there’s something neurological going on as well because of the way the etheric activity feels…lots of rewiring…

My body is releasing toxins and have been breaking out with blemishes on my face which is not normal for me.  When the breakouts occur, my joints and all of my teeth hurt all at the same time. Nerves will twitch in multiple teeth simultaneously.  It got so bad last week, that I went to the dentist and had x-rays done on all of my teeth. The dentist said he couldn’t find anything wrong and the pain went away the next day…but this happens periodically.

Have been really tired and have trouble keeping my eyes open throughout the day.  I am unable to take a nap when I do get the chance to lay down. I’ll just go into a trance-like state for a couple of hours while the Kundalini moves around, but I’m unable to fall asleep.

When I get a new insight, usually within the week, lots of people will start writing about it and posting stuff on facebook or instagram with the same message.  I guess we are all tapping into the same collective. It’s pretty awesome to see this happen so frequently. It gives me a sense of unity here on earth unlike any other I’ve ever felt while going through the motions of everyday life.  It’s comforting to see that things are actually starting to change…like REALLY change to the point that we can actually see and feel the results.  

For the first time since my awakening began, I am excited to move forward…to create a life that I’ve always dreamed of but didn’t have the belief in my ability to do it.  It seemed so complicated before, and then as if overnight, I just woke up one day and had the complete knowing and acknowledgment of my ability. The magic has always been there, it was just a matter of believing in myself. 

When we step into this power, into this self Love and empowerment within the Heart, we will emit a frequency, a harmonic that will change/transform everything around us (think Law of Resonance)

This is where Unity ignites…the Golden Fire of transformation.

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True self Love and loyalty-to-self will change your life … Let the magic begin

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The Awakening ~ Part 1

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The Awakening ~

When I first had my Kundalini awakening, I had absolutely NO IDEA what had happened or what I was feeling afterward.  The force of it blew me completely out of my body and I was suddenly in another realm.  I passed through the black void of nothingness  until I saw the essence of the Red Mahakala swirling around in the darkness. It looked like red smoke that formed into the face.

I had to pass through the Mahakala to enter the next realm. In this realm, out of the darkness, a beautiful swirling galaxy appeared before me. The stars seemed to have white and pinkish colors sparkling as the galaxy spiraled in motion (I had never seen the movie “Contact” at this point, but years later when I saw it, it brought tears to my eyes when Jodie Foster saw the Galaxy in the other realm).

I just stared at how profound and beautiful this Galaxy was, until I saw a disembodied face with a tall headpiece (like the Thai Buddha statues) appear before me. It came from the left side of my view.

The face was animated and had a violet/pink color emanating from it and I realized that the face was me!  It stared at me for a while, smiled and winked at me and then I was pulled back into this realm where my physical body was.

Once I came back to my body, all of my chakras were completely blown wide open.  As a result, I was feeling a swaying and tickling sensation on the top of my head (Crown) and in the middle of my chest (Heart Center). I was also seeing symbols floating in the air around me and would begin to see gridlines.  I would spend a lot of time staring at the top of my head, in the mirror, trying to figure out why I could feel it moving, but couldn’t see anything moving lol

Long story short, I eventually got on Google (aka my Guru – lol) and searched “feeling movement on the top of my head” and found information about chakras which led me to the info about Kundalini. Until then, I had no clue what a chakra or Kundalini was and didn’t know (remember) anything about Buddhism.   I did find a lot of stuff that would talk about “Spiritual Emergency” and about some people not being ready for Kundalini and having all sorts of problems.  After extensive research, I decided that the best thing for me to do was to remove as many blocks as I could, and to learn how to work with this force that had completely ripped through my body.

I did a lot of comparison and decided to attend some Reiki Tummo workshops mainly because they worked with the Kundalini energy, removed chakra knots, widened the shushumna and also because they are very focused on strengthening the Heart Center.  I knew I would really need to work on my Heart because I had a lot of childhood trauma and had been in protection-mode for most of my life.

I had been sent to Pennsylvania for a work related 4 month detail when I had my awakening. During this time, I was conducting an investigation on a facility in Reading.  The closest workshop that I found was in Maryland…so within the first month of my awakening, I signed up and took the 3 hour drive to attend the workshop.  I had no idea what I was getting myself into but I felt really good about my decision.

The Attunement (Initiation) ~

The house that the workshop was held at was SO beautiful.  It just felt so mystical with beautiful spiritual artwork, crystals and art pieces from other countries throughout the home.  There was a strong presence of Divine Feminine energy.  When I looked out into the backyard, there was a forest of tall thin aspen trees and everything was white and glistening from the recent snow.  The owner had Husky dogs with white eyes that greeted me at the patio doors as I was staring into the forest in awe.

We all sat in the basement as we listened to Carlos Nakai flute music and were surrounded by the soft scent of sandalwood incense.  They were very respectful and required that everyone be very quiet which made the whole experience feel so sacred. When we had the initial group attunement, I felt a massive amount of Blissful liquid energy forcefully pouring into the top of my head.  It was so strong that it caused my head to move in a circular spiral motion.  When I opened my eyes and looked around the room I could see other people moving in a circular spiral motion too.  There were some advanced practitioners who actually had huge smiles on their faces and had their eyes rolled back into their head as they were spiraling !  I’m not kidding, their eyes were completely white!  They were so overtaken with Bliss from the attunement.

During part of the workshop, in small groups, we would all stand around a person lying on the table, and would all channel energy to the person on the table.  The point and intention of this practice was to open the person’s shushumna and to clear/widen the pathway. As I was channeling the energy through my hands, I felt it start to shoot out of my Heart Center.  It was such a beautiful feeling to have this Divine energy coursing through my Heart.  It felt like a pumping motion as it was pouring out.  I was surprised when one of the instructors came close to my ear and softly whispered “Yes, that’s it…use your Heart”.  It was then that I realized that she could actually see everything that I was feeling.

At times during the workshop, I felt out of place because everyone was so patient and Loving and I wasn’t used to being around people like that.  I was still working in law enforcement and had been pretty hardened by my environment.  I knew that I had a lot of work to do and probably one of the most difficult things that I’ve had to work through was getting over the feeling of not being worthy or not good enough to experience this Divine energy.  I guess growing up around Catholics will do that to you…haha

The Clearing ~

After the class, I took the 3 hour drive back to Pennsylvania.  When I got to my hotel room, I cried the entire night.  The initial cleansing process from such a huge influx of energy was brutal!  Before I ended up falling asleep, I asked ‘God’ why I was chosen to experience this and said that I felt that I wasn’t worthy because I had so much negativity from my life. As I was falling asleep and was in that in-between state, I felt something hug/envelope my body and stroke my face in comfort. It lulled me to sleep.

I remember waking up a few times throughout the night and would see symbols flashing one after another in the air above me.  I was getting some type of download.  Many years later, I saw a video where Lisa Renee called this type of download a “ticker tape” download.  That’s a perfect explanation of what I experienced that night…symbol after symbol flashing one after another for several hours.

Early in the morning when I woke up, I saw a little bright blue orb fluttering around in front of my face.  It had little sparkles coming off of it that looked like pixie dust and it landed on my pillow in front of me as it slowly faded out of sight.

Because of the massive cleansing that I was going through from the attunement, I couldn’t attend the 2nd class that was scheduled the next day.  I ended up staying in bed crying the whole weekend.  I had lots of weird stuff happen during those 2 days in bed going in and out of sleep.  I remember that I had a painting on the wall next to my bed and it was of a lake with a tree next to it, on a sunny day.  One time when I woke from sleep, the painting was of the same lake and tree, only it was winter and snowing!  The symbols continued to download and I continued to feel something stroking my face and arm in comfort.

I rescheduled the 2nd class for a month later, but the only one available was at a totally different location in Pennsylvania.  This class would be with a different group of people.  I’ll write about that experience in another post.

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Love ❤

 

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Energy Sensations – Update February 9, 2018

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Photo – current Schumann Resonance spikes ~ February 7th – 9th

 

I just wanted to do a quick update…

November and December were so strange for me.  I don’t really want to write about it because I believe that it was the dismantling of something really big.  Although it did not affect me directly, I did witness the (many) people around me completely falling apart…even to the point of an actual suicide and also an unrelated suicide attempt (both happening on the same day).  It’s been bizarre to say the least…  I feel that it has to do with magnetics which are affecting the brain. I’m sure the huge Schumann Resonance fluctuations in the past few months contributed as well.

This area of Bryce Canyon has an amplifying effect to incoming energy and seems to support surges (natural and electrical) which can be intense. The tone in my right ear has been ridiculously loud and fluctuating like crazy.  Sometimes I hear a noise that sounds exactly like a “light saber” from Star Wars. I can hear it and feel it pulsing through me at the same time.  I’ve been shown that the high altitude, along with the energy of this area, will amplify effect on cellular structure.  It somehow penetrates easier/quicker?  That seems to be the message that I’m getting but not sure if I’m interpreting that correctly.

The lights flicker here a lot.  There seem to be power surges when the power will go out on the entire property for a second.  I will have to reset all of the clocks in all of the cabins. This is the slow season, so we’re not using a lot of electricity to cause an overload as opposed to Spring and Summer months.  I just thought it was weird that the natural energy is so “electric” and then we also have power surges with the electricity in the area.

There have also been phases when birds will crash into the cabins. I’ll even be in the cabin sometimes and hear them hit.  I’ll find birds over a period of time and then it will completely stop for a while…

 

Energy Sensations

So recently, I’ve felt something new.  Every single day, I will go into an “in between” trance-like state starting around 5pm.   I’ll get this extreme sleepy-drugged feeling and will not be able to keep my eyes open no matter how hard I fight it.  When I lay down, I’ll very quickly go into this in-between state and start to feel a torus type movement.  I can feel the torus movement in the Diamond Solar Heart area (Solar Plexus, Heart Center and Thymus all blending together creating a torus movement).

When I feel that happen, I will feel the Christed energy generating and pushing outward.  I’m very aware of it while it’s happening, but now while this is happening, I’m noticing that there is a separate torus movement in my head.  It feels like it’s also centering in my 3rd eye/ bridge of my nose area.

When I initially felt the 2 torus movements, it reminded me of a picture that I saw of the Rainbow body.

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To me, the picture looks like the energy is centering in the middle of the head and also in the chest like 2 different torus movements. I don’t know if that’s what the picture means, but it reminded me of what I’m feeling.  I can understand the Heart area, but why would it center in the head too?  What does that mean?

Also, when I’m in the in-between state, I’ll hear single noises; knocking, clicking, bells, or tones (it varies day to day).  Lately it’s been the knocking noise, but I’ll write more about that in my next post.  This has been happening every single day for a couple of weeks.  When I snap out of it, I will feel completely refreshed like I had slept for several hours…but it’s only been exactly 1 hour each time.

There have been occasions throughout the day, when I am completely aware of my entire body being made up of vibrating molecules.  It’s so weird because it feels like my body is disappearing.  It’s a totally different sensation as opposed to usually feeling like I’m made out of heavy liquid or melting into liquid.

Lately when I’ve been waking up in the morning I’ve been seeing the “turtle shell” shaped energy surrounding me.

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It’s not brightly illuminated like when I see gridlines, but it’s got a very subtle illumination that seems to be a very transparent golden color.  One day when I saw it, I asked what it was, and I got the word “cymatics”.  So I’m guessing that it’s a representation of the tone that’s being emitted.  I’m thinking that when we emit these tones, our field is surrounded with these shapes/symbols.  That’s very interesting to me…I’ll have to do a little research on that.

A couple of times when I’ve slowly woken up in the morning, I saw a quick vision of a dolphin blowing a toroidal ring/bubble toward me.

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The ring comes toward me really fast and by the time it would reach me, I’ll snap out of the vision.  I’ve never had any interaction with dolphins or haven’t really paid attention to them, so I have no idea what that means. I thought it was interesting that it was toroidal since I’ve been feeling the torus sensation lately.

All of my joints have been aching all at the same time.  It’s uncomfortable but not intolerable. I’ve tried so many different things to help with this (essential oils, Bio-Astin, Omega 3’s and Malic Acid supplements, drinking distilled water with lemon, eliminating things in my diet) but nothing has helped.  I’m hoping that this is a phase that will pass.  I’m wondering if it’s due to the energy around here…maybe causing a detox type reaction?

Overall, this has been an extremely active time in this process.  I am constantly feeling so activated as my energy field is always feeling like it’s moving/pulling, melting, vibrating/buzzing or spiraling.

I’m very curious to see where this is going…

 

**I just realized that the last 3 blogs I’ve posted were all on the 9th… 🙂

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Love ❤

 

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Energy Sensations – Update November 9, 2017

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I just wanted to give an update on my situation before I begin with regular updates again.

Wow…I can’t believe it’s been a year since I’ve written.  It’s been a tough year to say the least.  I’ve been struggling with finding a place to live, a place to call home.  But one thing I’ve learned is that I’m not allowed to go back to any of my old comfort zones.  Every single time I tried to go back to a place I’ve lived in the past (out of desperation) it had a horrible outcome.

In my search for a place to live, I was very fortunate to have found seasonal jobs that provide housing to employees.  This particular job I’m currently at is in Utah right up against Bryce Canyon and about a 1 1/2 hour drive to Zion National Park.  The owners of the Inn are very sweet and appreciative to have me here.  The season ended on October 31st, but they have asked me to stay through the winter and also to continue to work next season.  So now I have a comfortable place to live (my own room and bathroom) for a year!  Yayyyy  🙂

It was very interesting when I was initially driving to get here.  When I was about 20 miles away, driving on hwy 89, I felt a wall of energy hit my face and upper body.  It didn’t hurt me, but it startled me and was forceful enough to break my glasses!  The frame cracked and broke from the impact. I heard and felt it crack at the same time that I felt the wall of energy hit me.  It was so bizarre.  I immediately stopped any fear from creeping in and just kept driving.  I’ve passed by that same area several times since then, and haven’t felt anything like it again.

Since I’ve been here, I’ve been seeing gridlines when I wake up every morning.  Most times it’s the larger gridlines, but occasionally I’ll see the smaller ones.  I have no idea why the size is different.

This area seems to have a lot of electric energy.  Sometimes my face hurts from it.  There are days when I can see a large bolt of electricity come out of my finger and hear a loud cracking noise when I get shocked from touching stuff.  It can be very painful at times.  It’s just random, so it’s not happening everyday (thank goodness!).  My computer speakers also have a weird pulse noise on them when I get close to them.

My fire alarm in my room will act up occasionally and just ring once in the middle of the night…but I do have a history with setting off fire alarms…

There are a lot of mule deer here.  They seem to be very curious with me and will stop and stare instead of running away.  There is a female and two babies that like to come near me a lot.  I got a good picture of her the other day.  She’s very sweet ❤

After having a very chaotic and anxiety-filled year, it’s nice to be here with such peaceful surroundings.  It’s a very small town, so there’s not a whole lot going on.  It takes me an hour and a half just to get to Walmart to buy groceries. There’s a beautiful scenic route I take when I go to Walmart (Hwy 14 through Duck Creek), so I don’t mind the drive at all.  Here are some pictures of the drive:

The night sky is amazing and I can see more stars than I’ve ever seen anywhere before.  I haven’t taken any pictures of the stars, but here’s a picture of Bryce that I found, to give you an idea of what I’m seeing at night:

I’ve been given the message that I need to stay here away from everything for a while.  I feel fully protected by the canyon in my own little world.  This is some sort of “holding space”.  I feel like I’m repeating the same day over and over again with subtle changes…everyday, while going through the motions, it feels like déjà vu.  Overall, this place has been very welcoming and has allowed me to feel very Loved, accepted and appreciated ❤

**Update – On December 15th I saw a post from Maria Bethencourt called “The Transition Between Symphonic Universes” and in it she says:

“The Collapse Of interfered with Timelines has caused Timeline glitches across all matrices As The Heart Collective steps outside of time.  Many feel it is the same day again, a Groundhog Day effect, as they step outside of time and the 4d.  Others feel like they are in an era, like the 80’s, or 70’s.  This is normal. And these time anomalies will stop once the Heart Collective fully manifests their new reality on the new earth. “

I thought that was a pretty awesome confirmation with feeling like I’m repeating the same day over and over again  🙂 The entire post can be found HERE

 

Energy Sensations

I’ve been going through phases of eating A LOT.  At times, it seems that I cannot satisfy my appetite and will eat a ridiculous amount of food.  I’ve also been requiring a lot of sleep, but every once in a while, there will be a night when I’ll wake up every few hours for no reason with an anxious type of feeling.

There has been a lot of neurological activity going on…lots of nerve clusters twitching, pokes and stinging sensations. A weird cluster sensation in the palm of my hands and the middle of my feet that feels like it’s about to cramp up, but doesn’t quite reach that point.  It’s not painful, but it feels like the palm and foot are pulling inward.  Also lots of fizzy meridian sensations in the legs, torso and top of my head.

I have something weird going on with the right side of my body.  I have gout type symptoms in my right middle finger, right elbow and right knee (not very painful, just mostly stiff).  I recently noticed two very small patches of possible eczema on my right forearm and on my right eyelid.  But it’s weird that it’s only on the right side of my body…absolutely nothing on my left.

There has been a lot of Crown activity in the last few months.  As I’m typing this, I’m feeling a small stream of energy shooting out of the right top part of my head and at the same time out of my right knee.

For the past couple of years I’ve had a very strong pulsing sensation in my High Heart area, but I haven’t felt it for about 4 months now. Initially I thought it was my thyroid so I had some medical tests done (blood tests and ultrasound) but they were all normal.   I’m kind of glad that it stopped because it was so strong that it was overwhelming.  Sometimes it affected my breathing and would get extremely uncomfortable.

The Kundalini has been very active and it’s now more of an all-over-the-body feeling as opposed to only working on certain spots. Lately, it’s mostly been the tickling-all-over sensation which is kind of annoying.  I’ve been getting lots of Crown downloads and sometimes feel a weird popping or crackling on the top of my head while it’s swaying.  I have no idea why it’s changed.  In the past, I have felt the popping and crackling sensation in my Heart Center when the Christed energies are activated, but hadn’t ever felt anything like that on my Crown.

Overall, the energy seems to be pretty active now that I’ve found a comfortable place to live and am able to stay centered.

I am very Grateful to be here ❤

Energy Sensations – Update November 21, 2016

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I had a lucid dream this morning…I was standing in front of a lady and it appeared that something was bothering her.  She looked like she was in her mid 30’s and had a very heavy New York accent.   She had a strange look on her face and seemed to be disturbed, so I asked her if everything was okay.

The lady told me that she wasn’t sure if she was okay, because she’s been seeing “strange things” that she couldn’t really describe.  I asked her if they were things that weren’t really there, or indescribable shapes?  Her face lit up and she said “Yes! Exactly”.  I immediately knew that she was seeing colors/geometry/gridlines.

I told her that when I wake up in the morning, I see colors, gridlines and odd looking shapes too.  She became very excited and began trying to describe what she was seeing and during that time, she actually started to see it while she was talking to me….so she was walking around staring upward at the air around her.

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As I was watching her, I could see iridescent pastel colors manifesting around her as she stared all around her in awe….Then I woke up from the dream because I heard something…

As I was waking up, I realized that I was waking up to loud chimes in my mind.  This time it was different than the usual chimes.  I heard low/high, low/high, then low/low/low/high.  Then a minute later, I heard a loud chirp.  I know for sure that it wasn’t outside noise, because I sleep with earplugs that completely block out any noise…and I sleep with a loud air purifier in my room and can’t even hear that with these earplugs.

I have been shown in the past that the chimes were a marker for a new level/phase/ initiation. The tones represent an addition to the harmonization of group signature tone. In the past it’s been 2 or 3 tones (and sometimes a chirp), but this time it was 8 tones.  I have no idea what that means, but it will probably have to do with the lucid dream I was having.

I’ll meditate on it later and see if I can figure it out…

**Update – On December 6th, Sandra Walter posted an update that spoke of the pastel rainbow colors.  Under the headline “Plasma Visions and Bands of Light” she says :Last week during Gatework I had a vision of standing on a beach sending huge sheets of 6D pastel rainbow plasma through my hands into the sky, like a protective barrier. I was told this is preparation work for the Solar influx, and the Pacific has been presenting strongly. ”   The entire update can be found HERE

So that was a pretty cool sync after my lucid dream 🙂

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Over the years, as I was slowly coming into my conscious creation abilities, I noticed that whenever I’m distraught and out of balance (emotionally upset or angry), that bees would come to me.

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They are not angry, but they will calmly land on me and hover around me and will not go away until I leave the area.  I’ve found that over several years, this happens only when I’m upset (mostly outdoors but occasionally in the house too).  One time I was so agitated and annoyed being around my loud Aunt, that a bee appeared in her car when the windows had been closed the whole time!  We were both startled by the bee appearing out of nowhere and on my side of the car !  It’s happened so many times over the years (too many to count).  I’ve just learned to accept that they serve as a reminder that I need to control my emotions and “chill out” a bit before I get too out of balance.  This may happen to other people too, but they may not realize the connection.

There was a time at my (ex)boyfriend’s house when I was so angry, that as I was walking in the hallway under a smoke detector, the alarm went on!  Whenever I’d walk away from the alarm, it would stop, but if I walked under it again, it would start again.  There have also been times that I was angry with my ex and the ceiling above me would start to make loud cracking and shifting noises.  I’ve always experienced things flying off of the shelves or pictures falling off of the walls since childhood.  I wonder if it was just me doing that without realizing it?  As a child, I had always assumed it was a ghost or something outside of myself.

The person that I’m temporarily living with (because I have absolutely nowhere else to go) at the moment is a VERY insensitive individual (I can think of better words to describe him, but I’ll be nice 🙂 ).  I’ll spare the details, but I’ll just say that a couple of days ago he killed a deer in the yard.  He eats them….He shot it from the back door, so I was startled by the booming sound of a shotgun in the house without any warning.

He knows I don’t like hunting and that I Love animals, so without detail, I’ll just say that he thought it would be funny to leave the deer by my car so that I’d have to see it when I left for work.  The way that he did it, while he was taunting me and laughing, was very traumatizing to me and I will never get that image out of my mind for the rest of my life.  He clearly fed off of my reaction and I could see the whole process of his consumptive behavior.  It was a very disturbing thing to witness.  Some people are so broken/fragmented.  I wish I could help them all.  It can be very painful to watch.

As I was going out to my car today to get something out of the trunk, I saw some dried blood on the ground and immediately started to get upset again.  I was just staring at it while in deep thought, debating whether to clean it, to burn some sage, say another prayer etc… and within seconds, a bee quickly came and started hovering around me trying to land on me.  It just serves as a reminder to calm down.  Sometimes I talk to the bees and thank them for reminding me.  It’s a very big responsibility to keep the balance once you come into your power.  But there are beings from the different kingdoms that will lovingly help to remind us that everything will be okay and that we are Loved no matter what.  I am very Grateful

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Since I last wrote an update, I’ve been going through different stages of a more aggressive Heart opening.  Lots of movement on the front side of my chest and more recently, the back part of my Heart center has greatly expanded.  There were days where it felt like my entire back was HUGE, completely open and exposed.  It was really bizarre.  I’ve also had the sensation of heavy liquid energy shooting out of my shoulder blades.

I’ve noticed that I’ve felt more Loving and want to help people more.  It’s a very strong urge to assist in any way that I can.  There’s been a huge dismantling of the ego and it seems to come naturally to want to help without any expectations.  There’s also a noticeable increase in forgiving people .  It’s not even an effort anymore, it just comes naturally with majority of people (some people take more effort though –lol).  I don’t have to like them, but I will let go of the cords that I would have had in the past. It’s much easier to let go and to stay neutral.

I’ve had some pineal migraines off and on and also some pain in my right eye.  I’ve also noticed an increase in the feeling of a bubble slowly moving behind my eyes.  It’s a really weird sensation of something physically shifting/oozing behind my eyes.  There’s no pain, just movement.

I’m seeing more sparkles and little lights manifesting around me.  Last night, I saw a little white light fluttering around on my pillow when I was leaning on it.  I saw it more than once throughout the night.  Years ago, after my first Reiki Tummo attunement, I cried for days after, because of the massive initial cleansing process.  The first morning after the attunement and having cried the entire night, I woke up to seeing a little blue orb fluttering in front of me and landing on my pillow beside my face.  It had little sparkles coming off of it like pixie dust as it fluttered around.  This little white light I saw last night reminded me of that.

The most difficult sensation I’ve experienced so far, is shortness of breath.  I initially felt it about 6 months ago and went to the Emergency Room for testing.  They did an EKG for my heart, an MRI with dye contrast for my lungs and also an oxygen saturation test.  Everything came back normal/clear and the doctor couldn’t figure out why I was feeling shortness of breath when everything was normal  **Update – months after writing this, I had another trip to the ER and they found that the bottom of my lungs were starting to collapse, but they did not diagnose the cause.

So I’ve felt it many times since then, but recently, I felt it accompanied by some aggressive Kundalini energy moving in my chest and abdomen.  At that time, it had felt like there was a heavy warm pressure energy in my chest with some movement and also some reaching into my abdomen.  So now I know that this shortness of breath is an energy thing (since with my hypersensitivity, I feel energy movement so physically).

Sometimes it also feels like there’s a tightness in my throat like something is squeezing it.  I’m assuming that has to do with a more aggressive throat opening.  I do not doubt that I have many issues (from childhood) that will make for an uncomfortable complete throat opening.  I’m trying my best to work through it, but really, I’m totally clueless as to what I need to do since nothing has seemed to help much so far.

I’m staying neutral throughout this election crap and have not let it affect me one bit.  Overall, I feel pretty good with an occasional disturbance from “insensitive individuals”, but really this has been a pretty calm phase for me.  And should I get too out of sync, the bees are always there to keep me in line 🙂

And for some reason, listening to this song also helps to stay calm.  The whistling reminds me of celestial sounds I hear sometimes :

Jason Barty – Simple Day

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Love ❤

Energy Sensations – Update October 8, 2014

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My (ex)boyfriend took this photo on the way home from work today…so beautiful…

 

It’s been extremely difficult to put anything into words lately and as a result, I haven’t posted anything. I just wanted to give a brief and quick update on the energies. First of all…WOW…the energies that came in throughout the night and continue to come in at this very moment are SO strong! I had been feeling quite dizzy for the past few days, but today is just off the charts.

I didn’t even bother to watch the Full Moon/Blood Moon/Lunar Eclipse early this morning because mosquito season is crazy out here in Arizona…my blood type is one of their preferences ( O positive blood type) and my poor legs are living proof. So when I went to bed last night, I was too lazy to turn on my night light. I fell asleep in complete darkness which is very rare for me. I like to have a light on so I can see what’s in the room when I hear noises (which is often).  I woke up several times throughout the night and saw illuminated swirling patterns all around me. I could actually see it clearer because I was in the darkened room. It was pretty intense. When I finally woke up early in the morning,  my body was burning up hot… I was feeling disoriented and a bit dehydrated.

The swirling patterns I saw seemed to have gold, orange, and brown colors in them…I had never seen brown before, so I meditated on it and got the message that it was orange and green mixed together (or overlapping) making it look brown. So gold, orange and green with very tiny flecks of indigo/purple here and there… That’s something very new to me…

On October 2nd, I had woken up in the middle of the night and saw beautiful flickering golden symbols all around me. They illuminated the entire room and were shimmering.  When I focused on them, I got the words “fire codes”, so I’m thinking it was the same as fire letters. They were really beautiful to see and gave me a magical feeling. The next day after seeing them, I researched it on the internet and read that the  fire letters are part of the DNA activation.

Also, on October 6th, I attempted to take a short nap (but was unable to completely fall asleep) and when I was in that “in between” state, I was shown something that looked like this:

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It didn’t have the colors though; it was just showing me different tiers or levels of something. I was shown that all of these levels were going to compress or collapse together. Initially, I was worried because anything having to do with compressing or collapsing in the past has been physically painful through my body…  so I asked if it was going to be painful, and I didn’t receive an answer! I guess instead of interpreting this as collapse or compress, I’ll look at it as a gentler “integrate” or “unify” which doesn’t sound so painful (cringe) …I don’t fully understand it though…it’s beyond my scope of human understanding. Maybe I’ll read something about it later…

**On October 14th, Lisa Renee posted an update that speaks of lower mental body compression and also goes into further explanation of fire letters…awesome sync 🙂

Much Gratitude!

http://energeticsynthesis.com/index.php/resource-tools/blog-timeline-shift/2519-defragmentation

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I’m currently getting lots of Crown downloads which feels like warm water pouring into the top of my head. Occasionally, I’m also feeling the warm water sensation pouring in at the bridge of my nose which feels kinda strange…it makes my nose feel like it’s distorted or morphing into something else.  There’s also been lots of heavy movement on my face around my eyelids and temples…I can actually feel my eyelashes moving when the energies are on my eyelids. I’ve been having a lot of work being done on me during sleep time and will wake up frequently throughout the night because it’s just too intense. When I wake up, I’m burning hot and my head feels sore.  For the most part, the focus has been on my head and face.

I’ve noticed that sometimes during the day, I’ll see a light overlay of colors which is something new. It’s been different colors, but the most frequent color looks pink. It’s been very hard for me to focus and I feel very dizzy…sometimes it feels like I’m spinning and I’ll have to go lay down for a while. My Heart chakra has opened more and I’ve been feeling a strong tickling sensation in the center of my chest for the past couple of days. I’m also feeling something lovingly stroking my arm throughout the day.

It seems that I need to drink more water lately and will become dehydrated very quickly. Maybe it’s because of the “fire” type energy that’s very active right now? I just read a post by Lisa Renee and she speaks of the fire energy and recent Kundalini symptoms HERE . I just recently discovered Lisa Renee’s Ascension Glossary and it’s helped to answer so many of my questions.  Everything is all coming together…

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I had a flashback memory today of when I was a kid, about 5 yrs old… I remembered going outside and talking to the sky at night time. I knew that I had something important to do, a purpose for being here, but couldn’t figure out what it was. While looking for some type of validation or confirmation that what I was feeling was true, I would ask the sky to tell me, but never received any answers. I imagined that I had special powers, but couldn’t seem to get them to work – lol…I would have never imagined that so many years later, at 36 yrs old, an awakening out-of-body experience would change my life so drastically…and would also answer my childhood question of what that important thing was that I am here to do. In remembering that moment from my childhood, it brought such a feeling of Gratitude and comfort.

**On December 7, 2014, I found a post that relates to my childhood memory of talking to the night sky…awesome sync! ❤  http://www.bob-fickes.com/2014/12/childrens-dreams/

Despite all of the discomfort and physical symptoms happening to my body, I feel so fortunate to be here during this time…to be going through something so awesome, something I could have never imagined to be real…something that I felt and knew within when I was a child.  That just hit me today and it brought such a profound feeling of Love and comfort…so much Gratitude from my Heart ❤

My inner child is very happy in this moment…

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Love ❤

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**When I watched this video, it made me think of the timeline work, compression and defragmentation process that we’re currently going through…such a beautiful video…

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Energy Sensations – Update August 22, 2014

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It’s been quite a while since I’ve written anything…I tried several times, but it just wasn’t flowing…A lot has happened since I last wrote, but I’ll just sum it up.

I went back to Arizona on June 25th and have been back and forth to California. I’ll be back in Arizona probably until October. I found out that my medical insurance is still active in Arizona so I’m going to see some specialists for various “mysterious” health issues that nobody can seem to figure out. It all started after I had received a blood transfusion back in 2012 and has progressively gotten worse since then.  At the moment I’ll just say that my skin is burning without any sign of rash, and nothing will help.

I’ve had numerous tests done; biopsies, blood panel tests, diabetes tests, numerous yeast and bacteria cultures, and I’ve even seen different doctors just for the sake of getting different opinions. It’s sort of bizarre to say the least. It’s shown me how awful our medical system is, and that most doctors I’ve seen, just wanted to drug me up and numb the symptoms with medication instead of trying to find the cause. Any testing I’ve had, was because I begged them to run some tests and I was very persistent. VERY frustrating and very sad…

While in Arizona, I experienced a crazy storm on July 26th. (I wrote about it right after it happened, but didn’t get around to posting it and will back date it and post shortly).

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On the morning of August 17th, I had a strange dream that there was an aurora in the sky, but it had multiple bright rainbow colors in it. I sensed the presence of other beings, even though I didn’t see them, I could sense that they were there. The colors generated an inaudible tone that affected my vibration. What I mean by an inaudible tone, is that I couldn’t hear it with my ears, I just heard and felt it from within. An example would be, for people experiencing Kundalini phenomena, when they hear bells, chimes, booming noises, or chanting that nobody else can hear. In my experience, the sound comes in at the Crown chakra because I can feel it swaying when I hear the inaudible sounds. That’s all I remember from the dream but I know there was much more to it.

Once I woke up from the dream, for the rest of the day, I started getting these realizations and drastic changes in my perspective about things happening in my life. The next day on Aug. 18th while on the 6 hour drive through the desert, back to California, I got “downloads” of information. What I mean by that, is that it’s just instantly in my mind without having previously known or any process to get to this knowing…it’s not there one second, and then it is there the next. In this knowing, I had a huge weight lifted off of me, and I had a complete change in perspective of how I was going to handle the difficulties in my life. The resolutions were just there in an instant and it brought a sense of relief.

I also got some information about what is currently happening for some people on other levels. It was shown to me as many people releasing enough obstacles and being clear enough to begin the next phase of activation. The result of the energy from the obstacles was shown as causing compression that needed to be released. The compression was to be released and “spun off” through spinning whirlwind vortexes. I was shown that the spiraling motion had great importance in this process.

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It was explained to me that the outer reflection of those vortexes was mirrored in higher vibrational human fields as “axiatonal spin points”. Spin points are part of the axiatonal/meridian grid of the body. I understood that once we have reached a certain vibration and are ready to activate the axiatonal grid in alignment (balance), the body will use these spin points to quickly spin out the obstacles (stagnant energy) from our energy field. When this is done on a large scale, (meaning many people around the world, such as it is now) there will be a reflection of this in our outer world which may appear as tornados, monsoon “microbursts”, and hurricane/cyclone type weather. It was all represented by a spiral movement or vortex.  The Earth may also be assisted by Buddhic Columns in the same way as the human spin points.

Once I received this information, I understood why I had experienced this microburst storm in Arizona. It was the final push of activation of my spin points. I was shown that anyone experiencing their changes while consciously connected to this collective group grid (that are currently in this phase), will see it manifested outward and it will feel “personal” to them. They’ll have some sort of deeper realization or inner knowing that this happened as a reflection of themselves.

I realized that I had been feeling these spin points activating in different locations for a while now…especially on my face. I’m guessing they’re slowly activated one by one for a while, and then when you get enough of them activated, it’ll give one big cleansing flush…something needs to force it through to “combust” the activation. The images I received was sort of like a clogged pipe that is slow draining until it gets enough push of water to flush the pipe clean. It was made very clear that the “water and pipe” vision was just used as an example that my mind could understand, but it was actually more of a “fire” type combustion. This seems to be where a large group is at Now.

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For the past couple of months, I’ve had a lot of activity on my body. The most active sensation is when I wake up in the morning and I feel my whole energy field moving, rotating, shifting in such a way that it reminds me of the way a snake moves. It feels like my entire being is twisting and turning kind of like this picture below but maybe more of a rolling motion:

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This sensation feels SO good and when I wake up, I just lay there with my eyes closed for about an hour just so I can feel this sensation as long as I can. It’s so soothing and peaceful like a cellular massage…I have no idea what it is or what stage this pertains to and haven’t read anything about a sensation like this yet.

The next thing that’s really noticeable is the spin points on various parts of my body. The spin points feel like a very small circle of energy about the size of a dime, and it has a sizzling, fizzing type sensation. I’ve felt this in many areas, but the one above my mouth has been active everyday for about two months straight. I have no idea why that one is so active. Also, for the last 2 weeks, my tongue has had a strong electrical type current of energy running through it again. It’s really pulsing pretty hard this time.

On August 2nd I had a bliss episode hit me out of nowhere during the daytime while I was fully awake… I felt like my whole spine was filled with the liquid bliss feeling…it was AWESOME. The only way I can explain it, is that it felt like my entire spine was filled with a liquid euphoric massaging substance that emanates outward. The effect feels better than any substance, drug, or emotion that I’ve ever felt in my entire life. ..there is absolutely nothing to compare it to. I just laid down in my bed and let it take over because I didn’t want it to stop! It lasted for about an hour.

I’ve been feeling a little spacey and “dream-like”…maybe I need to ground more? I’ve been pretty calm despite my chaotic family and my patience has doubled. Overall, this feels like a really nice space to be in although it is not familiar to me. It seems that the integration is a smooth transition at the moment.

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I found a video that strangely reminds me of the movement sensations I’m feeling on my body.  It’s oddly familiar to me when I watch it and seems to sync with the process that my body is currently going through.  These are the type of visuals I get in my mind when I feel the sensations.  It’s amazing how accurate the pulsing and rolling motions are in the video…I’ve even seen the triangles connecting together and creating something in my visions…it’s fascinating to actually see it recreated by someone…Much Gratitude 🙂

The video can be found here:

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Walking in Harmony

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It’s been quite a while since I’ve been able to write anything.  I can’t really explain it, but it’s almost like I wasn’t “allowed” to write anything.  When I’d make an attempt to post an update, I’d get a big “NOT NOW” that would shut me down.  This has been such a deep integration for the last three months that I totally got lost in it…I saw a post from Sandra Walter recently and it was a huge confirmation to what I’ve been going through in these last few months.  The post can be found HERE.

So I finally moved out of my (ex)boyfriend’s house in Phoenix, Arizona. On March 1st,  I made a trip to California with most of the big stuff and then officially left Arizona for good on April 19th (the day before Easter).  I did realize that I left a few odds and ends after I moved out, so I recently took a brief trip back to Arizona to pick it up.  While I was in Arizona, we took a trip to Sedona (which I have written about below).

So now I’m living in Coto de Caza, California which is also known as “Orange County”.  It’s very close to Laguna Beach.  It’s SO beautiful here and the weather is perfect.  I have this serene feeling of freedom living here with my cousin.

But enough about that, I’ll get into the energetic transformation that is currently taking place…

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So the last three months have been INTENSE to say the least.  Kundalini is kicking my ass – LOL   I’m definitely not the same as I was three months ago…my body has dramatically changed and I can feel the different rewiring that has taken effect.  There’s been a stream of energy pouring in only on the right side of my Crown chakra every day for the past couple of months.  I wonder why it’s just in that same spot?  My energy is alive and constantly moving around adjusting throughout the day.  There seem to be many embodiments residing within me.

The next thing that I’ve realized is that energy on my lower legs (calves) has dramatically changed.  I’m not sure if an experience that I had in Sedona had anything to do with it, but on my recent last trip back to Arizona to pick up the rest of my stuff, we decided to visit Sedona.  It was on May 24th around the time that there were forest fires close to the area.  I wanted to go so that I could say some prayers for rain and protection for Sedona.

While we were there, we stopped at a little outdoor vendor sale with tents.  When I passed by one of the vendors, a wall of energy forcefully pulled my energy downward.  I’ve never felt anything like it, it was the most powerful energetic grounding sensation that I’ve ever felt so far.  I was totally shocked by this and walked back to the vendor to see what they were selling.  It was a booth for jewelry that claims to help ground your energy!  Well, I can definitely say that it REALLY works since I felt it even before I knew what the product was! I didn’t physically touch any of the jewelry, so the profound effect it had on my energy was probably from all of the jewelry combined in a small space…combined with the energies in Sedona, it created some sort of vortex.

My (ex)boyfriend wanted to buy some of the jewelry for himself since I had felt such a strong energy coming from it.  As I was standing there waiting for him to browse, my energy continued to forcefully pull downward…after a while, I felt something reaching into my root/sacral chakra areas and it started “working” on me.  I had to spread my feet apart and stand in a more stable position as this forceful pulling and “work” was being done on me in front of everyone.  It was so funny to have this all going on while everyone around me was totally clueless as to what was happening.   I just stood there quietly laughing while nobody noticed.  After we left, my lower back slightly ached on the right side…the only other time my back ached like that, in the same exact spot, was when I got my Reiki Tummo attunements.  I must have had a huge flush of energy flowing through me to trigger that same effect.

So since that experience in Sedona, I am now frequently feeling this strange buzzy energy whipping around my lower legs.  It’s almost as if some additional anchoring channels were opened or widened in that area.  The next night energy was strongly pouring into my feet (stronger than ever before) accompanied by the sensation of an energy enveloping the outside of my calves (emanating into my legs from the outside).  The outer sensation felt very electromagnetic.  A few days later, I realized that each time my foot hit the ground while walking, my leg would vibrate, but only when the foot hits the ground.  It’s so bizarre…it happens every single time I walk now, so I decided to meditate on it to see if I got any information…

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While in meditation, I got a vision of a tuning fork.  The message I received was that my lower leg bones were acting as a tuning fork?  Huh?  That sounds so silly, but that’s what I got…When my feet hit the ground while walking, it strikes my bones and they vibrate like a tuning fork causing some type of energy balancing effect.  I had to laugh when I initially got the message, because it just really sounds “out there” – LOL  But then I realized that we are here to bring in new codes, anchoring in new vibrations and tones…so why couldn’t it be true?  If I believe it’s true, then I agree to create it, and then it will become my reality.

**On September 21, 2014, I stumbled upon a page in Lisa Renee’s Ascension Glossary  (while researching “bone marrow” on the internet) and it was a total confirmation to the information that I was receiving…WOW…The page can be found here:

http://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Law_of_Resonance 

 

Later in the evening, after receiving this vision, I saw a picture of Egyptian hieroglyphs on television, and it showed the Egyptian god who has some type of tuning fork looking thing on his head…I’m not sure if it is an actual tuning fork on his head, but it prompted me to start searching for stuff on the internet.

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Then I searched “Egyptian tuning fork” and saw pictures of hieroglyphs with two tuning forks passing energy to each other :

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I also found this on the crystalinks site:

“Discoveries emerging from Egypt, describe the existence of a world wide pyramid temple system in prehistory, mounted like antennae on key energy meridians, which were employed by ancient priest-scientists as harmonic tuning forks to stabilize the tectonic plates of the planet’s cataclysmic geology. From the mother tongue word Jedaiah, meaning ‘The Way of the Word’ or ‘The Power of the Word’, the ancient Jedai priests used the Language of Light to tune the planet like a giant harmonic bell. Much is being rediscovered in the last days of this time cycle.”  The whole article can be found HERE.

After finding many connections, it reminded me that I had awakened in the morning on March 10th and saw an illuminated pattern surrounding me.  It was difficult to see with my eyes open, but was very clear when I closed my eyes.  It looked like many strands of DNA that were all activated and moving at the same time.  The only picture that I could find that kinda looked like it was this one:

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The strands didn’t have the lines in between them though, and the strands were all much closer together. Their movement seemed to generate a tone.  I got the idea that they were all dancing or in sync with each other.  The words that came to mind while witnessing this were “harmony” and “harmonics”…and when I looked up the word “harmonic” on the internet, I found this photo :

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So I’m thinking maybe I wasn’t seeing DNA, but was actually seeing harmonics in action.  Then to further add to the syncs, I began reading lots of posts from various sources that are speaking about harmonics.  One of the posts was by Earthkeeper Tyberonn who posted information about a “Portal of Harmony” on February 2nd which can be found HERE.  and on April 11th about the “Harmonic Trigger” which he states, began on the Spring Equinox March 20th and would continue until Summer Solstice June 21st which can be found HERE.  I’m now seeing the word “harmony” everywhere…

Maybe actual people are being “harmonically triggered” during this time and their bodies are walking tuning forks?  Hmmm…that gives me something to think about…

 

“The search for meaning is really the search for the lost chord. When the lost chord is discovered by humankind, the discord in the world will be healed and the symphony of the universe will come into complete harmony with itself.” ~John O’Donohue

 

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Love ❤

 

 

**After writing this post, I found a post on July 8th that speaks of harmonics and our spine being a tuning fork…Wow! Such an awesome sync to find that!  I very strongly resonated with what she wrote and got very emotional while reading it for some reason…  The post can be found here: http://judithkusel.wordpress.com/2014/07/07/the-awakening-deep-within/

 

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Energy Sensations – Update January 13, 2014

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The Kundalini has been super active lately. Starting a few nights ago, the energies started tickling my entire body…It lasted a couple of days…I had to keep scratching myself because it felt like someone was running a feather over me. It’s probably the Kundalini sensation that most people describe as “bugs crawling all over your body”.

On the morning of January 9th I felt the “hot spots” on my Crown chakra…This was the first time I’ve ever felt pain on my actual Crown. I’ve had pineal migraines and tenderness on my scalp over the years, but those are 3D sensations…this was different since it’s on an etheric level. It’s difficult to explain, but it feels like it’s painful to my physical body, but it also feels like it’s distant or further away than my physical body, but the pain still comes in…Does that even make sense?

I noticed that my Crown felt different last week, so something’s definitely changing. The hot spots felt like little electrical pulses with heat that kind of stings a little. It’s a very slow sensation, like if it’s happening while suspended in time and my perception is delayed or it skips? I know that probably sounds weird but that’s the only way I can explain it. A few minutes after feeling the pulses randomly on my Crown, I heard three loud chimes…kind of like bells ringing but it was a different type of sound vibration. The sounds were somehow very comforting…

The past few days there has also been a lot of activity on the nasal chakra which feels like warm water pouring out of the top and the bridge of my nose. I’ve also been seeing more than just the little sparkles manifesting around me…now I’m seeing a big circle of layered illuminated blue taking over my entire vision for a split second. It just pops into my mind and takes over my whole vision so fast that I’m startled by it. It kind of looks like this:

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Starting on January 9th I noticed that my Heart center felt larger…when I focused on it, I’d get the image of a big void space, but it had small pinpoints of light that looked like stars.

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That doesn’t make any sense to me because I usually see something there, whether it’s a color, or a pulse, but as of Wednesday, I’m just seeing this vast open space (which literally looks like outer space). My chest feels HUGE. This is a totally new sensation for me…I haven’t experienced anything even close to this so it’s a little bizarre. I’ve heard of a Heart expansion, but wasn’t quite taking the meaning so literally! It seems funny to me and made me laugh at the thought of my Heart center looking like outer space… I’m sure I’ll figure it out soon…

With the chest expansion and the heavier Crown activity, I feel more “alive”, and it now feels like my energy flow is reversed. When I used to get the Torus sensation, it would feel like I was turning inward on myself and it was very overwhelming…but now it feels like my center is turning outward and spreading my energy out instead of bringing it in. When it used to turn inward, I would feel like a pressure cooker with too much inside and I would lose my breath. Now it feels like it’s dispersing outward and it’s a more “free” feeling of expansion.

**In November 2014 (10 months after writing this), I found this picture and it reminded me of this experience ❤ … **I later received a vision that showed me that this phase in the process is considered “THE EYE OF THE NEEDLE”…and if you look at the picture below, it kind of does look like the eye of a needle….In the vision, the “threading” was shown to me as connecting to others through this newly expanded Heart space, which would represent Heart based “Unity” consciousness.

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On the morning of January 10th I woke up and felt energy entering into the bottom of my feet. I’ve felt this before, but it’s rare compared to the constant flow of feeling the energy pouring out of my feet. The Kundalini was extremely active that day and was just whipping around quickly moving all over my body. When the energy was entering my right foot, I felt clusters of nerves twitching on the bottom of my foot, then I felt the energy move through my lower leg causing my leg to have a very powerful chills sensation, then it moved up through my right thigh, into my Root chakra which tickled, and then quickly moved upward through the rest of my body to the left side of my face…the energy stayed at my left temple for quite a while.

I have no idea why the energy spends so much time at my temples. I can’t find much about “temple chakras” online. I know there are chakras there because I can feel them, but it seems to be a very secretive topic for some reason. I wonder why? I’m gonna do some more research and see if I can find out more about them.

The energies are definitely amping up quite a bit. There’s a new feeling in the air…This is new territory, so I have no idea what to expect… I don’t mind at all, as long as I can stay out of pain 🙂

Love ❤

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Infinity ~Twin Flame Awareness

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In the beginning of November, I had a vision of a key being handed to me with an infinity symbol on it…I also saw an Ankh with an infinity symbol on the top (instead of a circle) but I wasn’t too sure what this meant.  I wrote about the vision in a blog HERE.

After meditating on it for a while, I got the message that the infinity symbol was given to me specifically for the purpose of assisting with the ancestral karmic energies I was currently working through.  I was shown that the sideways infinity symbol (or LEMNISCATE ) was to be focused on or visualized actively moving in my mind while having the intention of clearing the ancestral energies.

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I followed my guidance and used the symbol many times for clearing…I also used it on my boyfriend while doing healing on his sciatic nerve pain that he’s been suffering from lately.  I believe sciatic pain is associated with blocked meridians and nadis due to ancestral junk that we’ve accumulated over many lifetimes.  I also believe that fibromyalgia is linked to this as well.  It really seemed to work on his pain and he said he noticed a big difference after the energy healing was done.

I just recently became aware that the infinity symbol is linked to twin flame/twin soul reunion (awareness).  It all started with a beautiful dream that I had on the night of December 17th (night of the full moon).

This dream was unlike any other I’ve ever had…in the dream, I was visited by a Buddhist monk and we were totally and completely in Love with each other…I could feel this strong feeling of Love just by him being in my presence, it was emanating out of him. In the dream, we were going to get married and I understood that he was going to be my teacher for the rest of my life.

It was a HUGE relief to me, like if everything from that point on, was going to be ok… I was SO in Love with him, it was beyond anything I have ever felt in my entire life…I felt my whole being totally surrender to him and knew without a doubt that he was going to complete me in such a way, that I would never have to search for answers to anything ever again. The feeling was so strong, that I cannot even express into words how it felt.

I know that Buddhist monks take a vow of celibacy and have only read of special and rare circumstances that they may marry someone, so it’s extremely rare. I guess the message that I initially took from the dream was that it was more of an internal union than a literal marriage in 3D. I was thinking maybe it represented the union of masculine and feminine aspects of self?

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I saw a video on December 19th by Meline Lafont that speaks of this phase of currently embodying the I AM presence (she also mentions heart palpitations which I’ve been having a lot of lately).  Her video triggered some questions and I searched “I AM presence masculine and feminine” on the internet out of curiosity. I realized that the I AM presence is actually the masculine and feminine aspects merged which I hadn’t really thought about before. Now that makes sense to me regarding my dream. I later realized that on December 17th the full moon was in Gemini which represents “twin” energy…maybe twin flame/twin soul energy?

Throughout this process, I’ve never really paid much attention to the twin flame stuff…I just never really believed that my twin flame was incarnated here on Earth and the thought of reuniting physically with him didn’t resonate with me. After this dream, I now fully believe that my twin flame is not incarnated on Earth and that my “reuniting” is not an actual reuniting, but more of a remembering, or conscious awareness.

The message that I’m getting from this dream is that I’ve always been merged with my twin flame, it’s just that it was not in my conscious awareness. Now that I’ve become consciously aware and have integrated the awareness of his presence, I feel his presence within me…it’s as if I can pull that feeling of complete unconditional Love from within me anytime I want, now that I’m aware of it. He is always with me. I’m even getting teary eyed right now just writing about it…I’ve never felt this type of feeling before…it’s unlike anything I’ve ever experienced.

Why would I need to manifest this union physically when I can feel his Love always (in all ways) within? I would not want to change this perfection by incarnating it in this imperfect realm…there is no need or desire for anything other than what it is.

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After doing a little more research, I found lots of stuff regarding twin flames associated with the infinity symbol and realized that the awareness of the infinity symbol is the beginning of the twin flame awareness. One of the articles I found showed this symbol:

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The article says: “By activating the Infinity Master Creative Symbol (all of it) you bring the 5 Elements (Earth, Fire, Air, Water and Ether) into balance. You activate the Alpha – Omega – One-Heart Chakra System once again. You receive and activate the Grail Codes and you activate and bring the Feminine/Masculine and Twin Flame Love into balance. Furthermore you activate the Holomatrix of Love in Pure White Light to begin automatically releasing and healing everything which do not serve your highest good any longer and add all that you need to reach the enlightenment at high speed and with ease and grace.”

The rest of the article can be found HERE

I also found a site that had this symbol:

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The article says:

“Germain began with an image of two circles that symbolized the separate entities before remembering the Twin Flame journey.”

“He continued by showing the infinity symbol and described how this was the beginning of the Twin Flames journey. As the two circles come closer together and begin to form the two halves of the eight, (infinity symbol) this symbolized the beginning of the coming together of the divine masculine and the divine feminine. Through working together whether in the physical or the etheric realms they would experience within the inner eye of the heart the moving energies as it traveled around the infinity symbol. As the two energies meet in the middle it can be clearly seen as the magnetic energies of the divine feminine and the electric energies of the divine masculine.  (The link to the article that this came from, is no longer working).

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I’m having a difficult time explaining what’s been shown to me (by my inner guidance) about the infinity symbol, but here are some pictures that might help to explain it better:

From The Emerald Tablet:

“When thou hast entered the form thou hast dwelt in, use thou the cross and the circle combined. Open thy mouth and use thou thy Voice. Utter the Word and thou shalt be free. Only the one who of Light has the fullest can hope to pass by the guards of the way. And then must he move through strange curves and angles that are formed in direction not known to man.”

**Click on Ankh pictures for updated findings (July 24, 2015):

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From the Emerald Tablet:

“Only they could guard God’s creation. Then did I pass ëround the circle of eight. Saw all the souls who had conquered the darkness. Saw the splendor of Light where they dwelled. Longed I to take my place in their circle, but longed I also for the way I had chosen, when I stood in the Halls of Amenti and made my choice to the work I would do.”

Circle of Eight:

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Old Way ~ Wheel of Karma

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New Way ~ In This NOW

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Infinity Spirit/Sol and Soul/Luna, Male and Female

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There are four elements in this image that are connected by an ouroborus symbol. The lion represents the essence of spirit and the swan symbolizes the feminine soul. Here the lion consumes the female swan within the stage of the work that she represents, namely, the albedo. Thus the silver, or white stone, is in the process of being transmuted into gold. The lion and the swan, spirit and soul, are captured in their cosmic counterparts, sun (Sol) and moon (Luna), within the ouroborus. Typically the snake devouring its own tail is presented as a circle representing a state of primal unconsciousness; activated but not going anywhere. But, here we see this symbol in the form of the infinity sign, thus indicating a shift toward conscious integration of the energies of spirit/Sol and soul/Luna [male and female].  (Link for the article that this picture came from, is no longer working)

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I apologize for not being able to explain the information that I’ve received and just using pictures, but it’s such a deep “knowing” that my limited interpretation cannot fully explain.  I hope it makes sense and is my wish that it will help in some way on one’s journey.  The gold/silver, male/female, mirror image, serpent/snakes, I AM presence, infinity symbol are all coming together and the pieces of the puzzle are quickly filling in.  It’s not what I would have expected it to be, but it’s a reminder that following your Heart is so important in this process.  There is no right or wrong, but if you follow what truly resonates with your Heart, you will always find your way home GoldenHeart

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Twin Flames captured above my head in a photo after this experience

 

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Energy Sensations – Update November 17th – 18th, 2013

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November 17, 2013

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For the past couple of days I’ve been feeling what I call “hot spots”. It’s when I feel simultaneous tiny electrical pulses on different parts of my body at the same time. For example, I felt a spot on my right knee at the same exact time as on my left forearm….or I felt it on my right hip at the same exact time as my left shoulder. There’s been a consistent pattern of left and right sides firing up together.

I’ve felt this sensation off and on for the past few years but it seems to be very active in the past two days. In the past I’ve felt it maybe a few times a day but am now feeling it several times an hour. Since it’s been so much more active, it’s given me the chance to really focus on it and figure out a better way to explain it. I used to explain it as a poking sensation, but now as I’m tuning into it, I’m getting the message that it’s an electrical pulse “firing up” sensation. There is some heat to it and it only lasts for a few seconds. When it happens, it lasts for the same exact amount of time on the two simultaneous locations on my body.

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I’m also getting that this is on an etheric level, so maybe it’s activation of smaller nadis? I’ve read that there are something like 72,000 of them, so that’s a lot of nadis to awaken and cleanse. Maybe it’s the pulses firing up through the nadis that have normally been congested or stagnant and are now becoming active causing the discomfort? While I was searching pictures, I found a picture that had the quote “Nadis – the real burning bush”. That makes sense to me. “Firing up”, “electrical pulses”, “burning bush”…. I guess the nadis do look like branches of a bush, don’t they?…Maybe the activated nadis completely “fired up” could be the true meaning of the burning bush in the Bible? I can see where Kundalini Tummo fire would play a part in that…

I’ve also noticed that the liquid light type energy that I feel moving around on my body now has a thicker and slower sensation. I can compare it to feeling like the consistency of warm water in the past, but now feels thick and slow flowing like honey. I know it sounds weird but it actually feels REALLY good. It’s very soothing. It seems to spend a lot of time at my temples and pulling on my lower back.

For the past two days I’ve also been feeling pulling sensations on my Solar Plexus as I’m falling asleep or in a very relaxed state. The energies in and around my body are extremely active right now and have many different things going on at the same time.

I’m seeing lots of tiny grey, bright white and blue sparkles of energy manifesting around me throughout the day. I just walked from my bedroom to the kitchen and I completely walked through something in the middle of the room. I looked back to see what it was, but it was gone. It looked illuminated white and came up to the height of my abdomen.

That loud annoying tone in my right ear is gone and it’s now back to the high pitched hiss sound. I like that sound better because it’s easier to ignore. Sometimes it’s so high pitched that I can barely even notice that it’s there.

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November 18, 2013

Last night I had the “turning in on myself” feeling which I imagine is the Torus movement. When this happens, I tend to feel like I’m losing my breath and I need to relax and breathe deeply. It didn’t last too long, maybe 15 minutes. After that, I had the sensation of air moving through my Root chakra. It feels like I have an actual hole in my body and that air is forcefully moving through it. I usually get that sensation in the Sacral chakra, but this time it’s just the Root. I also noticed an increase in the energy flooding out of my feet, so maybe there’s some heavy grounding or anchoring going on…The Root sensation is still active today.

I realized today on a Spiritual website that someone had a profile picture that looked kind of like the “turtle shell” energy I’ve been seeing :

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I thought that was pretty interesting because this person creates pictures from what they see in visions. Maybe they’re sensing and seeing the same energy that I’m seeing? I wonder what it means or what this energy represents ?

I went to the grocery store earlier and couldn’t help but realize how people are constantly on their i-phones and not paying attention to their surroundings. I’m not exaggerating when I say that every single person I encountered in the store either bumped into me with their cart because they were reading messages on their phones, were at a complete stop and blocking the entire isle while flipping through their phone, or was not paying attention that they were next to checkout because they were too busy texting.  It’s like everyone is in programmed robot or zombie mode. They all seemed to walk slower than normal and were numb to their surroundings.  I saw a guy walk into the middle of the street the other day while he was looking at his phone and he almost got hit by a car…

That reminds me of a photo I found :

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They’re EVERYWHERE and they’re taking over ! – LOL 🙂

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Energy Sensations – Update October 24, 2013

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(The picture above is from the website http://www.universallifetools.com/)

I had a pretty cool lucid dream this morning.  I was shown that I was in the middle of an illuminated 12 pointed star and the star points were coming out of my body.  I’m thinking that it was the 12 pointed lightbody being activated (as explained by Earthkeeper Tyberonn as the Mer-ka-va).  I changed the picture above to pink and lavender tones because that’s how I saw it in my dream…

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But I was also shown how this 12 pointed star lightbody worked in relation to the “13 crystal skulls”.  I was shown that the skulls would be activated by a person/people, not just by the physical 13 crystal skulls coming together.  The activation was going to be by activating the 12 pointed star lightbody and the person/people being “crystalline” was what would act as the 13th crystal skull activation.  From my understanding, it is“Crystalline” fully merged and integrated with Feminine Christ Consciousness aspect (aka  the 13th disciple) as being the key.  I don’t know, but it seems that was the message…It’s a bit confusing and I’ve been having a hard time putting my visions into words lately.

I understood that NOW or “in this now” this could not be accessed by anyone with the “wrong intentions” (like they show in the Indiana Jones movie – lol) because you must attain crystalline (balanced) status to be aligned with it…and we all know how much Light work that will take!  That’s just my limited interpretation of it, but I’m sure there’s much more involved…(**See video below, from Magenta Pixie, at very bottom of this post for update**)

 

I woke up from the dream because my tongue was burning with an electrical flickering sensation.  I’ve had a subtle consistent electrical pulse running through my tongue for a couple of months now and it got so strong during this dream that it startled me awake.

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When I fell back to sleep after I briefly woke up, I had another dream that I was in a car with my best friend (she’s also going through the Ascension process on a very physical level).  We were driving at night and noticed that the dashboard of the car was not lighting up and I couldn’t see the speedometer.  I completely stopped the car and tried driving again, and the dashboard lit up completely that time.  I wasn’t steering the car with my hands though, I was steering with my mind…and the road was moving and curving into the direction that I wanted to go…like the road was fluid and it could move any way I wanted it to.  It was pretty cool to see the road and the middle lines moving and shifting.  When I woke up, I got the idea that the car was also symbolism for the lightbody.  Maybe there’s a large group going through this level of lightbody activation right now? That seems to be the message I’m getting…

**Quite a while after writing about the lucid dream, on February 22, 2014, I got a newsletter email from Earthkeeper Tyberonn.  In the email, he included a video of the Crystal Skull “Sha Na Ra” that was taken on 12-12-12.  The video shows purple/pinkish energy coming out of the top of the skull just like the colors I saw in my dream…Pretty awesome sync 🙂

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As I mentioned above, my tongue’s had a pulse of energy running through it on a daily basis.  In the past few days, I’ve also had nerves twitching in various teeth and a strange burning feeling in different places on my teeth, gums and jaw.  I’m assuming it has to do with the energies.  I know El Collie has mentioned feeling like all of her teeth were aching at the same time during her Kundalini experience.  I think it has to do with the energies once they reach your head and upper chakras.  I’ve had a lot of energetic activity on my face, jaw, tongue, upper palate and upper chakras lately.

On Tuesday (October 22nd)  I had one of the worst sinus migraines I’ve had in many years.  I felt like my head was going to explode.  I’m 100% sure that it was my sinuses.  Sometimes when our sinuses get inflamed, it can radiate pain to our teeth since the sinuses sit right on top of the teeth.  It can mimic a full on toothache.  Here’s a picture of a panoramic view x-ray:

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The pink area is where the sinuses are…notice how they sit just above the back teeth.  That’s exactly where my teeth were hurting when I had the sinus headache.  I could feel really heavy pressure downloads in the Crown and 3rd eye area and my Crown was swaying throughout the day, so I’m sure that’s why I got the sinus irritation.  It seems to happen when I get the “heavy” downloads as opposed to the “blissful” ones.

I’ve also had multiple nerves twitching like crazy in my thighs and buttock muscles on both legs for a couple of weeks.  They’re twitching so hard that you can see my skin moving and flinching on my thighs.  It’s so bizarre.  What do my thighs and buttock muscles have to do with this process? Maybe it’s due to meridians? I don’t know… I’ve also noticed that the tone I usually hear in my ears now sounds like a hiss sound.  It’s like it’s so high pitched that it no longer registers as a tone.

Crown downloads, migraines, nerves twitching, tongue pulsing, hissing noises…  I can only imagine what I sound like to the average person…LOL

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**On August 9, 2014, Magenta Pixie posted a video speaking of the Crystal Skull activation…She speaks of the Crystal Skulls around the 8:20 mark…Pretty awesome sync! 🙂
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Energy Sensations – Update September 16, 2013

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My Kundalini fired up yesterday.  Out of nowhere, I felt the Tummo fire move up to the back of my neck.  I was taught in my Reiki Tummo class to stand against the wall to straighten up my spine so that the Tummo could move more freely, so I did that.  It hasn’t been too often that this has happened randomly while I’m awake, so I made sure I made the most of it. It lasted for about twenty minutes. The Tummo fire will rapidly burn off impurities and accelerate the purification process.  I’ll take all the help I can get ! 😉

Had a strange dream last night…In the dream I was outside looking around because I heard some noise and I realized there were thousands of black helicopters hovering in the sky.  I had a childhood friend with me and I pointed the helicopters out to him so he would look.  We were amazed at the sight of the entire sky filled with them.  As we were looking, I noticed that trees were falling over in the distance…then noticed that a tsunami was coming toward us near a mountain in the distance.

I remember telling him not to worry because as long as he was with me, nothing would happen to him. The tsunami was gaining speed and I could see a huge wall of water rising up into the sky coming toward us.  I pulled him by his arm and we ran as fast as we could into the house…we were able to slam the door just before the water touched us. The tsunami wiped out  everything around us but not the house we were in, we were safe there.  I knew in the dream that I had control over whatever it was that was happening…it’s like I was aware that it was just an illusion.  The rest of the dream was spent trying to pack our stuff to leave the area.

There seems to be a theme with strong forces of water for me lately.  I’m seeing this everywhere and now it’s in my dreams too. First with my dream of the water rushing through my Shushumna and now this dream about the tsunami… I’ve also been seeing a theme of mirrors or things mirroring itself (number sequences, symbolism in movies etc)…and also gold and silver are playing a large part in my reality. I read somewhere that gold represents the masculine and silver represents the feminine, sun and moon, Ida and Pingala…

When I was a teenager I remember I had a dream that I fell off of a sinking ship in the middle of the sea.  The sky was pitch black with just a faint soft glow from the moon.  I was floating in the water trying to find something to hold on to and I saw something illuminated moving toward me from a distance.  When it got closer to me, I realized that it was two illuminated snakes fighting with each other in the water.  One snake was gold and the other one was silver.  They were fighting and twirling around each other with an electrical current emanating from them.  The feeling from the dream stayed with me throughout the years and I’ve always remembered it like if it happened yesterday.

I found this picture many years later and it reminds me of the dream:

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There seems to be so much more to this with the water, mirrors, gold and silver…I just can’t quite figure it out.  Like something’s brewing up inside of me and one day I’ll just have this profound realization of what it all means.  It feels like there’s a faint memory but I can’t quite grasp it.

My 3rd eye has been more active in the last couple of weeks.  I woke up one morning seeing what I call the “turtle shell energy”.  It looks like this:

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I’ve seen it a few times but I have no idea what it is.  When I see it, it looks like white illuminated odd shaped circles within circles all forming a pattern.

The next day I woke up to seeing the “molecule” energy all around me.  It reminds me of the TV screen when you lose connection and it looks like snow.  It looks like this:

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Since then I’ve seen the regular gridlines and some bright blue orbs.  I’ve also seen my aura flickering like if there’s light emanating out of me flickering outward on a large scale.  The flickering light has happened quite a bit lately.  Sometimes I see it with my eyes closed too…

I’ve been seeing 12:12 everywhere quite frequently.  I even weighed myself two days in a row and my digital scale said I weighed 121.2…also continuing to see 555 and 222 everywhere.  Things have been pretty calm and I’m still able to stay centered and balanced.  I don’t even get mad at my boyfriend anymore (which is a miracle in itself – LOL).  It wasn’t until my life became so calm that I realized just how chaotic it used to be (especially working in law enforcement).  I would never be able to go back to that life…my physical body wouldn’t be able to handle the stress anymore.  It’s like, you don’t realize that you’ve had a knot in your stomach for most of your life until the knot is gone.  Why was I so afraid of change…why didn’t I do this sooner?

Sometimes I fantasize about living in a monastery and devoting the rest of my life to studying Buddhist texts…but I know in my Heart that it’s not what I’m here for this time.  Sometimes we long for what’s comfortable for us and sometimes what’s comfortable for us is what we’ve already done.  That time has passed for me and it’s time for something new.  I’m just not sure what that is yet…I trust that the Universe will lead me in the right direction…

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Love ❤

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Energy Sensations – Update August 2, 2013

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Starting on July 27th, I began to have some very painful pineal migraines.  The kind of headache where your brain feels swollen in the middle and you want to go cross eyed…taking any medications or pain killers doesn’t help with the headache at all.   This is the longest I’ve ever had it…so many days in a row…The first time I had a headache like this for 3 days in a row (back in 2009), I went to the emergency room and had a CT scan and a spinal tap, and they couldn’t find anything wrong with me.  I’ve learned how to recognize these headaches now…

Also on July 27th I had a really bizarre lucid dream while I was taking a nap.  In the dream, I initially thought that my Kundalini was fully awakening and coming to completion to my Crown because I felt something forcefully moving up my spine…but it wasn’t the hot liquid feeling that I usually get, it just felt like a huge force of water about as wide as my head coming upward and shooting out of the top of my head full force.  This was some powerful force, like a fireman’s hose on full blast!  It felt so real and felt exactly like rushing water.

After I realized that it was water, I realized that it wasn’t actually the Kundalini, but some type of major cleansing or widening of the shushumna.  All I could do is just stand still and let it finish.  It was quite an overwhelming sensation with such power behind it that I just surrendered to it and let it continue to flow.  Once the forceful water stopped, there seemed to be some focus on the Crown and smaller streams of water (like laser precision) cleaning around the opening at the top of my head….It was a VERY realistic dream and I can recall the sensations as if it really happened…it was a really strange experience…I’m not sure what to make of it…

When I woke up from the dream, my headache was 10 times worse than it was before I fell asleep and I was burning up hot.  I felt like I had a fever. The heat emanating from my body was almost unbearable. The rest of the day I was ill…I felt like I had the flu with body aches, upset stomach and sensitivity to light.  I spent the entire day in bed feeling pain and discomfort. I kept seeing things around me that looked like orbs…feeling very disoriented and foggy and lots of energetic movement on my body in various locations…extreme fatigue…  Whatever happened in my dream, it did something to my energy.   Maybe I did it to myself to speed up the cleansing process?  I’m not sure…

I’ve felt very ill every day since then.  I’m still feeling ridiculously tired and disoriented now…My upper back, neck and jaw are full of tension and hurting pretty bad…also spasms on the Root chakra.  This seems to be a very intense cleansing period for me…when will this END ?! (sigh)…

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Let it pass

The energies are VERY busy right now…I feel that there is a potential for stress and chaos, but it’s not what one might think…it’s just that so much is passing through us right now, that it can be misinterpreted as negativity since it appears jumbled and chaotic…it’s not necessarily negative, but just chaotic energy due to there being so much of it all at once.  Does that even make any sense?  I see it as being kind of like the movie “The Butterfly Effect”…when he changes the future, and he has all of the events passing through him at the same time.  That’s the only way I can describe it as I see it.

Because of this phase, we may feel sad one moment, angry the next, happy, and then sad again…it’s just all of the energy passing through us and the key to staying balanced is to just let it go.  Most people may not understand where all of the emotions are coming from or how to deal with it…I’m physically exhausted and pretty much staying in bed, but although I’m resting, I know that my energy is very busy.  It’s a whirlwind of everything that is, that ever has been.

I didn’t notice too much physically on July 29th Grand Sextile…I did a meditation from Anrita Melchizedek called “Unified Heart Merkaba Activation” .  During the meditation, I was visualizing sending energy to different countries…as soon as I started that part of the meditation my arms moved upward like a yoga pose without me thinking about it…they just moved on their own.

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While I was in that pose, I felt something move under my right breast…it REALLY hurt like a stabbing pain.  It felt like something was alive and moving in there…I’m not sure what it was but I will assume that it has something to do with my Heart chakra expanding since I was doing a Unified Heart meditation.  I couldn’t really find anything online about any specific chakra under the right breast.  But there was definitely movement there and it felt more physical (heavy) than energetic (light).  I know I’ve felt buzzing under my right breast in the past, so I’ve always wondered if there is another separate chakra there that was awakening.

Other than that, I didn’t feel any more movement or any specific energies.  Now it just feels like an integration process…like I’m traveling through a sea of jumbled information, signals,  all coming at me at the same time.  I’ve learned to just let it go through me and not hold on to anything.  Holding on will create cords and cords will weigh me down…Don’t wanna get tangled…

My throat has been feeling clogged and I’ve been ridiculously tired, so I just tell people that I have the flu…So that’s all I’m getting right now…I feel there’s really not much I can do to feel better except let all of this pass through me and get some rest.  The less reactive I am to this process, the better the outcome.  I am really counting on this not lasting too much longer.

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Energy Sensations – Update July 8, 2013

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I had a dream last night about my step dad.  In the dream, he was actually being a very nice person and we were agreeing with our views about my mother.  It was REALLY strange!  In the dream, he was actually trying to be a good father to my brother and sister, but it was my mom that was making it difficult to raise them properly. This dream was also a big breakthrough in my emotions because I’ve had nightmares about him for so many years. There’s definitely some healing that has taken place and I’m SO GRATEFUL for it 🙂

Also in the dream, there was a male white ferret.  The ferret was speaking to me telepathically and he told me that he felt sick.  I was going to give him some energy healing to make him feel better, but I ended up waking up from the dream.  I looked up the ferret totem on the internet and this is what I found:

“With their eyes that point forward straight down their noses, ferrets are highly focused on what is in front of them. This reminds those with this spirit animal to stay focused on their goals. Ferrets have a fine sense of smell, and can see clearly in the dark, linking them to the underworld. They have sharp intuition and their sensitivity is acute. They are able to see and know the hidden meaning behind everything. The ferret can help you understand yourself, your life, and the experiences you have far clearer. Use all of your senses equally if this is your animal guide. If underdeveloped you may have a leaning toward tunnel vision. An inflexible consciousness makes for needless concern and anxiety, therefore caution is advised. Having a light-hearted attitude and playful activities are helpful.” 

I’ve been SOOOOO ridiculously tired…I don’t think I’ve ever felt this tired in my entire life.  I don’t even have energy to go to the grocery store…In the last 2 weeks I’ve had some painful nerve pinching and twitching going on.  The most painful is the pinching jolting sensation in my big toes. No signs of any purple or bruising on my toes though…I’m surprised that I don’t have any marks on my toes because it’s a pretty strong sensation….so bizarre…  The next painful sensation which I felt for 2 days in a row is what feels like someone is poking my right eye with a needle.  It’s a horrifying feeling that’s random and just suprises me out of nowhere.  It’s happened before periodically on both eyes, but not for 2  days straight…I really don’t like that one at all…

El Collie (who wrote about her Kundalini experience) mentioned the eye poking sensation and toe jolts in an article found here :

http://www.eaglespiritministry.com/teaching/elcollie/ecbb.htm

I’ve been eating a lot for the past 3 days…it’s like I can’t stop snacking even though I’m not hungry.  I’ve been having trouble eating in the past year (due to complications from a throat surgery), and have lost too much weight, so I’m not complaining!  It’s just strange to want to eat all of a sudden.  I’ve been eating a lot of cereal with almond milk, and have been craving ice cream for some reason.  I usually cut out dairy and have almost completely eliminated sugar, but I have an uncontrollable urge to eat ice cream.  I’m guessing my body needs sugar and carbs right now, for some reason…

As I mentioned above, the painful electrical jolts in my big toes have continued, but now I feel like something is sitting on my left toe.  It’s a weird feeling, but it’s been there for the past 2 days.  When I walk, it flutters whatever it is…  Also random buzzing on my Crown in different locations…it’s not the whole Crown buzzing at once, it’s just small spots about the size of a nickel that start randomly buzzing at different times throughout the day.  When I get heavy Crown downloads, it seems to be only at the back of my head lately, which is something new.  I saw a picture from the Humanity Healing website newsletter and it reminded me of the download sensation I’m having.

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The picture was part of an article they wrote on the cerebellum, but I couldn’t access the article since I’m not a paying member of the website (sigh)…but here’s a free article that they were kind enough to let the poor people read – LOL :

http://humanityhealing.net/2013/07/the-esoteric-significance-of-the-cerebellum-i/

Some people consider the cerebellum area the “8th Chakra”, while other people consider the Soul Star chakra (about 6 inches above the Crown) to be the 8th chakra….I personally don’t really care what “number” they attach to a chakra, I just know that I have one there because I can feel it!   but  when different people give different numbers, it just adds to the confusion if they’re only referring to numbers instead of names.  I wonder why there’s such a big difference in what they’re intuitively seeing in these chakras?  Maybe it’s just a difference in vibration (only certain people with certain vibrations to match can see them)? Or maybe some people don’t have certain chakras outside of the 7 major chakras and some do?  I’ve even heard of people ripping their chakras out and removing them completely (Yikes)…definitely not ready for anything like that, but will stay out of judgment 😉

There’s been so much activity on my neck and head lately, I’m thinking that maybe I’ll experience the Kundalini completely rising soon?  It seems to have reached my neck (throat) so far, and then just stops there. It’s been at that point for a while…I’ve heard that once it penetrates the 3rd eye, it will reach the Crown shortly after…I’ve been having constant work done on my 3rd eye and continuous Crown activity lately, so maybe it’ll be soon…When the “core” Kundalini rises, I can feel the hot liquid feeling slowly slithering up my spine.  When it happens, I picture in my mind the mercury in a thermometer, so I associate the core Kundalini with silver liquid.

From what I’ve read, when the Kundalini finishes the purification process and reaches the Crown, there’s this profound Ecstasy Blissful life changing event that takes place. It’s been explained as “Illumination” that other people can actually see… Will that happen for me?  Uh…probably not… the reason I say that is because for the most part,  my experience has been pretty tame…but maybe I’m wrong, maybe I will experience this Illumination that they speak of.

That would be pretty cool and it’s a welcomed experience.  I just hope I’m not standing in the checkout line in a store or sitting on the toilet or something…that would definitely take away from my illumination experience…but the way my life’s been going and the twisted sense of humor that my “future self” seems to have, anything’s possible…a toilet bowl enlightenment may just very well be in my future… LOL

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Flame of the Disciple

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In late 2008, about a year after my big spiritual awakening, I had moved to Phoenix, Arizona.  I got a big promotion at work, and was able to rent a beautiful guest house on a 5 acre property in Camelback Mountain.  It was SO beautiful and peaceful.  There were quail families, owls, hawks, and at night, I could hear the coyotes singing right on my porch!  There was an amazing energy that engulfed this property and you could feel it and breathe it in.

During my year long stay at this house, I had many things happen that I label as “Kundalini phenomena”.  One night I fell asleep on the couch, and woke up in the middle of the night seeing a 5 foot bright illuminated neon blue Sri Yantra mandala in my living room…

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It was swaying from left to right and making a humming noise.

Another night, I also fell asleep on the couch and woke up in the middle of the night to what sounded like 1,000 birds chirping, dogs barking, and cats meowing  all at once.  It was so loud, it sounded like it was on surround sound throughout the entire house for several minutes.  I noticed that I felt my Crown chakra swaying while I heard it, and then as the swaying slowed down, the sounds left as if they rolled right through and disappeared completely.

Another time I woke up from a nap during the day, and saw orange triangles flipping upward into the air and forming a pattern of a snake’s head.

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The orange triangles formed the snake’s head like a puzzle and then two emerald green eyes appeared.  It reminded me of the story of the Buddha when the large snake covered his head to shield him from the rain.

So one day on the weekend, I was cleaning the kitchen and I heard a soft little voice in my head say “You’re a disciple of Jesus”….Huh?  I was puzzled by this and after thinking about it for a while, I kind of laughed and just went on with my day.  A couple of years later a woman in a salt lamp store  & I got to talking about Spiritual stuff and out of the blue she recommended going to see a woman named Mary Martin to get an Akashic Record reading.  Coincidentally, two of her friends that also knew Mary very well, just happened to walk into the store just minutes later, and they also recommended seeing Mary.  I made an appointment a few weeks later and had my very first reading done.

Mary said I’ve lived 7,641 lives and accessed three records that were chosen to be of significance to this lifetime.  The first one that was pulled was of when I was a teenage boy that became a disciple of Jesus.  That was a confirmation of the little voice that whispered to me that day while cleaning my house. I had never told anyone about my disciple experience, including Mary, so she didn’t know about it.   It was funny because Mary records all of her readings and then gives you a CD to take home.  In one of the record readings, she told me I was a Monk in Ireland and when she was listening for my name in that lifetime, you can clearly hear a little voice in the background whisper “Patrick” right before she said the name Patrick to me.  There was nobody else home at the time, it was just us, so that was really cool to hear that.

So, I ‘ve noticed that I get a flame above my head in pictures every time I go to Sedona.  I really didn’t read too much into it until one day I saw a picture of disciples with flames above their head.  Hmmmm … more confirmation ? 🙂

        

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