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Energy Sensations – Update October 8, 2014

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My (ex)boyfriend took this photo on the way home from work today…so beautiful…

 

It’s been extremely difficult to put anything into words lately and as a result, I haven’t posted anything. I just wanted to give a brief and quick update on the energies. First of all…WOW…the energies that came in throughout the night and continue to come in at this very moment are SO strong! I had been feeling quite dizzy for the past few days, but today is just off the charts.

I didn’t even bother to watch the Full Moon/Blood Moon/Lunar Eclipse early this morning because mosquito season is crazy out here in Arizona…my blood type is one of their preferences ( O positive blood type) and my poor legs are living proof. So when I went to bed last night, I was too lazy to turn on my night light. I fell asleep in complete darkness which is very rare for me. I like to have a light on so I can see what’s in the room when I hear noises (which is often).  I woke up several times throughout the night and saw illuminated swirling patterns all around me. I could actually see it clearer because I was in the darkened room. It was pretty intense. When I finally woke up early in the morning,  my body was burning up hot… I was feeling disoriented and a bit dehydrated.

The swirling patterns I saw seemed to have gold, orange, and brown colors in them…I had never seen brown before, so I meditated on it and got the message that it was orange and green mixed together (or overlapping) making it look brown. So gold, orange and green with very tiny flecks of indigo/purple here and there… That’s something very new to me…

On October 2nd, I had woken up in the middle of the night and saw beautiful flickering golden symbols all around me. They illuminated the entire room and were shimmering.  When I focused on them, I got the words “fire codes”, so I’m thinking it was the same as fire letters. They were really beautiful to see and gave me a magical feeling. The next day after seeing them, I researched it on the internet and read that the  fire letters are part of the DNA activation.

Also, on October 6th, I attempted to take a short nap (but was unable to completely fall asleep) and when I was in that “in between” state, I was shown something that looked like this:

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It didn’t have the colors though; it was just showing me different tiers or levels of something. I was shown that all of these levels were going to compress or collapse together. Initially, I was worried because anything having to do with compressing or collapsing in the past has been physically painful through my body…  so I asked if it was going to be painful, and I didn’t receive an answer! I guess instead of interpreting this as collapse or compress, I’ll look at it as a gentler “integrate” or “unify” which doesn’t sound so painful (cringe) …I don’t fully understand it though…it’s beyond my scope of human understanding. Maybe I’ll read something about it later…

**On October 14th, Lisa Renee posted an update that speaks of lower mental body compression and also goes into further explanation of fire letters…awesome sync 🙂

Much Gratitude!

http://energeticsynthesis.com/index.php/resource-tools/blog-timeline-shift/2519-defragmentation

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Energy Sensations

I’m currently getting lots of Crown downloads which feels like warm water pouring into the top of my head. Occasionally, I’m also feeling the warm water sensation pouring in at the bridge of my nose which feels kinda strange…it makes my nose feel like it’s distorted or morphing into something else.  There’s also been lots of heavy movement on my face around my eyelids and temples…I can actually feel my eyelashes moving when the energies are on my eyelids. I’ve been having a lot of work being done on me during sleep time and will wake up frequently throughout the night because it’s just too intense. When I wake up, I’m burning hot and my head feels sore.  For the most part, the focus has been on my head and face.

I’ve noticed that sometimes during the day, I’ll see a light overlay of colors which is something new. It’s been different colors, but the most frequent color looks pink. It’s been very hard for me to focus and I feel very dizzy…sometimes it feels like I’m spinning and I’ll have to go lay down for a while. My Heart chakra has opened more and I’ve been feeling a strong tickling sensation in the center of my chest for the past couple of days. I’m also feeling something lovingly stroking my arm throughout the day.

It seems that I need to drink more water lately and will become dehydrated very quickly. Maybe it’s because of the “fire” type energy that’s very active right now? I just read a post by Lisa Renee and she speaks of the fire energy and recent Kundalini symptoms HERE . I just recently discovered Lisa Renee’s Ascension Glossary and it’s helped to answer so many of my questions.  Everything is all coming together…

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I had a flashback memory today of when I was a kid, about 5 yrs old… I remembered going outside and talking to the sky at night time. I knew that I had something important to do, a purpose for being here, but couldn’t figure out what it was. While looking for some type of validation or confirmation that what I was feeling was true, I would ask the sky to tell me, but never received any answers. I imagined that I had special powers, but couldn’t seem to get them to work – lol…I would have never imagined that so many years later, at 36 yrs old, an awakening out-of-body experience would change my life so drastically…and would also answer my childhood question of what that important thing was that I am here to do. In remembering that moment from my childhood, it brought such a feeling of Gratitude and comfort.

**On December 7, 2014, I found a post that relates to my childhood memory of talking to the night sky…awesome sync! ❤  http://www.bob-fickes.com/2014/12/childrens-dreams/

Despite all of the discomfort and physical symptoms happening to my body, I feel so fortunate to be here during this time…to be going through something so awesome, something I could have never imagined to be real…something that I felt and knew within when I was a child.  That just hit me today and it brought such a profound feeling of Love and comfort…so much Gratitude from my Heart ❤

My inner child is very happy in this moment…

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Love ❤

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**When I watched this video, it made me think of the timeline work, compression and defragmentation process that we’re currently going through…such a beautiful video…

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Healing the Sea of Sadness

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I meant to post this on FEBRUARY 16, 2013, but didn’t get around to it…

The past few days I was an emotional wreck.  I cried for 2 days straight starting on Feb. 13th, like REALLY crying non-stop all day and all night…thinking of all the sad things that had happened to me throughout my entire life…my poor excuse for a mother, my nightmare stepdad who hated me, no family support, no true friends, nobody ever defending me or sticking up for me as a child of abuse, and also focus on how awful my current relationship with my boyfriend was and how he was so unthoughtful…it’s sort of like I was just feeling sorry for myself for everything that I had been through and for the support system that I didn’t have.  On the third day, I came to the realization of what was causing this.  It was sort of a merge with a part of me that had been repressed during my childhood and part of my adulthood.

This sadness was unlike anything I had ever experienced before…I feel that if it had gone on any longer than it did, I might not have wanted to be alive anymore.  It sort of showed me what other people go through when they lose the will to live.  If they don’t know how to release it and just continue to focus on it, it can grow much bigger.  It was the ultimate feeling of hopelessness and rejection…not fitting in, not having a support system of friends or family like other people do, not feeling important or any purpose in life, nobody checking up on you or worrying about you when you’re missing or gone for long periods of time.

When I woke from sleep on the 3rd day, I immediately had a sudden knowing of why I was feeling so much sadness…it was explained to me that all this sadness wanted,  was just to be acknowledged.  I had pushed it aside and tried to ignore it for so many years, but it was time to let it express itself.  I treated the sadness like an actual person and while meditating, I sent it Love and comfort, Forgiveness, saying sorry for what it had been through…

After all of that was done, the sadness seemed to go away.   I had ignored it and pushed it aside all of my life because I had treated it like it was a weakness.  I did exactly what my mother did to me…she always sent me to my room and told me she didn’t want to hear it.  I was doing the same exact thing to my own feelings.  Sometimes all something or someone wants is to be able to express itself, to be heard…just acknowledgement and a little sympathy for what they’re going through…that’s all it takes, it’s that simple.  Such a small gesture can heal an entire lifetime of sadness.

I feel like I healed and released something VERY BIG.  I’m just so Grateful that I was able to figure it out because this was HUGE.  I do believe that I almost didn’t make it out….There’s a very fine line in releasing this type of energy…on one hand, you need to let it express itself, so you must feel it and experience it…but on the other hand, it can get so overwhelming and explode into this huge sea of emotions, that you might not be able to keep your head above water to see the way out.  That’s why it’s so important to always stay in the Heart…meditate on your Heart center for the answers and for help…the Heart will always shine the light to find your way out of the darkness ❤

**After posting this, I found an article on Feb. 27th about Pope Benedict's public farewell speech…in an emotional farewell, he was quoted as saying : “There were moments of joy and light but also moments that were not easy … there were moments, as there were throughout the history of the Church, when the seas were rough and the wind blew against us and it seemed that the Lord was sleeping”.  That was a pretty big sync for me…wow! 🙂

The article can be found here:

http://news.yahoo.com/huge-crowd-st-peters-square-popes-last-audience-092643759.html

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Energy Sensations

My skin has been very itchy for the past few days and last night my skin felt like a burning sensation…mainly on my legs…it was sort of like the hot cold burning you feel when you put on menthol or Icy Hot rub on your skin.  There was no explanation for it because I hadn’t put any lotions or anything like that and it just came out of nowhere.  I’ll go to the doctor next week to get some tests done just to make sure it’s not diabetes or something else…better to be safe…but I definitely have something going on with my nerves throughout my body.

I’m also feeling some movement on my body…lots of swirly movement on my neck and my 3rd eye and temple area for the past 2 days…almost like the energy is pushing and pulling in a gentle massage…also lots of Crown activity and energies pouring in to my head.   My nerves have been extremely active and I’ve felt an exaggerated amount of random twitching for the past few days on my legs, arms, face, neck, and my knees…also an arthritis type aching feeling in my knees.  I’m actually feeling something move out of the left side of my head as I’m typing this.

Sometimes I get this strange tingly sensation like something’s touching me on my arm, and when I look at my arm, I’ll have goose bumps only on the spot that I felt was being touched.  It just happened right now when I was in the kitchen and I showed my boyfriend.  It’s so weird, just goose bumps in small patches almost like fingerprints or something.  I showed one of my friends once and she said it almost looked like it was spelling out a word on my arm!

Everything feels different today.  Not sure if it’s because I released so much sadness a few days ago, but I’m definitely not the same.  Something’s happening but I’m not sure what it is.  I just feel completely different.  When I woke up this morning, I heard a chirp in my room.  It was almost like a cricket but somehow it was different and I knew that’s not what it was.  I heard 3 single chirps about 8 seconds apart and then it stopped.  I always hear internal noises when I’m in that half awake half asleep state, so maybe it was just something like that…usually it’s bells ringing or exploding noises that will startle me awake.  This time the chirp seemed so comforting…somehow it made me feel like everything was going to be ok 🙂

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After going through this recent experience of pulling myself out of this sea of sadness, my interpretation of “walking on water” has a whole different meaning to me…

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Love ❤

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