Starting in my early 20’s, I remember waking up from sleep and seeing a huge transparent shadow-like spider hanging next to my bed. There was no immediate fear because I knew it wasn’t “real”. I just stared at it for a while, so calm and moving it’s legs like it was weaving, and then it slowly faded until it was gone. I’d seen them on occasion off and on for several years. I always just kind of ignored it, and passed it off as still being in the dream state. I didn’t see any after my big awakening in 2007, until about two years ago. I’ve just seen it one time since this big awakening, it was about the size of a tarantula and it was also on the wall next to my bed when I woke up from sleep.
My curiosity got me, so I researched it online and found a phenomenon called “astral spiders” or “etheric spiders”. There’s a lot of negative stuff out there regarding this phenomena. People are saying that they’re negative and that they’re parasites that actually siphon off of your aura and allegedly attack you in your sleep (yawn). Do I feel this to be true in my experience?…No…I don’t feel any negativity coming from these beings, and I’m pretty darn sensitive. I’m looking right at them and acknowledge them, and they don’t scurry off or show any fear, they don’t emanate any negativity or fear…they just calmly continue to weave.
This brings me to the subject of dream catchers. There’s a Native American legend that dream catchers hung by your bed will catch any negativity or negative dreams in the web-like center of the dream catcher. Since I’ve always seen these spiders while waking from sleep, and they’re always weaving around me, maybe they’re actually weaving a form of “dream catcher” around while I sleep ?
There’s also a legend of Grandmother Spider which is Goddess energy, and various other cultures view spiders as Creator of the universe, bringers of good luck and fortune, and even protectors. I think I resonate with those explanations a lot better than the fear based ones !
The classic dream catcher has a pattern in it’s web that looks very familiar to me :
It reminds me of the top view of a Torus :
I’ve even woken up from sleep to see the top view of a torus illuminated in white, glistening with a golden sheen above me. I feel like there’s a connection there, between the astral spiders, webs, the geometry of the dream catcher and the Torus, but I can’t quite figure it out yet. I’m thinking MAYBE, the spiders are actually attracted to negative energy, and “siphon” it off of your aura because they are a type of transmuter. That would explain the connection to spider webs, the influence and creation of the dream catcher, and definitely explain the connection to the Torus…the Torus IS the act of transmutation itself. It cycles and renews all energy, therefore, cleansing it. Is it possible that these astral spiders are not these big scary parasites that are stealing our energy, and are in fact, only removing the negative energy? Something to think about…
I, myself, have a fear of spiders, and I know quite a few people who have a severe fear of spiders…but why? Why are we so afraid of them? Past life experiences maybe? Is it because they look ugly? Is it programmed into us by society? If the positive legends about spiders are true, how can something that I’m so afraid of in this lifetime be my ally?
I was deathly afraid of mosquitoes when I was a kid. Sounds silly, huh ? I would run away screaming if I saw one. My friends and neighbors thought it was hysterically funny. My neighbors even nicknamed me “Mosquito”. I could not live that one down… 😦 …but a few years ago, my best friend got bit by a mosquito and actually got the complicated form of West Nile virus from it…the one that causes meningitis. She almost died. Did I somehow know or feel when I was a kid that mosquitoes could kill you?
It’s hard to tell sometimes what the real reason is behind our fears or phobias. That’s something I need to work on. I’m posting a picture of a spider here, (even one with 100’s of babies on her back-LOL) to force me to look at it and figure out where my fear comes from….Yikes!