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The Awakening ~ Part 1

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The Awakening ~

When I first had my Kundalini awakening, I had absolutely NO IDEA what had happened or what I was feeling afterward.  The force of it blew me completely out of my body and I was suddenly in another realm.  I passed through the black void of nothingness  until I saw the essence of the Red Mahakala swirling around in the darkness. It looked like red smoke that formed into the face.

I had to pass through the Mahakala to enter the next realm. In this realm, out of the darkness, a beautiful swirling galaxy appeared before me. The stars seemed to have white and pinkish colors sparkling as the galaxy spiraled in motion (I had never seen the movie “Contact” at this point, but years later when I saw it, it brought tears to my eyes when Jodie Foster saw the Galaxy in the other realm).

I just stared at how profound and beautiful this Galaxy was, until I saw a disembodied face with a tall headpiece (like the Thai Buddha statues) appear before me. It came from the left side of my view.

The face was animated and had a violet/pink color emanating from it and I realized that the face was me!  It stared at me for a while, smiled and winked at me and then I was pulled back into this realm where my physical body was.

Once I came back to my body, all of my chakras were completely blown wide open.  As a result, I was feeling a swaying and tickling sensation on the top of my head (Crown) and in the middle of my chest (Heart Center). I was also seeing symbols floating in the air around me and would begin to see gridlines.  I would spend a lot of time staring at the top of my head, in the mirror, trying to figure out why I could feel it moving, but couldn’t see anything moving lol

Long story short, I eventually got on Google (aka my Guru – lol) and searched “feeling movement on the top of my head” and found information about chakras which led me to the info about Kundalini. Until then, I had no clue what a chakra or Kundalini was and didn’t know (remember) anything about Buddhism.   I did find a lot of stuff that would talk about “Spiritual Emergency” and about some people not being ready for Kundalini and having all sorts of problems.  After extensive research, I decided that the best thing for me to do was to remove as many blocks as I could, and to learn how to work with this force that had completely ripped through my body.

I did a lot of comparison and decided to attend some Reiki Tummo workshops mainly because they worked with the Kundalini energy, removed chakra knots, widened the shushumna and also because they are very focused on strengthening the Heart Center.  I knew I would really need to work on my Heart because I had a lot of childhood trauma and had been in protection-mode for most of my life.

I had been sent to Pennsylvania for a work related 4 month detail when I had my awakening. During this time, I was conducting an investigation on a facility in Reading.  The closest workshop that I found was in Maryland…so within the first month of my awakening, I signed up and took the 3 hour drive to attend the workshop.  I had no idea what I was getting myself into but I felt really good about my decision.

The Attunement (Initiation) ~

The house that the workshop was held at was SO beautiful.  It just felt so mystical with beautiful spiritual artwork, crystals and art pieces from other countries throughout the home.  There was a strong presence of Divine Feminine energy.  When I looked out into the backyard, there was a forest of tall thin aspen trees and everything was white and glistening from the recent snow.  The owner had Husky dogs with white eyes that greeted me at the patio doors as I was staring into the forest in awe.

We all sat in the basement as we listened to Carlos Nakai flute music and were surrounded by the soft scent of sandalwood incense.  They were very respectful and required that everyone be very quiet which made the whole experience feel so sacred. When we had the initial group attunement, I felt a massive amount of Blissful liquid energy forcefully pouring into the top of my head.  It was so strong that it caused my head to move in a circular spiral motion.  When I opened my eyes and looked around the room I could see other people moving in a circular spiral motion too.  There were some advanced practitioners who actually had huge smiles on their faces and had their eyes rolled back into their head as they were spiraling !  I’m not kidding, their eyes were completely white!  They were so overtaken with Bliss from the attunement.

During part of the workshop, in small groups, we would all stand around a person lying on the table, and would all channel energy to the person on the table.  The point and intention of this practice was to open the person’s shushumna and to clear/widen the pathway. As I was channeling the energy through my hands, I felt it start to shoot out of my Heart Center.  It was such a beautiful feeling to have this Divine energy coursing through my Heart.  It felt like a pumping motion as it was pouring out.  I was surprised when one of the instructors came close to my ear and softly whispered “Yes, that’s it…use your Heart”.  It was then that I realized that she could actually see everything that I was feeling.

At times during the workshop, I felt out of place because everyone was so patient and Loving and I wasn’t used to being around people like that.  I was still working in law enforcement and had been pretty hardened by my environment.  I knew that I had a lot of work to do and probably one of the most difficult things that I’ve had to work through was getting over the feeling of not being worthy or not good enough to experience this Divine energy.  I guess growing up around Catholics will do that to you…haha

The Clearing ~

After the class, I took the 3 hour drive back to Pennsylvania.  When I got to my hotel room, I cried the entire night.  The initial cleansing process from such a huge influx of energy was brutal!  Before I ended up falling asleep, I asked ‘God’ why I was chosen to experience this and said that I felt that I wasn’t worthy because I had so much negativity from my life. As I was falling asleep and was in that in-between state, I felt something hug/envelope my body and stroke my face in comfort. It lulled me to sleep.

I remember waking up a few times throughout the night and would see symbols flashing one after another in the air above me.  I was getting some type of download.  Many years later, I saw a video where Lisa Renee called this type of download a “ticker tape” download.  That’s a perfect explanation of what I experienced that night…symbol after symbol flashing one after another for several hours.

Early in the morning when I woke up, I saw a little bright blue orb fluttering around in front of my face.  It had little sparkles coming off of it that looked like pixie dust and it landed on my pillow in front of me as it slowly faded out of sight.

Because of the massive cleansing that I was going through from the attunement, I couldn’t attend the 2nd class that was scheduled the next day.  I ended up staying in bed crying the whole weekend.  I had lots of weird stuff happen during those 2 days in bed going in and out of sleep.  I remember that I had a painting on the wall next to my bed and it was of a lake with a tree next to it, on a sunny day.  One time when I woke from sleep, the painting was of the same lake and tree, only it was winter and snowing!  The symbols continued to download and I continued to feel something stroking my face and arm in comfort.

I rescheduled the 2nd class for a month later, but the only one available was at a totally different location in Pennsylvania.  This class would be with a different group of people.  I’ll write about that experience in another post.

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Love ❤

 

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Energy Sensations – Update November 9, 2017

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I just wanted to give an update on my situation before I begin with regular updates again.

Wow…I can’t believe it’s been a year since I’ve written.  It’s been a tough year to say the least.  I’ve been struggling with finding a place to live, a place to call home.  But one thing I’ve learned is that I’m not allowed to go back to any of my old comfort zones.  Every single time I tried to go back to a place I’ve lived in the past (out of desperation) it had a horrible outcome.

In my search for a place to live, I was very fortunate to have found seasonal jobs that provide housing to employees.  This particular job I’m currently at is in Utah right up against Bryce Canyon and about a 1 1/2 hour drive to Zion National Park.  The owners of the Inn are very sweet and appreciative to have me here.  The season ended on October 31st, but they have asked me to stay through the winter and also to continue to work next season.  So now I have a comfortable place to live (my own room and bathroom) for a year!  Yayyyy  🙂

It was very interesting when I was initially driving to get here.  When I was about 20 miles away, driving on hwy 89, I felt a wall of energy hit my face and upper body.  It didn’t hurt me, but it startled me and was forceful enough to break my glasses!  The frame cracked and broke from the impact. I heard and felt it crack at the same time that I felt the wall of energy hit me.  It was so bizarre.  I immediately stopped any fear from creeping in and just kept driving.  I’ve passed by that same area several times since then, and haven’t felt anything like it again.

Since I’ve been here, I’ve been seeing gridlines when I wake up every morning.  Most times it’s the larger gridlines, but occasionally I’ll see the smaller ones.  I have no idea why the size is different.

This area seems to have a lot of electric energy.  Sometimes my face hurts from it.  There are days when I can see a large bolt of electricity come out of my finger and hear a loud cracking noise when I get shocked from touching stuff.  It can be very painful at times.  It’s just random, so it’s not happening everyday (thank goodness!).  My computer speakers also have a weird pulse noise on them when I get close to them.

My fire alarm in my room will act up occasionally and just ring once in the middle of the night…but I do have a history with setting off fire alarms…

There are a lot of mule deer here.  They seem to be very curious with me and will stop and stare instead of running away.  There is a female and two babies that like to come near me a lot.  I got a good picture of her the other day.  She’s very sweet ❤

After having a very chaotic and anxiety-filled year, it’s nice to be here with such peaceful surroundings.  It’s a very small town, so there’s not a whole lot going on.  It takes me an hour and a half just to get to Walmart to buy groceries. There’s a beautiful scenic route I take when I go to Walmart (Hwy 14 through Duck Creek), so I don’t mind the drive at all.  Here are some pictures of the drive:

The night sky is amazing and I can see more stars than I’ve ever seen anywhere before.  I haven’t taken any pictures of the stars, but here’s a picture of Bryce that I found, to give you an idea of what I’m seeing at night:

I’ve been given the message that I need to stay here away from everything for a while.  I feel fully protected by the canyon in my own little world.  This is some sort of “holding space”.  I feel like I’m repeating the same day over and over again with subtle changes…everyday, while going through the motions, it feels like déjà vu.  Overall, this place has been very welcoming and has allowed me to feel very Loved, accepted and appreciated ❤

**Update – On December 15th I saw a post from Maria Bethencourt called “The Transition Between Symphonic Universes” and in it she says:

“The Collapse Of interfered with Timelines has caused Timeline glitches across all matrices As The Heart Collective steps outside of time.  Many feel it is the same day again, a Groundhog Day effect, as they step outside of time and the 4d.  Others feel like they are in an era, like the 80’s, or 70’s.  This is normal. And these time anomalies will stop once the Heart Collective fully manifests their new reality on the new earth. “

I thought that was a pretty awesome confirmation with feeling like I’m repeating the same day over and over again  🙂 The entire post can be found HERE

 

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I’ve been going through phases of eating A LOT.  At times, it seems that I cannot satisfy my appetite and will eat a ridiculous amount of food.  I’ve also been requiring a lot of sleep, but every once in a while, there will be a night when I’ll wake up every few hours for no reason with an anxious type of feeling.

There has been a lot of neurological activity going on…lots of nerve clusters twitching, pokes and stinging sensations. A weird cluster sensation in the palm of my hands and the middle of my feet that feels like it’s about to cramp up, but doesn’t quite reach that point.  It’s not painful, but it feels like the palm and foot are pulling inward.  Also lots of fizzy meridian sensations in the legs, torso and top of my head.

I have something weird going on with the right side of my body.  I have gout type symptoms in my right middle finger, right elbow and right knee (not very painful, just mostly stiff).  I recently noticed two very small patches of possible eczema on my right forearm and on my right eyelid.  But it’s weird that it’s only on the right side of my body…absolutely nothing on my left.

There has been a lot of Crown activity in the last few months.  As I’m typing this, I’m feeling a small stream of energy shooting out of the right top part of my head and at the same time out of my right knee.

For the past couple of years I’ve had a very strong pulsing sensation in my High Heart area, but I haven’t felt it for about 4 months now. Initially I thought it was my thyroid so I had some medical tests done (blood tests and ultrasound) but they were all normal.   I’m kind of glad that it stopped because it was so strong that it was overwhelming.  Sometimes it affected my breathing and would get extremely uncomfortable.

The Kundalini has been very active and it’s now more of an all-over-the-body feeling as opposed to only working on certain spots. Lately, it’s mostly been the tickling-all-over sensation which is kind of annoying.  I’ve been getting lots of Crown downloads and sometimes feel a weird popping or crackling on the top of my head while it’s swaying.  I have no idea why it’s changed.  In the past, I have felt the popping and crackling sensation in my Heart Center when the Christed energies are activated, but hadn’t ever felt anything like that on my Crown.

Overall, the energy seems to be pretty active now that I’ve found a comfortable place to live and am able to stay centered.

I am very Grateful to be here ❤

Energy Sensations – Update February 5, 2016

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The last time I posted anything on this blog was back in August…I was living at my Dad’s house (in California) in a VERY difficult living situation, and going back and forth to my (ex)boyfriend’s house(in Arizona) in an attempt to run away from my problems. A lot has changed since then…It feels like someone has pushed the “fast-forward” button on my life and it’s all just a blur when I think about it.

So much has happened in such a short amount of “time”. It’s almost as if I was required to totally and completely uproot my life and discard all of the parts that were not healthy for me to experience any longer. And that’s exactly what has happened…I have eliminated all of the unhealthy aspects of my life, all of the things that were stagnant or an uncomfortable-comfort-zone…It all quickly unfolded (like a domino effect) before the beginning of 2016.

This has been an extremely bizarre period of “Revelation” for me…Some very hurtful things had to happen in order for me to be jolted out of my comfort zone. Sort of like a spiritual kick-in-the ass to get me going again…I saw some very dark and disturbing things about people who were close to me….people I trusted…all was exposed for everyone to see…no more lies, no more deceit.

It took me a while to reach a place of stillness where I could reflect on what happened on a much deeper level…the visuals that I received were of “release” of cords, looping, outdated patterns of “karma”, breaking free of that old cycle…

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The karma no longer applies, but sometimes it takes the personality a while to catch up and integrate this realization. The (true) realization initiates a chemical reaction and release on a cellular level…a necessity for authentic transcendence. I had to get out of the mind, out of the illusion, and go within the Heart space to truly understand what this all meant… It takes a lot of focus to truly grasp that we are beyond karma…Old habits can be difficult to break…

So I’ll skip over the negative parts and just sum it up as moving out of my Dad’s house and completely cutting off my (ex) boyfriend after some shocking revelations. I believe that everything happens for a reason, and the revelations were a signal of things coming to an end (closure) on SO many levels. Instead of falling into victim mode, I decided to use it as an empowerment. When I severed all ties, I suddenly felt free again…a huge relief, not realizing how weighed down I was for so many years, until I experienced how light I was again. I somehow feel “whole” again after collecting the parts of self that I had invested in others.

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So in the middle of all of this, I happened to get a job at a resort in Boynton Canyon, Sedona. It was the first job I put in for at a job fair, and I got it right away. They even decided that I’d be a better fit for a higher paying job than the one I was applying for, so it just seemed to fall into place.

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I was working in a BEAUTIFUL canyon that was full of people who were spiritually awake and totally understood what I was going through. For the first time in my life, I felt so connected to everything.  Especially with nature.

While working in the Boynton Canyon vortex for 8 hours a day, I started to experience heightened psychic and telepathic abilities (it freaked out some of my co-workers – lol). I was getting huge Crown downloads every day and had to go outside to ground several times a day, because I was out of body most of the time. It was very difficult for me to stay grounded.

The first week I was there, I would receive so much energy, that it would collect in my solar plexus and would feel like a panic attack. It was like a multidimensional merge that would cause me to feel like too many things were happening all at the same time. It took me a while to figure it out, but I found that if I went outside, took my shoes off and held some black tourmaline, that I could actually feel the energy forcefully push out of my feet and then I’d get some relief…so that was my daily ritual.

There were days when I’d get full-on bliss episodes while at work, and I’d have to go outside and breathe it out, so I wouldn’t feel like I was hyperventilating. The bliss episodes were so strong, that co-workers could actually feel it if they stood next to me. These bliss downloads would cause a strong sensation of energy shooting out of my Heart center and also my face! That was something new…I had never felt my face light up and beam energy like that before.

I found that energy work is totally amplified in Boynton Canyon, SO much stronger. I was doing some Reiki on a co-worker in the break room, and another co-worker could physically feel the Reiki on the other side of the room. I realized that the energy was shooting out of my hands so hard and so fast, that my arms were shaking and vibrating really hard. The person I was doing the energy work on, said that they’ve never felt it so strong before and that it felt like a very strong wind was blasting completely through them to the other side.

There’s just something about Boynton Canyon that I haven’t felt at the other vortexes or any place I’ve ever been. There seems to be a gateway there, or maybe something multidimensional emerging. Maybe a city of light?

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I can sense it, but cannot quite figure it out yet. Definitely a STRONG presence of ancestors that is very present at this time. The canyon is currently going through some type of purification which I had visions of while I was physically there. I could see and feel it when it was first initiated. I’ll write about those experiences in another post, but I’ll just get to the energy sensations update for now…

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There has been quite a stir in the lymphatic system in the last few months. Many of my co-workers all had the same symptoms. I’ve been going through a period of swollen and overloaded lymph nodes and have been doing a lymphatic cleanse which is very slowly making progress. This is some deep cleansing and I’m feeling like it has to do with dropping density. Doing a cleanse did not produce quick results, and I was shown that it’s because it’s an ongoing process that will take some time to balance out. There is so much going on at the same time and there are no quick fixes here. Patience and self Love is crucial in this phase.

I’ve had lots of activity on my face, head and scalp. Lots of buzzing, twitching and fluttering going on…at times, my face feels like it’s morphing into something else or becoming very liquid and wavy. That usually only happened while in a relaxed state, but lately it’s happening while fully awake and while I’m interacting in public.

My meridian system has been extremely active and I’ve felt the fizzy, effervescent sensation slowly pumping through the channels, but mostly in the legs. It’s spontaneous and happens here and there…no particular trigger for it, just random. Last night I felt it in my upper glute area near my hip bone, and the other day I also felt it in my arms which was something new.

In the past few days, my bones have been aching again. This aching is accompanied by a buzzy feeling coming from the outside of my legs. The pain feels like it’s emanating out of my bones and the buzzing randomly moves around my calves in quick electrical type pulses on my skin. My hip bones and lower back have the painful aching, but it is a tolerable pain…nothing too drastic. Sometimes it feels like my bones are being stretched.

There seems to be a lot of stuff going on with my spine and also the area where my spine connects to my neck/head. The message that I’m getting is that it has to do with merging polarities? I have no idea what that has to do with it, but that’s the answer I received. Maybe something to do with ida/pingala, silver/gold? Those are the images that I’m getting…overall, it has to do with “unification”…some sort of “short-cut” in the process, and a change in the template instructions, for those who are ready…maybe having to do with ability to jump timelines. As usual, it’s too difficult to put into words…

For the past week, I’ve been waking up in the morning and seeing gridlines again. This time, I’m seeing a cardinal cross in the middle of the gridlines.

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It seems that the cross is emanating something from it, but I’m not sure what that means. I’ve seen this before, so it’s familiar to me, but I just don’t really understand it.

Overall, the energy sensations have become very active. It’s become the new “norm”. I’ve decided to speak about it more openly, so that people around me will become familiar with it. I don’t care if they think I’m crazy anymore…Someday this will become the new norm for many others, and I hope that when that happens, they will remember when I spoke of it before then…Maybe it will somehow help them to understand and to stay out of fear….

So that’s it…I’m fully out of the closet – lol … No more hiding, no more worrying about what other people may think. The secret’s out…I’m consciously, consciously evolving 😉

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Love ❤

Energy Sensations – Update October 8, 2014

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My (ex)boyfriend took this photo on the way home from work today…so beautiful…

 

It’s been extremely difficult to put anything into words lately and as a result, I haven’t posted anything. I just wanted to give a brief and quick update on the energies. First of all…WOW…the energies that came in throughout the night and continue to come in at this very moment are SO strong! I had been feeling quite dizzy for the past few days, but today is just off the charts.

I didn’t even bother to watch the Full Moon/Blood Moon/Lunar Eclipse early this morning because mosquito season is crazy out here in Arizona…my blood type is one of their preferences ( O positive blood type) and my poor legs are living proof. So when I went to bed last night, I was too lazy to turn on my night light. I fell asleep in complete darkness which is very rare for me. I like to have a light on so I can see what’s in the room when I hear noises (which is often).  I woke up several times throughout the night and saw illuminated swirling patterns all around me. I could actually see it clearer because I was in the darkened room. It was pretty intense. When I finally woke up early in the morning,  my body was burning up hot… I was feeling disoriented and a bit dehydrated.

The swirling patterns I saw seemed to have gold, orange, and brown colors in them…I had never seen brown before, so I meditated on it and got the message that it was orange and green mixed together (or overlapping) making it look brown. So gold, orange and green with very tiny flecks of indigo/purple here and there… That’s something very new to me…

On October 2nd, I had woken up in the middle of the night and saw beautiful flickering golden symbols all around me. They illuminated the entire room and were shimmering.  When I focused on them, I got the words “fire codes”, so I’m thinking it was the same as fire letters. They were really beautiful to see and gave me a magical feeling. The next day after seeing them, I researched it on the internet and read that the  fire letters are part of the DNA activation.

Also, on October 6th, I attempted to take a short nap (but was unable to completely fall asleep) and when I was in that “in between” state, I was shown something that looked like this:

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It didn’t have the colors though; it was just showing me different tiers or levels of something. I was shown that all of these levels were going to compress or collapse together. Initially, I was worried because anything having to do with compressing or collapsing in the past has been physically painful through my body…  so I asked if it was going to be painful, and I didn’t receive an answer! I guess instead of interpreting this as collapse or compress, I’ll look at it as a gentler “integrate” or “unify” which doesn’t sound so painful (cringe) …I don’t fully understand it though…it’s beyond my scope of human understanding. Maybe I’ll read something about it later…

**On October 14th, Lisa Renee posted an update that speaks of lower mental body compression and also goes into further explanation of fire letters…awesome sync 🙂

Much Gratitude!

http://energeticsynthesis.com/index.php/resource-tools/blog-timeline-shift/2519-defragmentation

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I’m currently getting lots of Crown downloads which feels like warm water pouring into the top of my head. Occasionally, I’m also feeling the warm water sensation pouring in at the bridge of my nose which feels kinda strange…it makes my nose feel like it’s distorted or morphing into something else.  There’s also been lots of heavy movement on my face around my eyelids and temples…I can actually feel my eyelashes moving when the energies are on my eyelids. I’ve been having a lot of work being done on me during sleep time and will wake up frequently throughout the night because it’s just too intense. When I wake up, I’m burning hot and my head feels sore.  For the most part, the focus has been on my head and face.

I’ve noticed that sometimes during the day, I’ll see a light overlay of colors which is something new. It’s been different colors, but the most frequent color looks pink. It’s been very hard for me to focus and I feel very dizzy…sometimes it feels like I’m spinning and I’ll have to go lay down for a while. My Heart chakra has opened more and I’ve been feeling a strong tickling sensation in the center of my chest for the past couple of days. I’m also feeling something lovingly stroking my arm throughout the day.

It seems that I need to drink more water lately and will become dehydrated very quickly. Maybe it’s because of the “fire” type energy that’s very active right now? I just read a post by Lisa Renee and she speaks of the fire energy and recent Kundalini symptoms HERE . I just recently discovered Lisa Renee’s Ascension Glossary and it’s helped to answer so many of my questions.  Everything is all coming together…

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I had a flashback memory today of when I was a kid, about 5 yrs old… I remembered going outside and talking to the sky at night time. I knew that I had something important to do, a purpose for being here, but couldn’t figure out what it was. While looking for some type of validation or confirmation that what I was feeling was true, I would ask the sky to tell me, but never received any answers. I imagined that I had special powers, but couldn’t seem to get them to work – lol…I would have never imagined that so many years later, at 36 yrs old, an awakening out-of-body experience would change my life so drastically…and would also answer my childhood question of what that important thing was that I am here to do. In remembering that moment from my childhood, it brought such a feeling of Gratitude and comfort.

**On December 7, 2014, I found a post that relates to my childhood memory of talking to the night sky…awesome sync! ❤  http://www.bob-fickes.com/2014/12/childrens-dreams/

Despite all of the discomfort and physical symptoms happening to my body, I feel so fortunate to be here during this time…to be going through something so awesome, something I could have never imagined to be real…something that I felt and knew within when I was a child.  That just hit me today and it brought such a profound feeling of Love and comfort…so much Gratitude from my Heart ❤

My inner child is very happy in this moment…

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Love ❤

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**When I watched this video, it made me think of the timeline work, compression and defragmentation process that we’re currently going through…such a beautiful video…

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Energy Sensations – Update January 13, 2014

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The Kundalini has been super active lately. Starting a few nights ago, the energies started tickling my entire body…It lasted a couple of days…I had to keep scratching myself because it felt like someone was running a feather over me. It’s probably the Kundalini sensation that most people describe as “bugs crawling all over your body”.

On the morning of January 9th I felt the “hot spots” on my Crown chakra…This was the first time I’ve ever felt pain on my actual Crown. I’ve had pineal migraines and tenderness on my scalp over the years, but those are 3D sensations…this was different since it’s on an etheric level. It’s difficult to explain, but it feels like it’s painful to my physical body, but it also feels like it’s distant or further away than my physical body, but the pain still comes in…Does that even make sense?

I noticed that my Crown felt different last week, so something’s definitely changing. The hot spots felt like little electrical pulses with heat that kind of stings a little. It’s a very slow sensation, like if it’s happening while suspended in time and my perception is delayed or it skips? I know that probably sounds weird but that’s the only way I can explain it. A few minutes after feeling the pulses randomly on my Crown, I heard three loud chimes…kind of like bells ringing but it was a different type of sound vibration. The sounds were somehow very comforting…

The past few days there has also been a lot of activity on the nasal chakra which feels like warm water pouring out of the top and the bridge of my nose. I’ve also been seeing more than just the little sparkles manifesting around me…now I’m seeing a big circle of layered illuminated blue taking over my entire vision for a split second. It just pops into my mind and takes over my whole vision so fast that I’m startled by it. It kind of looks like this:

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Starting on January 9th I noticed that my Heart center felt larger…when I focused on it, I’d get the image of a big void space, but it had small pinpoints of light that looked like stars.

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That doesn’t make any sense to me because I usually see something there, whether it’s a color, or a pulse, but as of Wednesday, I’m just seeing this vast open space (which literally looks like outer space). My chest feels HUGE. This is a totally new sensation for me…I haven’t experienced anything even close to this so it’s a little bizarre. I’ve heard of a Heart expansion, but wasn’t quite taking the meaning so literally! It seems funny to me and made me laugh at the thought of my Heart center looking like outer space… I’m sure I’ll figure it out soon…

With the chest expansion and the heavier Crown activity, I feel more “alive”, and it now feels like my energy flow is reversed. When I used to get the Torus sensation, it would feel like I was turning inward on myself and it was very overwhelming…but now it feels like my center is turning outward and spreading my energy out instead of bringing it in. When it used to turn inward, I would feel like a pressure cooker with too much inside and I would lose my breath. Now it feels like it’s dispersing outward and it’s a more “free” feeling of expansion.

**In November 2014 (10 months after writing this), I found this picture and it reminded me of this experience ❤ … **I later received a vision that showed me that this phase in the process is considered “THE EYE OF THE NEEDLE”…and if you look at the picture below, it kind of does look like the eye of a needle….In the vision, the “threading” was shown to me as connecting to others through this newly expanded Heart space, which would represent Heart based “Unity” consciousness.

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On the morning of January 10th I woke up and felt energy entering into the bottom of my feet. I’ve felt this before, but it’s rare compared to the constant flow of feeling the energy pouring out of my feet. The Kundalini was extremely active that day and was just whipping around quickly moving all over my body. When the energy was entering my right foot, I felt clusters of nerves twitching on the bottom of my foot, then I felt the energy move through my lower leg causing my leg to have a very powerful chills sensation, then it moved up through my right thigh, into my Root chakra which tickled, and then quickly moved upward through the rest of my body to the left side of my face…the energy stayed at my left temple for quite a while.

I have no idea why the energy spends so much time at my temples. I can’t find much about “temple chakras” online. I know there are chakras there because I can feel them, but it seems to be a very secretive topic for some reason. I wonder why? I’m gonna do some more research and see if I can find out more about them.

The energies are definitely amping up quite a bit. There’s a new feeling in the air…This is new territory, so I have no idea what to expect… I don’t mind at all, as long as I can stay out of pain 🙂

Love ❤

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Energy Sensations – Update January 6, 2014

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I haven’t felt motivated to write anything in a while…Not too much has happened since my last post with the exception of December 27th; I got hit with a huge amount of energy…Right after I woke up in the morning, I got dizzy, couldn’t focus my eyes, had a weird pressure sensation in my solar plexus which caused extreme anxiety, and nerves started twitching all over my body in different locations.

I felt like I was having a panic attack. I took some anxiety medication and stayed in bed all day…There’s no way I would have been able to rest if I hadn’t taken the medication, because this sensation was just too strong. I felt like my solar plexus was going to explode.

I had strange dreams and visions while I was in and out of sleep all day. I was shown that there were many fragments of myself that were being returned and put together like a puzzle. The way that it was shown to me, was more like shards of glass and all of the jagged glass pieces were brought together and seamlessly melted into one piece. Maybe that’s why I felt so much pressure from my core, because of the added (returning) embodiments?

I also saw a deity sitting on a throne that looked kind of like a female Egyptian deity but was wearing a really exaggerated tall headpiece that I’ve never seen in any Egyptian artwork before. The headpiece was about 4 feet tall and had many layers of gold and multicolored gems/stones on it. It kind of looked like an “Ezelsdorf-Buch golden hat” (but without the rim at the bottom) which is in the picture below, but in my vision it also had jewels on it.

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When I got out of bed around 5pm, my body was super hot even though it didn’t read on the thermometer. My boyfriend scanned my energy with his hand and said that the heat was coming out of the area of my solar plexus. He also said that he saw a bright white orb on my shoulder. I also keep seeing a blue orb on my left side and I’m starting to think that it’s always around me since I see it so much. Maybe it’s a guardian?

Later, when my boyfriend went to plug in the Christmas tree lights, he had barely grabbed the plug in his hand and the lights flickered on! He hadn’t even touched the plug anywhere near the plug outlet in the wall, so the lights went on from his own energy! I was convinced that something big was going on energetically on the 27th but I haven’t read anything about it yet.

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I had a strange dream on Jan. 3rd. In the dream I was laying down on a bed in a brightly lit room and started to close my eyes to meditate. Once my eyes were closed, I started to see a blue background with one single white cloud in the middle of it. In my mind I was asking for some guidance and big capital blue letters popped up into the cloud that spelled the word “FLEE”.

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I was confused by this message and asked again for some guidance and then a bunch of blue words in another language popped up into the cloud…I couldn’t understand what the words said, so I asked for guidance one more time…the cloud started moving and contracting, and then completely went away. I have NO IDEA what this is supposed to mean. Flee pretty much means to get out quickly, but does it mean for me to get out of Arizona? I guess we’ll find out here pretty soon! I always thought of the word Flee as an urgency to get away from danger.  I don’t really believe in doom and gloom stuff, so maybe I’ll find another meaning or connection later…

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As for energy sensations, I went through a couple of weeks of feeling the “hot spots” (random electrical pulse sensations) everyday on my body (which were pretty painful). I haven’t felt any in a while, so I’m really glad that’s over with. The pulse in my tongue has been very subtle to the point that I can hardly feel it anymore, but I can tell that it’s still there. My Crown has been really active and the movement on it feels heavier…something has changed with my Crown but I haven’t quite figured it out yet…

For the past few weeks, I’d been having crazy dreams about people being mean to me and doing hurtful things. Most of it was little petty stuff (like people at my old job or small arguments with friends), but the dreams have been very stressful. I’ve spent so much time clearing the really big traumatic experiences in the last year, that I hadn’t really paid attention to the little things. These dreams have showed me that it’s important for me to focus on clearing the little petty stuff too…

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When I woke up in the morning a few days ago, I felt a strong pulse coming out of my Heart center…it was almost like an up and down sensation that tickled a little bit (the picture above reminds me of the energies). It felt really good. After that, my upper back was vibrating for a couple of days, so I’m guessing that I’ve had a deeper activation of the Heart center.  I’ve also been feeling a subtle sensation in my throat like it’s closing up…it’s not overwhelming, but it does get a bit uncomfortable at times.  I’m thinking that it has to do with this Heart center activation.  In the past, the High Heart activations have also affected my throat.

Since this deeper Heart center activation, I had been a little emotional and had no idea why I felt that way. I’ve just been resting and had been trying not to focus on anything. Today something feels different… my inner guidance has shown me a picture of training wheels…the message that I’m getting is that I’ve gone through a whirlwind of emotions coming up over the last few weeks from past experiences and am now using my training wheels to “rewrite” these past issues. I really have no idea how I’m supposed to “rewrite” this stuff… but I’m being shown not to “think” about how to do it, and that if I just “feel” (as in a surrendering kind of way), then I will be shown or guided how to do it.

So this seems to be the theme for January…another phase of releasing, but with more ease and in more of a flowing nature. This phase will serve as a sort of training to more easily (but very thoroughly) transform whatever it is that comes up from deep (I’m being shown VERY deep) within. It seems that we’ve come to a high enough vibration to be able to start using this upgrade in transformation. There’s a little bit of confidence that came in today and I’m buzzing with a new “secure” type feeling…it’s very difficult to explain, but it feels really good. It’s very powerful, whatever it is…

For the first time in quite a while, I have the confidence to move out of my boyfriend’s house and am getting a little push to finally go (and to completely let go). I need to get moving… Something has changed within me that has restored the confidence and security to move forward. There’s a sense of excitement and a trust that everything will not only be “ok”, but it will be even better than I imagined. I’m planning to completely move out at the end of February…I just need to get these “training wheels” going so that I can move myself into a balanced state 🙂
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Love ❤

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Energy Sensations – Update July 8, 2013

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I had a dream last night about my step dad.  In the dream, he was actually being a very nice person and we were agreeing with our views about my mother.  It was REALLY strange!  In the dream, he was actually trying to be a good father to my brother and sister, but it was my mom that was making it difficult to raise them properly. This dream was also a big breakthrough in my emotions because I’ve had nightmares about him for so many years. There’s definitely some healing that has taken place and I’m SO GRATEFUL for it 🙂

Also in the dream, there was a male white ferret.  The ferret was speaking to me telepathically and he told me that he felt sick.  I was going to give him some energy healing to make him feel better, but I ended up waking up from the dream.  I looked up the ferret totem on the internet and this is what I found:

“With their eyes that point forward straight down their noses, ferrets are highly focused on what is in front of them. This reminds those with this spirit animal to stay focused on their goals. Ferrets have a fine sense of smell, and can see clearly in the dark, linking them to the underworld. They have sharp intuition and their sensitivity is acute. They are able to see and know the hidden meaning behind everything. The ferret can help you understand yourself, your life, and the experiences you have far clearer. Use all of your senses equally if this is your animal guide. If underdeveloped you may have a leaning toward tunnel vision. An inflexible consciousness makes for needless concern and anxiety, therefore caution is advised. Having a light-hearted attitude and playful activities are helpful.” 

I’ve been SOOOOO ridiculously tired…I don’t think I’ve ever felt this tired in my entire life.  I don’t even have energy to go to the grocery store…In the last 2 weeks I’ve had some painful nerve pinching and twitching going on.  The most painful is the pinching jolting sensation in my big toes. No signs of any purple or bruising on my toes though…I’m surprised that I don’t have any marks on my toes because it’s a pretty strong sensation….so bizarre…  The next painful sensation which I felt for 2 days in a row is what feels like someone is poking my right eye with a needle.  It’s a horrifying feeling that’s random and just suprises me out of nowhere.  It’s happened before periodically on both eyes, but not for 2  days straight…I really don’t like that one at all…

El Collie (who wrote about her Kundalini experience) mentioned the eye poking sensation and toe jolts in an article found here :

http://www.eaglespiritministry.com/teaching/elcollie/ecbb.htm

I’ve been eating a lot for the past 3 days…it’s like I can’t stop snacking even though I’m not hungry.  I’ve been having trouble eating in the past year (due to complications from a throat surgery), and have lost too much weight, so I’m not complaining!  It’s just strange to want to eat all of a sudden.  I’ve been eating a lot of cereal with almond milk, and have been craving ice cream for some reason.  I usually cut out dairy and have almost completely eliminated sugar, but I have an uncontrollable urge to eat ice cream.  I’m guessing my body needs sugar and carbs right now, for some reason…

As I mentioned above, the painful electrical jolts in my big toes have continued, but now I feel like something is sitting on my left toe.  It’s a weird feeling, but it’s been there for the past 2 days.  When I walk, it flutters whatever it is…  Also random buzzing on my Crown in different locations…it’s not the whole Crown buzzing at once, it’s just small spots about the size of a nickel that start randomly buzzing at different times throughout the day.  When I get heavy Crown downloads, it seems to be only at the back of my head lately, which is something new.  I saw a picture from the Humanity Healing website newsletter and it reminded me of the download sensation I’m having.

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The picture was part of an article they wrote on the cerebellum, but I couldn’t access the article since I’m not a paying member of the website (sigh)…but here’s a free article that they were kind enough to let the poor people read – LOL :

http://humanityhealing.net/2013/07/the-esoteric-significance-of-the-cerebellum-i/

Some people consider the cerebellum area the “8th Chakra”, while other people consider the Soul Star chakra (about 6 inches above the Crown) to be the 8th chakra….I personally don’t really care what “number” they attach to a chakra, I just know that I have one there because I can feel it!   but  when different people give different numbers, it just adds to the confusion if they’re only referring to numbers instead of names.  I wonder why there’s such a big difference in what they’re intuitively seeing in these chakras?  Maybe it’s just a difference in vibration (only certain people with certain vibrations to match can see them)? Or maybe some people don’t have certain chakras outside of the 7 major chakras and some do?  I’ve even heard of people ripping their chakras out and removing them completely (Yikes)…definitely not ready for anything like that, but will stay out of judgment 😉

There’s been so much activity on my neck and head lately, I’m thinking that maybe I’ll experience the Kundalini completely rising soon?  It seems to have reached my neck (throat) so far, and then just stops there. It’s been at that point for a while…I’ve heard that once it penetrates the 3rd eye, it will reach the Crown shortly after…I’ve been having constant work done on my 3rd eye and continuous Crown activity lately, so maybe it’ll be soon…When the “core” Kundalini rises, I can feel the hot liquid feeling slowly slithering up my spine.  When it happens, I picture in my mind the mercury in a thermometer, so I associate the core Kundalini with silver liquid.

From what I’ve read, when the Kundalini finishes the purification process and reaches the Crown, there’s this profound Ecstasy Blissful life changing event that takes place. It’s been explained as “Illumination” that other people can actually see… Will that happen for me?  Uh…probably not… the reason I say that is because for the most part,  my experience has been pretty tame…but maybe I’m wrong, maybe I will experience this Illumination that they speak of.

That would be pretty cool and it’s a welcomed experience.  I just hope I’m not standing in the checkout line in a store or sitting on the toilet or something…that would definitely take away from my illumination experience…but the way my life’s been going and the twisted sense of humor that my “future self” seems to have, anything’s possible…a toilet bowl enlightenment may just very well be in my future… LOL

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