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Godself ~ Painting by Alex Grey

“Every person is an aspect of one Godself” – Alex Grey

July 29, 2016

I really haven’t felt like posting anything for quite a while.  I’ve been writing in my journal, but just not feeling like sharing, I guess…Something happened yesterday that really affected me and I feel like it was a pretty big shift, so I felt inspired to write about it.

Yesterday something happened that drew so much energy and emotion, that it felt like it combusted.  It started while I was driving home from the store and I got this realization that hit me like a ton of bricks…I realized that I am what we call “God”…I chose my life before I was even born…I am a facet of the Creator, and if I am the Creator, then why in the world am I agreeing to play this stupid game any longer? It actually kind of pissed me off – lol

I’ve always known this to be true, but this realization was different…it’s like something awakened inside of me and I actually felt it in every cell in my body.  I guess I can say that it’s like I embodied/integrated the realization and it started triggering anger…anger because I was blindly participating in something that I didn’t need to be a part of anymore.  Everything started to flash in my mind and I was suddenly seeing my entire life.

It got me to thinking that I have experienced quite a bit of suffering in this lifetime; physical abuse, family issues, homelessness, birth defects, health problems, chronic allergies, EMF hypersensitivity etc…and although I’ve evolved throughout the years, I’m still experiencing difficulty with most of those issues.

So why am I agreeing to this crap?!  Why am I agreeing to participate day-after-day-after-day to allow this illusion to continue to exist?

I started to question everything; what about karma? Isn’t that like a set of rules made up by another person?  Who decided that humans would have to participate in karma?  And what about genetics?  My family has a long list of health issues so I will most likely have them too?  Who decided that? (my doctor told me the other day that I will most likely have osteoporosis because it runs in my family – Huh?! )  What if I don’t agree to that?  What if I know and believe that I can and will change that?  The more questions flooded in, the more agitated I became…but I just allowed myself to delve deep into these feelings and bring them to the surface.

When I got home, I waited until everyone left and I was home alone…then I looked into the mirror, looked directly into my eyes and began to yell.

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I started with “Hey YOU…I’m talking to YOU, not some outside source or a God sitting on a throne in some distant place, I’m talking to YOU…the one who created this life”.

I yelled to myself that since “I” was responsible for the circumstances in my life, since I chose all of this before I was even born, then “I” was putting my foot down and refusing to participate any longer.

I was angry.  WHO would choose this crap?!  Why would anyone or anything choose suffering or set it up so that a helpless child HAS TO suffer from the very start of their life with circumstances beyond their control?  “I” chose this?

I let it all out and demanded that things change in my life and environment or I will “opt-out’ because I’m SO worn out…I said I was tired and beat-up and physically/emotionally exhausted…and I refused to participate in this stupid game any longer.

I had done the work, handed over full trust to this process, activated dormant chakras, forgiven, cleared, released, cleared again and again, embodied, integrated, anchored, transformed, transmuted, transfigured, transcended…ALL of the T’s….but after all of that, I still had pain and suffering, and now I’d hit rock bottom.  I was consciously putting my foot down.  NO MORE PAIN AND SUFFERING.

After screaming at my reflection and letting it all out, I felt so much better.  The rush of emotion seemed to clear and I was able to calm down.  It felt like a huge release of pressure from my core…like a volcano erupting.  A while later, once I became calm again and was able to get centered, I tuned in to what I had just experienced.  I was able to understand what had happened.

I realized that my emotional outburst was a huge shift in my energetic field and a substantial release…another tier in the awakening stratum (I didn’t even know what the word stratum meant, but it popped into my mind) .  Revolutionary anger is always a sign of change in the making….lol   And that is a reflection in the outer world today…and now, a revolution within my own body as well…Ahhh…

This was a huge catalyst that was igniting a transformation from within.  The images that I received were of flames combusting and igniting other flames.

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This is the beginning of many coming into their own true power (consciously).  Not the kind of power as in wars and control, but the exact opposite of that.  This is the uprising of Unconditional Love, protection and security…the security to fully awaken with full support and understanding.  The security to release all of the programming.

Sometimes it’s not that we need protection from the “bad guys”(illusions)….sometimes we need protection from ourselves(creators)…from our programming of self sabotage and actions due to habit…from our belief systems, from societal conditioning.  It just takes one person to guide another through that and to bring it to awareness…to ignite the flame.

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Today there is a new sense of confidence, of being stronger and a “knowing” that all is in the process of transformation.  Change is inevitable…I choose to believe that things will change, that in that moment of looking in the mirror, they have already been changed.

So…”Hey YOU, the one that created this life…I choose CHANGE.”

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And so it is 🙂

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                Macy Kate Band -“Imagine Dragons – Radioactive” cover (Click HERE for lyrics)

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**After writing this, I found some posts that were a confirmation to this recent experience…awesome sync! :

Posted July 30th-Ronna Herman – Open Letter to Ascending Starseed Souls

Posted July 31st-The Rainbow Scribe – Hilarion July 31st to August 6th

Posted Aug.3rd -Jenny Schiltz – Moving Beyond Limitations

Posted on Aug.4th-Jamye Price –August Ascension Energies 2016

** ❤ Jenny Schiltz – Channeling the Masters – Way Down We Go ❤ **

**And on Aug.16th from Lee Harris’ Facebook page he says:

“Never more than now are many of you looking to draw something good to yourselves. Many of you have bargained with your higher selves or the Universe saying you cannot go on unless you are given something to help keep you afloat.

If this is you, the something you need is you. For some of you, meeting yourself will be the hardest meeting you will ever have because for so long you have been defining yourself by everyone else. But now you have come back to yourself and you are feeling more. Pandora’s Box has been opened.

It is a little like opening the cupboard in the back of your house that you have not looked in for twenty years. You find some wonderful things you had forgotten. You find some unexpected things you are surprised you kept. Many of you have a violent physical reaction to the dust. [Audience laughter]        

~ From Remagnetizing The Heart

Yes Lee, I would definitely be one to have a violent physical reaction to the dust with these allergies of mine…lol   🙂

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Love ❤

Infinity ~Twin Flame Awareness

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In the beginning of November, I had a vision of a key being handed to me with an infinity symbol on it…I also saw an Ankh with an infinity symbol on the top (instead of a circle) but I wasn’t too sure what this meant.  I wrote about the vision in a blog HERE.

After meditating on it for a while, I got the message that the infinity symbol was given to me specifically for the purpose of assisting with the ancestral karmic energies I was currently working through.  I was shown that the sideways infinity symbol (or LEMNISCATE ) was to be focused on or visualized actively moving in my mind while having the intention of clearing the ancestral energies.

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I followed my guidance and used the symbol many times for clearing…I also used it on my boyfriend while doing healing on his sciatic nerve pain that he’s been suffering from lately.  I believe sciatic pain is associated with blocked meridians and nadis due to ancestral junk that we’ve accumulated over many lifetimes.  I also believe that fibromyalgia is linked to this as well.  It really seemed to work on his pain and he said he noticed a big difference after the energy healing was done.

I just recently became aware that the infinity symbol is linked to twin flame/twin soul reunion (awareness).  It all started with a beautiful dream that I had on the night of December 17th (night of the full moon).

This dream was unlike any other I’ve ever had…in the dream, I was visited by a Buddhist monk and we were totally and completely in Love with each other…I could feel this strong feeling of Love just by him being in my presence, it was emanating out of him. In the dream, we were going to get married and I understood that he was going to be my teacher for the rest of my life.

It was a HUGE relief to me, like if everything from that point on, was going to be ok… I was SO in Love with him, it was beyond anything I have ever felt in my entire life…I felt my whole being totally surrender to him and knew without a doubt that he was going to complete me in such a way, that I would never have to search for answers to anything ever again. The feeling was so strong, that I cannot even express into words how it felt.

I know that Buddhist monks take a vow of celibacy and have only read of special and rare circumstances that they may marry someone, so it’s extremely rare. I guess the message that I initially took from the dream was that it was more of an internal union than a literal marriage in 3D. I was thinking maybe it represented the union of masculine and feminine aspects of self?

Video from Meline Lafont:

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I saw a video on December 19th by Meline Lafont that speaks of this phase of currently embodying the I AM presence (she also mentions heart palpitations which I’ve been having a lot of lately).  Her video triggered some questions and I searched “I AM presence masculine and feminine” on the internet out of curiosity. I realized that the I AM presence is actually the masculine and feminine aspects merged which I hadn’t really thought about before. Now that makes sense to me regarding my dream. I later realized that on December 17th the full moon was in Gemini which represents “twin” energy…maybe twin flame/twin soul energy?

Throughout this process, I’ve never really paid much attention to the twin flame stuff…I just never really believed that my twin flame was incarnated here on Earth and the thought of reuniting physically with him didn’t resonate with me. After this dream, I now fully believe that my twin flame is not incarnated on Earth and that my “reuniting” is not an actual reuniting, but more of a remembering, or conscious awareness.

The message that I’m getting from this dream is that I’ve always been merged with my twin flame, it’s just that it was not in my conscious awareness. Now that I’ve become consciously aware and have integrated the awareness of his presence, I feel his presence within me…it’s as if I can pull that feeling of complete unconditional Love from within me anytime I want, now that I’m aware of it. He is always with me. I’m even getting teary eyed right now just writing about it…I’ve never felt this type of feeling before…it’s unlike anything I’ve ever experienced.

Why would I need to manifest this union physically when I can feel his Love always (in all ways) within? I would not want to change this perfection by incarnating it in this imperfect realm…there is no need or desire for anything other than what it is.

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After doing a little more research, I found lots of stuff regarding twin flames associated with the infinity symbol and realized that the awareness of the infinity symbol is the beginning of the twin flame awareness. One of the articles I found showed this symbol:

Infinity Master Symbol

The article says: “By activating the Infinity Master Creative Symbol (all of it) you bring the 5 Elements (Earth, Fire, Air, Water and Ether) into balance. You activate the Alpha – Omega – One-Heart Chakra System once again. You receive and activate the Grail Codes and you activate and bring the Feminine/Masculine and Twin Flame Love into balance. Furthermore you activate the Holomatrix of Love in Pure White Light to begin automatically releasing and healing everything which do not serve your highest good any longer and add all that you need to reach the enlightenment at high speed and with ease and grace.”

The rest of the article can be found HERE

I also found a site that had this symbol:

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The article says:

“Germain began with an image of two circles that symbolized the separate entities before remembering the Twin Flame journey.”

“He continued by showing the infinity symbol and described how this was the beginning of the Twin Flames journey. As the two circles come closer together and begin to form the two halves of the eight, (infinity symbol) this symbolized the beginning of the coming together of the divine masculine and the divine feminine. Through working together whether in the physical or the etheric realms they would experience within the inner eye of the heart the moving energies as it traveled around the infinity symbol. As the two energies meet in the middle it can be clearly seen as the magnetic energies of the divine feminine and the electric energies of the divine masculine.  (The link to the article that this came from, is no longer working).

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I’m having a difficult time explaining what’s been shown to me (by my inner guidance) about the infinity symbol, but here are some pictures that might help to explain it better:

From The Emerald Tablet:

“When thou hast entered the form thou hast dwelt in, use thou the cross and the circle combined. Open thy mouth and use thou thy Voice. Utter the Word and thou shalt be free. Only the one who of Light has the fullest can hope to pass by the guards of the way. And then must he move through strange curves and angles that are formed in direction not known to man.”

**Click on Ankh pictures for updated findings (July 24, 2015):

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From the Emerald Tablet:

“Only they could guard God’s creation. Then did I pass ëround the circle of eight. Saw all the souls who had conquered the darkness. Saw the splendor of Light where they dwelled. Longed I to take my place in their circle, but longed I also for the way I had chosen, when I stood in the Halls of Amenti and made my choice to the work I would do.”

Circle of Eight:

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Old Way ~ Wheel of Karma

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New Way ~ In This NOW

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Infinity Spirit/Sol and Soul/Luna, Male and Female

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There are four elements in this image that are connected by an ouroborus symbol. The lion represents the essence of spirit and the swan symbolizes the feminine soul. Here the lion consumes the female swan within the stage of the work that she represents, namely, the albedo. Thus the silver, or white stone, is in the process of being transmuted into gold. The lion and the swan, spirit and soul, are captured in their cosmic counterparts, sun (Sol) and moon (Luna), within the ouroborus. Typically the snake devouring its own tail is presented as a circle representing a state of primal unconsciousness; activated but not going anywhere. But, here we see this symbol in the form of the infinity sign, thus indicating a shift toward conscious integration of the energies of spirit/Sol and soul/Luna [male and female].  (Link for the article that this picture came from, is no longer working)

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I apologize for not being able to explain the information that I’ve received and just using pictures, but it’s such a deep “knowing” that my limited interpretation cannot fully explain.  I hope it makes sense and is my wish that it will help in some way on one’s journey.  The gold/silver, male/female, mirror image, serpent/snakes, I AM presence, infinity symbol are all coming together and the pieces of the puzzle are quickly filling in.  It’s not what I would have expected it to be, but it’s a reminder that following your Heart is so important in this process.  There is no right or wrong, but if you follow what truly resonates with your Heart, you will always find your way home GoldenHeart

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Twin Flames captured above my head in a photo after this experience

 

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