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The Awakening ~ Part 1

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The Awakening ~

When I first had my Kundalini awakening, I had absolutely NO IDEA what had happened or what I was feeling afterward.  The force of it blew me completely out of my body and I was suddenly in another realm.  I passed through the black void of nothingness  until I saw the essence of the Red Mahakala swirling around in the darkness. It looked like red smoke that formed into the face.

I had to pass through the Mahakala to enter the next realm. In this realm, out of the darkness, a beautiful swirling galaxy appeared before me. The stars seemed to have white and pinkish colors sparkling as the galaxy spiraled in motion (I had never seen the movie “Contact” at this point, but years later when I saw it, it brought tears to my eyes when Jodie Foster saw the Galaxy in the other realm).

I just stared at how profound and beautiful this Galaxy was, until I saw a disembodied face with a tall headpiece (like the Thai Buddha statues) appear before me. It came from the left side of my view.

The face was animated and had a violet/pink color emanating from it and I realized that the face was me!  It stared at me for a while, smiled and winked at me and then I was pulled back into this realm where my physical body was.

Once I came back to my body, all of my chakras were completely blown wide open.  As a result, I was feeling a swaying and tickling sensation on the top of my head (Crown) and in the middle of my chest (Heart Center). I was also seeing symbols floating in the air around me and would begin to see gridlines.  I would spend a lot of time staring at the top of my head, in the mirror, trying to figure out why I could feel it moving, but couldn’t see anything moving lol

Long story short, I eventually got on Google (aka my Guru – lol) and searched “feeling movement on the top of my head” and found information about chakras which led me to the info about Kundalini. Until then, I had no clue what a chakra or Kundalini was and didn’t know (remember) anything about Buddhism.   I did find a lot of stuff that would talk about “Spiritual Emergency” and about some people not being ready for Kundalini and having all sorts of problems.  After extensive research, I decided that the best thing for me to do was to remove as many blocks as I could, and to learn how to work with this force that had completely ripped through my body.

I did a lot of comparison and decided to attend some Reiki Tummo workshops mainly because they worked with the Kundalini energy, removed chakra knots, widened the shushumna and also because they are very focused on strengthening the Heart Center.  I knew I would really need to work on my Heart because I had a lot of childhood trauma and had been in protection-mode for most of my life.

I had been sent to Pennsylvania for a work related 4 month detail when I had my awakening. During this time, I was conducting an investigation on a facility in Reading.  The closest workshop that I found was in Maryland…so within the first month of my awakening, I signed up and took the 3 hour drive to attend the workshop.  I had no idea what I was getting myself into but I felt really good about my decision.

The Attunement (Initiation) ~

The house that the workshop was held at was SO beautiful.  It just felt so mystical with beautiful spiritual artwork, crystals and art pieces from other countries throughout the home.  There was a strong presence of Divine Feminine energy.  When I looked out into the backyard, there was a forest of tall thin aspen trees and everything was white and glistening from the recent snow.  The owner had Husky dogs with white eyes that greeted me at the patio doors as I was staring into the forest in awe.

We all sat in the basement as we listened to Carlos Nakai flute music and were surrounded by the soft scent of sandalwood incense.  They were very respectful and required that everyone be very quiet which made the whole experience feel so sacred. When we had the initial group attunement, I felt a massive amount of Blissful liquid energy forcefully pouring into the top of my head.  It was so strong that it caused my head to move in a circular spiral motion.  When I opened my eyes and looked around the room I could see other people moving in a circular spiral motion too.  There were some advanced practitioners who actually had huge smiles on their faces and had their eyes rolled back into their head as they were spiraling !  I’m not kidding, their eyes were completely white!  They were so overtaken with Bliss from the attunement.

During part of the workshop, in small groups, we would all stand around a person lying on the table, and would all channel energy to the person on the table.  The point and intention of this practice was to open the person’s shushumna and to clear/widen the pathway. As I was channeling the energy through my hands, I felt it start to shoot out of my Heart Center.  It was such a beautiful feeling to have this Divine energy coursing through my Heart.  It felt like a pumping motion as it was pouring out.  I was surprised when one of the instructors came close to my ear and softly whispered “Yes, that’s it…use your Heart”.  It was then that I realized that she could actually see everything that I was feeling.

At times during the workshop, I felt out of place because everyone was so patient and Loving and I wasn’t used to being around people like that.  I was still working in law enforcement and had been pretty hardened by my environment.  I knew that I had a lot of work to do and probably one of the most difficult things that I’ve had to work through was getting over the feeling of not being worthy or not good enough to experience this Divine energy.  I guess growing up around Catholics will do that to you…haha

The Clearing ~

After the class, I took the 3 hour drive back to Pennsylvania.  When I got to my hotel room, I cried the entire night.  The initial cleansing process from such a huge influx of energy was brutal!  Before I ended up falling asleep, I asked ‘God’ why I was chosen to experience this and said that I felt that I wasn’t worthy because I had so much negativity from my life. As I was falling asleep and was in that in-between state, I felt something hug/envelope my body and stroke my face in comfort. It lulled me to sleep.

I remember waking up a few times throughout the night and would see symbols flashing one after another in the air above me.  I was getting some type of download.  Many years later, I saw a video where Lisa Renee called this type of download a “ticker tape” download.  That’s a perfect explanation of what I experienced that night…symbol after symbol flashing one after another for several hours.

Early in the morning when I woke up, I saw a little bright blue orb fluttering around in front of my face.  It had little sparkles coming off of it that looked like pixie dust and it landed on my pillow in front of me as it slowly faded out of sight.

Because of the massive cleansing that I was going through from the attunement, I couldn’t attend the 2nd class that was scheduled the next day.  I ended up staying in bed crying the whole weekend.  I had lots of weird stuff happen during those 2 days in bed going in and out of sleep.  I remember that I had a painting on the wall next to my bed and it was of a lake with a tree next to it, on a sunny day.  One time when I woke from sleep, the painting was of the same lake and tree, only it was winter and snowing!  The symbols continued to download and I continued to feel something stroking my face and arm in comfort.

I rescheduled the 2nd class for a month later, but the only one available was at a totally different location in Pennsylvania.  This class would be with a different group of people.  I’ll write about that experience in another post.

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Love ❤

 

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Scary Monsters

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I’ve noticed a lot of fear popping up in the Spiritual community.  There seems to be a fear of predator energy, a “someone out to get you” theme going around.  What I’m referring to specifically is people rallying against certain teachers saying they’re “not of the true light” “assaulting in the astral realm” etc…  It’s almost like a modern day witch hunt.  It makes me sad to see this in the lightworker community, but at the same time I know that it’s something that these souls have agreed to play out in this lifetime.  It is the dismantling of fear.

I recognize this energy because of a scary experience that I had with a self proclaimed Toltec Sorcerer/Shaman very early-on in my awakening.  It was a scenario that played out in my life with the teacher/student theme.  In the beginning, I only knew that he was a Shaman and wouldn’t find out that he was a sorcerer until after I had agreed to be his apprentice.  I’ll briefly explain a bit of what happened…

Back in 2009, I had taken a trip to the little town of Mesilla, New Mexico, with my (ex) boyfriend.  We were driving through a little street behind the shops and when I looked over to my right, I saw a Native American man with long black hair standing on the sidewalk.  He stood there staring at me…our eyes locked.  He was dressed in all white and had a headband on his head that had rainbow colored beading on it.  As I was staring back at him, he reached his hand up to the side of his face and saluted me as he continued to stare.  I have no idea why I immediately saluted him back…it was just a reflex.

I told my boyfriend that the man had just saluted me and a second later, when I turned my head to point to him, he was gone.  We drove around again looking for him but we didn’t see him anywhere.  It made me wonder if he was really there, or just a spiritual vision/visitation.

I was searching for jobs at the time and was so intrigued by what had happened that day, that I had put in for a government job in a town close to Mesilla.  Very shortly after that, I got the job without even being interviewed!  It just fell into my lap.

To sum it up, there was a man that worked there who had a Native American background. He was an older man with gray hair and a strange white glaze over his eyes.  He told me that he had sent out a request (and did a ritual) for an apprentice to carry on his tradition.  He said he knew I was coming (spiritually) because some employees had killed a snake in the parking lot of the building and chopped its head off.  They had brought the headless snake to him to identify what type of snake it was.  In his belief system, he took that as a sign that someone was coming and because the employees didn’t respect the snake, it would be someone who would not appear to be significant.

As naïve as I was at the time, I thought that he would be my teacher and that it was “meant to be” because of the Native American man saluting me in Mesilla and because I got this job so easily.  I had no idea that this was some crazy Karma stuff that I needed to work through with this man.  Long story short, He did some stuff that led me to believe that he was trying to “steal my soul” and it was the absolute scariest thing I’ve EVER been through.  Toward the end of the whole ordeal, I went through one night of terror where the weather changed very quickly, sounded like someone was walking on my roof and the wind sounded like it was going to blow my house down.  I laid in my bed clenching my Black Tourmaline and invoking the Violet Flame! Lol  I don’t scare easily, so I knew that there were other forces at work here…There’s a very distinct feeling to it, and I will always be able to recognize that signature from now on.

I ended up quitting the job and moving back to Arizona within that week.  I still went through scary feelings for a while after I left.  It was a lot of fear to work through for me and a whole process of coming into my own power.  My closure came when one day my boyfriend had gone fishing and saw a snake in the road that had been partially run over by a car.  The snake was still alive and suffering, so he chopped its head off in an effort to end the suffering.

He brought the headless snake home and it was still moving/wiggling around.  I burnt some sage, did some Reiki and said a prayer over the snake.  When I asked the snake to forgive him and to move on to Source, the snake immediately stopped moving.  My boyfriend said he saw heat waves (life force energy) come out of the snake in that moment.  That was my symbolic closure for what I had gone through with the sorcerer.  The loop had been closed.  I felt completely free of any ties/cords/contracts after that.

But in the end it made me so much stronger and taught me not to depend on anyone to decide what I should do or to protect me.  I had a lot to learn at that point and even though he scared the crap out of me, I now realize that he was helping me to pull the strength from within myself…to stand firm in my own power.  He was a Shaman, although a bit dark (and creepy), I now recognize that he was a master teacher and I am Grateful for his lesson.

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When you work through your shadows, make your dark aspects conscious, have an integration of all parts of self, there is no longer fear of something “outside” of self.

It’s an understanding so deep that there are not even words to describe the unification, the understanding of all that is.  I guess it’s like a Shamanistic view of darkness, for what it is, what it REALLY is.

Fear is a tricky thing.  It is probably the most difficult “program” to work through…so deeply embedded. When something pings that fear in our bodies, our minds can start making up all sorts of stories.  We see connections and “signs” that point toward whatever it is that we are going to create.  We pick them out, select them from many options.  It makes for an exciting story doesn’t it?

Choosing fear is a crossroads moment.  We choose…we ALWAYS have the ability to choose.  There can be signs EVERYWHERE to remind us of this:

F E A R – False Evidence Appearing Real

“Choose Love or Fear – the choice is yours”

“LOVE is all there is”

“Fears are stories we tell ourselves”

“Fear and courage are brothers”

“Fear is the prison – Love is the exit”

But yet, sometimes we still choose fear.  From what I understand, fear was originally a program for survival purposes…but it eventually evolved into something else in a world that is severely out of balance.  Just take a look at the “Horror” industry.  People use fear and being scared as entertainment.  I will admit, I do like a scary psychological thriller as entertainment once in a while.  It can be an adrenaline rush.  Since childhood, I’ve always liked twisted mind benders…it stretches the boundaries of “in the box” thinking.

It’s all a matter of perspective…

Fear can be used as a tool.  If you so choose, it can show you where there are vulnerabilities, where something is still being held that needs Love/transmuting. In this process, sometimes we need fear to kick us in the ass to get us moving again.  On my own journey, sometimes I needed something “bad” or uncomfortable to happen, to kick me out of my comfort zone…or used fear to remind me that I was much stronger than that, that I was running an old program that was still in the last throes of existence.

When you look at it from a detached observer view, without emotion involved, you can see a clearer view, for what it really is.  Fear is a reminder.

The darkness is a teacher, an old friend in agreement to show you your own light.

As the darkness envelopes the night sky, it allows you to see the brilliant flickering emanation of the stars.

A Master Teacher will “show” you and remind you where your light is…where your strength lies within…and will continue to do so, until it is unwavering and impenetrable.

It’s like “tough Love” lessons that your children have to go through.  Sometimes a parent won’t bail them out or “save” them, so that they’ll learn how to save themselves.  That is our responsibility as a parent, to teach our children how to become responsible and independent adults…and so is the role of fear.

We are evolving into Unity Consciousness.  As the old programs of separation flicker in and out of existence, we may have moments of condensed triggers…fluctuating between worlds.  It’s important, if not crucial, to stay in your Heart Center during this time.  If you’re feeling fear, take a moment to step back and detach in observer mode.  Get out of the mind and into the Heart space.

After many experiences and lessons with fear, I’ve come to the realization that nobody is trying to hurt me.  It’s only a game, a learning experience that is actually in my best interest.  Staying in my Heart has always provided me with the answers.  Finding the stillness within has always provided the space for Loving guidance.

When we truly believe and embody that knowing, the last veil of separation will slowly start to unravel…Unity Consciousness will be revealed.  There is no separation.  It is all you and it is all in Love.  Perspective is a master key…the stillness is your sanctuary…the Heart is your guide ❤

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Awareness/Realization/Embodiment/Integration/Be-ing/I AM that

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Bifurcation ~ Choose wisely 😉

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Love ❤

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Ignition

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Godself ~ Painting by Alex Grey

“Every person is an aspect of one Godself” – Alex Grey

July 29, 2016

I really haven’t felt like posting anything for quite a while.  I’ve been writing in my journal, but just not feeling like sharing, I guess…Something happened yesterday that really affected me and I feel like it was a pretty big shift, so I felt inspired to write about it.

Yesterday something happened that drew so much energy and emotion, that it felt like it combusted.  It started while I was driving home from the store and I got this realization that hit me like a ton of bricks…I realized that I am what we call “God”…I chose my life before I was even born…I am a facet of the Creator, and if I am the Creator, then why in the world am I agreeing to play this stupid game any longer? It actually kind of pissed me off – lol

I’ve always known this to be true, but this realization was different…it’s like something awakened inside of me and I actually felt it in every cell in my body.  I guess I can say that it’s like I embodied/integrated the realization and it started triggering anger…anger because I was blindly participating in something that I didn’t need to be a part of anymore.  Everything started to flash in my mind and I was suddenly seeing my entire life.

It got me to thinking that I have experienced quite a bit of suffering in this lifetime; physical abuse, family issues, homelessness, birth defects, health problems, chronic allergies, EMF hypersensitivity etc…and although I’ve evolved throughout the years, I’m still experiencing difficulty with most of those issues.

So why am I agreeing to this crap?!  Why am I agreeing to participate day-after-day-after-day to allow this illusion to continue to exist?

I started to question everything; what about karma? Isn’t that like a set of rules made up by another person?  Who decided that humans would have to participate in karma?  And what about genetics?  My family has a long list of health issues so I will most likely have them too?  Who decided that? (my doctor told me the other day that I will most likely have osteoporosis because it runs in my family – Huh?! )  What if I don’t agree to that?  What if I know and believe that I can and will change that?  The more questions flooded in, the more agitated I became…but I just allowed myself to delve deep into these feelings and bring them to the surface.

When I got home, I waited until everyone left and I was home alone…then I looked into the mirror, looked directly into my eyes and began to yell.

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I started with “Hey YOU…I’m talking to YOU, not some outside source or a God sitting on a throne in some distant place, I’m talking to YOU…the one who created this life”.

I yelled to myself that since “I” was responsible for the circumstances in my life, since I chose all of this before I was even born, then “I” was putting my foot down and refusing to participate any longer.

I was angry.  WHO would choose this crap?!  Why would anyone or anything choose suffering or set it up so that a helpless child HAS TO suffer from the very start of their life with circumstances beyond their control?  “I” chose this?

I let it all out and demanded that things change in my life and environment or I will “opt-out’ because I’m SO worn out…I said I was tired and beat-up and physically/emotionally exhausted…and I refused to participate in this stupid game any longer.

I had done the work, handed over full trust to this process, activated dormant chakras, forgiven, cleared, released, cleared again and again, embodied, integrated, anchored, transformed, transmuted, transfigured, transcended…ALL of the T’s….but after all of that, I still had pain and suffering, and now I’d hit rock bottom.  I was consciously putting my foot down.  NO MORE PAIN AND SUFFERING.

After screaming at my reflection and letting it all out, I felt so much better.  The rush of emotion seemed to clear and I was able to calm down.  It felt like a huge release of pressure from my core…like a volcano erupting.  A while later, once I became calm again and was able to get centered, I tuned in to what I had just experienced.  I was able to understand what had happened.

I realized that my emotional outburst was a huge shift in my energetic field and a substantial release…another tier in the awakening stratum (I didn’t even know what the word stratum meant, but it popped into my mind) .  Revolutionary anger is always a sign of change in the making….lol   And that is a reflection in the outer world today…and now, a revolution within my own body as well…Ahhh…

This was a huge catalyst that was igniting a transformation from within.  The images that I received were of flames combusting and igniting other flames.

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This is the beginning of many coming into their own true power (consciously).  Not the kind of power as in wars and control, but the exact opposite of that.  This is the uprising of Unconditional Love, protection and security…the security to fully awaken with full support and understanding.  The security to release all of the programming.

Sometimes it’s not that we need protection from the “bad guys”(illusions)….sometimes we need protection from ourselves(creators)…from our programming of self sabotage and actions due to habit…from our belief systems, from societal conditioning.  It just takes one person to guide another through that and to bring it to awareness…to ignite the flame.

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Today there is a new sense of confidence, of being stronger and a “knowing” that all is in the process of transformation.  Change is inevitable…I choose to believe that things will change, that in that moment of looking in the mirror, they have already been changed.

So…”Hey YOU, the one that created this life…I choose CHANGE.”

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And so it is 🙂

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                Macy Kate Band -“Imagine Dragons – Radioactive” cover (Click HERE for lyrics)

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**After writing this, I found some posts that were a confirmation to this recent experience…awesome sync! :

Posted July 30th-Ronna Herman – Open Letter to Ascending Starseed Souls

Posted July 31st-The Rainbow Scribe – Hilarion July 31st to August 6th

Posted Aug.3rd -Jenny Schiltz – Moving Beyond Limitations

Posted on Aug.4th-Jamye Price –August Ascension Energies 2016

** ❤ Jenny Schiltz – Channeling the Masters – Way Down We Go ❤ **

**And on Aug.16th from Lee Harris’ Facebook page he says:

“Never more than now are many of you looking to draw something good to yourselves. Many of you have bargained with your higher selves or the Universe saying you cannot go on unless you are given something to help keep you afloat.

If this is you, the something you need is you. For some of you, meeting yourself will be the hardest meeting you will ever have because for so long you have been defining yourself by everyone else. But now you have come back to yourself and you are feeling more. Pandora’s Box has been opened.

It is a little like opening the cupboard in the back of your house that you have not looked in for twenty years. You find some wonderful things you had forgotten. You find some unexpected things you are surprised you kept. Many of you have a violent physical reaction to the dust. [Audience laughter]        

~ From Remagnetizing The Heart

Yes Lee, I would definitely be one to have a violent physical reaction to the dust with these allergies of mine…lol   🙂

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Love ❤

Infinite Love

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Deep at the center of my being, there is an infinite well of Love  ~ Louise Hay

 

One day while working at the spa in Sedona, I just didn’t feel like staying for my entire shift. I had a very strong urge to leave early, but I didn’t really know why. The director of the spa was the only management there that day, and he was going to leave early. I had to rush to his office to catch him before he left.   I asked to leave early, told him I had something to do, but really, I didn’t have any reason other than my urge to leave. He approved it and I went back to work for another couple of hours.

One of the massage therapists came in to talk to me for a while. This particular therapist hadn’t spoken to me much, so it was nice to get to know her a bit. I was surprised to find out that she is a fellow Kundalite, which is always refreshing to hear! We spoke of our Kundalini awakenings, other dimensions and other random spiritual experiences.

While we were talking, she mentioned that it was the last day of the Buddha Relic show in Sedona and that her and her mother had gone earlier in the day, before she came into work. This was the last show in the U.S., and it had been said that the relics would never be shown in the United States again…EVER. When she mentioned it, I realized that I had already asked to leave work early and that I would be able to see the relics in the very last hour of the show before they closed. I was leaving work at 4pm and they were closing the show at 5pm.

I told her that I had heard about it a couple of weeks before, but had completely forgotten about it and was SO thankful for her reminding me. She said that she kept hearing my name in her mind throughout the day, so she decided to come and talk to me as she was being guided to do so. We both agreed that it was meant to be smile1

So I left work early and went straight to the show. As I was walking up to the building, there was a very friendly young man standing outside who was guiding people to the building and answering questions. He had a very sweet and happy energy. We had a little chat and I told him about my coincidence of taking off early from work. He was amused by the story and assured me that it was meant to be. I proceeded to enter the building and walked into a room filled with people praying, meditating and staring into nothingness.  As soon as I walked toward the relics, a wall of energy hit me. I started to buzz and vibrate, my field was saturated with warmth and I very quickly began to feel like I was hyperventilating.

The wait was a little long, because you had to stand in line to get your turn to walk around the relics. I was trying my best not to go into full panic attack mode before I had my turn. I could feel energy forcefully pouring out of both of my hands like I was giving a Reiki treatment to someone. My energy field felt huge and expanded. It was really bizarre. I almost left, because the energy was making me dizzy and I was having trouble standing in line for so long. I suddenly didn’t feel comfortable being too close to anyone around me…it became extremely overwhelming…sensory overload…

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When it was finally my turn, I was nervous because I had no idea how I would react when I got closer.  I proceeded with caution  scared.  Once I got up to the Buddha relics, I took a picture, stared for a while, kneeled & bowed my head and connected with the relics.   I immediately burst into tears.  I was over taken by complete surrender, Love and Compassion.  It was a deep cry that came from my core, not just tears.  I tried to hold it in, because there were so many people around me and I was embarrassed to be the only one crying.

I couldn’t stop crying, so when I got up from kneeling, I took a very quick walk around to see the other relics and quickly left the building.  Somehow I felt satisfied that whatever needed to be done, had already been done, so seeing the rest of the relics was not important.

On my way back to my car, I walked by the nice man outside while wiping away my tears and told him what had happened.  His face lit up and he was smiling from ear to ear.  He seemed to be very happy and told me that he asks everyone who walks out afterward, if they had felt anything while in the presence of the relics.  He said majority of the people say no, that they didn’t feel anything at all.  He assured me that the strong connection that I experienced was because my Heart was fully open…and he congratulated me !  lol  He said that the amount of Love that I felt in that moment was something that my soul will never forget and will carry infinitely…and of course, he made me cry even more when he said that, so it was time for me to leave sad

I didn’t expect to have such a profound experience while in the presence of the relics.  It was something that I will never forget.  When I look back on this experience, I always think of the nice man’s words when he said that my soul will always carry the Love that I felt from the Buddha relics…and I realize that in that moment, I have been forever changed.  I will never be the same…I have reunited with a part of myself that had been long forgotten.

 

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Infinite Love ❤

 

 

❤ Prajna Paramita Heart Sutra Mantra ❤

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Diamond Solar Heart ~

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On March 12th, something shifted when I woke up in the morning… I heard 3 loud chimes (kindof like bell ringing tones, but more like someone swept across 3 keys on a xylophone very quickly) and when I heard the sounds; I saw an image in my mind that looked like white sun rays with a light gray background. It kinda looked like this but with light gray instead of the black:

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I wasn’t sure what to make of it, so later I meditated on it and got the message that it was a marker for a new level/phase/initiation. I was a little confused at first, so I asked for a better explanation. I was shown that when I hear the chimes and shown the pictures in my mind, it’s because a new (group) level has been reached. The tones represent an addition to the harmonization of signature tone. The picture is a representation of a new level. This particular picture shown to me is of Diamond Rays? At first I wasn’t sure if I was interpreting that correctly, but that’s what I got. So I did a little research on the internet and it occurred to me that the rays looked similar to other pictures that I found:

Milarepa´s heart of light rainbowbody

And then I found this picture which made more sense:

Precious Diamond With Rainbow

Ahhh…. So that’s what it means. There’s a large group who has reached the level of Diamond Light Body/Rainbow Body. I was given the message that this will be triggered or beginning phases for this group on or around Spring Equinox/Solar Eclipse. So on March 19th, I woke up in the morning and felt a sensation of warmth coming from my core. It spread outward and felt like it was filling up my body. It would last for a while until I was distracted by outside noise and then the sensation would stop. I’ve felt it before, but never really paid attention to it enough to figure out what it was.

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I decided to focus on it to see if I could make it happen at will, and found that I actually could…When I focused on it, I was shown (and also physically felt) that it was my Solar Plexus and Heart chakras blending or combining together and this was creating an energy that was emanating outward. It has something to do with merging timelines or realities? I’m not sure if I interpreted that correctly? Something more along the lines of zero point, meaning that it’s a merging of HU-man authentic power energy (Solar Plexus) with Divine Love (Heart)…creating some sort of bridge/portal to anchor. The message I got was that the merging of the two created a portal that will anchor the Higher energies… I’m not even going to pretend that I understand any of that stuff -lol   …I’m sure there’s much more to it than my limited interpretation.

It was clearly a very warm energy and I could feel such a blissful comfort from it. When the warmth would emanate outward, I felt like I was expanding and leaving my body…kind of like I was expanding to a different realm. It was an awesome feeling to be able to control it for the first time, since this type of stuff has only happened randomly without my knowing or conscious direction. I was shown that now that I was aware of it, I could create it anytime I wanted. I went online and searched “Solar Heart chakra” to see if I could find anything, but there really wasn’t anything except one post about the merging of the Heart and Solar Plexus.   The author had also experienced the same sensation and called it the “Solar Heart chakra”. The article can be found HERE

**Later after writing about this, I stumbled upon a post from Sandra Walter that she wrote in May 2013 while searching for something else. I was surprised that she had already written about it and she had even posted a video about it. She called it the “Solar Heart center”.  I guess I wasn’t ready for it until now…Her post can be found HERE

Picture from Sandra’s article :

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In her explanation, she describes it as a diamond and this center being between the Heart and High Heart center. She doesn’t mention anything about the Solar Plexus though…. So now this is all coming together…it totally makes sense. I never really understood how I was supposed to create or manifest, and had tried several different techniques. Sometimes things would manifest, and sometimes they wouldn’t. What I did realize is that sometimes I unintentionally manifested stuff when I was in a state of high emotion. But the message that I’m getting from this Solar Heart experience is that this is the tool to consciously manifest and create without having to worry about the high emotion influencing the creation. It is of Christed Light, so lower energies are not even an option in this form of manifestation.

At the moment, the strongest way for me to connect to this merge, is in the half awake/half asleep state. When I wake up in the morning, if I don’t fully let myself wake up, seems to be the best time to play with this. I’ve been doing this for a few days now. I’ll keep playing with it and see if I can bring myself into this state while fully awake.

Love ❤

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Walking in Harmony

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It’s been quite a while since I’ve been able to write anything.  I can’t really explain it, but it’s almost like I wasn’t “allowed” to write anything.  When I’d make an attempt to post an update, I’d get a big “NOT NOW” that would shut me down.  This has been such a deep integration for the last three months that I totally got lost in it…I saw a post from Sandra Walter recently and it was a huge confirmation to what I’ve been going through in these last few months.  The post can be found HERE.

So I finally moved out of my (ex)boyfriend’s house in Phoenix, Arizona. On March 1st,  I made a trip to California with most of the big stuff and then officially left Arizona for good on April 19th (the day before Easter).  I did realize that I left a few odds and ends after I moved out, so I recently took a brief trip back to Arizona to pick it up.  While I was in Arizona, we took a trip to Sedona (which I have written about below).

So now I’m living in Coto de Caza, California which is also known as “Orange County”.  It’s very close to Laguna Beach.  It’s SO beautiful here and the weather is perfect.  I have this serene feeling of freedom living here with my cousin.

But enough about that, I’ll get into the energetic transformation that is currently taking place…

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Energy Sensations

So the last three months have been INTENSE to say the least.  Kundalini is kicking my ass – LOL   I’m definitely not the same as I was three months ago…my body has dramatically changed and I can feel the different rewiring that has taken effect.  There’s been a stream of energy pouring in only on the right side of my Crown chakra every day for the past couple of months.  I wonder why it’s just in that same spot?  My energy is alive and constantly moving around adjusting throughout the day.  There seem to be many embodiments residing within me.

The next thing that I’ve realized is that energy on my lower legs (calves) has dramatically changed.  I’m not sure if an experience that I had in Sedona had anything to do with it, but on my recent last trip back to Arizona to pick up the rest of my stuff, we decided to visit Sedona.  It was on May 24th around the time that there were forest fires close to the area.  I wanted to go so that I could say some prayers for rain and protection for Sedona.

While we were there, we stopped at a little outdoor vendor sale with tents.  When I passed by one of the vendors, a wall of energy forcefully pulled my energy downward.  I’ve never felt anything like it, it was the most powerful energetic grounding sensation that I’ve ever felt so far.  I was totally shocked by this and walked back to the vendor to see what they were selling.  It was a booth for jewelry that claims to help ground your energy!  Well, I can definitely say that it REALLY works since I felt it even before I knew what the product was! I didn’t physically touch any of the jewelry, so the profound effect it had on my energy was probably from all of the jewelry combined in a small space…combined with the energies in Sedona, it created some sort of vortex.

My (ex)boyfriend wanted to buy some of the jewelry for himself since I had felt such a strong energy coming from it.  As I was standing there waiting for him to browse, my energy continued to forcefully pull downward…after a while, I felt something reaching into my root/sacral chakra areas and it started “working” on me.  I had to spread my feet apart and stand in a more stable position as this forceful pulling and “work” was being done on me in front of everyone.  It was so funny to have this all going on while everyone around me was totally clueless as to what was happening.   I just stood there quietly laughing while nobody noticed.  After we left, my lower back slightly ached on the right side…the only other time my back ached like that, in the same exact spot, was when I got my Reiki Tummo attunements.  I must have had a huge flush of energy flowing through me to trigger that same effect.

So since that experience in Sedona, I am now frequently feeling this strange buzzy energy whipping around my lower legs.  It’s almost as if some additional anchoring channels were opened or widened in that area.  The next night energy was strongly pouring into my feet (stronger than ever before) accompanied by the sensation of an energy enveloping the outside of my calves (emanating into my legs from the outside).  The outer sensation felt very electromagnetic.  A few days later, I realized that each time my foot hit the ground while walking, my leg would vibrate, but only when the foot hits the ground.  It’s so bizarre…it happens every single time I walk now, so I decided to meditate on it to see if I got any information…

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While in meditation, I got a vision of a tuning fork.  The message I received was that my lower leg bones were acting as a tuning fork?  Huh?  That sounds so silly, but that’s what I got…When my feet hit the ground while walking, it strikes my bones and they vibrate like a tuning fork causing some type of energy balancing effect.  I had to laugh when I initially got the message, because it just really sounds “out there” – LOL  But then I realized that we are here to bring in new codes, anchoring in new vibrations and tones…so why couldn’t it be true?  If I believe it’s true, then I agree to create it, and then it will become my reality.

**On September 21, 2014, I stumbled upon a page in Lisa Renee’s Ascension Glossary  (while researching “bone marrow” on the internet) and it was a total confirmation to the information that I was receiving…WOW…The page can be found here:

http://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Law_of_Resonance 

 

Later in the evening, after receiving this vision, I saw a picture of Egyptian hieroglyphs on television, and it showed the Egyptian god who has some type of tuning fork looking thing on his head…I’m not sure if it is an actual tuning fork on his head, but it prompted me to start searching for stuff on the internet.

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Then I searched “Egyptian tuning fork” and saw pictures of hieroglyphs with two tuning forks passing energy to each other :

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I also found this on the crystalinks site:

“Discoveries emerging from Egypt, describe the existence of a world wide pyramid temple system in prehistory, mounted like antennae on key energy meridians, which were employed by ancient priest-scientists as harmonic tuning forks to stabilize the tectonic plates of the planet’s cataclysmic geology. From the mother tongue word Jedaiah, meaning ‘The Way of the Word’ or ‘The Power of the Word’, the ancient Jedai priests used the Language of Light to tune the planet like a giant harmonic bell. Much is being rediscovered in the last days of this time cycle.”  The whole article can be found HERE.

After finding many connections, it reminded me that I had awakened in the morning on March 10th and saw an illuminated pattern surrounding me.  It was difficult to see with my eyes open, but was very clear when I closed my eyes.  It looked like many strands of DNA that were all activated and moving at the same time.  The only picture that I could find that kinda looked like it was this one:

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The strands didn’t have the lines in between them though, and the strands were all much closer together. Their movement seemed to generate a tone.  I got the idea that they were all dancing or in sync with each other.  The words that came to mind while witnessing this were “harmony” and “harmonics”…and when I looked up the word “harmonic” on the internet, I found this photo :

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So I’m thinking maybe I wasn’t seeing DNA, but was actually seeing harmonics in action.  Then to further add to the syncs, I began reading lots of posts from various sources that are speaking about harmonics.  One of the posts was by Earthkeeper Tyberonn who posted information about a “Portal of Harmony” on February 2nd which can be found HERE.  and on April 11th about the “Harmonic Trigger” which he states, began on the Spring Equinox March 20th and would continue until Summer Solstice June 21st which can be found HERE.  I’m now seeing the word “harmony” everywhere…

Maybe actual people are being “harmonically triggered” during this time and their bodies are walking tuning forks?  Hmmm…that gives me something to think about…

 

“The search for meaning is really the search for the lost chord. When the lost chord is discovered by humankind, the discord in the world will be healed and the symphony of the universe will come into complete harmony with itself.” ~John O’Donohue

 

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Love ❤

 

 

**After writing this post, I found a post on July 8th that speaks of harmonics and our spine being a tuning fork…Wow! Such an awesome sync to find that!  I very strongly resonated with what she wrote and got very emotional while reading it for some reason…  The post can be found here: http://judithkusel.wordpress.com/2014/07/07/the-awakening-deep-within/

 

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Infinity ~Twin Flame Awareness

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In the beginning of November, I had a vision of a key being handed to me with an infinity symbol on it…I also saw an Ankh with an infinity symbol on the top (instead of a circle) but I wasn’t too sure what this meant.  I wrote about the vision in a blog HERE.

After meditating on it for a while, I got the message that the infinity symbol was given to me specifically for the purpose of assisting with the ancestral karmic energies I was currently working through.  I was shown that the sideways infinity symbol (or LEMNISCATE ) was to be focused on or visualized actively moving in my mind while having the intention of clearing the ancestral energies.

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I followed my guidance and used the symbol many times for clearing…I also used it on my boyfriend while doing healing on his sciatic nerve pain that he’s been suffering from lately.  I believe sciatic pain is associated with blocked meridians and nadis due to ancestral junk that we’ve accumulated over many lifetimes.  I also believe that fibromyalgia is linked to this as well.  It really seemed to work on his pain and he said he noticed a big difference after the energy healing was done.

I just recently became aware that the infinity symbol is linked to twin flame/twin soul reunion (awareness).  It all started with a beautiful dream that I had on the night of December 17th (night of the full moon).

This dream was unlike any other I’ve ever had…in the dream, I was visited by a Buddhist monk and we were totally and completely in Love with each other…I could feel this strong feeling of Love just by him being in my presence, it was emanating out of him. In the dream, we were going to get married and I understood that he was going to be my teacher for the rest of my life.

It was a HUGE relief to me, like if everything from that point on, was going to be ok… I was SO in Love with him, it was beyond anything I have ever felt in my entire life…I felt my whole being totally surrender to him and knew without a doubt that he was going to complete me in such a way, that I would never have to search for answers to anything ever again. The feeling was so strong, that I cannot even express into words how it felt.

I know that Buddhist monks take a vow of celibacy and have only read of special and rare circumstances that they may marry someone, so it’s extremely rare. I guess the message that I initially took from the dream was that it was more of an internal union than a literal marriage in 3D. I was thinking maybe it represented the union of masculine and feminine aspects of self?

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I saw a video on December 19th by Meline Lafont that speaks of this phase of currently embodying the I AM presence (she also mentions heart palpitations which I’ve been having a lot of lately).  Her video triggered some questions and I searched “I AM presence masculine and feminine” on the internet out of curiosity. I realized that the I AM presence is actually the masculine and feminine aspects merged which I hadn’t really thought about before. Now that makes sense to me regarding my dream. I later realized that on December 17th the full moon was in Gemini which represents “twin” energy…maybe twin flame/twin soul energy?

Throughout this process, I’ve never really paid much attention to the twin flame stuff…I just never really believed that my twin flame was incarnated here on Earth and the thought of reuniting physically with him didn’t resonate with me. After this dream, I now fully believe that my twin flame is not incarnated on Earth and that my “reuniting” is not an actual reuniting, but more of a remembering, or conscious awareness.

The message that I’m getting from this dream is that I’ve always been merged with my twin flame, it’s just that it was not in my conscious awareness. Now that I’ve become consciously aware and have integrated the awareness of his presence, I feel his presence within me…it’s as if I can pull that feeling of complete unconditional Love from within me anytime I want, now that I’m aware of it. He is always with me. I’m even getting teary eyed right now just writing about it…I’ve never felt this type of feeling before…it’s unlike anything I’ve ever experienced.

Why would I need to manifest this union physically when I can feel his Love always (in all ways) within? I would not want to change this perfection by incarnating it in this imperfect realm…there is no need or desire for anything other than what it is.

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After doing a little more research, I found lots of stuff regarding twin flames associated with the infinity symbol and realized that the awareness of the infinity symbol is the beginning of the twin flame awareness. One of the articles I found showed this symbol:

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The article says: “By activating the Infinity Master Creative Symbol (all of it) you bring the 5 Elements (Earth, Fire, Air, Water and Ether) into balance. You activate the Alpha – Omega – One-Heart Chakra System once again. You receive and activate the Grail Codes and you activate and bring the Feminine/Masculine and Twin Flame Love into balance. Furthermore you activate the Holomatrix of Love in Pure White Light to begin automatically releasing and healing everything which do not serve your highest good any longer and add all that you need to reach the enlightenment at high speed and with ease and grace.”

The rest of the article can be found HERE

I also found a site that had this symbol:

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The article says:

“Germain began with an image of two circles that symbolized the separate entities before remembering the Twin Flame journey.”

“He continued by showing the infinity symbol and described how this was the beginning of the Twin Flames journey. As the two circles come closer together and begin to form the two halves of the eight, (infinity symbol) this symbolized the beginning of the coming together of the divine masculine and the divine feminine. Through working together whether in the physical or the etheric realms they would experience within the inner eye of the heart the moving energies as it traveled around the infinity symbol. As the two energies meet in the middle it can be clearly seen as the magnetic energies of the divine feminine and the electric energies of the divine masculine.  (The link to the article that this came from, is no longer working).

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I’m having a difficult time explaining what’s been shown to me (by my inner guidance) about the infinity symbol, but here are some pictures that might help to explain it better:

From The Emerald Tablet:

“When thou hast entered the form thou hast dwelt in, use thou the cross and the circle combined. Open thy mouth and use thou thy Voice. Utter the Word and thou shalt be free. Only the one who of Light has the fullest can hope to pass by the guards of the way. And then must he move through strange curves and angles that are formed in direction not known to man.”

**Click on Ankh pictures for updated findings (July 24, 2015):

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From the Emerald Tablet:

“Only they could guard God’s creation. Then did I pass ëround the circle of eight. Saw all the souls who had conquered the darkness. Saw the splendor of Light where they dwelled. Longed I to take my place in their circle, but longed I also for the way I had chosen, when I stood in the Halls of Amenti and made my choice to the work I would do.”

Circle of Eight:

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Old Way ~ Wheel of Karma

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New Way ~ In This NOW

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Infinity Spirit/Sol and Soul/Luna, Male and Female

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There are four elements in this image that are connected by an ouroborus symbol. The lion represents the essence of spirit and the swan symbolizes the feminine soul. Here the lion consumes the female swan within the stage of the work that she represents, namely, the albedo. Thus the silver, or white stone, is in the process of being transmuted into gold. The lion and the swan, spirit and soul, are captured in their cosmic counterparts, sun (Sol) and moon (Luna), within the ouroborus. Typically the snake devouring its own tail is presented as a circle representing a state of primal unconsciousness; activated but not going anywhere. But, here we see this symbol in the form of the infinity sign, thus indicating a shift toward conscious integration of the energies of spirit/Sol and soul/Luna [male and female].  (Link for the article that this picture came from, is no longer working)

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I apologize for not being able to explain the information that I’ve received and just using pictures, but it’s such a deep “knowing” that my limited interpretation cannot fully explain.  I hope it makes sense and is my wish that it will help in some way on one’s journey.  The gold/silver, male/female, mirror image, serpent/snakes, I AM presence, infinity symbol are all coming together and the pieces of the puzzle are quickly filling in.  It’s not what I would have expected it to be, but it’s a reminder that following your Heart is so important in this process.  There is no right or wrong, but if you follow what truly resonates with your Heart, you will always find your way home GoldenHeart

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Twin Flames captured above my head in a photo after this experience

 

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