I was born and raised in Los Angeles, California and was an only child for 14 years (until my sweet little brother was born). My parents were teenagers that should have NEVER been allowed to have children, even later in life. Through a very difficult upbringing, I have always been my own psychologist and support system…my own best friend. This is a large part of why I prefer to be alone most of the time.
Starting at a very young age, I have had strange things happen to me. There has always been a lot of telekinetic activity, lots of memories of past lives and heightened intuition. Most of my psychic activity would happen in dreams that would end up actually happening. As I never had anyone to talk to about it, I just learned to ignore it.
As an adult, I lived a pretty “normal” life and would eventually work in law enforcement, which was a childhood dream of mine. Everything was going well, was able to move away from my old neighborhood (and dysfunctional family), had a job that allowed my independence, was making a lot of money and for the first time in my life, I was happy and felt good about my self.
Then one day on December, 29, 2007, BAM! I had a spontaneous full blown Kundalini awakening. The force of it blew me completely out of my body….and EVERYTHING changed. Everything I believed in, all of my goals, everything I had worked so hard to achieve, had been ripped to shreds. I didn’t even know what Kundalini was at the time, and had no idea what a chakra was.
A year after my awakening, I quit my 11 year career…I was now too sensitive to work in law enforcement and it was becoming physically painful. All of my energy centers had been blown wide open including my 3rd eye and I was now hypersensitive to everything around me. I could feel people’s emotions, hear their thoughts, hear & feel solar flares/winds, Earth changes and was experiencing EMF hypersensitivity.
While working through layer after layer of programming and trauma, I was unable to keep a job and went into seclusion. I spent about 5 years in bed trying to keep it together, trying to figure out everything on my own. There were several phases of Dark Night of The Soul that I almost didn’t make it out of. The depression and sadness associated with intensive clearing was brutal. Sometimes sleeping for days straight, as intense work was being done on my body…other times going in and out from floating in the black stillness of the void, only briefly getting up to have a drink of water or to go to the restroom.
It’s been over 11 years since the initial awakening. I feel totally different after years of intensive clearing, but there’s still much more to work through. I feel like giving up at least a few times a month…but this is my life now. I just keep pushing through it over and over day after day.
It’s been rough, but I’m very Grateful to have awakened. I would not want to go back to my ignorant bliss even though the blue pill would have been the easier choice. I’m slowly coming out of seclusion and have been meeting people who are spiritually awake. It is my wish to have a circle of friends who I can trust and can feel that they are genuine.
In this blog, I share my experience with others so that they hopefully won’t have to experience the hell that I’ve had to go through while trying to interpret this transformation to my rational mind. Ohhhh…what a long road that has been!
You are not crazy, you are not alone and you are Loved beyond measure ❤
Many Blessings on your journey 🙂