I haven’t felt motivated to write anything in a while…Not too much has happened since my last post with the exception of December 27th; I got hit with a huge amount of energy…Right after I woke up in the morning, I got dizzy, couldn’t focus my eyes, had a weird pressure sensation in my solar plexus which caused extreme anxiety, and nerves started twitching all over my body in different locations.
I felt like I was having a panic attack. I took some anxiety medication and stayed in bed all day…There’s no way I would have been able to rest if I hadn’t taken the medication, because this sensation was just too strong. I felt like my solar plexus was going to explode.
I had strange dreams and visions while I was in and out of sleep all day. I was shown that there were many fragments of myself that were being returned and put together like a puzzle. The way that it was shown to me, was more like shards of glass and all of the jagged glass pieces were brought together and seamlessly melted into one piece. Maybe that’s why I felt so much pressure from my core, because of the added (returning) embodiments?
I also saw a deity sitting on a throne that looked kind of like a female Egyptian deity but was wearing a really exaggerated tall headpiece that I’ve never seen in any Egyptian artwork before. The headpiece was about 4 feet tall and had many layers of gold and multicolored gems/stones on it. It kind of looked like an “Ezelsdorf-Buch golden hat” (but without the rim at the bottom) which is in the picture below, but in my vision it also had jewels on it.
When I got out of bed around 5pm, my body was super hot even though it didn’t read on the thermometer. My boyfriend scanned my energy with his hand and said that the heat was coming out of the area of my solar plexus. He also said that he saw a bright white orb on my shoulder. I also keep seeing a blue orb on my left side and I’m starting to think that it’s always around me since I see it so much. Maybe it’s a guardian?
Later, when my boyfriend went to plug in the Christmas tree lights, he had barely grabbed the plug in his hand and the lights flickered on! He hadn’t even touched the plug anywhere near the plug outlet in the wall, so the lights went on from his own energy! I was convinced that something big was going on energetically on the 27th but I haven’t read anything about it yet.
I had a strange dream on Jan. 3rd. In the dream I was laying down on a bed in a brightly lit room and started to close my eyes to meditate. Once my eyes were closed, I started to see a blue background with one single white cloud in the middle of it. In my mind I was asking for some guidance and big capital blue letters popped up into the cloud that spelled the word “FLEE”.
I was confused by this message and asked again for some guidance and then a bunch of blue words in another language popped up into the cloud…I couldn’t understand what the words said, so I asked for guidance one more time…the cloud started moving and contracting, and then completely went away. I have NO IDEA what this is supposed to mean. Flee pretty much means to get out quickly, but does it mean for me to get out of Arizona? I guess we’ll find out here pretty soon! I always thought of the word Flee as an urgency to get away from danger. I don’t really believe in doom and gloom stuff, so maybe I’ll find another meaning or connection later…
As for energy sensations, I went through a couple of weeks of feeling the “hot spots” (random electrical pulse sensations) everyday on my body (which were pretty painful). I haven’t felt any in a while, so I’m really glad that’s over with. The pulse in my tongue has been very subtle to the point that I can hardly feel it anymore, but I can tell that it’s still there. My Crown has been really active and the movement on it feels heavier…something has changed with my Crown but I haven’t quite figured it out yet…
For the past few weeks, I’d been having crazy dreams about people being mean to me and doing hurtful things. Most of it was little petty stuff (like people at my old job or small arguments with friends), but the dreams have been very stressful. I’ve spent so much time clearing the really big traumatic experiences in the last year, that I hadn’t really paid attention to the little things. These dreams have showed me that it’s important for me to focus on clearing the little petty stuff too…
When I woke up in the morning a few days ago, I felt a strong pulse coming out of my Heart center…it was almost like an up and down sensation that tickled a little bit (the picture above reminds me of the energies). It felt really good. After that, my upper back was vibrating for a couple of days, so I’m guessing that I’ve had a deeper activation of the Heart center. I’ve also been feeling a subtle sensation in my throat like it’s closing up…it’s not overwhelming, but it does get a bit uncomfortable at times. I’m thinking that it has to do with this Heart center activation. In the past, the High Heart activations have also affected my throat.
Since this deeper Heart center activation, I had been a little emotional and had no idea why I felt that way. I’ve just been resting and had been trying not to focus on anything. Today something feels different… my inner guidance has shown me a picture of training wheels…the message that I’m getting is that I’ve gone through a whirlwind of emotions coming up over the last few weeks from past experiences and am now using my training wheels to “rewrite” these past issues. I really have no idea how I’m supposed to “rewrite” this stuff… but I’m being shown not to “think” about how to do it, and that if I just “feel” (as in a surrendering kind of way), then I will be shown or guided how to do it.
So this seems to be the theme for January…another phase of releasing, but with more ease and in more of a flowing nature. This phase will serve as a sort of training to more easily (but very thoroughly) transform whatever it is that comes up from deep (I’m being shown VERY deep) within. It seems that we’ve come to a high enough vibration to be able to start using this upgrade in transformation. There’s a little bit of confidence that came in today and I’m buzzing with a new “secure” type feeling…it’s very difficult to explain, but it feels really good. It’s very powerful, whatever it is…
For the first time in quite a while, I have the confidence to move out of my boyfriend’s house and am getting a little push to finally go (and to completely let go). I need to get moving… Something has changed within me that has restored the confidence and security to move forward. There’s a sense of excitement and a trust that everything will not only be “ok”, but it will be even better than I imagined. I’m planning to completely move out at the end of February…I just need to get these “training wheels” going so that I can move myself into a balanced state 🙂