I really haven’t been feeling well, but it seems to have gotten worse in the last three weeks. That’s why I haven’t written in a while. I’ve got a list of medical issues going on…the most serious being a severe vitamin D deficiency and pain in my liver (which is filled with cysts) accompanied by tenderness in my appendix. I’m not sure if the vitamin D deficiency is due to the liver not functioning properly…I have an appointment in 2 weeks with an internal medicine specialist to do some testing and try to figure this out.
There’s a lot more going on, but I don’t want to use this blog as a complaint log…I’ll spare you the rest of the very long list of ailments and health related symptoms 😦 Since I haven’t been feeling well, I’ve been really grumpy… just pretty much locking myself in the room away from the rest of the world.
I had a dream last night that my friend Rev. Mary Martin was visiting me at a house that I’ve never seen before. She told me that I’m manifesting these health issues and manifesting my lack of abundance by holding on to old thought patterns and beliefs that no longer apply to this lifetime.
Yes, I admit that I do have issues with abundance in the form of money…it bothers me that people charge so much money for Spiritual gifts, Healing and Spiritual classes…mostly because I don’t have any money and I’m unable to afford the high prices that are being charged. I need to get over that, I know, I’m just not sure how to approach it. I admit, it is a very outdated way of thinking and seems kind of like a victim mentality…but becoming aware of it is the first step…
In my Heart, I know that my resentment is blocking my own abundance. My relationship with the energy of money, my resentment toward it and my guilt of having others give me money (feeling like I’m a burden) are all blocking me from receiving abundance. I’m so used to being independent and supporting myself…it’s gonna be a tough one to work through, but I’ve gotta do it (sigh).
Mary also told me in the dream that I am free to create anything that I want and that I was the only thing that was blocking me from doing it…I’m the sole obstacle of my own health and happiness. There is no outside force trying to block me, no mean spirited scary little parasites or outside negative forces biting my ankles – LOL…it’s simply all just outdated beliefs within myself, within my being, that need to be released and updated…(THANKS FOR THE VISIT MARY! LOVE YOU!)
Sounds so simple, but how do I do it? I thought I’d already done it, so apparently that wasn’t enough… I’m going to experiment with this starting today and see what seems to work and what doesn’t…maybe start with positive affirmations and see what I’m guided to do from there. 21 days seems to come to mind, so I’ll start with 21 days of positive affirmations.
As for energy sensations, I haven’t felt anything out of the ordinary lately. The usual Crown movements… some work being done on me during nap time, feeling someone touching my arm and goose bumps here and there…nothing new.
The second week of April I also went through a phase where I was dreaming about OLD issues that I thought were already cleared…like literally, every single night I had a different dream pertaining to a different issue that I’ve had with someone in my life…even stuff from childhood… This was some DEEP cleaning from really OLD stuff, some that I had even forgotten about!
What I like to do when that happens, is honor the clearing and sit and reflect on it once I wake up from the dream…I see it as an opportunity to clear it during dream time without having to replay it over again during everyday life…seems like a Blessing to not have to experience it over again…dream time is a lot easier! The issue is given the chance to express itself in the dream, you get just as emotional about it in the dream as you would have in real life, and then when you wake up, you can forgive it and send it on its way.
I’m not sure the exact day, but around April 19th, I had a vision of the number 13 presented to me…it was placed in front of me, then it was turned backwards, then turned back around and illuminated bright white light until it disappeared. I have no idea what that was, but I found some stuff later about 13-13-13 here:
On April 22, I was lying down at night time and got a big download and vision of a brilliant illuminated indigo color flooding into my Crown. I was shown that it was passing through me and I was anchoring this energy on a very large scale. I have no idea what that color of energy represents besides the 3rd eye, but I’m sure there’s much more meaning to it than that. It was such a beautiful indigo color that we wouldn’t normally see in 3D, I call it a 5D color. The 5D colors that I see in visions, or sometimes capture in pictures are brilliant illuminated colors that are much more vivid than we see here normally.
Examples of what I describe as 5D colors are here below in these pictures to give you an idea. Notice how brilliant the indigo color is…They were captured in pictures taken in Sedona :
Oh, before I forget, Patricia Cota-Robles posted on facebook tonight:
“The 1st of May is known as Saint Germain’s Ascension Day. This year, Saint Germain and his Legions of the Violet Flame will bless the Earth with an unprecedented influx of the New 5-Dimensional Crystalline Solar Violet Flame. This is a frequency of the Violet Flame that reflects our Father-Mother God’s Infinite Perfection. This year we will experience this Sacred Fire in frequencies beyond anything we have ever been able to receive.”
This will be interesting to experience…I sure could use some of that right about now! 🙂
**After posting this blog, I found Lisa Renee’s Shifting Timelines post for May 2013 called “Reconciling Ancestral Memories”…In her post she speaks about the color spectrum that is not visible to most humans (what I call 5D colors) and she also mentions gridworkers anchoring in energies and using their bodies as conductive points (acupuncture points) for the Earth…so awesome to read that after writing my blog. It takes me a while to process what she writes, so I usually have to read it over like 3 times before I can understand what she’s written (yes, I’m kinda slow ;-))…pretty technical stuff but I’m in awe of her ability to break it down in such detail… Her post can be found here : http://energeticsynthesis.com/index.php/resource-tools/news-shift-timelines/2212-reconciling-ancestral-memories
Much Gratitude ❤