I just have not wanted to write lately…So much has happened in the last few months.
The first major thing that happened was that I moved out of my cousin’s house at the end of February shortly after our uncle died of a heart attack. (My cousin is on my mother’s side of the family, and that’s the side that I’m consciously aware of healing ancestral karma )The death in the family showed my family’s true colors and brought out a flood of emotions…Every time I’d start to write about it, I’d get stressed out, so I’m not going to write about it. I’ll just say that it’s a chapter of my life that has been firmly shut and I’ve said a vow and contract release as to never have to repeat it again.
So I’m living at my Dad’s now. I’m still trying to adjust and although a little difficult, it’s much healthier energetically, so I’m not complaining! That seems to be a theme lately…when I complain about something (I used to complain about how messy my Dad’s house was), the universe will show me that it could be MUCH worse and then I’ll appreciate whatever it was that I was complaining about – lol
I’ve gotta work on the Gratitude department…
In February I was experiencing what I believe to be timeline slips, or some sort of interdimensional crossing of some sort. At first I would get this overwhelming déjà vu type feeling and for some reason, a warmth would flood my body… then a while later I would see other timelines happening right in front of me. It was so bizarre! It looked like a holographic overlay. I didn’t know what was happening but I was able to stay calm and let it pass.
This happened briefly on two or three separate days. I’m not sure if it was because timelines were changing or if it was just a compression (deletion). At this point in the process, I’ve learned to just go with it. There is no more fear and I have full trust that it’s for the highest of good.
For the past 6 months or so, I’ve been seeing different forms of darkness projected in front of me before it leaves (before it’s being transmuted and released). I’ve seen it as a black ball of scribbles, or a black spiked ball, sometimes as a black blob or strange blob with tentacles which actively moves (that one looked weird like a cartoon)…
Occasionally I’ve seen similar brown unidentifiable creatures (actively moving), but I have no idea what the difference in color means…
That seems to be something frequent for me…darkness will show itself to me before it departs. It’s a little strange but I feel that it’s part of whatever I’m supposed to do. It’s like it comes to me so that I can guide it out…totally compliant and no resistance…absolutely no fear present.
I don’t mind doing that type of work. There’s a sense of being in control and it doesn’t scare me at all. In the last few months, I’ve also had frequent dreams of performing exorcisms and seem to know exactly what I’m doing in the dreams. Sometimes speaking in another language and forcefully commanding whatever it is to leave. I don’t know if I’m remembering past lives, or if this is merely part of the timeline merge/compression/deletion.
There are many people incarnated now that are doing this work, but not all are consciously aware of it. The message I’m getting is that they’ve requested from a higher perspective to not see it because they don’t want to trigger any fear. I can totally understand that!
**After writing this, I stumbled across an article from Lisa Renee that speaks of clearing shadow body fragments. In the article she says:
“This is a forced purging on planet, and we are the bodies that transmute the density, transit the debris and astral entities, many times through our own bodies. If you have not commanded your space and designated a place for astral releases and entity transits, knowing how to set up a portal in your space will be very helpful now. Sometimes astral entities will see a Indigo lightbody and come towards the light for help. Many times this is experienced as a psychic attack, but as one’s consciousness grows it is realized that this attack is really a call for help. Many people are getting fast tracked because our lightbody expansion is moving faster than our personality has been able to comprehend what is actually transpiring. This is common within the Indigo and Starseed population, so take a deep breath, and take in information at a firm yet fearless place.”
The entire article can be found HERE
In the beginning of May, I started to feel a rippling energy in my neck whenever I was in a relaxed state or just before falling asleep. This has REALLY changed as of last night. I first noticed in the evening that my right side felt tingly like it was going numb. I also had small electrical pulses or “snaps” (as I call them) on hands, arms and legs…this lasted for a few hours.
At night as I was falling asleep, I felt a very deep and profound trembling in my core. Then later I felt a rolling rippling energy in my entire head and on the right side of my body (right arm/shoulder, right side of abdomen, entire right leg). I’ve never felt such intensity while still awake (only usually in a lucid dream state). The force of it reminded me of the dream I had of water forcefully shooting up through my shushumna.
This recent experience was so massive that it just took over completely. I managed to open my eyes briefly (only briefly because I felt like my whole head was liquefied and forcefully moving around) and saw what looked like heat waves rippling in the air.
It was a pretty awesome experience! I just went with it and let it happen. At times, it felt like ocean waves rolling inside my body. It was really strange…This was definitely the most powerful physical energetic sensation I’ve ever felt over the years. It seems to be getting more physically intense very quickly…
My solar plexus and sacral areas have also had a strange electromagnetic sensation within them for a few days. It’s hard to explain, but they feel very “raw” and sensitive like if they’re open wide and tense. I have no idea what this is. I’ve done clearing, worn my Moldivite and Herkimer necklace, my very protective Nuummite necklace, claimed my space, protection meditations etc…At first I thought it was some sort of drain or psychic attack because it’s so strong, but I don’t think that’s what it is…this is something else new… Hopefully it will pass soon because it’s a bit uncomfortable.
The energies have slowly worked their way up my body throughout the past years. It stayed at the top of my Heart area for many years, quickly went through the throat area (only a few months) and has been in my head for about a year now.
My Crown is super active during this phase…in fact, I’ve been feeling a fluttering right in the middle top of my head for 2 days…it feels like a moth is stuck in hair and trying to get out. And recently felt something shooting out of the sides of my head. When I focus in on it, I get the image of the halo around the head that looks like this:
Those spots in the picture are exactly where I’m feeling the sensations.
This seems to be a new stage that I’m going through with lots of new sensations. I guess I was so used to the sensations I’ve felt in the past since the same things happened over and over for years…but now things are definitely changing very rapidly.
It’s exciting to experience something new. When all fear has been cleared and full trust is present, it’s an awesome experience to participate in. I guess this is where I can apply the Gratitude that I’ve been lacking to express in my life…
I’m so grateful to be a part of something so profound and so sacred.