Taming The Demon



You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed – Antoine de Saint-Exupery – The Little Prince

“Taming the Demon”

If I would have read a title like this 6 years ago, I would probably feel a knot in my stomach while reading it. I had to ask myself why such things, words, or sometimes numbers, make me feel uncomfortable. What I discovered was that it was all due to programming from society, the people around me and their view of good and bad, light and dark…but what do I really feel from my own experience?

I was originally going to name this blog “Taming the Cyclops” but decided to change it…This posting is about a dream that I had that seemed to be the beginning of several dreams over the last few years that  all revealed the same message.


About 6 years ago I had a strange dream that helped to change my view of demons, monsters and nightmares. In the dream I was visiting my younger cousin Greg at his home. We ended up going to the shopping mall to have some lunch. I placed my personal belongings on a table in the food court, to show people that we were going to sit there and to save the table for us.

I went to order food and when I came back to the table, there were 3 men sitting in the space I had chosen. They appeared to be laborers or construction workers.  The men carelessly put their lunch right on top of my personal belongings, just totally disregarding that someone else might be sitting there.

I told one of the men that we were going to sit there and explained why all of my stuff was on the table. He ignored me and continued to eat. After a while of trying to get a response from him, I proceeded to gather my belongings from the table and in the process, had to move his food to get my stuff from under it. The man was FURIOUS…he quickly and forcefully stood up in front of me and began to yell and scream in my face.  As he was screaming, he began to morph into a huge Cyclops monster.


The man’s body expanded as he grew taller and more muscular.  He began to aggressively growl and foam at the mouth and his teeth were razor sharp and glaring like a wild animal.  I could feel the humidity of his hot breath on my face.

To my surprise, I was not afraid. I stood right up to him and stared into his single eye. I began to forcefully yell at him and told him that he was being absolutely ridiculous…that he was letting his anger turn him into a demon. “STOP IT NOW!” …”DON’T YOU REALIZE THAT YOU’RE ALLOWING YOUR EMOTIONS TO CONTROL YOU?!”…”YOUR EMOTIONS ARE TURNING YOU INTO A MONSTER” …”LOOK AT YOURSELF!!!”

As I was shouting these words, I could feel a release from my core, there was such power behind it. My words seemed to slowly calm him down and he just continued to breathe heavily while I stared into his eye. My staring into his eye seemed to have a hypnotizing effect on him. Even though he calmed down, he didn’t turn back into a man, he stayed as a Cyclops, but his anger slowly dissipated. I was somehow able to tame him.

This is where the dream is kind of hazy…I don’t remember parts of it.  The dream somehow shifted to the Cyclops giving us a ride home. I’m not sure how that came about, but I somehow influenced him to do it.


He had an old beat-up white pick-up truck and we sat in the back of the truck while he drove us home.


Outside of the mall, it looked like a small Middle Eastern city and I could feel the dry heat of the desert air.  The air was thick and dusty and I could feel the warmth of the sun shining down on my skin.




We drove past a small marketplace of old buildings, shades of turquoise and blue, paint peeling off of the tattered walls. I could hear Arabic type music playing in the background.

The Cyclops kept slamming on his brakes and sharply turning corners so that we would tumble around in the back of the truck…he thought it was HILARIOUS and I could hear his deep belly laugh as he watched us with his single eye in the rear view mirror. I just told my cousin to ignore him and that we’d be home soon….

The Cyclops kept laughing so hard, such a joyful laugh, that it was contagious…It triggered my own laughter and as I began to laugh, then my cousin started to laugh. My cousin and I tumbling around in the back of the truck laughing hysterically…then I woke up…

Later when I thought about the dream, I realized that it was showing me that these monsters are created by ourselves…they are the creation of our own anger and emotions. When I told the Cyclops to stop being so ridiculous, he seemed to snap out of his rage and calm down…his behavior was now in his awareness…

At the end of the dream when we were all laughing, it showed me that I had brought joy to this monster that at one point wanted to rip me to shreds. By taming him and not trying to destroy or kill him, I had somehow healed a part of myself by bringing awareness to it and not trying to fight against it.

Something inside of me has changed as a result of this light shone in the deeply hidden darkness…there is a sense of unconditional Love and understanding for even the darkest aspects…realizing that it’s not an outside force, but merely a part of myself that just needed acknowledgment, acceptance for what it is, and forgiveness…

In resolution and graduation from the astral realm, we will take parts of ourselves that are not perfect…It’s the acknowledgement and acceptance of these parts of self that will allow the healing and release to the higher realms.  In my personal experience, we do not leave them behind…

We merely transcend them with Loving/Freeing recognition.







Godself ~ Painting by Alex Grey

“Every person is an aspect of one Godself” – Alex Grey


July 29, 2016

I really haven’t felt like posting anything for quite a while.  I’ve been writing in my journal, but just not feeling like sharing, I guess…Something happened yesterday that really affected me and I feel like it was a pretty big shift, so I felt inspired to write about it.

Yesterday something happened that drew so much energy and emotion, that it felt like it combusted.  It started while I was driving home from the store and I got this realization that hit me like a ton of bricks…I realized that I am what we call “God”…I chose my life before I was even born…I am a facet of the Creator, and if I am the Creator, then why in the world am I agreeing to play this stupid game any longer? It actually kind of pissed me off – lol

I’ve always known this to be true, but this realization was different…it’s like something awakened inside of me and I actually felt it in every cell in my body.  I guess I can say that it’s like I embodied/integrated the realization and it started triggering anger…anger because I was blindly participating in something that I didn’t need to be a part of anymore.  Everything started to flash in my mind and I was suddenly seeing my entire life.

It got me to thinking that I have experienced quite a bit of suffering in this lifetime; physical abuse, family issues, homelessness, birth defects, health problems, chronic allergies, EMF hypersensitivity etc…and although I’ve evolved throughout the years, I’m still experiencing difficulty with most of those issues.

So why am I agreeing to this crap?!  Why am I agreeing to participate day-after-day-after-day to allow this illusion to continue to exist?

I started to question everything; what about karma? Isn’t that like a set of rules made up by another person?  Who decided that humans would have to participate in karma?  And what about genetics?  My family has a long list of health issues so I will most likely have them too?  Who decided that? (my doctor told me the other day that I will most likely have osteoporosis because it runs in my family – Huh?! )  What if I don’t agree to that?  What if I know and believe that I can and will change that?  The more questions flooded in, the more agitated I became…but I just allowed myself to delve deep into these feelings and bring them to the surface.

When I got home, I waited until everyone left and I was home alone…then I looked into the mirror, looked directly into my eyes and began to yell.



I started with “Hey YOU…I’m talking to YOU, not some outside source or a God sitting on a throne in some distant place, I’m talking to YOU…the one who created this life”.

I yelled to myself that since “I” was responsible for the circumstances in my life, since I chose all of this before I was even born, then “I” was putting my foot down and refusing to participate any longer.

I was angry.  WHO would choose this crap?!  Why would anyone or anything choose suffering or set it up so that a helpless child HAS TO suffer from the very start of their life with circumstances beyond their control?  “I” chose this?

I let it all out and demanded that things change in my life and environment or I will “opt-out’ because I’m SO worn out…I said I was tired and beat-up and physically/emotionally exhausted…and I refused to participate in this stupid game any longer.

I had done the work, handed over full trust to this process, activated dormant chakras, forgiven, cleared, released, cleared again and again, embodied, integrated, anchored, transformed, transmuted, transfigured, transcended…ALL of the T’s….but after all of that, I still had pain and suffering, and now I’d hit rock bottom.  I was consciously putting my foot down.  NO MORE PAIN AND SUFFERING.

After screaming at my reflection and letting it all out, I felt so much better.  The rush of emotion seemed to clear and I was able to calm down.  It felt like a huge release of pressure from my core…like a volcano erupting.  A while later, once I became calm again and was able to get centered, I tuned in to what I had just experienced.  I was able to understand what had happened.

I realized that my emotional outburst was a huge shift in my energetic field and a substantial release…another tier in the awakening stratum (I didn’t even know what the word stratum meant, but it popped into my mind) .  Revolutionary anger is always a sign of change in the making….lol   And that is a reflection in the outer world today…and now, a revolution within my own body as well…Ahhh…

This was a huge catalyst that was igniting a transformation from within.  The images that I received were of flames combusting and igniting other flames.


This is the beginning of many coming into their own true power (consciously).  Not the kind of power as in wars and control, but the exact opposite of that.  This is the uprising of Unconditional Love, protection and security…the security to fully awaken with full support and understanding.  The security to release all of the programming.

Sometimes it’s not that we need protection from the “bad guys”(illusions)….sometimes we need protection from ourselves(creators)…from our programming of self sabotage and actions due to habit…from our belief systems, from societal conditioning.  It just takes one person to guide another through that and to bring it to awareness…to ignite the flame.


Today there is a new sense of confidence, of being stronger and a “knowing” that all is in the process of transformation.  Change is inevitable…I choose to believe that things will change, that in that moment of looking in the mirror, they have already been changed.

So…”Hey YOU, the one that created this life…I choose CHANGE.”


And so it is🙂




                Macy Kate Band -“Imagine Dragons – Radioactive” cover (Click HERE for lyrics)



**After writing this, I found some posts that were a confirmation to this recent experience…awesome sync! :

Posted July 30th-Ronna Herman – Open Letter to Ascending Starseed Souls

Posted July 31st-The Rainbow Scribe – Hilarion July 31st to August 6th

Posted Aug.3rd -Jenny Schiltz – Moving Beyond Limitations

Posted on Aug.4th-Jamye Price –August Ascension Energies 2016

**❤ POSTED SEPT. 9th – Jenny Schiltz -Energy Update Way Down We Go❤

**And on Aug.16th from Lee Harris’ Facebook page he says:

“Never more than now are many of you looking to draw something good to yourselves. Many of you have bargained with your higher selves or the Universe saying you cannot go on unless you are given something to help keep you afloat.

If this is you, the something you need is you. For some of you, meeting yourself will be the hardest meeting you will ever have because for so long you have been defining yourself by everyone else. But now you have come back to yourself and you are feeling more. Pandora’s Box has been opened.

It is a little like opening the cupboard in the back of your house that you have not looked in for twenty years. You find some wonderful things you had forgotten. You find some unexpected things you are surprised you kept. Many of you have a violent physical reaction to the dust. [Audience laughter]        

~ From Remagnetizing The Heart

Yes Lee, I would definitely be one to have a violent physical reaction to the dust with these allergies of mine…lol  🙂






Infinite Love



Deep at the center of my being, there is an infinite well of Love  ~ Louise Hay


One day while working at the spa in Sedona, I just didn’t feel like staying for my entire shift. I had a very strong urge to leave early, but I didn’t really know why. The director of the spa was the only management there that day, and he was going to leave early. I had to rush to his office to catch him before he left.   I asked to leave early, told him I had something to do, but really, I didn’t have any reason other than my urge to leave. He approved it and I went back to work for another couple of hours.

One of the massage therapists came in to talk to me for a while. This particular therapist hadn’t spoken to me much, so it was nice to get to know her a bit. I was surprised to find out that she is a fellow Kundalite, which is always refreshing to hear! We spoke of our Kundalini awakenings, other dimensions and other random spiritual experiences.

While we were talking, she mentioned that it was the last day of the Buddha Relic show in Sedona and that her and her mother had gone earlier in the day, before she came into work. This was the last show in the U.S., and it had been said that the relics would never be shown in the United States again…EVER. When she mentioned it, I realized that I had already asked to leave work early and that I would be able to see the relics in the very last hour of the show before they closed. I was leaving work at 4pm and they were closing the show at 5pm.

I told her that I had heard about it a couple of weeks before, but had completely forgotten about it and was SO thankful for her reminding me. She said that she kept hearing my name in her mind throughout the day, so she decided to come and talk to me as she was being guided to do so. We both agreed that it was meant to be smiley photo 1.gif

So I left work early and went straight to the show. As I was walking up to the building, there was a very friendly young man standing outside who was guiding people to the building and answering questions. He had a very sweet and happy energy. We had a little chat and I told him about my coincidence of taking off early from work. He was amused by the story and assured me that it was meant to be. I proceeded to enter the building and walked into a room filled with people praying, meditating and staring into nothingness.  As soon as I walked toward the relics, a wall of energy hit me. I started to buzz and vibrate, my field was saturated with warmth and I very quickly began to feel like I was hyperventilating.

The wait was a little long, because you had to stand in line to get your turn to walk around the relics. I was trying my best not to go into full panic attack mode before I had my turn. I could feel energy forcefully pouring out of both of my hands like I was giving a Reiki treatment to someone. My energy field felt huge and expanded. It was really bizarre. I almost left, because the energy was making me dizzy and I was having trouble standing in line for so long. I suddenly didn’t feel comfortable being too close to anyone around me…it became extremely overwhelming…sensory overload…




When it was finally my turn, I was nervous because I had no idea how I would react when I got closer.  I proceeded with caution  scared photo scared_zpszmpo9put.gif.  Once I got up to the Buddha relics, I took a picture, stared for a while, kneeled & bowed my head and connected with the relics.   I immediately burst into tears.  I was over taken by complete surrender, Love and Compassion.  It was a deep cry that came from my core, not just tears.  I tried to hold it in, because there were so many people around me and I was embarrassed to be the only one crying.

I couldn’t stop crying, so when I got up from kneeling, I took a very quick walk around to see the other relics and quickly left the building.  Somehow I felt satisfied that whatever needed to be done, had already been done, so seeing the rest of the relics was not important.

On my way back to my car, I walked by the nice man outside while wiping away my tears and told him what had happened.  His face lit up and he was smiling from ear to ear.  He seemed to be very happy and told me that he asks everyone who walks out afterward, if they had felt anything while in the presence of the relics.  He said majority of the people say no, that they didn’t feel anything at all.  He assured me that the strong connection that I experienced was because my Heart was fully open…and he congratulated me !  lol  He said that the amount of Love that I felt in that moment was something that my soul will never forget and will carry infinitely…and of course, he made me cry even more when he said that, so it was time for me to leave crying photo sad_zpsn0b67pf0.gif

I didn’t expect to have such a profound experience while in the presence of the relics.  It was something that I will never forget.  When I look back on this experience, I always think of the nice man’s words when he said that my soul will always carry the Love that I felt from the Buddha relics…and I realize that in that moment, I have been forever changed.  I will never be the same…I have reunited with a part of myself that had been long forgotten.




Infinite Love❤



❤ Prajna Paramita Heart Sutra Mantra❤


Energy Sensations – Update February 5, 2016


The last time I posted anything on this blog was back in August…I was living at my Dad’s house (in California) in a VERY difficult living situation, and going back and forth to my (ex)boyfriend’s house(in Arizona) in an attempt to run away from my problems. A lot has changed since then…It feels like someone has pushed the “fast-forward” button on my life and it’s all just a blur when I think about it.

So much has happened in such a short amount of “time”. It’s almost as if I was required to totally and completely uproot my life and discard all of the parts that were not healthy for me to experience any longer. And that’s exactly what has happened…I have eliminated all of the unhealthy aspects of my life, all of the things that were stagnant or an uncomfortable-comfort-zone…It all quickly unfolded (like a domino effect) before the beginning of 2016.

This has been an extremely bizarre period of “Revelation” for me…Some very hurtful things had to happen in order for me to be jolted out of my comfort zone. Sort of like a spiritual kick-in-the ass to get me going again…I saw some very dark and disturbing things about people who were close to me….people I trusted…all was exposed for everyone to see…no more lies, no more deceit.

It took me a while to reach a place of stillness where I could reflect on what happened on a much deeper level…the visuals that I received were of “release” of cords, looping, outdated patterns of “karma”, breaking free of that old cycle…


The karma no longer applies, but sometimes it takes the personality a while to catch up and integrate this realization. The (true) realization initiates a chemical reaction and release on a cellular level…a necessity for authentic transcendence. I had to get out of the mind, out of the illusion, and go within the Heart space to truly understand what this all meant… It takes a lot of focus to truly grasp that we are beyond karma…Old habits can be difficult to break…

So I’ll skip over the negative parts and just sum it up as moving out of my Dad’s house and completely cutting off my (ex) boyfriend after some shocking revelations. I believe that everything happens for a reason, and the revelations were a signal of things coming to an end (closure) on SO many levels. Instead of falling into victim mode, I decided to use it as an empowerment. When I severed all ties, I suddenly felt free again…a huge relief, not realizing how weighed down I was for so many years, until I experienced how light I was again. I somehow feel “whole” again after collecting the parts of self that I had invested in others.


So in the middle of all of this, I happened to get a job at a resort in Boynton Canyon, Sedona. It was the first job I put in for at a job fair, and I got it right away. They even decided that I’d be a better fit for a higher paying job than the one I was applying for, so it just seemed to fall into place.


I was working in a BEAUTIFUL canyon that was full of people who were spiritually awake and totally understood what I was going through. For the first time in my life, I felt so connected to everything.  Especially with nature.

While working in the Boynton Canyon vortex for 8 hours a day, I started to experience heightened psychic and telepathic abilities (it freaked out some of my co-workers – lol). I was getting huge Crown downloads every day and had to go outside to ground several times a day, because I was out of body most of the time. It was very difficult for me to stay grounded.

The first week I was there, I would receive so much energy, that it would collect in my solar plexus and would feel like a panic attack. It was like a multidimensional merge that would cause me to feel like too many things were happening all at the same time. It took me a while to figure it out, but I found that if I went outside, took my shoes off and held some black tourmaline, that I could actually feel the energy forcefully push out of my feet and then I’d get some relief…so that was my daily ritual.

There were days when I’d get full-on bliss episodes while at work, and I’d have to go outside and breathe it out, so I wouldn’t feel like I was hyperventilating. The bliss episodes were so strong, that co-workers could actually feel it if they stood next to me. These bliss downloads would cause a strong sensation of energy shooting out of my Heart center and also my face! That was something new…I had never felt my face light up and beam energy like that before.

I found that energy work is totally amplified in Boynton Canyon, SO much stronger. I was doing some Reiki on a co-worker in the break room, and another co-worker could physically feel the Reiki on the other side of the room. I realized that the energy was shooting out of my hands so hard and so fast, that my arms were shaking and vibrating really hard. The person I was doing the energy work on, said that they’ve never felt it so strong before and that it felt like a very strong wind was blasting completely through them to the other side.

There’s just something about Boynton Canyon that I haven’t felt at the other vortexes or any place I’ve ever been. There seems to be a gateway there, or maybe something multidimensional emerging. Maybe a city of light?


I can sense it, but cannot quite figure it out yet. Definitely a STRONG presence of ancestors that is very present at this time. The canyon is currently going through some type of purification which I had visions of while I was physically there. I could see and feel it when it was first initiated. I’ll write about those experiences in my next post, but I’ll just get to the energy sensations update for now…


There has been quite a stir in the lymphatic system in the last few months. Many of my co-workers all had the same symptoms. I’ve been going through a period of swollen and overloaded lymph nodes and have been doing a lymphatic cleanse which is very slowly making progress. This is some deep cleansing and I’m feeling like it has to do with dropping density. Doing a cleanse did not produce quick results, and I was shown that it’s because it’s an ongoing process that will take some time to balance out. There is so much going on at the same time and there are no quick fixes here. Patience and self Love is crucial in this phase.

I’ve had lots of activity on my face, head and scalp. Lots of buzzing, twitching and fluttering going on…at times, my face feels like it’s morphing into something else or becoming very liquid and wavy. That usually only happened while in a relaxed state, but lately it’s happening while fully awake and while I’m interacting in public.

My meridian system has been extremely active and I’ve felt the fizzy, effervescent sensation slowly pumping through the channels, but mostly in the legs. It’s spontaneous and happens here and there…no particular trigger for it, just random. Last night I felt it in my upper glute area near my hip bone, and the other day I also felt it in my arms which was something new.

In the past few days, my bones have been aching again. This aching is accompanied by a buzzy feeling coming from the outside of my legs. The pain feels like it’s emanating out of my bones and the buzzing randomly moves around my calves in quick electrical type pulses on my skin. My hip bones and lower back have the painful aching, but it is a tolerable pain…nothing too drastic. Sometimes it feels like my bones are being stretched.

There seems to be a lot of stuff going on with my spine and also the area where my spine connects to my neck/head. The message that I’m getting is that it has to do with merging polarities? I have no idea what that has to do with it, but that’s the answer I received. Maybe something to do with ida/pingala, silver/gold? Those are the images that I’m getting…overall, it has to do with “unification”…some sort of “short-cut” in the process, and a change in the template instructions, for those who are ready…maybe having to do with ability to jump timelines. As usual, it’s too difficult to put into words…

For the past week, I’ve been waking up in the morning and seeing gridlines again. This time, I’m seeing a cardinal cross in the middle of the gridlines.


It seems that the cross is emanating something from it, but I’m not sure what that means. I’ve seen this before, so it’s familiar to me, but I just don’t really understand it.

Overall, the energy sensations have become very active. It’s become the new “norm”. I’ve decided to speak about it more openly, so that people around me will become familiar with it. I don’t care if they think I’m crazy anymore…Someday this will become the new norm for many others, and I hope that when that happens, they will remember when I spoke of it before then…Maybe it will somehow help them to understand and to stay out of fear….

So that’s it…I’m fully out of the closet – lol … No more hiding, no more worrying about what other people may think. The secret’s out…I’m consciously, consciously evolving😉



Energy Sensations – Update August 24, 2015



I chose the picture above because I’ve been seeing an energy that looks similar to the halo around her head. Kinda looks like circles within circles…  I used to see gridlines most mornings when I’d wake up, but lately, I’ve been waking up surrounded by an illuminated energy that looks very similar to this picture below (just the pattern without the colors):




It looks a lot like the picture except the circles are transparent with a golden sheen to them. When I used to see the gridlines, they were a transparent illuminated powder blue color.  Only once I saw illuminated red gridlines, but they were surrounding a very muscular blue being that was standing at the foot of my bed…I’ll write about that experience later…

A lot has happened since I last wrote…I’ve started writing posts here and there, but haven’t gotten around to finishing them…I’m attending school now, so it’s been difficult to come out of seclusion for so long and then to have many different people, with very different energy signatures, around me all day. I’m still trying to adjust.  I’ll finish my other posts soon (and back-date) but I just wanted to give a quick update…


August 24, 2015

Last night (Aug. 23rd) I was laying down in bed, using my computer, and I got hit with a HUGE amount of energy emanating out of my core and Heart area…it felt like the Diamond Solar Heart energy, only this time, I was fully awake and not in that in-between state.  This is the first time that I was able to fully feel it completely  manifest while wide awake.  But because I was wide awake, it felt SO much stronger than I had experienced before.

It was quite overwhelming, so I had to stop what I was doing and fully focus on it…tuning into it so I could understand what was happening.  I noticed that the energy felt like it was pouring out of my solar plexus and Heart area and filling up my energy field (flooding very quickly).  It was flooding so quickly that it caused a pressure type sensation in my core as it was passing through it.

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It felt very warm, liquid and effervescent all at the same time.  This is completely different than any other type of energy I’ve experienced over the years (downloads, bliss episodes, Kundalini, Tummo etc…) The more my field was completely saturated with this energy, the more sensitive my nerves and cells felt throughout my body.  It was almost like they were tender and a little bit sore as the energy was saturating them.  The sensation is very difficult to explain…but there is definitely a noticeable heat to it that is somehow different from Tummo.

It was slightly blissful but it was so powerful that there was also a slight discomfort to it at the same time. I kept imagining that it had a golden sheen like the sun, and that the warmth that I was experiencing was because it was a type of solar energy…like I was embodying the sun’s energy?  After a while I started to feel like I was losing my breath.  I had to keep taking deep breaths and try not to become too overwhelmed by what was happening to me…staying out of fear.

I had a heightened sense of emotion like I wanted to cry, but in a strong Love kind of way. It was coming out of the core in waves that I could actually feel…like pulses that would emanate outward…the beginning of each pulse was extremely overwhelming and then would taper off.  I was bracing myself for the next pulse because it was so strong.

It lasted for about an hour and then tapered off.  Then this morning while I was in school (nursing classes), it hit me again!  I had to ask that it not happen while I was in class.  I lost my breath and felt dizzy for about 15 minutes and then it stopped.  But I noticed that I’ve felt strange for the rest of the day, and still do now as I’m typing this.  I feel “lit up” with vibrating molecules…that’s the only way I can describe it.  My solar plexus feels very raw and expanded. The lower part of the back of my head has also been vibrating with a pulse…

 photo links2.gifWell, this is it…this is the frequency we’ve been prepared to bring in.  It took A LOT of work by SO MANY to be able to reach this phase.  It’s hard to explain, but I can actually feel that it is a unified energy, the selfless work by so many…I wish I could explain it better, but as usual, I have trouble finding the words.  I’ve been on the verge of tears all day.

This frequency is pure Christed liquid light and somehow connected to the sun…this frequency is pure Love. And this frequency is here now in the physical, it’s been fully anchored.  In the most intense moments of the experience, it made me want to burst into tears because of the pureness of it.  I have never felt anything like it and cannot fully explain it.  I have a strong sense of completion, kind of like a goal that has been reached.  I know there is still much more to do, but I feel that this was the most important for myself, on my personal journey.

I’ve been shown that once this energy is embodied, the miasma and discordant energy will be cleared at maximum speed…super fast.  At first some may feel emotional, like crying because the body needs to get used to it.  It’s always strongest at first when something comes online, but intensity will taper off as the bodies adjust to it.  Surrender is crucial…full trust…just knowing that the intensity of it will pass, helps to surrender to it without any fear creeping in.

I wasn’t paying too much attention to the “Wave X” and September predictions, but when this started to happen to me, I got the message that this is all in preparation for September.  Yikesssssss!

Again, the message that I’m receiving, just as I did for 12/21/12, is that the gatekeepers and portals will most likely feel the intensity of it, but some will not.  There may be disappointment for those that do not physically feel anything…but I assure you, regardless of whether it’s physically felt or not, it is here and will continue to be anchored.  We are past the point of possibility of this being blocked or stopped.  It is done…

I can only imagine how intense this will be for those that are hyper-sensitive, and I’m bracing myself for what has yet to come…

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Endless Gratitude to all who have participated in creating and making this possible…


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Energy Sensations – Update June 2, 2015


letting go


Just wanted to do a very quick update…

Starting on May 30th in the late afternoon, I started to get a pineal migraine.  It feels like the center of my brain is swollen and emanating heat and pain out of it. It progressively got worse the next day and is still continuing today.  When I get these types of migraines, they usually last 2 to 3 days, but today is the 4th day.  I have to stay in bed with my eyes closed most of the day because it’s just too painful. I don’t have health insurance at the moment, so I can’t go to the doctor or emergency room.

This migraine is accompanied by many different sensations:

Subtle swaying on the top of my head

Heat (sun burn sensation) on my face and scalp

Pain behind my right eye

Extremely sensitive and sore neck/shoulder blades/lower back

Loud hissing noise in my right ear

Foggy dream-like feeling

Seeing frequent blue sparkles around me

Aching pain emanating from my bones

Nerves twitching all over

Humming wave-like vibration throughout my body

Sensitivity to light and sound


It’s pretty bad!  I feel like my bones are being hollowed out. There’s also been some heavy anchoring of energy pouring full force out of my feet.  It doesn’t feel soft and pleasant like water; it feels like particles coming out.

I know this is not a medical issue, this is clearly energetic, but I could really use some pain relief, even if only temporary.  Usually when it gets this bad where I can’t take it anymore is when it will taper off.  So I’ll most likely be better tomorrow…

Oh, and I just realized that tonight is the full moon….Yikes!  I wish I could just put myself in a comatose state…lol
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I decided to meditate on this and asked to be shown what is happening, why I’m feeling this way.  This is what I got:

We are releasing so much right now.  So much more than I can comprehend or relate to.  I see it as streams coming out of my body, streaming codes…causing a vibration on the way out.  Memories are passing through, with a tinge of nostalgia.  I see snapshot pictures of different beings, different people, different places.  They’re all being released and set free.

This is on a cellular level.  We’re even releasing from our bones.  Blood is changing, codes are changing (transforming).  I see codes in the blood. It reminds me of being sick when I was a kid…I was always sick with fevers, nose bleeds, migraines.  I remember feeling floaty and sad.  That’s how I feel right now…floaty and sad.

I keep hearing the word “gravity” for some reason.  When I think about it, I hear the song “Damn Gravity” by Okay Kaya.  Such a soothing song…it somehow helps with this process of letting go…



It’s been 4 days of releasing…I wonder how much longer this episode will last?


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**Update – On September 1st, Sandra Walter posted an article that said :

“Many of the classical phases may feel familiar – or quite direct for Masters – and you may recognize the memory of your past journeys welling up to the surface. (Litmus test: Tears of gratitude are a clear sign of revelation). Cellular memory activates codes within your blood and bones during this phase of Ascension. It is best to observe this and not cling to those memories as they come up. They are holographic imprints to assist the Higher Self in stepping forth, unifying all of the journeys here in order to transcend them. As always, this is on behalf of the collective project of Ascension.”

Pretty awesome sync!  The entire article can be found HERE


Energy Sensations – Update May 5, 2015




I just have not wanted to write lately…So much has happened in the last few months.

The first major thing that happened was that I moved out of my cousin’s house at the end of February shortly after our uncle died of a heart attack. (My cousin is on my mother’s side of the family, and that’s the side that I’m consciously aware of healing ancestral karma )The death in the family showed my family’s true colors and brought out a flood of emotions…Every time I’d start to write about it, I’d get stressed out, so I’m not going to write about it. I’ll just say that it’s a chapter of my life that has been firmly shut and I’ve said a vow and contract release as to never have to repeat it again.

So I’m living at my Dad’s now. I’m still trying to adjust and although a little difficult, it’s much healthier energetically, so I’m not complaining! That seems to be a theme lately…when I complain about something (I used to complain about how messy my Dad’s house was), the universe will show me that it could be MUCH worse and then I’ll appreciate whatever it was that I was complaining about – lol


I’ve gotta work on the Gratitude department…

In February I was experiencing what I believe to be timeline slips, or some type of interdimensional crossing of some sort. At first I would get this overwhelming déjà vu type feeling and for some reason, a warmth would flood my body… then a while later I would see other timelines happening right in front of me. It was so bizarre! It looked like a holographic overlay. I didn’t know what was happening but I was able to stay calm and let it pass.

This happened briefly on two or three separate days. I’m not sure if it was because timelines were changing or if it was just a compression (deletion). At this point in the process, I’ve learned to just go with it. There is no more fear and I have full trust that it’s for the highest of good.

For the past 6 months or so, I’ve been seeing different forms of darkness projected in front of me before it leaves (before it’s being transmuted and released). I’ve seen it as a black ball of scribbles, or a black spiked ball, sometimes as a black blob or strange blob with tentacles which actively moves (that one looked weird like a cartoon)…

Miasma1          spiked

Blob               Tentacles

Occasionally I’ve seen similar brown unidentifiable creatures (actively moving), but I have no idea what the difference in color means…

That seems to be something frequent for me…darkness will show itself to me before it departs. It’s a little strange but I feel that it’s part of whatever I’m supposed to do. It’s like it comes to me so that I can guide it out…totally compliant and no resistance…absolutely no fear present.

I don’t mind doing that type of work. There’s a sense of being in control and it doesn’t scare me at all. In the last few months, I’ve also had frequent dreams of performing exorcisms and seem to know exactly what I’m doing in the dreams. Sometimes speaking in another language and forcefully commanding whatever it is to leave. I don’t know if I’m remembering past lives, or if this is merely part of the timeline merge/compression/deletion.

There are many people incarnated now that are doing this work, but not all are consciously aware of it. The message I’m getting is that they’ve requested from a higher perspective to not see it because they don’t want to trigger any fear. I can totally understand that!

**After writing this, I stumbled across an article from Lisa Renee that speaks of clearing shadow body fragments.  In the article she says:

This is a forced purging on planet, and we are the bodies that transmute the density, transit the debris and astral entities, many times through our own bodies. If you have not commanded your space and designated a place for astral releases and entity transits, knowing how to set up a portal in your space will be very helpful now. Sometimes astral entities will see a Indigo lightbody and come towards the light for help. Many times this is experienced as a psychic attack, but as one’s consciousness grows it is realized that this attack is really a call for help. Many people are getting fast tracked because our lightbody expansion is moving faster than our personality has been able to comprehend what is actually transpiring. This is common within the Indigo and Starseed population, so take a deep breath, and take in information at a firm yet fearless place.”

The entire article can be found HERE



In the beginning of May, I started to feel a rippling energy in my neck whenever I was in a relaxed state or just before falling asleep. This has REALLY changed as of last night. I first noticed in the evening that my right side felt tingly like it was going numb. I also had small electrical pulses or “snaps” (as I call them) on hands, arms and legs…this lasted for a few hours.

At night as I was falling asleep, I felt a very deep and profound trembling in my core. Then later I felt a rolling rippling energy in my entire head and on the right side of my body (right arm/shoulder, right side of abdomen, entire right leg). I’ve never felt such intensity while still awake (only usually in a lucid dream state). The force of it reminded me of the dream I had of water forcefully shooting up through my shushumna.

This recent experience was so massive that it just took over completely.  I managed to open my eyes briefly (only briefly because I felt like my whole head was liquefied and forcefully moving around) and saw what looked like heat waves rippling in the air.


It was a pretty awesome experience! I just went with it and let it happen. At times, it felt like ocean waves rolling inside my body. It was really strange…This was definitely the most powerful physical energetic sensation I’ve ever felt over the years. It seems to be getting more physically intense very quickly…

My solar plexus and sacral areas have also had a strange electromagnetic sensation within them for a few days. It’s hard to explain, but they feel very “raw” and sensitive like if they’re open wide and tense. I have no idea what this is. I’ve done clearing, worn my Moldivite and Herkimer necklace, my very protective Nuummite necklace, claimed my space, protection meditations etc…At first I thought it was some sort of drain or psychic attack because it’s so strong, but I don’t think that’s what it is…this is something else new… Hopefully it will pass soon because it’s a bit uncomfortable.

The energies have slowly worked their way up my body throughout the past years. It stayed at the top of my Heart area for many years, quickly went through the throat area (only a few months) and has been in my head for about a year now.

My Crown is super active during this phase…in fact, I’ve been feeling a fluttering right in the middle top of my head for 2 days…it feels like a moth is stuck in my hair and trying to get out. And recently felt something shooting out of the sides of my head. When I focus in on it, I get the image of the halo around the head that looks like this:


Those spots in the picture are exactly where I’m feeling the sensations.

This seems to be a new stage that I’m going through with lots of new sensations. I guess I was so used to the sensations I’ve felt in the past since the same things happened over and over for years…but now things are definitely changing very rapidly.

It’s exciting to experience something new. When all fear has been cleared and full trust is present, it’s an awesome experience to participate in. I guess this is where I can apply the Gratitude that I’ve been lacking to express in my life…

I’m so grateful to be a part of something so profound and so sacred.

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