Energy Sensations – Update November 21, 2016

I had a lucid dream this morning…I was standing in front of a lady and it appeared that something was bothering her.  She looked like she was in her mid 30’s and had a very heavy New York accent.   She had a strange look on her face and seemed to be disturbed, so I asked her if everything was okay.

The lady told me that she wasn’t sure if she was okay, because she’s been seeing “strange things” that she couldn’t really describe.  I asked her if they were things that weren’t really there, or indescribable shapes?  Her face lit up and she said “Yes! Exactly”.  I immediately knew that she was seeing colors/geometry/gridlines.

I told her that when I wake up in the morning, I see colors, gridlines and odd looking shapes too.  She became very excited and began trying to describe what she was seeing and during that time, she actually started to see it while she was talking to me….so she was walking around staring upward at the air around her.

As I was watching her, I could see iridescent pastel colors manifesting around her as she stared all around her in awe….Then I woke up from the dream because I heard something…

As I was waking up, I realized that I was waking up to loud chimes in my mind.  This time it was different than the usual chimes.  I heard low/high, low/high, then low/low/low/high.  Then a minute later, I heard a loud chirp.  I know for sure that it wasn’t outside noise, because I sleep with earplugs that completely block out any noise…and I sleep with a loud air purifier in my room and can’t even hear that with these earplugs.

I have been shown in the past that the chimes were a marker for a new level/phase/ initiation. The tones represent an addition to the harmonization of group signature tone. In the past it’s been 2 or 3 tones (and sometimes a chirp), but this time it was 8 tones.  I have no idea what that means, but it will probably have to do with the lucid dream I was having.

I’ll meditate on it later and see if I can figure it out…

**Update – On December 6th, Sandra Walter posted an update that spoke of the pastel rainbow colors.  Under the headline “Plasma Visions and Bands of Light” she says : “Last week during Gatework I had a vision of standing on a beach sending huge sheets of 6D pastel rainbow plasma through my hands into the sky, like a protective barrier. I was told this is preparation work for the Solar influx, and the Pacific has been presenting strongly. ”   The entire update can be found HERE

So that was a pretty cool sync after my lucid dream 🙂

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Over the years, as I was slowly coming into my conscious creation abilities, I noticed that whenever I’m distraught and out of balance (emotionally upset or angry), that bees would come to me.

They are not angry, but they will calmly land on me and hover around me and will not go away until I leave the area.  I’ve found that over several years, this happens only when I’m upset (mostly outdoors but occasionally in the house too).  One time I was so agitated and annoyed being around my loud Aunt, that a bee appeared in her car when the windows had been closed the whole time!  We were both startled by the bee appearing out of nowhere and on my side of the car !  It’s happened so many times over the years (too many to count).  I’ve just learned to accept that they serve as a reminder that I need to control my emotions and “chill out” a bit before I get too out of balance.  This may happen to other people too, but they may not realize the connection.

There was a time at my (ex)boyfriend’s house when I was so angry, that as I was walking in the hallway under a smoke detector, the alarm went on!  Whenever I’d walk away from the alarm, it would stop, but if I walked under it again, it would start again.  There have also been times that I was angry with my ex and the ceiling above me would start to make loud cracking and shifting noises.  I’ve always experienced things flying off of the shelves or pictures falling off of the walls since childhood.  I wonder if it was just me doing that without realizing it?  As a child, I had always assumed it was a ghost or something outside of myself.

The person that I’m temporarily living with (because I have absolutely nowhere else to go) at the moment is a VERY insensitive individual (I can think of better words to describe him, but I’ll be nice 🙂 ).  I’ll spare the details, but I’ll just say that a couple of days ago he killed a deer in the yard.  He eats them….He shot it from the back door, so I was startled by the booming sound of a shotgun in the house without any warning.

He knows I don’t like hunting and that I Love animals, so without detail, I’ll just say that he thought it would be funny to leave the deer by my car so that I’d have to see it when I left for work.  The way that he did it, while he was taunting me and laughing, was very traumatizing to me and I will never get that image out of my mind for the rest of my life.  He clearly fed off of my reaction and I could see the whole process of his consumptive behavior.  It was a very disturbing thing to witness.  Some people are so broken/fragmented.  I wish I could help them all.  It can be very painful to watch.

As I was going out to my car today to get something out of the trunk, I saw some dried blood on the ground and immediately started to get upset again.  I was just staring at it while in deep thought, debating whether to clean it, to burn some sage, say another prayer etc… and within seconds, a bee quickly came and started hovering around me trying to land on me.  It just serves as a reminder to calm down.  Sometimes I talk to the bees and thank them for reminding me.  It’s a very big responsibility to keep the balance once you come into your power.  But there are beings from the different kingdoms that will lovingly help to remind us that everything will be okay and that we are Loved no matter what.  I am very Grateful ❤

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Energy Sensations

Since I last wrote an update, I’ve been going through different stages of a more aggressive Heart opening.  Lots of movement on the front side of my chest and more recently, the back part of my Heart center has greatly expanded.  There were days where it felt like my entire back was HUGE, completely open and exposed.  It was really bizarre.  I’ve also had the sensation of heavy liquid energy shooting out of my shoulder blades.

I’ve noticed that I’ve felt more Loving and want to help people more.  It’s a very strong urge to assist in any way that I can.  There’s been a huge dismantling of the ego and it seems to come naturally to want to help without any expectations.  There’s also a noticeable increase in forgiving people .  It’s not even an effort anymore, it just comes naturally with majority of people (some people take more effort though –lol).  I don’t have to like them, but I will let go of the cords that I would have had in the past. It’s much easier to let go and to stay neutral.

I’ve had some pineal migraines off and on and also some pain in my right eye.  I’ve also noticed an increase in the feeling of a bubble slowly moving behind my eyes.  It’s a really weird sensation of something physically shifting/oozing behind my eyes.  There’s no pain, just movement.

I’m seeing more sparkles and little lights manifesting around me.  Last night, I saw a little white light fluttering around on my pillow when I was leaning on it.  I saw it more than once throughout the night.  Years ago, after my first Reiki Tummo attunement, I cried for days after, because of the massive initial cleansing process.  The first morning after the attunement and having cried the entire night, I woke up to seeing a little blue orb fluttering in front of me and landing on my pillow beside my face.  It had little sparkles coming off of it like pixie dust as it fluttered around.  This little white light I saw last night reminded me of that.

The most difficult sensation I’ve experienced so far, is shortness of breath.  I initially felt it about 6 months ago and went to the Emergency Room for testing.  They did an EKG for my heart, an MRI with dye contrast for my lungs and also an oxygen saturation test.  Everything came back normal/clear and the doctor couldn’t figure out why I was feeling shortness of breath when everything was normal

So I’ve felt it many times since then, but recently, I felt it accompanied by some aggressive Kundalini energy moving in my chest and abdomen.  At that time, it had felt like there was a heavy warm pressure energy in my chest with some movement and also some reaching into my abdomen.  So now I know that this shortness of breath is an energy thing (since with my hypersensitivity, I feel energy movement so physically).

Sometimes it also feels like there’s a tightness in my throat like something is squeezing it.  I’m assuming that has to do with a more aggressive throat opening.  I do not doubt that I have many issues (from childhood) that will make for an uncomfortable complete throat opening.  I’m trying my best to work through it, but really, I’m totally clueless as to what I need to do since nothing has seemed to help much so far.

I’m staying neutral throughout this election crap and have not let it affect me one bit.  Overall, I feel pretty good with an occasional disturbance from “insensitive individuals”, but really this has been a pretty calm phase for me.  And should I get too out of sync, the bees are always there to keep me in line 🙂

And for some reason, listening to this song also helps to stay calm.  The whistling reminds me of celestial sounds I hear sometimes :

❤ Jason Barty – Simple Day ❤

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Love ❤

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Taming The Demon

You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed – Antoine de Saint-Exupery – The Little Prince

“Taming the Demon”

If I would have read a title like this 6 years ago, I would probably feel a knot in my stomach while reading it. I had to ask myself why such things, words, or sometimes numbers, make me feel uncomfortable. What I discovered was that it was all due to programming from society, the people around me and their view of good and bad, light and dark…but what do I really feel from my own experience?

I was originally going to name this blog “Taming the Cyclops” but decided to change it…This posting is about a dream that I had that seemed to be the beginning of several dreams over the last few years that  all revealed the same message.

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About 6 years ago I had a strange dream that helped to change my view of demons, monsters and nightmares. In the dream I was visiting my younger cousin Greg at his home. We ended up going to the shopping mall to have some lunch. I placed my personal belongings on a table in the food court, to show people that we were going to sit there and to save the table for us.

I went to order food and when I came back to the table, there were 3 men sitting in the space I had chosen. They appeared to be laborers or construction workers.  The men carelessly put their lunch right on top of my personal belongings, just totally disregarding that someone else might be sitting there.

I told one of the men that we were going to sit there and explained why all of my stuff was on the table. He ignored me and continued to eat. After a while of trying to get a response from him, I proceeded to gather my belongings from the table and in the process, had to move his food to get my stuff from under it. The man was FURIOUS…he quickly and forcefully stood up in front of me and began to yell and scream in my face.  As he was screaming, he began to morph into a huge Cyclops monster.

The man’s body expanded as he grew taller and more muscular.  He began to aggressively growl and foam at the mouth and his teeth were razor sharp and glaring like a wild animal.  I could feel the humidity of his hot breath on my face.

To my surprise, I was not afraid. I stood right up to him and stared into his single eye. I began to forcefully yell at him and told him that he was being absolutely ridiculous…that he was letting his anger turn him into a demon. “STOP IT NOW!” …”DON’T YOU REALIZE THAT YOU’RE ALLOWING YOUR EMOTIONS TO CONTROL YOU?!”…”YOUR EMOTIONS ARE TURNING YOU INTO A MONSTER” …”LOOK AT YOURSELF!!!”

As I was shouting these words, I could feel a release from my core, there was such power behind it. My words seemed to slowly calm him down and he just continued to breathe heavily while I stared into his eye. My staring into his eye seemed to have a hypnotizing effect on him. Even though he calmed down, he didn’t turn back into a man, he stayed as a Cyclops, but his anger slowly dissipated. I was somehow able to tame him.

This is where the dream is kind of hazy…I don’t remember parts of it.  The dream somehow shifted to the Cyclops giving us a ride home. I’m not sure how that came about, but I somehow influenced him to do it.

He had an old beat-up white pick-up truck and we sat in the back of the truck while he drove us home.

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Outside of the mall, it looked like a small Middle Eastern city and I could feel the dry heat of the desert air.  The air was thick and dusty and I could feel the warmth of the sun shining down on my skin.

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We drove past a small marketplace of old buildings, shades of turquoise and blue, paint peeling off of the tattered walls. I could hear Arabic type music playing in the background.

As the Cyclops continued to drive us home, he kept slamming on his brakes and sharply turning corners so that we would tumble around in the back of the truck…he thought it was HILARIOUS and I could hear his deep belly laugh as he watched us with his single eye in the rear view mirror. I just told my cousin to ignore him and that we’d be home soon….

The Cyclops kept laughing so hard, such a joyful laugh, that it was contagious…It triggered my own laughter and as I began to laugh, then my cousin started to laugh. My cousin and I tumbling around in the back of the truck laughing hysterically…then I woke up…

Later when I thought about the dream, I realized that it was showing me that these monsters are created by ourselves…they are the creation of our own anger and emotions. When I told the Cyclops to stop being so ridiculous, he seemed to snap out of his rage and calm down…his behavior was now in his awareness…

At the end of the dream when we were all laughing, it showed me that I had brought joy to this monster that at one point wanted to rip me to shreds. By taming him and not trying to destroy or kill him, I had somehow healed a part of myself by bringing awareness to it and not trying to fight against it.

Something inside of me has changed as a result of this light shone in the deeply hidden darkness…there is a sense of unconditional Love and understanding for even the darkest aspects…realizing that it’s not an outside force, but merely a part of myself that just needed acknowledgment, acceptance for what it is, and forgiveness…

In resolution and graduation from the astral realm, we will take parts of ourselves that are not perfect…It’s the acknowledgement and acceptance of these parts of self that will allow the healing and release to the higher realms.  In my personal experience, we do not leave them behind…

We merely transcend them with Loving/Freeing recognition.

LOVE ❤

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Ignition

Godself ~ Painting by Alex Grey

“Every person is an aspect of one Godself” – Alex Grey

July 29, 2016

I really haven’t felt like posting anything for quite a while.  I’ve been writing in my journal, but just not feeling like sharing, I guess…Something happened yesterday that really affected me and I feel like it was a pretty big shift, so I felt inspired to write about it.

Yesterday something happened that drew so much energy and emotion, that it felt like it combusted.  It started while I was driving home from the store and I got this realization that hit me like a ton of bricks…I realized that I am what we call “God”…I chose my life before I was even born…I am a facet of the Creator, and if I am the Creator, then why in the world am I agreeing to play this stupid game any longer? It actually kind of pissed me off – lol

I’ve always known this to be true, but this realization was different…it’s like something awakened inside of me and I actually felt it in every cell in my body.  I guess I can say that it’s like I embodied/integrated the realization and it started triggering anger…anger because I was blindly participating in something that I didn’t need to be a part of anymore.  Everything started to flash in my mind and I was suddenly seeing my entire life.

It got me to thinking that I have experienced quite a bit of suffering in this lifetime; physical abuse, family issues, homelessness, birth defects, health problems, chronic allergies, EMF hypersensitivity etc…and although I’ve evolved throughout the years, I’m still experiencing difficulty with most of those issues.

So why am I agreeing to this crap?!  Why am I agreeing to participate day-after-day-after-day to allow this illusion to continue to exist?

I started to question everything; what about karma? Isn’t that like a set of rules made up by another person?  Who decided that humans would have to participate in karma?  And what about genetics?  My family has a long list of health issues so I will most likely have them too?  Who decided that? (my doctor told me the other day that I will most likely have osteoporosis because it runs in my family – Huh?! )  What if I don’t agree to that?  What if I know and believe that I can and will change that?  The more questions flooded in, the more agitated I became…but I just allowed myself to delve deep into these feelings and bring them to the surface.

When I got home, I waited until everyone left and I was home alone…then I looked into the mirror, looked directly into my eyes and began to yell.

I started with “Hey YOU…I’m talking to YOU, not some outside source or a God sitting on a throne in some distant place, I’m talking to YOU…the one who created this life”.

I yelled to myself that since “I” was responsible for the circumstances in my life, since I chose all of this before I was even born, then “I” was putting my foot down and refusing to participate any longer.

I was angry.  WHO would choose this crap?!  Why would anyone or anything choose suffering or set it up so that a helpless child HAS TO suffer from the very start of their life with circumstances beyond their control?  “I” chose this?

I let it all out and demanded that things change in my life and environment or I will “opt-out’ because I’m SO worn out…I said I was tired and beat-up and physically/emotionally exhausted…and I refused to participate in this stupid game any longer.

I had done the work, handed over full trust to this process, activated dormant chakras, forgiven, cleared, released, cleared again and again, embodied, integrated, anchored, transformed, transmuted, transfigured, transcended…ALL of the T’s….but after all of that, I still had pain and suffering, and now I’d hit rock bottom.  I was consciously putting my foot down.  NO MORE PAIN AND SUFFERING.

After screaming at my reflection and letting it all out, I felt so much better.  The rush of emotion seemed to clear and I was able to calm down.  It felt like a huge release of pressure from my core…like a volcano erupting.  A while later, once I became calm again and was able to get centered, I tuned in to what I had just experienced.  I was able to understand what had happened.

I realized that my emotional outburst was a huge shift in my energetic field and a substantial release…another tier in the awakening stratum (I didn’t even know what the word stratum meant, but it popped into my mind) .  Revolutionary anger is always a sign of change in the making….lol   And that is a reflection in the outer world today…and now, a revolution within my own body as well…Ahhh…

This was a huge catalyst that was igniting a transformation from within.  The images that I received were of flames combusting and igniting other flames.

This is the beginning of many coming into their own true power (consciously).  Not the kind of power as in wars and control, but the exact opposite of that.  This is the uprising of Unconditional Love, protection and security…the security to fully awaken with full support and understanding.  The security to release all of the programming.

Sometimes it’s not that we need protection from the “bad guys”(illusions)….sometimes we need protection from ourselves(creators)…from our programming of self sabotage and actions due to habit…from our belief systems, from societal conditioning.  It just takes one person to guide another through that and to bring it to awareness…to ignite the flame.

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Today there is a new sense of confidence, of being stronger and a “knowing” that all is in the process of transformation.  Change is inevitable…I choose to believe that things will change, that in that moment of looking in the mirror, they have already been changed.

So…”Hey YOU, the one that created this life…I choose CHANGE.”

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And so it is 🙂

                Macy Kate Band -“Imagine Dragons – Radioactive” cover (Click HERE for lyrics)

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**After writing this, I found some posts that were a confirmation to this recent experience…awesome sync! :

Posted July 30th-Ronna Herman – Open Letter to Ascending Starseed Souls

Posted July 31st-The Rainbow Scribe – Hilarion July 31st to August 6th

Posted Aug.3rd -Jenny Schiltz – Moving Beyond Limitations

Posted on Aug.4th-Jamye Price –August Ascension Energies 2016

** ❤ Jenny Schiltz – Channeling the Masters – Way Down We Go ❤ **

**And on Aug.16th from Lee Harris’ Facebook page he says:

“Never more than now are many of you looking to draw something good to yourselves. Many of you have bargained with your higher selves or the Universe saying you cannot go on unless you are given something to help keep you afloat.

If this is you, the something you need is you. For some of you, meeting yourself will be the hardest meeting you will ever have because for so long you have been defining yourself by everyone else. But now you have come back to yourself and you are feeling more. Pandora’s Box has been opened.

It is a little like opening the cupboard in the back of your house that you have not looked in for twenty years. You find some wonderful things you had forgotten. You find some unexpected things you are surprised you kept. Many of you have a violent physical reaction to the dust. [Audience laughter]        

~ From Remagnetizing The Heart

Yes Lee, I would definitely be one to have a violent physical reaction to the dust with these allergies of mine…lol   🙂

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Love ❤

Infinite Love

Deep at the center of my being, there is an infinite well of Love  ~ Louise Hay

 

One day while working at the spa in Sedona, I just didn’t feel like staying for my entire shift. I had a very strong urge to leave early, but I didn’t really know why. The director of the spa was the only management there that day, and he was going to leave early. I had to rush to his office to catch him before he left.   I asked to leave early, told him I had something to do, but really, I didn’t have any reason other than my urge to leave. He approved it and I went back to work for another couple of hours.

One of the massage therapists came in to talk to me for a while. This particular therapist hadn’t spoken to me much, so it was nice to get to know her a bit. I was surprised to find out that she is a fellow Kundalite, which is always refreshing to hear! We spoke of our Kundalini awakenings, other dimensions and other random spiritual experiences.

While we were talking, she mentioned that it was the last day of the Buddha Relic show in Sedona and that her and her mother had gone earlier in the day, before she came into work. This was the last show in the U.S., and it had been said that the relics would never be shown in the United States again…EVER. When she mentioned it, I realized that I had already asked to leave work early and that I would be able to see the relics in the very last hour of the show before they closed. I was leaving work at 4pm and they were closing the show at 5pm.

I told her that I had heard about it a couple of weeks before, but had completely forgotten about it and was SO thankful for her reminding me. She said that she kept hearing my name in her mind throughout the day, so she decided to come and talk to me as she was being guided to do so. We both agreed that it was meant to be

So I left work early and went straight to the show. As I was walking up to the building, there was a very friendly young man standing outside who was guiding people to the building and answering questions. He had a very sweet and happy energy. We had a little chat and I told him about my coincidence of taking off early from work. He was amused by the story and assured me that it was meant to be. I proceeded to enter the building and walked into a room filled with people praying, meditating and staring into nothingness.  As soon as I walked toward the relics, a wall of energy hit me. I started to buzz and vibrate, my field was saturated with warmth and I very quickly began to feel like I was hyperventilating.

The wait was a little long, because you had to stand in line to get your turn to walk around the relics. I was trying my best not to go into full panic attack mode before I had my turn. I could feel energy forcefully pouring out of both of my hands like I was giving a Reiki treatment to someone. My energy field felt huge and expanded. It was really bizarre. I almost left, because the energy was making me dizzy and I was having trouble standing in line for so long. I suddenly didn’t feel comfortable being too close to anyone around me…it became extremely overwhelming…sensory overload…

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When it was finally my turn, I was nervous because I had no idea how I would react when I got closer.  I proceeded with caution  .  Once I got up to the Buddha relics, I took a picture, stared for a while, kneeled & bowed my head and connected with the relics.   I immediately burst into tears.  I was over taken by complete surrender, Love and Compassion.  It was a deep cry that came from my core, not just tears.  I tried to hold it in, because there were so many people around me and I was embarrassed to be the only one crying.

I couldn’t stop crying, so when I got up from kneeling, I took a very quick walk around to see the other relics and quickly left the building.  Somehow I felt satisfied that whatever needed to be done, had already been done, so seeing the rest of the relics was not important.

On my way back to my car, I walked by the nice man outside while wiping away my tears and told him what had happened.  His face lit up and he was smiling from ear to ear.  He seemed to be very happy and told me that he asks everyone who walks out afterward, if they had felt anything while in the presence of the relics.  He said majority of the people say no, that they didn’t feel anything at all.  He assured me that the strong connection that I experienced was because my Heart was fully open…and he congratulated me !  lol  He said that the amount of Love that I felt in that moment was something that my soul will never forget and will carry infinitely…and of course, he made me cry even more when he said that, so it was time for me to leave

I didn’t expect to have such a profound experience while in the presence of the relics.  It was something that I will never forget.  When I look back on this experience, I always think of the nice man’s words when he said that my soul will always carry the Love that I felt from the Buddha relics…and I realize that in that moment, I have been forever changed.  I will never be the same…I have reunited with a part of myself that had been long forgotten.

 

 

Infinite Love ❤

 

 

❤ Prajna Paramita Heart Sutra Mantra ❤

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Energy Sensations – Update February 5, 2016

The last time I posted anything on this blog was back in August…I was living at my Dad’s house (in California) in a VERY difficult living situation, and going back and forth to my (ex)boyfriend’s house(in Arizona) in an attempt to run away from my problems. A lot has changed since then…It feels like someone has pushed the “fast-forward” button on my life and it’s all just a blur when I think about it.

So much has happened in such a short amount of “time”. It’s almost as if I was required to totally and completely uproot my life and discard all of the parts that were not healthy for me to experience any longer. And that’s exactly what has happened…I have eliminated all of the unhealthy aspects of my life, all of the things that were stagnant or an uncomfortable-comfort-zone…It all quickly unfolded (like a domino effect) before the beginning of 2016.

This has been an extremely bizarre period of “Revelation” for me…Some very hurtful things had to happen in order for me to be jolted out of my comfort zone. Sort of like a spiritual kick-in-the ass to get me going again…I saw some very dark and disturbing things about people who were close to me….people I trusted…all was exposed for everyone to see…no more lies, no more deceit.

It took me a while to reach a place of stillness where I could reflect on what happened on a much deeper level…the visuals that I received were of “release” of cords, looping, outdated patterns of “karma”, breaking free of that old cycle…

The karma no longer applies, but sometimes it takes the personality a while to catch up and integrate this realization. The (true) realization initiates a chemical reaction and release on a cellular level…a necessity for authentic transcendence. I had to get out of the mind, out of the illusion, and go within the Heart space to truly understand what this all meant… It takes a lot of focus to truly grasp that we are beyond karma…Old habits can be difficult to break…

So I’ll skip over the negative parts and just sum it up as moving out of my Dad’s house and completely cutting off my (ex) boyfriend after some shocking revelations. I believe that everything happens for a reason, and the revelations were a signal of things coming to an end (closure) on SO many levels. Instead of falling into victim mode, I decided to use it as an empowerment. When I severed all ties, I suddenly felt free again…a huge relief, not realizing how weighed down I was for so many years, until I experienced how light I was again. I somehow feel “whole” again after collecting the parts of self that I had invested in others.

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So in the middle of all of this, I happened to get a job at a resort in Boynton Canyon, Sedona. It was the first job I put in for at a job fair, and I got it right away. They even decided that I’d be a better fit for a higher paying job than the one I was applying for, so it just seemed to fall into place.

I was working in a BEAUTIFUL canyon that was full of people who were spiritually awake and totally understood what I was going through. For the first time in my life, I felt so connected to everything.  Especially with nature.

While working in the Boynton Canyon vortex for 8 hours a day, I started to experience heightened psychic and telepathic abilities (it freaked out some of my co-workers – lol). I was getting huge Crown downloads every day and had to go outside to ground several times a day, because I was out of body most of the time. It was very difficult for me to stay grounded.

The first week I was there, I would receive so much energy, that it would collect in my solar plexus and would feel like a panic attack. It was like a multidimensional merge that would cause me to feel like too many things were happening all at the same time. It took me a while to figure it out, but I found that if I went outside, took my shoes off and held some black tourmaline, that I could actually feel the energy forcefully push out of my feet and then I’d get some relief…so that was my daily ritual.

There were days when I’d get full-on bliss episodes while at work, and I’d have to go outside and breathe it out, so I wouldn’t feel like I was hyperventilating. The bliss episodes were so strong, that co-workers could actually feel it if they stood next to me. These bliss downloads would cause a strong sensation of energy shooting out of my Heart center and also my face! That was something new…I had never felt my face light up and beam energy like that before.

I found that energy work is totally amplified in Boynton Canyon, SO much stronger. I was doing some Reiki on a co-worker in the break room, and another co-worker could physically feel the Reiki on the other side of the room. I realized that the energy was shooting out of my hands so hard and so fast, that my arms were shaking and vibrating really hard. The person I was doing the energy work on, said that they’ve never felt it so strong before and that it felt like a very strong wind was blasting completely through them to the other side.

There’s just something about Boynton Canyon that I haven’t felt at the other vortexes or any place I’ve ever been. There seems to be a gateway there, or maybe something multidimensional emerging. Maybe a city of light?

I can sense it, but cannot quite figure it out yet. Definitely a STRONG presence of ancestors that is very present at this time. The canyon is currently going through some type of purification which I had visions of while I was physically there. I could see and feel it when it was first initiated. I’ll write about those experiences in my next post, but I’ll just get to the energy sensations update for now…

ENERGY SENSATIONS

There has been quite a stir in the lymphatic system in the last few months. Many of my co-workers all had the same symptoms. I’ve been going through a period of swollen and overloaded lymph nodes and have been doing a lymphatic cleanse which is very slowly making progress. This is some deep cleansing and I’m feeling like it has to do with dropping density. Doing a cleanse did not produce quick results, and I was shown that it’s because it’s an ongoing process that will take some time to balance out. There is so much going on at the same time and there are no quick fixes here. Patience and self Love is crucial in this phase.

I’ve had lots of activity on my face, head and scalp. Lots of buzzing, twitching and fluttering going on…at times, my face feels like it’s morphing into something else or becoming very liquid and wavy. That usually only happened while in a relaxed state, but lately it’s happening while fully awake and while I’m interacting in public.

My meridian system has been extremely active and I’ve felt the fizzy, effervescent sensation slowly pumping through the channels, but mostly in the legs. It’s spontaneous and happens here and there…no particular trigger for it, just random. Last night I felt it in my upper glute area near my hip bone, and the other day I also felt it in my arms which was something new.

In the past few days, my bones have been aching again. This aching is accompanied by a buzzy feeling coming from the outside of my legs. The pain feels like it’s emanating out of my bones and the buzzing randomly moves around my calves in quick electrical type pulses on my skin. My hip bones and lower back have the painful aching, but it is a tolerable pain…nothing too drastic. Sometimes it feels like my bones are being stretched.

There seems to be a lot of stuff going on with my spine and also the area where my spine connects to my neck/head. The message that I’m getting is that it has to do with merging polarities? I have no idea what that has to do with it, but that’s the answer I received. Maybe something to do with ida/pingala, silver/gold? Those are the images that I’m getting…overall, it has to do with “unification”…some sort of “short-cut” in the process, and a change in the template instructions, for those who are ready…maybe having to do with ability to jump timelines. As usual, it’s too difficult to put into words…

For the past week, I’ve been waking up in the morning and seeing gridlines again. This time, I’m seeing a cardinal cross in the middle of the gridlines.

It seems that the cross is emanating something from it, but I’m not sure what that means. I’ve seen this before, so it’s familiar to me, but I just don’t really understand it.

Overall, the energy sensations have become very active. It’s become the new “norm”. I’ve decided to speak about it more openly, so that people around me will become familiar with it. I don’t care if they think I’m crazy anymore…Someday this will become the new norm for many others, and I hope that when that happens, they will remember when I spoke of it before then…Maybe it will somehow help them to understand and to stay out of fear….

So that’s it…I’m fully out of the closet – lol … No more hiding, no more worrying about what other people may think. The secret’s out…I’m consciously, consciously evolving 😉

Love ❤

Energy Sensations – Update August 24, 2015

I chose the picture above because I’ve been seeing an energy that looks similar to the halo around her head. Kinda looks like circles within circles…  I used to see gridlines most mornings when I’d wake up, but lately, I’ve been waking up surrounded by an illuminated energy that looks very similar to this picture below (just the pattern without the colors):

 

 

It looks a lot like the picture except the circles are transparent with a golden sheen to them. When I used to see the gridlines, they were a transparent illuminated powder blue color.  Only once I saw illuminated red gridlines, but they were surrounding a very muscular blue being that was standing at the foot of my bed…I’ll write about that experience later…

A lot has happened since I last wrote…I’ve started writing posts here and there, but haven’t gotten around to finishing them…I’m attending school now, so it’s been difficult to come out of seclusion for so long and then to have many different people, with very different energy signatures, around me all day. I’m still trying to adjust.  I’ll finish my other posts soon (and back-date) but I just wanted to give a quick update…

 

August 24, 2015

Last night (Aug. 23rd) I was laying down in bed, using my computer, and I got hit with a HUGE amount of energy emanating out of my core and Heart area…it felt like the Diamond Solar Heart energy, only this time, I was fully awake and not in that in-between state.  This is the first time that I was able to fully feel it completely  manifest while wide awake.  But because I was wide awake, it felt SO much stronger than I had experienced before.

It was quite overwhelming, so I had to stop what I was doing and fully focus on it…tuning into it so I could understand what was happening.  I noticed that the energy felt like it was pouring out of my solar plexus and Heart area and filling up my energy field (flooding very quickly).  It was flooding so quickly that it caused a pressure type sensation in my core as it was passing through it.

It felt very warm, liquid and effervescent all at the same time.  This is completely different than any other type of energy I’ve experienced over the years (downloads, bliss episodes, Kundalini, Tummo etc…) The more my field was completely saturated with this energy, the more sensitive my nerves and cells felt throughout my body.  It was almost like they were tender and a little bit sore as the energy was saturating them.  The sensation is very difficult to explain…but there is definitely a noticeable heat to it that is somehow different from Tummo.

It was slightly blissful but it was so powerful that there was also a slight discomfort to it at the same time. I kept imagining that it had a golden sheen like the sun, and that the warmth that I was experiencing was because it was a type of solar energy…like I was embodying the sun’s energy?  After a while I started to feel like I was losing my breath.  I had to keep taking deep breaths and try not to become too overwhelmed by what was happening to me…staying out of fear.

I had a heightened sense of emotion like I wanted to cry, but in a strong Love kind of way. It was coming out of the core in waves that I could actually feel…like pulses that would emanate outward…the beginning of each pulse was extremely overwhelming and then would taper off.  I was bracing myself for the next pulse because it was so strong.

It lasted for about an hour and then tapered off.  Then this morning while I was in school (nursing classes), it hit me again!  I had to ask that it not happen while I was in class.  I lost my breath and felt dizzy for about 15 minutes and then it stopped.  But I noticed that I’ve felt strange for the rest of the day, and still do now as I’m typing this.  I feel “lit up” with vibrating molecules…that’s the only way I can describe it.  My solar plexus feels very raw and expanded. The lower part of the back of my head has also been vibrating with a pulse…

Well, this is it…this is the frequency we’ve been prepared to bring in.  It took A LOT of work by SO MANY to be able to reach this phase.  It’s hard to explain, but I can actually feel that it is a unified energy, the selfless work by so many…I wish I could explain it better, but as usual, I have trouble finding the words.  I’ve been on the verge of tears all day.

This frequency is pure Christed liquid light and somehow connected to the sun…this frequency is pure Love. And this frequency is here now in the physical, it’s been fully anchored.  In the most intense moments of the experience, it made me want to burst into tears because of the pureness of it.  I have never felt anything like it and cannot fully explain it.  I have a strong sense of completion, kind of like a goal that has been reached.  I know there is still much more to do, but I feel that this was the most important for myself, on my personal journey.

I’ve been shown that once this energy is embodied, the miasma and discordant energy will be cleared at maximum speed…super fast.  At first some may feel emotional, like crying because the body needs to get used to it.  It’s always strongest at first when something comes online, but intensity will taper off as the bodies adjust to it.  Surrender is crucial…full trust…just knowing that the intensity of it will pass, helps to surrender to it without any fear creeping in.

I wasn’t paying too much attention to the “Wave X” and September predictions, but when this started to happen to me, I got the message that this is all in preparation for September.  Yikesssssss!

Again, the message that I’m receiving, just as I did for 12/21/12, is that the gatekeepers and portals will most likely feel the intensity of it, but some will not.  There may be disappointment for those that do not physically feel anything…but I assure you, regardless of whether it’s physically felt or not, it is here and will continue to be anchored.  We are past the point of possibility of this being blocked or stopped.  It is done…

I can only imagine how intense this will be for those that are hyper-sensitive, and I’m bracing myself for what has yet to come…

 

 

Endless Gratitude to all who have participated in creating and making this possible…

 

You are Loved and appreciated beyond measure

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Energy Sensations – Update June 2, 2015

 

Just wanted to do a very quick update…

Starting on May 30th in the late afternoon, I started to get a pineal migraine.  It feels like the center of my brain is swollen and emanating heat and pain out of it. It progressively got worse the next day and is still continuing today.  When I get these types of migraines, they usually last 2 to 3 days, but today is the 4^th day.  I have to stay in bed with my eyes closed most of the day because it’s just too painful. I don’t have health insurance at the moment, so I can’t go to the doctor or emergency room.

This migraine is accompanied by many different sensations:

Subtle swaying on the top of my head

Heat (sun burn sensation) on my face and scalp

Pain behind my right eye

Extremely sensitive and sore neck/shoulder blades/lower back

Loud hissing noise in my right ear

Foggy dream-like feeling

Seeing frequent blue sparkles around me

Aching pain emanating from my bones

Nerves twitching all over

Humming wave-like vibration throughout my body

Sensitivity to light and sound

Nausea

It’s pretty bad!  I feel like my bones are being hollowed out. There’s also been some heavy anchoring of energy pouring full force out of my feet.  It doesn’t feel soft and pleasant like water; it feels like particles coming out.

I know this is not a medical issue, this is clearly energetic, but I could really use some pain relief, even if only temporary.  Usually when it gets this bad where I can’t take it anymore is when it will taper off.  So I’ll most likely be better tomorrow…

Oh, and I just realized that tonight is the full moon….Yikes!  I wish I could just put myself in a comatose state…lol

I decided to meditate on this and asked to be shown what is happening, why I’m feeling this way.  This is what I got:

We are releasing so much right now.  So much more than I can comprehend or relate to.  I see it as streams coming out of my body, streaming codes…causing a vibration on the way out.  Memories are passing through, with a tinge of nostalgia.  I see snapshot pictures of different beings, different people, different places.  They’re all being released and set free.

This is on a cellular level.  We’re even releasing from our bones.  Blood is changing, codes are changing (transforming).  I see codes in the blood. It reminds me of being sick when I was a kid…I was always sick with fevers, nose bleeds, migraines.  I remember feeling floaty and sad.  That’s how I feel right now…floaty and sad.

I keep hearing the word “gravity” for some reason.  When I think about it, I hear the song “Damn Gravity” by Okay Kaya.  Such a soothing song…it somehow helps with this process of letting go…

 

 

It’s been 4 days of releasing…I wonder how much longer this episode will last?

 

I could sure use a hug

 

**Update – On September 1st, Sandra Walter posted an article that said :

“Many of the classical phases may feel familiar – or quite direct for Masters – and you may recognize the memory of your past journeys welling up to the surface. (Litmus test: Tears of gratitude are a clear sign of revelation). Cellular memory activates codes within your blood and bones during this phase of Ascension. It is best to observe this and not cling to those memories as they come up. They are holographic imprints to assist the Higher Self in stepping forth, unifying all of the journeys here in order to transcend them. As always, this is on behalf of the collective project of Ascension.”

Pretty awesome sync!  The entire article can be found HERE

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