~ . Some fear the fire – some simply become it . ~
It’s been a while since I’ve written. Over the past year, I’ve had a series of events happen that have been totally and completely life changing/shifting. I’ll start with one that introduced me to a new healing modality that I had never heard of before. This modality has offered exposure and healing for deep down trauma like no other that I’ve ever experienced. I haven’t read anything online about others having this same type of effect from the modality, but I’ll share with you, the profound effect I’ve had as a result.
In May of last year (2018), I got a temporary job with the U.S. Post Office in Phoenix, Arizona. I left my comfort zone job in remote Utah to take the new job in Arizona. I already knew that it was time for me to leave my “holding spot” and a series of events served as a catalyst for the change… I didn’t have anywhere to stay in AZ since my ex-boyfriend’s house was no longer available, so I started to search the AIRBNB website. There was a listing that I totally resonated with and I made a request to rent a room for at least a month to get me started. After the first phone conversation with the owner, we both felt that there was a connection and she said it would be okay to rent the room on a monthly basis.
Long story short, the owner is a healer/energy worker and a very talented artist. She is probably one of the sweetest souls I’ve ever met. She just radiates a very calming and Loving energy. She lives in a beautiful home nestled inside South Mountain right near the border of Tempe, AZ. She has a telepathic energy transmuting pitbull and a magical Goddess cat lol…. After a couple of weeks of staying in the home, she casually mentioned “Let me know when you want me to run your bars”….and I was like “Huh???”
I had no idea what she meant by that. What does “run your bars” mean? It ended up that she remembers a full conversation that we had about her doing the Access Consciousness healing modality on me, which focuses on touch points on your head that they call “bars”. In this conversation, I had agreed to have it done.
We actually didn’t have the conversation that she remembered, but I trusted that she probably had it in a dream or in another realm. Since this has happened to me with other people remembering full conversations with me that never took place, I just went with it. Either way, I felt good about it, so I agreed (again) lol.
The treatment, I’m guessing, takes approximately 1 hr on average, but you can go longer if needed. We ended up going for almost 2 hours. I could feel the energy on my head like a Reiki treatment, only, the different bars would cause different sensations in different parts of my body when engaged. When she got to the “Implant bar” behind the ears, I started to have visions and started to hear things, and to smell things…it was really bizarre the first time that this happened.
The first thing that I heard was pounding, very LOUD pounding. I got the message that this pounding was coming from underground. I tuned into it and started to smell damp cold Earth, it was very dark. I saw a weathered turquoise wooden box and realized that I was trapped in this box underground.
(It was kinda creepy finding this picture online because it’s the exact same color that I saw..Yikes!)
I was the one who was making the pounding noise as I was frantically hitting and kicking the lid of the wooden box in hopes of somebody hearing my desperate screams for help…I was buried alive underground and left to suffocate and die.
After that vision had passed and played out, I started to smell something burning. Then I felt extreme heat on the right side of my face. I saw fire. The smell began to change and I realized that it was the smell of burning flesh. The heat on the side of my face was from my flesh burning in the flames. I was a female in that lifetime and I was being burned at the stake.
After we were done, I continued to have a very active electrical sensation on the right side of my face for several hours. It’s like my face was repairing on a grid level after I had released the memory.
So I ended up leaving Arizona after a month because the job didn’t work out (I would not recommend EVER working for the Post Office lol) and I was being called to California to deal with creepy ancestral crap involving the paternal side of my family (which is a living nightmare I’ll write about later). When I was done with this other work, I ended up returning to her home in Arizona after a year had passed, and was back at her house again in May of this year, once again, for only a month.
This time we did an energy exchange for each other. She would run my bars one day and I would do Reiki and other energy work on her at a different time, in exchange. The next time she ran my bars, and when she got to the “implant bar”, I had A vision of “blackface”.
It was floating in the air like a photograph. When I tuned into the energy to understand what that meant, I saw myself as an African male standing next to a tree. I was a slave. I was hanged on that tree and then they lit me on fire. That was a very difficult implant/imprint to remove. I had to really focus on removing it for quite a while. It took some time, but toward the end, I saw and felt a string (maybe a rope?) unravel in the right side of my jaw. It was all intertwined and deeply embedded in the bone. It unraveled from my jaw bone, then down my neck, through my shoulder, my right arm and then it was forcefully being pulled out of my right hand. It was REALLY long, so it took a while to pull the entire string/rope out. I have a feeling that this string/rope is some type of implant regarding hanging. Now that it’s in awareness, it should be easier to clear on other people. That implant was a sneaky one that’s hard to detect. (**Also, in my personal experience, this implant may also be linked to suicidal thoughts having to do with hanging oneself, which I’ll also write about later).
The next and last time she ran my bars and got to the implant bar, I had a vision of a Knight’s Templar male. First I saw the symbol, then I saw the sword.
In part of the vision, the sword was placed in my spine (energetically). The top handle part was where my shoulders were, and the length of the sword pointing downward was in my spine. I realized that the sword was energetically embedded in my spine when I took the Templar oath. I saw myself as a Knight kneeling.
I felt the strong sensation of loyalty and sense of purpose that I had invoked. It was overwhelmingly strong. I knew that the oath was affecting my life now, that despite doing numerous vow and contract release techniques, that the sword had still been embedded in my spine on a different level. That one was also difficult to remove because there was such a strong sense of loyalty. It’s almost like a guilt feeling that I’ve abandoned a cause that I believed in so deeply and felt so passionate about. I had the same guilt type feeling in releasing Bodhisattva vows as well…But what I’ve come to realize is that in believing so passionately that we need to keep that vow, in attachment to the belief that we need to save someone or something, we’re actually creating it and keeping the need alive, we’re feeding it energy. Once we release the belief in that need, in that vow, then the actual need for saving – the reflection of that in this world – will be released. That was a big realization for me. Quite profound…
So after these experiences with this type of trauma/death release, it was brought to my attention that for me personally, this was connected with “bullying” in my life. These deaths that I had experienced in other lifetimes have imprinted a type of trauma/wound that was reflecting/attracting bullying energy. People being mean, people judging me for being different, people not liking me and making fun of me….this was all connected to the trauma of being condemned to death for being different in other lifetimes or for being a threat to their power over other people.
Maybe we all have such implants/imprints in consciousness; being burned at the stake for being a witch or a healer, buried alive for being a threat in exposing the truth, Knights Templar destroyed by King Phillip’s command, beheaded for various reasons from various Royalty figures, lynched, starved to death, gassed, stoned, drowned because of our race or the color of our skin.
I’m sure I have more to clear and will definitely continue with my bars sessions. Although it’s very sad and can be painful to tap into those energies, it’s also very interesting to see where each one connects with what is currently going on in this lifetime, what triggers are related to the particular imprint in consciousness.
But now that it’s in awareness, it should be easier to clear on myself and on others. I am very Grateful ❤
………….~Still We Rise~
From “A Gift From Gaia” Facebook Page:
I Have Returned
Awaken witches the time is nigh
5 Generations we have waited to fly
The sands of time determined our fate
Delivering us here at karma’s gate
You laughed and cheered as you watched us swing
Guilty of having no man as a King
You tied us up and watched us drown
For selling herbs in our home town
You crushed our ribs with rocks and stones
Screwed our thumbs and broke our bones
Our town elders, it mattered not
Locked in an iron casket, scolding hot
5 Generations we have come to clear
500 years of karmic fear
Judgement and lies, come back around for you
The fake and the false transforms into true
I was a healer, a lover of earth
I assisted when your women gave birth
My crime was a refusal to stop being me
The punishment was fire to set my soul free
I made a vow as I burned at the stake
To return one day, with revenge to take
My screams stayed with you, for 500 years
And have stained your face, in regretful tears
We now can clear, and wipe the slate
And tie up those ends of the rope of fate
I stand by my promise, I have returned
I’ve come to bring change, but have you learned?
Birthed at 5.55am