Energy Sensations – Update January 11, 2020

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Artwork:  “Becoming” by Steven DaLuz

 

“The purpose of life is not to transcend the body, but to embody the transcendent” ~ H.H.Dalai Lama

 

I woke up at about 8:00am this morning to a Diamond Solar Heart activation (merging/blending of the Solar Plexus, Heart and High Heart chakras which creates a torus sensation and generates the Christed energy).  It was pretty strong, so it was easy to get completely pulled into it while still half asleep. I guess it feels stronger when you’re in that “in between” state and easier to focus on the sensations.

I could feel the torus movement centering in the Heart area, but I also felt a 2nd torus sensation centering in the 3rd eye area at the same time.  This is only the 2nd time that I’ve felt both torus sensations together….usually it’s only in the Heart area.  

While focusing in on the sensations, after a while I realized that the lyrics from the song “Aquarius/Let The Sunshine In” by the band 5th dimension were playing in my head in the background “Let the sun shine, Let the sunshine in, the sunshine In”.  It was so funny because it was in full chorus just like the song. I couldn’t help but laugh because it seemed kinda corny, but I guess it’s appropriate for what’s taking place at the moment.  In my experience, the Christed state is a unified Solar energy so that totally makes sense.

At one point, I could feel the generated energy start to pour out of the bottom of my feet (anchoring) and I could see illuminated codes moving quickly through my mind in a web (can’t think of a better word to describe it). I ended up staying in bed for 3 hours while in this In-between state until it stopped.

I’m exhausted today and unable to get up and get out of bed.  Maybe from such a high influx of energy. This was a MASSIVE activation that is the result of the unification and dedication of so many.  I am filled with Gratitude for all that have participated in this creation. There is no question in my mind that Magic is real.  We always have been and always will be capable of Magic. 

Energy Sensations

I’ve been getting lots of Crown activity in the past few weeks. Most of the time it’s the liquid Bliss sensation, but sometimes it feels like the fizzy meridian sensation on my head.  A couple of days ago I felt the back of my head fluttering with a flickering sensation for several hours.  It flutters so hard, that it feels like a moth is stuck in my hair.

Nerves have been fluttering and twitching in various parts of my body and will sometimes quickly switch to different locations within seconds. Sometimes the nerves are twitching so hard, that you can see movement in that area.

Meridians have been very active and will feel the bubbly effervescent sensation flowing through different parts of the body.  The sensation seems to be getting stronger and is spreading to new areas that had not been active before.

Dreams have been extremely vivid and I’ve been having dreams about people from my past every single night.  Each night it’s a different person and sometimes it’s a person I haven’t even thought about in many years.

Toward the end of 2019 I was craving carbs and large high calorie meals, but lately I haven’t had much of an appetite and have been eating less frequently.  I’ve been craving chocolate and sugar, but don’t really want to eat a whole meal.

I noticed on January 4th that the tones/harmonics had changed.  It was very noticeable. There was a sense of well-being and everything felt clearer.   I’m not sure how to explain it, but it’s not that I felt/heard new ones, it’s that I sensed that some were missing.  Maybe it’s the distorted ones that were not there anymore allowing a sense of Bliss and harmony. Many people noticed that something was different and I saw that some people posted updates about it.  Even my roommate who is not spiritual at all, casually mentioned that he felt “good and more clear”.

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Things are definitely changing.  Maybe this will be a year of a deeper awakening to our abilities…a deeper sense of “knowing”…trusting ourselves more and allowing the flow of creation without the resistance of doubt.

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Believe in yourself and see what happens

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I had to post this version of the Aquarius song from the movie “The 40 Year Old Virgin” ~ It’s too funny 🙂

 

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Energy Sensations – Update December 16, 2019

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Things have been a little strange lately.  I’m definitely at a choicepoint right now which can feel like a void.  Usually when this happens, I feel very out of body and floaty most of the time.  I noticed today, while out in public, that I didn’t really feel like I was present…I felt like I was in a dream and everything seemed foggy.

I started a new job about a month ago and I like it a lot.  I’m working as an Incident Response Analyst reviewing documents and emails from companies that have been hacked.  It’s only a temporary job which will allow me to save money until the end of January and then I’m moving somewhere far far away 🙂

I was able to go to Sedona on November 11th and had a beautiful day with perfect weather.  There was a different energy there compared to other times. While meditating, I saw a pattern that at first thought was the flower of life, but when I tuned into it more, I realized it was a pattern that looks like the top view of a torus.  It had a red hue to it. If I opened my eyes and then closed them again, I’d continue to see the pattern.

I also got a lot of red energy in pictures which was something new.

I was gonna go to Bell Rock again on December 12th, but unfortunately, I had to work on that day 😦  I guess it really doesn’t matter where you are, because (etheric) work was still being done on my body while I was sitting at my desk!  It seems so strange to sit in a room full of people while something is reaching into my back, adjusting the side of my face and while receiving liquid Bliss Crown downloads! At times it felt like my face was turning into liquid… I guess I’m getting used to it though.  

There has been a lot of movement in my bones and bone marrow lately.  It can be painful at times, but mostly just slow vibrating movement and sometimes it feels like there are pops/cracks/pings inside my bones.  Sometimes it feels like pinched nerve pain or stabbing pain in the bone. I know that it’s etheric because it’s always accompanied by a static electromagnetic sensation on my skin near the area that’s feeling the sensation. The static energy whips around really fast and feels like something hovering over different areas.

There have been times when it feels like someone is taking a small instrument and scraping out the bone marrow from the middle of my bone (that one REALLY hurts but usually only lasts for a minute or so ). It’s very difficult to explain and I know that it sounds weird.  Usually this bone activity will only last for two days and then it will stop, but this time, it started on December 9th and it’s still happening every day since then. It’s never lasted this long before.                                                  

Overall, there has been a lot of activity and many changes taking place. After a recent soulmate experience that didn’t go very well, I have awakened to a new level of self empowerment and loyalty to self.  

The “Claddagh” symbol  and the “Love, Loyalty, Friendship” that it represents played a significant role in many of our lifetimes together as did Celtic beliefs.  It was very difficult to release this person, probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to go through because it was so very deeply connected with the Heart.  It did help to reveal the many barriers that I had within the Heart and somehow brought me closer to myself. I am very Grateful for all of the beautiful past life memories that I was able to recall with this person.  It showed me how magical life can be and has awakened me to all of the possibilities of creating that level of Love and happiness in my life now. Just meeting her in this lifetime has totally and completely changed everything for me. I am very Grateful for having met her and pray that our brief reuniting has somehow helped her as much as she has unknowingly helped me.  Even though she is totally unaware and asleep (spiritually), I imagine that our brief reuniting will be a catalyst for her as well… 

I can sense that 2020 is going to hit the ground running and I’m preparing to move somewhere more in alignment with what I’d like to create.  Something is telling me to get out of the U.S. mainland. I will do everything I can to make that happen. As of now, it looks like I’ll make that move in February 2020.

Energy Sensations

Tummo Fire energy has been very active.  I’ve been waking up in the middle of the night steaming hot!  I feel like Keanu Reeves in the movie Constantine when he comes back from a trip through hell and you can see the heat coming out of his body – lol

I’m seeing a bright horizontal indigo blue streak in front of me quite frequently.  I’ll even see it illuminated while I’m in the dark. I guess it’s something in my aura because it’s always in the same place.

The right side of my face has been repairing on a grid level.  I had a past life memory earlier this year of being burned at the stake and in the memory, the right side of my face was burned very badly.  Immediately after the vision and ever since then, I’ve periodically felt movement on that side of my face, sometimes numbness, buzzing and electrical pulses and feeling something reaching into my face as if it’s being repaired.  

Lots of movement in bone and marrow.  There’s also static electromagnetic sensation in muscle lately, which is something new for me.  I sense that there’s something neurological going on as well because of the way the etheric activity feels…lots of rewiring…

My body is releasing toxins and have been breaking out with blemishes on my face which is not normal for me.  When the breakouts occur, my joints and all of my teeth hurt all at the same time. Nerves will twitch in multiple teeth simultaneously.  It got so bad last week, that I went to the dentist and had x-rays done on all of my teeth. The dentist said he couldn’t find anything wrong and the pain went away the next day…but this happens periodically.

Have been really tired and have trouble keeping my eyes open throughout the day.  I am unable to take a nap when I do get the chance to lay down. I’ll just go into a trance-like state for a couple of hours while the Kundalini moves around, but I’m unable to fall asleep.

When I get a new insight, usually within the week, lots of people will start writing about it and posting stuff on facebook or instagram with the same message.  I guess we are all tapping into the same collective. It’s pretty awesome to see this happen so frequently. It gives me a sense of unity here on earth unlike any other I’ve ever felt while going through the motions of everyday life.  It’s comforting to see that things are actually starting to change…like REALLY change to the point that we can actually see and feel the results.  

For the first time since my awakening began, I am excited to move forward…to create a life that I’ve always dreamed of but didn’t have the belief in my ability to do it.  It seemed so complicated before, and then as if overnight, I just woke up one day and had the complete knowing and acknowledgment of my ability. The magic has always been there, it was just a matter of believing in myself. 

When we step into this power, into this self Love and empowerment within the Heart, we will emit a frequency, a harmonic that will change/transform everything around us (think Law of Resonance)

This is where Unity ignites…the Golden Fire of transformation.

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True self Love and loyalty-to-self will change your life … Let the magic begin

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Awareness And Release Of Trauma

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~ . Some fear the firesome simply become it . ~

It’s been a while since I’ve written.  Over the past year, I’ve had a series of events happen that have been totally and completely life changing/shifting.  I’ll start with one that introduced me to a new healing modality that I had never heard of before.  This modality has offered exposure and healing for deep down trauma like no other that I’ve ever experienced. I haven’t read anything online about others having this same type of effect from the modality, but I’ll share with you, the profound effect I’ve had as a result.

In May of last year (2018), I got a temporary job with the U.S. Post Office in Phoenix, Arizona.  I left my comfort zone job in remote Utah to take the new job in Arizona. I already knew that it was time for me to leave my “holding spot” and a series of events served as a catalyst for the change… I didn’t have anywhere to stay in AZ since my ex-boyfriend’s house was no longer available, so I started to search the AIRBNB website.  There was a listing that I totally resonated with and I made a request to rent a room for at least a month to get me started. After the first phone conversation with the owner, we both felt that there was a connection and she said it would be okay to rent the room on a monthly basis.

Long story short, the owner is a healer/energy worker and a very talented  artist. She is probably one of the sweetest souls I’ve ever met.  She just radiates a very calming and Loving energy.  She lives in a beautiful home nestled inside South Mountain right near the border of Tempe, AZ. She has a telepathic energy transmuting pitbull and a magical Goddess cat lol…. After a couple of weeks of staying in the home, she casually mentioned “Let me know when you want me to run your bars”….and I was like “Huh???”

I had no idea what she meant by that. What does “run your bars” mean? It ended up that she remembers a full conversation that we had about her doing the Access Consciousness healing modality on me, which focuses on touch points on your head that they call “bars”.  In this conversation, I had agreed to have it done.

We actually didn’t have the conversation that she remembered, but I trusted that she probably had it in a dream or in another realm. Since this has happened to me with other people remembering full conversations with me that never took place, I just went with it.  Either way, I felt good about it, so I agreed (again) lol.

The treatment, I’m guessing, takes approximately 1 hr on average, but you can go longer if needed.  We ended up going for almost 2 hours. I could feel the energy on my head like a Reiki treatment, only, the different bars would cause different sensations in different parts of my body when engaged.  When she got to the “Implant bar” behind the ears, I started to have visions and started to hear things, and to smell things…it was really bizarre the first time that this happened.

The first thing that I heard was pounding, very LOUD pounding. I got the message that this pounding was coming from underground.  I tuned into it and started to smell damp cold Earth, it was very dark. I saw a weathered turquoise wooden box and realized that I was trapped in this box underground.

(It was kinda creepy finding this picture online because it’s the exact same color that I saw..Yikes!)

I was the one who was making the pounding noise as I was frantically hitting and kicking the lid of the wooden box in hopes of somebody hearing my desperate screams for help…I was buried alive underground and left to suffocate and die.

After that vision had passed and played out, I started to smell something burning.  Then I felt extreme heat on the right side of my face. I saw fire. The smell began to change and I realized that it was the smell of burning flesh.  The heat on the side of my face was from my flesh burning in the flames. I was a female in that lifetime and I was being burned at the stake.

After we were done, I continued to have a very active electrical sensation on the right side of my face for several hours.  It’s like my face was repairing on a grid level after I had released the memory.

So I ended up leaving Arizona after a month because the job didn’t work out (I would not recommend EVER working for the Post Office lol) and I was being called to California to deal with creepy ancestral crap involving the paternal side of my family (which is a living nightmare I’ll write about later). When I was done with this other work, I ended up returning to her home in Arizona after a year had passed, and was back at her house again in May of this year, once again, for only a month.

This time we did an energy exchange for each other.  She would run my bars one day and I would do Reiki and other energy work on her at a different time, in exchange.  The next time she ran my bars, and when she got to the “implant bar”, I had A vision of “blackface”.

It was floating in the air like a photograph.  When I tuned into the energy to understand what that meant, I saw myself as an African male standing next to a tree.  I was a slave. I was hanged on that tree and then they lit me on fire. That was a very difficult implant/imprint to remove.  I had to really focus on removing it for quite a while. It took some time, but toward the end, I saw and felt a string (maybe a rope?) unravel in the right side of my jaw.  It was all intertwined and deeply embedded in the bone. It unraveled from my jaw bone, then down my neck, through my shoulder, my right arm and then it was forcefully being pulled out of my right hand.  It was REALLY long, so it took a while to pull the entire string/rope out. I have a feeling that this string/rope is some type of implant regarding hanging. Now that it’s in awareness, it should be easier to clear on other people.  That implant was a sneaky one that’s hard to detect. (**Also, in my personal experience, this implant may also be linked to suicidal thoughts having to do with hanging oneself, which I’ll also write about later).

The next and last time she ran my bars and got to the implant bar, I had a vision of a Knight’s Templar male.  First I saw the symbol, then I saw the sword.

In part of the vision, the sword was placed in my spine (energetically).  The top handle part was where my shoulders were, and the length of the sword pointing downward was in my spine.  I realized that the sword was energetically embedded in my spine when I took the Templar oath. I saw myself as a Knight kneeling.

I felt the strong sensation of loyalty and sense of purpose that I had invoked. It was overwhelmingly strong.  I knew that the oath was affecting my life now, that despite doing numerous vow and contract release techniques, that the sword had still been embedded in my spine on a different level. That one was also difficult to remove because there was such a strong sense of loyalty. It’s almost like a guilt feeling that I’ve abandoned a cause that I believed in so deeply and felt so passionate about. I had the same guilt type feeling in releasing Bodhisattva vows as well…But what I’ve come to realize is that in believing so passionately that we need to keep that vow, in attachment to the belief that we need to save someone or something, we’re actually creating it and keeping the need alive, we’re feeding it energy.  Once we release the belief in that need, in that vow, then the actual need for saving – the reflection of that in this world – will be released. That was a big realization for me. Quite profound…

So after these experiences with this type of trauma/death release, it was brought to my attention that for me personally, this was connected with “bullying” in my life. These deaths that I had experienced in other lifetimes have imprinted a type of trauma/wound that was reflecting/attracting bullying energy.  People being mean, people judging me for being different, people not liking me and making fun of me….this was all connected to the trauma of being condemned to death for being different in other lifetimes or for being a threat to their power over other people.

Maybe we all have such implants/imprints in consciousness;  being burned at the stake for being a witch or a healer, buried alive for being a threat in exposing the truth, Knights Templar destroyed by King Phillip’s command, beheaded for various reasons from various Royalty figures, lynched, starved to death, gassed, stoned, drowned because of our race or the color of our skin.

I’m sure I have more to clear and will definitely continue with my bars sessions.  Although it’s very sad and can be painful to tap into those energies, it’s also very interesting to see where each one connects with what is currently going on in this lifetime, what triggers are related to the particular imprint in consciousness.

But now that it’s in awareness, it should be easier to clear on myself and on others.  I am very Grateful

 ………….~Still We Rise~

The Awakening ~ Part 1

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The Awakening ~

When I first had my Kundalini awakening, I had absolutely NO IDEA what had happened or what I was feeling afterward.  The force of it blew me completely out of my body and I was suddenly in another realm.  I passed through the black void of nothingness  until I saw the essence of the Red Mahakala swirling around in the darkness. It looked like red smoke that formed into the face.

I had to pass through the Mahakala to enter the next realm. In this realm, out of the darkness, a beautiful swirling galaxy appeared before me. The stars seemed to have white and pinkish colors sparkling as the galaxy spiraled in motion (I had never seen the movie “Contact” at this point, but years later when I saw it, it brought tears to my eyes when Jodie Foster saw the Galaxy in the other realm).

I just stared at how profound and beautiful this Galaxy was, until I saw a disembodied face with a tall headpiece (like the Thai Buddha statues) appear before me. It came from the left side of my view.

The face was animated and had a violet/pink color emanating from it and I realized that the face was me!  It stared at me for a while, smiled and winked at me and then I was pulled back into this realm where my physical body was.

Once I came back to my body, all of my chakras were completely blown wide open.  As a result, I was feeling a swaying and tickling sensation on the top of my head (Crown) and in the middle of my chest (Heart Center). I was also seeing symbols floating in the air around me and would begin to see gridlines.  I would spend a lot of time staring at the top of my head, in the mirror, trying to figure out why I could feel it moving, but couldn’t see anything moving lol

Long story short, I eventually got on Google (aka my Guru – lol) and searched “feeling movement on the top of my head” and found information about chakras which led me to the info about Kundalini. Until then, I had no clue what a chakra or Kundalini was and didn’t know (remember) anything about Buddhism.   I did find a lot of stuff that would talk about “Spiritual Emergency” and about some people not being ready for Kundalini and having all sorts of problems.  After extensive research, I decided that the best thing for me to do was to remove as many blocks as I could, and to learn how to work with this force that had completely ripped through my body.

I did a lot of comparison and decided to attend some Reiki Tummo workshops mainly because they worked with the Kundalini energy, removed chakra knots, widened the shushumna and also because they are very focused on strengthening the Heart Center.  I knew I would really need to work on my Heart because I had a lot of childhood trauma and had been in protection-mode for most of my life.

I had been sent to Pennsylvania for a work related 4 month detail when I had my awakening. During this time, I was conducting an investigation on a facility in Reading.  The closest workshop that I found was in Maryland…so within the first month of my awakening, I signed up and took the 3 hour drive to attend the workshop.  I had no idea what I was getting myself into but I felt really good about my decision.

The Attunement (Initiation) ~

The house that the workshop was held at was SO beautiful.  It just felt so mystical with beautiful spiritual artwork, crystals and art pieces from other countries throughout the home.  There was a strong presence of Divine Feminine energy.  When I looked out into the backyard, there was a forest of tall thin aspen trees and everything was white and glistening from the recent snow.  The owner had Husky dogs with white eyes that greeted me at the patio doors as I was staring into the forest in awe.

We all sat in the basement as we listened to Carlos Nakai flute music and were surrounded by the soft scent of sandalwood incense.  They were very respectful and required that everyone be very quiet which made the whole experience feel so sacred. When we had the initial group attunement, I felt a massive amount of Blissful liquid energy forcefully pouring into the top of my head.  It was so strong that it caused my head to move in a circular spiral motion.  When I opened my eyes and looked around the room I could see other people moving in a circular spiral motion too.  There were some advanced practitioners who actually had huge smiles on their faces and had their eyes rolled back into their head as they were spiraling !  I’m not kidding, their eyes were completely white!  They were so overtaken with Bliss from the attunement.

During part of the workshop, in small groups, we would all stand around a person lying on the table, and would all channel energy to the person on the table.  The point and intention of this practice was to open the person’s shushumna and to clear/widen the pathway. As I was channeling the energy through my hands, I felt it start to shoot out of my Heart Center.  It was such a beautiful feeling to have this Divine energy coursing through my Heart.  It felt like a pumping motion as it was pouring out.  I was surprised when one of the instructors came close to my ear and softly whispered “Yes, that’s it…use your Heart”.  It was then that I realized that she could actually see everything that I was feeling.

At times during the workshop, I felt out of place because everyone was so patient and Loving and I wasn’t used to being around people like that.  I was still working in law enforcement and had been pretty hardened by my environment.  I knew that I had a lot of work to do and probably one of the most difficult things that I’ve had to work through was getting over the feeling of not being worthy or not good enough to experience this Divine energy.  I guess growing up around Catholics will do that to you…haha

The Clearing ~

After the class, I took the 3 hour drive back to Pennsylvania.  When I got to my hotel room, I cried the entire night.  The initial cleansing process from such a huge influx of energy was brutal!  Before I ended up falling asleep, I asked ‘God’ why I was chosen to experience this and said that I felt that I wasn’t worthy because I had so much negativity from my life. As I was falling asleep and was in that in-between state, I felt something hug/envelope my body and stroke my face in comfort. It lulled me to sleep.

I remember waking up a few times throughout the night and would see symbols flashing one after another in the air above me.  I was getting some type of download.  Many years later, I saw a video where Lisa Renee called this type of download a “ticker tape” download.  That’s a perfect explanation of what I experienced that night…symbol after symbol flashing one after another for several hours.

Early in the morning when I woke up, I saw a little bright blue orb fluttering around in front of my face.  It had little sparkles coming off of it that looked like pixie dust and it landed on my pillow in front of me as it slowly faded out of sight.

Because of the massive cleansing that I was going through from the attunement, I couldn’t attend the 2nd class that was scheduled the next day.  I ended up staying in bed crying the whole weekend.  I had lots of weird stuff happen during those 2 days in bed going in and out of sleep.  I remember that I had a painting on the wall next to my bed and it was of a lake with a tree next to it, on a sunny day.  One time when I woke from sleep, the painting was of the same lake and tree, only it was winter and snowing!  The symbols continued to download and I continued to feel something stroking my face and arm in comfort.

I rescheduled the 2nd class for a month later, but the only one available was at a totally different location in Pennsylvania.  This class would be with a different group of people.  I’ll write about that experience in another post.

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Love ❤

 

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Dream Work ~ February 21, 2018

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I had a really strange vivid dream last night that appeared to be from a past life or parallel lifetime. It seemed very Shamanic in nature and involved shadow clearing, which is something that I’ve experienced occasionally throughout this process.

I was in a dimly lit house and everything was dark in black and gray colors (which for me, has always meant that it took place in the lower realms) with three other Native American people.  I think they were family members in that lifetime.

We were getting ready to go somewhere, like on a trip or something, so we were packing the car.  It was dark outside.  When I was going through the rooms to make sure that we didn’t forget anything, I saw a human tongue placed on each bed.  The tongues looked like they were completely ripped out of someone’s mouth but there was no blood.

After seeing that, I was a little panicked, so I began rushing through the house checking everything.  As I was going from room to room, I saw very tall (about 7 feet tall) shadow figures that looked like the silhouette of Native American elders wearing ritual costume (headdress, feathers etc).

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I got the message that they were ancient spirits having to do with sorcery.

I went to warn the family members in the house that something was happening, but they couldn’t hear me.  Then I realized that they couldn’t see me either.  I was confused and the whole thing didn’t make any sense.  I was getting frustrated.  Some of the dream was jumbled and confusing which reminded me of when you watch a DVD movie with scratches on it and it skips and looks distorted as it plays.

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The next full memory of the dream (that made any sense) is of me shouting “In Nomine Patris Et Fili Et Spiritus Sancti” (“In the name of the Father, The Son and The Holy Spirit” in Latin) over and over again and the other family members and I did a group hug and then we all merged together as one.  Then I realized there were multiples (like clones) of all of them that kept reappearing, so all of the other versions of them did  the same group hug and merged with me over and over again.  We just continued to do this for a while until it stopped.

I feel that once we all merged, it was finished.  I also get the feeling that the tongues were actually being voluntarily returned to us.  It was like we were collecting parts of self and merging back into wholeness.  The missing tongues had suppressed throat chakras over many lifetimes (throat chakra is connected to element ether).  It seemed as if the shadow spirits were cooperating because everything had been settled (as in debt) and they no longer had a purpose to hold onto…they wanted to move on, it was not a struggle.

Another thing that I remember from the dream is that when I tried to lock a door, the lock was removed by itself and it just floated in the air in front of me.  Then later, after I had finished with that dream and woke up this morning, I briefly slipped back into sleep again.  I quickly fell into a dream scene of a different brightly lit house, where I could see someone walking up to the front door.  I immediately looked at the door handle / lock and then the door forcefully swung open by itself.  The lock was also removed by itself and was just floating in the air in front of my face…then I woke up again.

I thought about it for a while and feel that the locks coming off is a message that once we begin the unification process, that nothing can be hidden or “locked away” anymore.  Everything is shared, known and exposed.  You just have to deal with it because it’s “in your face”…there’s no more putting it off for later.  There seems to be a massive “Return to Rightful Owner” and Unification happening at the moment.  This is HUGE.

When this process (Return to Rightful Owner) takes place, it can be very emotional.  These parts that are being returned have been missing for a very long time.  Once returned, they can feel wounded, sad, disoriented, traumatized, very exposed…I went through many different emotions, but now I’m feeling a strong emotional Love-type feeling right now.  It’s almost like a Motherly Love and protection that you feel for a child.  This experience was something really big for me…I can’t really put it all into words.

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**After writing this, I found Lisa Renee’s latest blog post “Point of Divergence” and she explains the current phase which totally explains my dream…Part of it says:

“The gridworkers are called to witness these fallen forces as they surface into our view from the underworld, or from the depths of the lower dimensions. Many of us are acting as transition teams, holding compassionate witnessing, to move out these entities from the AI timeline, phantom or dead areas, and they are both human and non-human entities. This is sad for us when we can feel the pain existing in the lower dimension of the earth, and we are forced to observe and may feel we are leaving certain people behind.  This emotional processing has required a completion cycle of the old timelines, through clearing out ancestral miasma, cord cutting, and disconnection from certain people or things that are stuck in the miasma of the lower fields or moving onto a different path.”

The whole post can be found HERE

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**Also, on March 17th, I found Lisa Renee’s “Shifting Timelines” Monthly Newsletter “Law of Gender” and in it she says:

“In the process of shifting into the next harmonic universe, many in the Krystic family have been enduring an embodiment phase for the new mathematical proportions of the diamond sun 12 Tree Grid pattern for the fifth dimensional octave. Additionally, many reclamation of identities and body parts from the parallels have been taking place, such as a return of the Adamic lines back to the rightful owner to support their current phase of embodiment. “

The entire post can be found HERE

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Energy Sensations – Update February 9, 2018

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Photo – current Schumann Resonance spikes ~ February 7th – 9th

 

I just wanted to do a quick update…

November and December were so strange for me.  I don’t really want to write about it because I believe that it was the dismantling of something really big.  Although it did not affect me directly, I did witness the (many) people around me completely falling apart…even to the point of an actual suicide and also an unrelated suicide attempt (both happening on the same day).  It’s been bizarre to say the least…  I feel that it has to do with magnetics which are affecting the brain. I’m sure the huge Schumann Resonance fluctuations in the past few months contributed as well.

This area of Bryce Canyon has an amplifying effect to incoming energy and seems to support surges (natural and electrical) which can be intense. The tone in my right ear has been ridiculously loud and fluctuating like crazy.  Sometimes I hear a noise that sounds exactly like a “light saber” from Star Wars. I can hear it and feel it pulsing through me at the same time.  I’ve been shown that the high altitude, along with the energy of this area, will amplify effect on cellular structure.  It somehow penetrates easier/quicker?  That seems to be the message that I’m getting but not sure if I’m interpreting that correctly.

The lights flicker here a lot.  There seem to be power surges when the power will go out on the entire property for a second.  I will have to reset all of the clocks in all of the cabins. This is the slow season, so we’re not using a lot of electricity to cause an overload as opposed to Spring and Summer months.  I just thought it was weird that the natural energy is so “electric” and then we also have power surges with the electricity in the area.

There have also been phases when birds will crash into the cabins. I’ll even be in the cabin sometimes and hear them hit.  I’ll find birds over a period of time and then it will completely stop for a while…

 

Energy Sensations

So recently, I’ve felt something new.  Every single day, I will go into an “in between” trance-like state starting around 5pm.   I’ll get this extreme sleepy-drugged feeling and will not be able to keep my eyes open no matter how hard I fight it.  When I lay down, I’ll very quickly go into this in-between state and start to feel a torus type movement.  I can feel the torus movement in the Diamond Solar Heart area (Solar Plexus, Heart Center and Thymus all blending together creating a torus movement).

When I feel that happen, I will feel the Christed energy generating and pushing outward.  I’m very aware of it while it’s happening, but now while this is happening, I’m noticing that there is a separate torus movement in my head.  It feels like it’s also centering in my 3rd eye/ bridge of my nose area.

When I initially felt the 2 torus movements, it reminded me of a picture that I saw of the Rainbow body.

Rainbow Body

To me, the picture looks like the energy is centering in the middle of the head and also in the chest like 2 different torus movements. I don’t know if that’s what the picture means, but it reminded me of what I’m feeling.  I can understand the Heart area, but why would it center in the head too?  What does that mean?

Also, when I’m in the in-between state, I’ll hear single noises; knocking, clicking, bells, or tones (it varies day to day).  Lately it’s been the knocking noise, but I’ll write more about that in my next post.  This has been happening every single day for a couple of weeks.  When I snap out of it, I will feel completely refreshed like I had slept for several hours…but it’s only been exactly 1 hour each time.

There have been occasions throughout the day, when I am completely aware of my entire body being made up of vibrating molecules.  It’s so weird because it feels like my body is disappearing.  It’s a totally different sensation as opposed to usually feeling like I’m made out of heavy liquid or melting into liquid.

Lately when I’ve been waking up in the morning I’ve been seeing the “turtle shell” shaped energy surrounding me.

turtle shell

It’s not brightly illuminated like when I see gridlines, but it’s got a very subtle illumination that seems to be a very transparent golden color.  One day when I saw it, I asked what it was, and I got the word “cymatics”.  So I’m guessing that it’s a representation of the tone that’s being emitted.  I’m thinking that when we emit these tones, our field is surrounded with these shapes/symbols.  That’s very interesting to me…I’ll have to do a little research on that.

A couple of times when I’ve slowly woken up in the morning, I saw a quick vision of a dolphin blowing a toroidal ring/bubble toward me.

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The ring comes toward me really fast and by the time it would reach me, I’ll snap out of the vision.  I’ve never had any interaction with dolphins or haven’t really paid attention to them, so I have no idea what that means. I thought it was interesting that it was toroidal since I’ve been feeling the torus sensation lately.

All of my joints have been aching all at the same time.  It’s uncomfortable but not intolerable. I’ve tried so many different things to help with this (essential oils, Bio-Astin, Omega 3’s and Malic Acid supplements, drinking distilled water with lemon, eliminating things in my diet) but nothing has helped.  I’m hoping that this is a phase that will pass.  I’m wondering if it’s due to the energy around here…maybe causing a detox type reaction?

Overall, this has been an extremely active time in this process.  I am constantly feeling so activated as my energy field is always feeling like it’s moving/pulling, melting, vibrating/buzzing or spiraling.

I’m very curious to see where this is going…

 

**I just realized that the last 3 blogs I’ve posted were all on the 9th… 🙂

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Scary Monsters

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I’ve noticed a lot of fear popping up in the Spiritual community.  There seems to be a fear of predator energy, a “someone out to get you” theme going around.  What I’m referring to specifically is people rallying against certain teachers saying they’re “not of the true light” “assaulting in the astral realm” etc…  It’s almost like a modern day witch hunt.  It makes me sad to see this in the lightworker community, but at the same time I know that it’s something that these souls have agreed to play out in this lifetime.  It is the dismantling of fear.

I recognize this energy because of a scary experience that I had with a self proclaimed Toltec Sorcerer/Shaman very early-on in my awakening.  It was a scenario that played out in my life with the teacher/student theme.  In the beginning, I only knew that he was a Shaman and wouldn’t find out that he was a sorcerer until after I had agreed to be his apprentice.  I’ll briefly explain a bit of what happened…

Back in 2009, I had taken a trip to the little town of Mesilla, New Mexico, with my (ex) boyfriend.  We were driving through a little street behind the shops and when I looked over to my right, I saw a Native American man with long black hair standing on the sidewalk.  He stood there staring at me…our eyes locked.  He was dressed in all white and had a headband on his head that had rainbow colored beading on it.  As I was staring back at him, he reached his hand up to the side of his face and saluted me as he continued to stare.  I have no idea why I immediately saluted him back…it was just a reflex.

I told my boyfriend that the man had just saluted me and a second later, when I turned my head to point to him, he was gone.  We drove around again looking for him but we didn’t see him anywhere.  It made me wonder if he was really there, or just a spiritual vision/visitation.

I was searching for jobs at the time and was so intrigued by what had happened that day, that I had put in for a government job in a town close to Mesilla.  Very shortly after that, I got the job without even being interviewed!  It just fell into my lap.

To sum it up, there was a man that worked there who had a Native American background. He was an older man with gray hair and a strange white glaze over his eyes.  He told me that he had sent out a request (and did a ritual) for an apprentice to carry on his tradition.  He said he knew I was coming (spiritually) because some employees had killed a snake in the parking lot of the building and chopped its head off.  They had brought the headless snake to him to identify what type of snake it was.  In his belief system, he took that as a sign that someone was coming and because the employees didn’t respect the snake, it would be someone who would not appear to be significant.

As naïve as I was at the time, I thought that he would be my teacher and that it was “meant to be” because of the Native American man saluting me in Mesilla and because I got this job so easily.  I had no idea that this was some crazy Karma stuff that I needed to work through with this man.  Long story short, He did some stuff that led me to believe that he was trying to “steal my soul” and it was the absolute scariest thing I’ve EVER been through.  Toward the end of the whole ordeal, I went through one night of terror where the weather changed very quickly, sounded like someone was walking on my roof and the wind sounded like it was going to blow my house down.  I laid in my bed clenching my Black Tourmaline and invoking the Violet Flame! Lol  I don’t scare easily, so I knew that there were other forces at work here…There’s a very distinct feeling to it, and I will always be able to recognize that signature from now on.

I ended up quitting the job and moving back to Arizona within that week.  I still went through scary feelings for a while after I left.  It was a lot of fear to work through for me and a whole process of coming into my own power.  My closure came when one day my boyfriend had gone fishing and saw a snake in the road that had been partially run over by a car.  The snake was still alive and suffering, so he chopped its head off in an effort to end the suffering.

He brought the headless snake home and it was still moving/wiggling around.  I burnt some sage, did some Reiki and said a prayer over the snake.  When I asked the snake to forgive him and to move on to Source, the snake immediately stopped moving.  My boyfriend said he saw heat waves (life force energy) come out of the snake in that moment.  That was my symbolic closure for what I had gone through with the sorcerer.  The loop had been closed.  I felt completely free of any ties/cords/contracts after that.

But in the end it made me so much stronger and taught me not to depend on anyone to decide what I should do or to protect me.  I had a lot to learn at that point and even though he scared the crap out of me, I now realize that he was helping me to pull the strength from within myself…to stand firm in my own power.  He was a Shaman, although a bit dark (and creepy), I now recognize that he was a master teacher and I am Grateful for his lesson.

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When you work through your shadows, make your dark aspects conscious, have an integration of all parts of self, there is no longer fear of something “outside” of self.

It’s an understanding so deep that there are not even words to describe the unification, the understanding of all that is.  I guess it’s like a Shamanistic view of darkness, for what it is, what it REALLY is.

Fear is a tricky thing.  It is probably the most difficult “program” to work through…so deeply embedded. When something pings that fear in our bodies, our minds can start making up all sorts of stories.  We see connections and “signs” that point toward whatever it is that we are going to create.  We pick them out, select them from many options.  It makes for an exciting story doesn’t it?

Choosing fear is a crossroads moment.  We choose…we ALWAYS have the ability to choose.  There can be signs EVERYWHERE to remind us of this:

F E A R – False Evidence Appearing Real

“Choose Love or Fear – the choice is yours”

“LOVE is all there is”

“Fears are stories we tell ourselves”

“Fear and courage are brothers”

“Fear is the prison – Love is the exit”

But yet, sometimes we still choose fear.  From what I understand, fear was originally a program for survival purposes…but it eventually evolved into something else in a world that is severely out of balance.  Just take a look at the “Horror” industry.  People use fear and being scared as entertainment.  I will admit, I do like a scary psychological thriller as entertainment once in a while.  It can be an adrenaline rush.  Since childhood, I’ve always liked twisted mind benders…it stretches the boundaries of “in the box” thinking.

It’s all a matter of perspective…

Fear can be used as a tool.  If you so choose, it can show you where there are vulnerabilities, where something is still being held that needs Love/transmuting. In this process, sometimes we need fear to kick us in the ass to get us moving again.  On my own journey, sometimes I needed something “bad” or uncomfortable to happen, to kick me out of my comfort zone…or used fear to remind me that I was much stronger than that, that I was running an old program that was still in the last throes of existence.

When you look at it from a detached observer view, without emotion involved, you can see a clearer view, for what it really is.  Fear is a reminder.

The darkness is a teacher, an old friend in agreement to show you your own light.

As the darkness envelopes the night sky, it allows you to see the brilliant flickering emanation of the stars.

A Master Teacher will “show” you and remind you where your light is…where your strength lies within…and will continue to do so, until it is unwavering and impenetrable.

It’s like “tough Love” lessons that your children have to go through.  Sometimes a parent won’t bail them out or “save” them, so that they’ll learn how to save themselves.  That is our responsibility as a parent, to teach our children how to become responsible and independent adults…and so is the role of fear.

We are evolving into Unity Consciousness.  As the old programs of separation flicker in and out of existence, we may have moments of condensed triggers…fluctuating between worlds.  It’s important, if not crucial, to stay in your Heart Center during this time.  If you’re feeling fear, take a moment to step back and detach in observer mode.  Get out of the mind and into the Heart space.

After many experiences and lessons with fear, I’ve come to the realization that nobody is trying to hurt me.  It’s only a game, a learning experience that is actually in my best interest.  Staying in my Heart has always provided me with the answers.  Finding the stillness within has always provided the space for Loving guidance.

When we truly believe and embody that knowing, the last veil of separation will slowly start to unravel…Unity Consciousness will be revealed.  There is no separation.  It is all you and it is all in Love.  Perspective is a master key…the stillness is your sanctuary…the Heart is your guide ❤

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Bifurcation ~ Choose wisely 😉

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