Energy Sensations – Update June 2, 2015

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Just wanted to do a very quick update…

Starting on May 30th in the late afternoon, I started to get a pineal migraine.  It feels like the center of my brain is swollen and emanating heat and pain out of it. It progressively got worse the next day and is still continuing today.  When I get these types of migraines, they usually last 2 to 3 days, but today is the 4th day.  I have to stay in bed with my eyes closed most of the day because it’s just too painful. I don’t have health insurance at the moment, so I can’t go to the doctor or emergency room.

This migraine is accompanied by many different sensations:

Subtle swaying on the top of my head

Heat (sun burn sensation) on my face and scalp

Pain behind my right eye

Extremely sensitive and sore neck/shoulder blades/lower back

Loud hissing noise in my right ear

Foggy dream-like feeling

Seeing frequent blue sparkles around me

Aching pain emanating from my bones

Nerves twitching all over

Humming wave-like vibration throughout my body

Sensitivity to light and sound

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It’s pretty bad!  I feel like my bones are being hollowed out. There’s also been some heavy anchoring of energy pouring full force out of my feet.  It doesn’t feel soft and pleasant like water; it feels like particles coming out.

I know this is not a medical issue, this is clearly energetic, but I could really use some pain relief, even if only temporary.  Usually when it gets this bad where I can’t take it anymore is when it will taper off.  So I’ll most likely be better tomorrow…

Oh, and I just realized that tonight is the full moon….Yikes!  I wish I could just put myself in a comatose state…lol
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I decided to meditate on this and asked to be shown what is happening, why I’m feeling this way.  This is what I got:

We are releasing so much right now.  So much more than I can comprehend or relate to.  I see it as streams coming out of my body, streaming codes…causing a vibration on the way out.  Memories are passing through, with a tinge of nostalgia.  I see snapshot pictures of different beings, different people, different places.  They’re all being released and set free.

This is on a cellular level.  We’re even releasing from our bones.  Blood is changing, codes are changing (transforming).  I see codes in the blood. It reminds me of being sick when I was a kid…I was always sick with fevers, nose bleeds, migraines.  I remember feeling floaty and sad.  That’s how I feel right now…floaty and sad.

I keep hearing the word “gravity” for some reason.  When I think about it, I hear the song “Damn Gravity” by Okay Kaya.  Such a soothing song…it somehow helps with this process of letting go…

 

 

It’s been 4 days of releasing…I wonder how much longer this episode will last?

 

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Energy Sensations – Update May 5, 2015

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I just have not wanted to write lately…So much has happened in the last few months.

The first major thing that happened was that I moved out of my cousin’s house at the end of February shortly after our uncle died of a heart attack. (My cousin is on my mother’s side of the family, and that’s the side that I’m consciously aware of healing ancestral karma )The death in the family showed my family’s true colors and brought out a flood of emotions…Every time I’d start to write about it, I’d get stressed out, so I’m not going to write about it. I’ll just say that it’s a chapter of my life that has been firmly shut and I’ve said a vow and contract release as to never have to repeat it again.

So I’m living at my Dad’s now. I’m still trying to adjust and although a little difficult, it’s much healthier energetically, so I’m not complaining! That seems to be a theme lately…when I complain about something (I used to complain about how messy my Dad’s house was), the universe will show me that it could be MUCH worse and then I’ll appreciate whatever it was that I was complaining about – lol

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I’ve gotta work on the Gratitude department…

In February I was experiencing what I believe to be timeline slips, or some type of interdimensional crossing of some sort. At first I would get this overwhelming déjà vu type feeling and for some reason, a warmth would flood my body… then a while later I would see other timelines happening right in front of me. It was so bizarre! It looked like a holographic overlay. I didn’t know what was happening but I was able to stay calm and let it pass.

This happened briefly on two or three separate days. I’m not sure if it was because timelines were changing or if it was just a compression (deletion). At this point in the process, I’ve learned to just go with it. There is no more fear and I have full trust that it’s for the highest of good.

For the past 6 months or so, I’ve been seeing different forms of darkness projected in front of me before it leaves (before it’s being transmuted and released). I’ve seen it as a black ball of scribbles, or a black spiked ball, sometimes as a black blob or strange blob with tentacles which actively moves (that one looked weird like a cartoon)…

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Occasionally I’ve seen similar brown unidentifiable creatures (actively moving), but I have no idea what the difference in color means…

That seems to be something frequent for me…darkness will show itself to me before it departs. It’s a little strange but I feel that it’s part of whatever I’m supposed to do. It’s like it comes to me so that I can guide it out…totally compliant and no resistance…absolutely no fear present.

I don’t mind doing that type of work. There’s a sense of being in control and it doesn’t scare me at all. In the last few months, I’ve also had frequent dreams of performing exorcisms and seem to know exactly what I’m doing in the dreams. Sometimes speaking in another language and forcefully commanding whatever it is to leave. I don’t know if I’m remembering past lives, or if this is merely part of the timeline merge/compression/deletion.

There are many people incarnated now that are doing this work, but not all are consciously aware of it. The message I’m getting is that they’ve requested from a higher perspective to not see it because they don’t want to trigger any fear. I can totally understand that!

**After writing this, I stumbled across an article from Lisa Renee that speaks of clearing shadow body fragments.  In the article she says:

This is a forced purging on planet, and we are the bodies that transmute the density, transit the debris and astral entities, many times through our own bodies. If you have not commanded your space and designated a place for astral releases and entity transits, knowing how to set up a portal in your space will be very helpful now. Sometimes astral entities will see a Indigo lightbody and come towards the light for help. Many times this is experienced as a psychic attack, but as one’s consciousness grows it is realized that this attack is really a call for help. Many people are getting fast tracked because our lightbody expansion is moving faster than our personality has been able to comprehend what is actually transpiring. This is common within the Indigo and Starseed population, so take a deep breath, and take in information at a firm yet fearless place.”

The entire article can be found HERE

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In the beginning of May, I started to feel a rippling energy in my neck whenever I was in a relaxed state or just before falling asleep. This has REALLY changed as of last night. I first noticed in the evening that my right side felt tingly like it was going numb. I also had small electrical pulses or “snaps” (as I call them) on hands, arms and legs…this lasted for a few hours.

At night as I was falling asleep, I felt a very deep and profound trembling in my core. Then later I felt a rolling rippling energy in my entire head and on the right side of my body (right arm/shoulder, right side of abdomen, entire right leg). I’ve never felt such intensity while still awake (only usually in a lucid dream state). The force of it reminded me of the dream I had of water forcefully shooting up through my shushumna.

This recent experience was so massive that it just took over completely.  I managed to open my eyes briefly (only briefly because I felt like my whole head was liquefied and forcefully moving around) and saw what looked like heat waves rippling in the air.

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It was a pretty awesome experience! I just went with it and let it happen. At times, it felt like ocean waves rolling inside my body. It was really strange…This was definitely the most powerful physical energetic sensation I’ve ever felt over the years. It seems to be getting more physically intense very quickly…

My solar plexus and sacral areas have also had a strange electromagnetic sensation within them for a few days. It’s hard to explain, but they feel very “raw” and sensitive like if they’re open wide and tense. I have no idea what this is. I’ve done clearing, worn my Moldivite and Herkimer necklace, my very protective Nuummite necklace, claimed my space, protection meditations etc…At first I thought it was some sort of drain or psychic attack because it’s so strong, but I don’t think that’s what it is…this is something else new… Hopefully it will pass soon because it’s a bit uncomfortable.

The energies have slowly worked their way up my body throughout the past years. It stayed at the top of my Heart area for many years, quickly went through the throat area (only a few months) and has been in my head for about a year now.

My Crown is super active during this phase…in fact, I’ve been feeling a fluttering right in the middle top of my head for 2 days…it feels like a moth is stuck in hair and trying to get out. And recently felt something shooting out of the sides of my head. When I focus in on it, I get the image of the halo around the head that looks like this:

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Those spots in the picture are exactly where I’m feeling the sensations.

This seems to be a new stage that I’m going through with lots of new sensations. I guess I was so used to the sensations I’ve felt in the past since the same things happened over and over for years…but now things are definitely changing very rapidly.

It’s exciting to experience something new. When all fear has been cleared and full trust is present, it’s an awesome experience to participate in. I guess this is where I can apply the Gratitude that I’ve been lacking to express in my life…

I’m so grateful to be a part of something so profound and so sacred.

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Diamond Solar Heart ~

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On March 12th, something shifted when I woke up in the morning… I heard 3 loud chimes (kindof like bell ringing tones, but more like someone swept across 3 keys on a xylophone very quickly) and when I heard the sounds; I saw an image in my mind that looked like white sun rays with a light gray background. It kinda looked like this but with light gray instead of the black:

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I wasn’t sure what to make of it, so later I meditated on it and got the message that it was a marker for a new level/phase/initiation. I was a little confused at first, so I asked for a better explanation. I was shown that when I hear the chimes and shown the pictures in my mind, it’s because a new (group) level has been reached. The tones represent an addition to the harmonization of signature tone. The picture is a representation of a new level. This particular picture shown to me is of Diamond Rays? At first I wasn’t sure if I was interpreting that correctly, but that’s what I got. So I did a little research on the internet and it occurred to me that the rays looked similar to other pictures that I found:

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And then I found this picture which made more sense:

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Ahhh…. So that’s what it means. There’s a large group who has reached the level of Diamond Light Body/Rainbow Body. I was given the message that this will be triggered or beginning phases for this group on or around Spring Equinox/Solar Eclipse. So on March 19th, I woke up in the morning and felt a sensation of warmth coming from my core. It spread outward and felt like it was filling up my body. It would last for a while until I was distracted by outside noise and then the sensation would stop. I’ve felt it before, but never really paid attention to it enough to figure out what it was.

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I decided to focus on it to see if I could make it happen at will, and found that I actually could…When I focused on it, I was shown (and also physically felt) that it was my Solar Plexus and Heart chakras blending or combining together and this was creating an energy that was emanating outward. It has something to do with merging timelines or realities? I’m not sure if I interpreted that correctly? Something more along the lines of zero point, meaning that it’s a merging of HU-man authentic power energy (Solar Plexus) with Divine Love (Heart)…creating some sort of bridge/portal to anchor. The message I got was that the merging of the two created a portal that will anchor the Higher energies… I’m not even going to pretend that I understand any of that stuff -lol   …I’m sure there’s much more to it than my limited interpretation.

It was clearly a very warm energy and I could feel such a blissful comfort from it. When the warmth would emanate outward, I felt like I was expanding and leaving my body…kind of like I was expanding to a different realm. It was an awesome feeling to be able to control it for the first time, since this type of stuff has only happened randomly without my knowing or conscious direction. I was shown that now that I was aware of it, I could create it anytime I wanted. I went online and searched “Solar Heart chakra” to see if I could find anything, but there really wasn’t anything except one post about the merging of the Heart and Solar Plexus.   The author had also experienced the same sensation and called it the “Solar Heart chakra”. The article can be found HERE

**Later after writing about this, I stumbled upon a post from Sandra Walter that she wrote in May 2013 while searching for something else. I was surprised that she had already written about it and she had even posted a video about it. She called it the “Solar Heart center”.  I guess I wasn’t ready for it until now…Her post can be found HERE

Picture from Sandra’s article :

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In her explanation, she describes it as a diamond and this center being between the Heart and High Heart center. She doesn’t mention anything about the Solar Plexus though…. So now this is all coming together…it totally makes sense. I never really understood how I was supposed to create or manifest, and had tried several different techniques. Sometimes things would manifest, and sometimes they wouldn’t. What I did realize is that sometimes I unintentionally manifested stuff when I was in a state of high emotion. But the message that I’m getting from this Solar Heart experience is that this is the tool to consciously manifest and create without having to worry about the high emotion influencing the creation. It is of Christed Light, so lower energies are not even an option in this form of manifestation.

At the moment, the strongest way for me to connect to this merge, is in the half awake/half asleep state. When I wake up in the morning, if I don’t fully let myself wake up, seems to be the best time to play with this. I’ve been doing this for a few days now. I’ll keep playing with it and see if I can bring myself into this state while fully awake.

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Trip to Sedona – Solstice ~ December 21, 2014

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I felt a nudge to go to the Amitabha Stupa  at Peace Park in Sedona today for Solstice. My (ex)boyfriend is out of town visiting family for the holidays, so I went by myself…It was a beautiful day, 58 degrees and mostly sunny, but slightly cloudy weather. At the park, they have two stupas and a Buddha statue…

The larger stupa is a 36 foot Amitabha Stupa which is said to actually contain a sacred relic from Buddha inside of it (among many other sacred relics and a billion mantras):

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And they also have a smaller 6 foot White Tara stupa:

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I said some prayers, recited some mantras, and paid a visit to the Buddha statue on site: 

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There weren’t too many people when I got there at 2pm…but when I was leaving, many people started to come…

After I was done, I headed to my favorite spot…Bell Rock vortex:

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Then I meditated for a while on my favorite round rock… 

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I saw a lot of kaleidoscope patterns today while meditating…

I enjoyed the beautiful view while looking out from Bell Rock…

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I felt like I was saying good-bye and I became very emotional on this trip…

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On Tuesday, December 23, I will be heading back to California for good…no more coming back to stay with my (ex)boyfriend anymore. I feel that he needs to get on with his life and I’m interfering with that by being here. All I want for him is to be happy…even if that means he will be happier with someone else…

I’ve learned a lot about unconditional Love and patience being with him. He’s the longest relationship I’ve ever had (6 1/2 years). I used to always run from everything and everyone in my life when things got tough,until I met him…he’s the first person that I stuck it out with and I learned so much. 

So why am I leaving now?  Because he wants and deserves to have a family of his own and a normal life and I can’t give that to him.  My life will never be normal again, it’s just not possible… For the first time, I feel that this is really “Good-bye” to so many things all at once…the sadness runs very deep in letting go of all that is familiar and comfortable…

There was a lot of releasing done on this trip today. I feel that I’ve been preparing (energetically) for this trip all week. I’ve been getting super heavy liquid Crown and third eye downloads for the past few days. I’ve never felt them so intense and non-stop like these past few days. There’s a new feeling today, and I feel like I’ve said good-bye to so much more than I’ll probably ever know. Everything is going to change. This New Year will bring a lot of surprises.

While saying good-bye today, I was shown that there will be many new adventures to come…letting go of the old to make room for the new.  I have faith that everything is as it should be :-)

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Happy Winter Solstice! Many Blessings from my Heart to yours <3

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I received a nudge to post this for some reason…maybe I’ll figure out why later…When I listened to this with headphones, my entire energy field moved around in what felt like a swirling dance of energy…

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From what I’ve read so far, it’s a hymn in honor of St. John the Baptist. I honestly do not know anything about St. John the Baptist, so I’m off to do my research :-)

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Oh, also wanted to note that today’s date is 12-13-14 ;-)

 

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Energy Sensations – Update October 8, 2014

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My (ex)boyfriend took this photo on the way home from work today…so beautiful…

 

It’s been extremely difficult to put anything into words lately and as a result, I haven’t posted anything. I just wanted to give a brief and quick update on the energies. First of all…WOW…the energies that came in throughout the night and continue to come in at this very moment are SO strong! I had been feeling quite dizzy for the past few days, but today is just off the charts.

I didn’t even bother to watch the Full Moon/Blood Moon/Lunar Eclipse early this morning because mosquito season is crazy out here in Arizona…my blood type is one of their preferences ( O positive blood type) and my poor legs are living proof. So when I went to bed last night, I was too lazy to turn on my night light. I fell asleep in complete darkness which is very rare for me. I like to have a light on so I can see what’s in the room when I hear noises (which is often).  I woke up several times throughout the night and saw illuminated swirling patterns all around me. I could actually see it clearer because I was in the darkened room. It was pretty intense. When I finally woke up early in the morning,  my body was burning up hot… I was feeling disoriented and a bit dehydrated.

The swirling patterns I saw seemed to have gold, orange, and brown colors in them…I had never seen brown before, so I meditated on it and got the message that it was orange and green mixed together (or overlapping) making it look brown. So gold, orange and green with very tiny flecks of indigo/purple here and there… That’s something very new to me…

On October 2nd, I had woken up in the middle of the night and saw beautiful flickering golden symbols all around me. They illuminated the entire room and were shimmering.  When I focused on them, I got the words “fire codes”, so I’m thinking it was the same as fire letters. They were really beautiful to see and gave me a magical feeling. The next day after seeing them, I researched it on the internet and read that the  fire letters are part of the DNA activation.

Also, on October 6th, I attempted to take a short nap (but was unable to completely fall asleep) and when I was in that “in between” state, I was shown something that looked like this:

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It didn’t have the colors though; it was just showing me different tiers or levels of something. I was shown that all of these levels were going to compress or collapse together. Initially, I was worried because anything having to do with compressing or collapsing in the past has been physically painful through my body… photo scared1_zps8f16fc39.gif  so I asked if it was going to be painful, and I didn’t receive an answer! I guess instead of interpreting this as collapse or compress, I’ll look at it as a gentler “integrate” or “unify” which doesn’t sound so painful (cringe) …I don’t fully understand it though…it’s beyond my scope of human understanding. Maybe I’ll read something about it later…

**On October 14th, Lisa Renee posted an update that speaks of lower mental body compression and also goes into further explanation of fire letters…awesome sync :-)

Much Gratitude!

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I’m currently getting lots of Crown downloads which feels like warm water pouring into the top of my head. Occasionally, I’m also feeling the warm water sensation pouring in at the bridge of my nose which feels kinda strange…it makes my nose feel like it’s distorted or morphing into something else.  There’s also been lots of heavy movement on my face around my eyelids and temples…I can actually feel my eyelashes moving when the energies are on my eyelids. I’ve been having a lot of work being done on me during sleep time and will wake up frequently throughout the night because it’s just too intense. When I wake up, I’m burning hot and my head feels sore.  For the most part, the focus has been on my head and face.

I’ve noticed that sometimes during the day, I’ll see a light overlay of colors which is something new. It’s been different colors, but the most frequent color looks pink. It’s been very hard for me to focus and I feel very dizzy…sometimes it feels like I’m spinning and I’ll have to go lay down for a while. My Heart chakra has opened more and I’ve been feeling a strong tickling sensation in the center of my chest for the past couple of days. I’m also feeling something lovingly stroking my arm throughout the day.

It seems that I need to drink more water lately and will become dehydrated very quickly. Maybe it’s because of the “fire” type energy that’s very active right now? I just read a post by Lisa Renee and she speaks of the fire energy and recent Kundalini symptoms HERE . I just recently discovered Lisa Renee’s Ascension Glossary and it’s helped to answer so many of my questions.  Everything is all coming together…

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I had a flashback memory today of when I was a kid, about 5 yrs old… I remembered going outside and talking to the sky at night time. I knew that I had something important to do, a purpose for being here, but couldn’t figure out what it was. While looking for some type of validation or confirmation that what I was feeling was true, I would ask the sky to tell me, but never received any answers. I imagined that I had special powers, but couldn’t seem to get them to work – lol…I would have never imagined that so many years later, at 36 yrs old, an awakening out-of-body experience would change my life so drastically…and would also answer my childhood question of what that important thing was that I am here to do. In remembering that moment from my childhood, it brought such a feeling of Gratitude and comfort.

**On December 7, 2014, I found a post that relates to my childhood memory of talking to the night sky…awesome sync! <3  http://www.bob-fickes.com/2014/12/childrens-dreams/

Despite all of the discomfort and physical symptoms happening to my body, I feel so fortunate to be here during this time…to be going through something so awesome, something I could have never imagined to be real…something that I felt and knew within when I was a child.  That just hit me today and it brought such a profound feeling of Love and comfort…so much Gratitude from my Heart <3

My inner child is very happy in this moment…

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**When I watched this video, it made me think of the timeline work, compression and defragmentation process that we’re currently going through…such a beautiful video…

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Trip to Sedona – Autumn Equinox ~ September 22, 2014

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I seem to always get Solstice and Equinox mixed up and originally thought today was “Solstice”…oops…It’s ok…I forgive myself -lol ;-)

I was very drawn to  Sedona today for Autumn Equinox…felt like I needed to make a connection there.  It was a pleasant 2 hour drive to get to Bell Rock and such a beautiful day with perfect weather.  Surprisingly, there were not a lot of people there today, so it was very peaceful.  

I’ve been sensing purple and green energies lately and have been seeing the two colors a lot when my eyes are closed…I was pleasantly surprised when I ended up getting a lot of purple and some green in my photos…such a nice confirmation :-)

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I’ve never gotten so much purple in my pictures before…The energy did feel different today, but couldn’t quite figure out what it was…the messages were not coming in today like they usually do…

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I stayed for a few hours…recited some mantras & prayers, grounded some energies, and read a book while laying down on my favorite rock :-)

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I saw a curious little blue bird spying on me…

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Then spent some time in my “secret spot” away from the path…

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And of course I had to stop at my favorite crystal shop…

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Overall it was a very beautiful day and I’m very grateful to have spent Autumn Equinox in beautiful Sedona.

I’m feeling a lot of change coming…These energies are bringing a lot of opport-unity…the word “unity” pops out and is a reminder to myself that I need to come out of seclusion…it’s time to unite with others…For the first time in a very long time, I feel comfortable with that…I am ready :-)

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Happy Autumn Equinox!  Many Blessings from my Heart to yours <3

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