Energy Sensations – Update August 22, 2014

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It’s been quite a while since I’ve written anything…I tried several times, but it just wasn’t flowing…A lot has happened since I last wrote, but I’ll just sum it up.

I went back to Arizona on June 25th and have been back and forth to California. I’ll be back in Arizona probably until October. I found out that my medical insurance is still active in Arizona so I’m going to see some specialists for various “mysterious” health issues that nobody can seem to figure out. At the moment I’ll just say that my skin is burning without any sign of rash, and nothing will help. I’ve had numerous tests done; biopsies, blood panel tests, diabetes tests, and I’ve even seen different doctors just for the sake of getting different opinions. It’s sort of bizarre to say the least. It’s shown me how awful our medical system is, and that most doctors I’ve seen, just wanted to drug me up and numb the symptoms with medication instead of trying to find the cause. Any testing I’ve had, was because I begged them to run some tests and I was very persistent. VERY frustrating and very sad…

While in Arizona, I experienced a crazy storm on July 26th. (I wrote about it right after it happened, but didn’t get around to posting it and will back date it and post shortly).

 

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On the morning of August 17th, I had a strange dream that there was an aurora in the sky, but it had multiple bright rainbow colors in it. I sensed the presence of other beings, even though I didn’t see them, I could sense that they were there. The colors generated an inaudible tone that affected my vibration. What I mean by an inaudible tone, is that I couldn’t hear it with my ears, I just heard and felt it from within. An example would be, for people experiencing Kundalini phenomena, when they hear bells, chimes, booming noises, or chanting that nobody else can hear. In my experience, the sound comes in at the Crown chakra because I can feel it swaying when I hear the inaudible sounds. That’s all I remember from the dream but I know there was much more to it.

Once I woke up from the dream, for the rest of the day, I started getting these realizations and drastic changes in my perspective about things happening in my life. The next day on Aug. 18th while on the 6 hour drive through the desert, back to California, I got “downloads” of information. What I mean by that, is that it’s just instantly in my mind without having previously known or any process to get to this knowing…it’s not there one second, and then it is there the next. In this knowing, I had a huge weight lifted off of me, and I had a complete change in perspective of how I was going to handle the difficulties in my life. The resolutions were just there in an instant and it brought a sense of relief.

I also got some information about what is currently happening for some people on other levels. It was shown to me as many people releasing enough obstacles and being clear enough to begin the next phase of activation. The result of the energy from the obstacles was shown as causing compression that needed to be released. The compression was to be released and “spun off” through spinning whirlwind vortexes. I was shown that the spiraling motion had great importance in this process.

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It was explained to me that the outer reflection of those vortexes was mirrored in higher vibrational human fields as “axiatonal spin points”. Spin points are part of the axiatonal/meridian grid of the body. I understood that once we have reached a certain vibration and are ready to activate the axiatonal grid in alignment (balance), the body will use these spin points to quickly spin out the obstacles (stagnant energy) from our energy field. When this is done on a large scale, (meaning many people around the world, such as it is now) there will be a reflection of this in our outer world which may appear as tornados, monsoon “microbursts”, and hurricane/cyclone type weather. It was all represented by a spiral movement or vortex.

Once I received this information, I understood why I had experienced this microburst storm in Arizona. It was the final push of activation of my spin points. I was shown that anyone experiencing their changes while consciously connected to this collective group grid (that are currently in this phase), will see it manifested outward and it will feel “personal” to them. They’ll have some sort of deeper realization or inner knowing that this happened as a reflection of themselves.

I realized that I had been feeling these spin points activating in different locations for a while now…especially on my face. I’m guessing they’re slowly activated one by one for a while, and then when you get enough of them activated, it’ll give one big cleansing flush…something needs to force it through to “combust” the activation. The images I received was sort of like a clogged pipe that is slow draining until it gets enough push of water to flush the pipe clean. It was made very clear that the “water and pipe” vision was just used as an example that my mind could understand, but it was actually more of a “fire” type combustion. This seems to be where a large group is at Now.

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For the past couple of months, I’ve had a lot of activity on my body. The most active sensation is when I wake up in the morning and I feel my whole energy field moving, rotating, shifting in such a way that it reminds me of the way a snake moves. It feels like my entire being is twisting and turning kind of like this picture below but maybe more of a rolling motion:

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This sensation feels SO good and when I wake up, I just lay there with my eyes closed for about an hour just so I can feel this sensation as long as I can. It’s so soothing and peaceful like a cellular massage…I have no idea what it is or what stage this pertains to and haven’t read anything about a sensation like this yet.

The next thing that’s really noticeable is the spin points on various parts of my body. The spin points feel like a very small circle of energy about the size of a dime, and it has a sizzling, fizzing type sensation. I’ve felt this in many areas, but the one above my mouth has been active everyday for about two months straight. I have no idea why that one is so active. Also, for the last 2 weeks, my tongue has had a strong electrical type current of energy running through it again. It’s really pulsing pretty hard this time.

On August 2nd I had a bliss episode hit me out of nowhere during the daytime while I was fully awake… I felt like my whole spine was filled with the liquid bliss feeling…it was AWESOME. The only way I can explain it, is that it felt like my entire spine was filled with a liquid euphoric massaging substance that emanates outward. The effect feels better than any substance, drug, or emotion that I’ve ever felt in my entire life. ..there is absolutely nothing to compare it to. I just laid down in my bed and let it take over because I didn’t want it to stop! It lasted for about an hour.

I’ve been feeling a little spacey and “dream-like”…maybe I need to ground more? I’ve been pretty calm despite my chaotic family and my patience has doubled. Overall, this feels like a really nice space to be in although it is not familiar to me. It seems that the integration is a smooth transition at the moment.

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I found a video that strangely reminds me of the movement sensations I’m feeling on my body.  It’s oddly familiar to me when I watch it and seems to sync with the process that my body is currently going through.  These are the type of visuals I get in my mind when I feel the sensations.  It’s amazing how accurate the pulsing and rolling motions are in the video…I’ve even seen the triangles connecting together and creating something in my visions…it’s fascinating to actually see it recreated by someone…Much Gratitude :-)

The video can be found here:

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Love <3

Walking in Harmony

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It’s been quite a while since I’ve been able to write anything.  I can’t really explain it, but it’s almost like I wasn’t “allowed” to write anything.  When I’d make an attempt to post an update, I’d get a big “NOT NOW” that would shut me down.  This has been such a deep integration for the last three months that I totally got lost in it…I saw a post from Sandra Walter recently and it was a huge confirmation to what I’ve been going through in these last few months.  The post can be found HERE.

So I finally moved out of my (ex)boyfriend’s house in Phoenix, Arizona. On March 1st,  I made a trip to California with most of the big stuff and then officially left Arizona for good on April 19th (the day before Easter).  I did realize that I left a few odds and ends after I moved out, so I recently took a brief trip back to Arizona to pick it up.  While I was in Arizona, we took a trip to Sedona (which I have written about below).

So now I’m living in Coto de Caza, California which is also known as “Orange County”.  It’s very close to Laguna Beach.  It’s SO beautiful here and the weather is perfect.  I have this serene feeling of freedom living here with my cousin.

But enough about that, I’ll get into the energetic transformation that is currently taking place…

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So the last three months have been INTENSE to say the least.  Kundalini is kicking my ass – LOL   I’m definitely not the same as I was three months ago…my body has dramatically changed and I can feel the different rewiring that has taken effect.  There’s been a stream of energy pouring in only on the right side of my Crown chakra every day for the past couple of months.  I wonder why it’s just in that same spot?  My energy is alive and constantly moving around adjusting throughout the day.  There seem to be many embodiments residing within me.

The next thing that I’ve realized is that energy on my lower legs (calves) has dramatically changed.  I’m not sure if an experience that I had in Sedona had anything to do with it, but on my recent last trip back to Arizona to pick up the rest of my stuff, we decided to visit Sedona.  It was on May 24th around the time that there were forest fires close to the area.  I wanted to go so that I could say some prayers for rain and protection for Sedona.

While we were there, we stopped at a little outdoor vendor sale with tents.  When I passed by one of the vendors, a wall of energy forcefully pulled my energy downward.  I’ve never felt anything like it, it was the most powerful energetic grounding sensation that I’ve ever felt so far.  I was totally shocked by this and walked back to the vendor to see what they were selling.  It was a booth for jewelry that claims to help ground your energy!  Well, I can definitely say that it REALLY works since I felt it even before I knew what the product was! I didn’t physically touch any of the jewelry, so the profound effect it had on my energy was probably from all of the jewelry combined in a small space…combined with the energies in Sedona, it created some sort of vortex.

My (ex)boyfriend wanted to buy some of the jewelry for himself since I had felt such a strong energy coming from it.  As I was standing there waiting for him to browse, my energy continued to forcefully pull downward…after a while, I felt something reaching into my root/sacral chakra areas and it started “working” on me.  I had to spread my feet apart and stand in a more stable position as this forceful pulling and “work” was being done on me in front of everyone.  It was so funny to have this all going on while everyone around me was totally clueless as to what was happening.   I just stood there quietly laughing while nobody noticed.  After we left, my lower back slightly ached on the right side…the only other time my back ached like that, in the same exact spot, was when I got my Reiki Tummo attunements.  I must have had a huge flush of energy flowing through me to trigger that same effect.

So since that experience in Sedona, I am now frequently feeling this strange buzzy energy whipping around my lower legs.  It’s almost as if some additional anchoring channels were opened or widened in that area.  The next night energy was strongly pouring into my feet (stronger than ever before) accompanied by the sensation of an energy enveloping the outside of my calves (emanating into my legs from the outside).  The outer sensation felt very electromagnetic.  A few days later, I realized that each time my foot hit the ground while walking, my leg would vibrate, but only when the foot hits the ground.  It’s so bizarre…it happens every single time I walk now, so I decided to meditate on it to see if I got any information…

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While in meditation, I got a vision of a tuning fork.  The message I received was that my lower leg bones were acting as a tuning fork?  Huh?  That sounds so silly, but that’s what I got…When my feet hit the ground while walking, it strikes my bones and they vibrate like a tuning fork causing some type of energy balancing effect.  I had to laugh when I initially got the message, because it just really sounds “out there” – LOL  But then I realized that we are here to bring in new codes, anchoring in new vibrations and tones…so why couldn’t it be true?  If I believe it’s true, then I agree to create it, and then it will become my reality.

Later in the evening, after receiving this vision, I saw a picture of Egyptian hieroglyphs on television, and it showed the Egyptian god who has some type of tuning fork looking thing on his head…I’m not sure if it is an actual tuning fork on his head, but it prompted me to start searching for stuff on the internet.

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Then I searched “Egyptian tuning fork” and saw pictures of hieroglyphs with two tuning forks passing energy to each other :

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I also found this on the crystalinks site:

“Discoveries emerging from Egypt, describe the existence of a world wide pyramid temple system in prehistory, mounted like antennae on key energy meridians, which were employed by ancient priest-scientists as harmonic tuning forks to stabilize the tectonic plates of the planet’s cataclysmic geology. From the mother tongue word Jedaiah, meaning ‘The Way of the Word’ or ‘The Power of the Word’, the ancient Jedai priests used the Language of Light to tune the planet like a giant harmonic bell. Much is being rediscovered in the last days of this time cycle.”  The whole article can be found HERE.

After finding many connections, it reminded me that I had awakened in the morning on March 10th and saw an illuminated pattern surrounding me.  It was difficult to see with my eyes open, but was very clear when I closed my eyes.  It looked like many strands of DNA that were all activated and moving at the same time.  The only picture that I could find that kinda looked like it was this one:

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The strands didn’t have the lines in between them though, and the strands were all much closer together. Their movement seemed to generate a tone.  I got the idea that they were all dancing or in sync with each other.  The words that came to mind while witnessing this were “harmony” and “harmonics”…and when I looked up the word “harmonic” on the internet, I found this photo :

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So I’m thinking maybe I wasn’t seeing DNA, but was actually seeing harmonics in action.  Then to further add to the syncs, I began reading lots of posts from various sources that are speaking about harmonics.  One of the posts was by Earthkeeper Tyberonn who posted information about a “Portal of Harmony” on February 2nd which can be found HERE.  and on April 11th about the “Harmonic Trigger” which he states, began on the Spring Equinox March 20th and would continue until Summer Solstice June 21st which can be found HERE.  I’m now seeing the word “harmony” everywhere…

Maybe actual people are being “harmonically triggered” during this time and their bodies are walking tuning forks?  Hmmm…that gives me something to think about…

 

“The search for meaning is really the search for the lost chord. When the lost chord is discovered by humankind, the discord in the world will be healed and the symphony of the universe will come into complete harmony with itself.” ~John O’Donohue

 

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**After writing this post, I found a post on July 8th that speaks of harmonics and our spine being a tuning fork…Wow! Such an awesome sync to find that!  I very strongly resonated with what she wrote and got very emotional while reading it for some reason…  The post can be found here: http://judithkusel.wordpress.com/2014/07/07/the-awakening-deep-within/

 

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***On June 17th, I found this video which strongly resonates with what I’m currently feeling (or should I say “remembering” :-) )
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Energy Sensations – Update February 14, 2014

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The end of January seemed to be very busy with energy coming in…Crown downloads, lots of movement on my body, work being done during sleep time, nerves twitching all over, and of course, the relentless loud fluctuating tones in my right ear…I also went through a very intense period of being freezing cold…the cold was emanating out of my body no matter what I tried to do to warm up.

February has been completely different for me…The first few days of February I felt emotional like something was being released, and then all of a sudden I was back in my place of stillness. Overnight it just seemed to switch… Feeling very peaceful and detached from everything around me…almost like a dream state where I have to constantly ground to be present or I’ll start to get that floaty dream feeling.

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Recently, I even started to see a white fog everywhere which will disappear once I focus on it (looks very similar to the picture above). The first time I saw it, the fog was so thick that I initially thought there was smoke in the house. One of the times I saw it, my boyfriend was there so I asked him if he saw it too, but he said no. I’m not sure what it is, but I feel that it happens when I’m not grounded. Could I be seeing my own energy field?

The ear tones are gone and the hiss noise that I’m now hearing is an even higher pitch than previously…I didn’t even know that was possible since it was so high pitched before. The sound is so comforting; it’s as if it emanates peace from within.

This feels like a very deep integration. Training my thoughts is VERY important right now…it’s constant work… If any negative or judgmental thoughts creep in, I’ll very quickly correct them. There seems to be a sense of preparing for something that will take effect very soon (maybe March?). Also when I try to make something happen, or get tense when I “hope” that something bad won’t happen, my guidance will step in and tell me to “let it go”, “clear your thoughts”, “release the attachment”, “set it free and trust”.

I caught myself reading a post and listening to a video on youtube at the same time the other day…when I caught myself doing this, I was going to pause the video so that I could fully focus on reading the post…My guidance quickly stopped me and I got the message that I should continue to read and listen to both. From my understanding, it will serve as a type of training to process multiple streams of information at the same time. This will assist in becoming familiar with consciously processing information from multiple sources, from multiple dimensions simultaneously.

I guess we’ve always done that in some form, but now it will be on a conscious level as we become consciously aware of many other dimensions at once. I’m a very methodical person who needs to have everything organized (part of my OCD), so this training will be necessary to break out of the strong hold that my brain has been under for most of my life. Being so organized and in control was a good thing in the old reality, not so good in the new reality…

My first conscious experience with multiple dimensions all at once was back in 2009. I attended a spiritual healing workshop that used a different technique (not reiki or Kundalini related) in Los Angeles. I had just quit my job in law enforcement and wanted to quickly find another line of work, so I was desperately searching. I thought that if I learned different healing modalities, I’d be able to earn a living doing energy healing so I signed up for the workshop.

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During the beginning of the workshop, the teacher was speaking at the front of the room, and I felt an overwhelmingly chaotic energy take over me. So much was going on at the same time within my energy field that it felt like I was having a mild panic attack. This was all new to me and I had never felt anything like it before. The person sitting next to me saw what was happening and told me to ground. At the time, I didn’t really fully understand grounding either…

I later found out from one of the other students that the teacher subliminally attunes the class at the very beginning (introduction) while speaking, so it kinda creeps up on you unexpectedly…Long story short, I spoke to the teacher during a break and he explained that I was experiencing multiple dimensions all at once. After taking some deep breaths and after he did an adjustment within my energy field, I was able to calm down. I had to spend the rest of the class sitting on the floor at the very back of the room because I could feel too much from everyone around me.

That was my first time ever consciously experiencing multi dimensions all at once and it was quite an experience. I can imagine how it would freak people out if they don’t understand what’s happening. For me, anyway, it tends to feel like a panic attack causing anxiety if I’m not grounded. I feel that this current training period is very important and will allow the transition to happen with less of the chaotic feeling that can accompany this type of integration

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I’ve been going through an extreme sensitivity to chemicals in food. Changing my diet to a very strict no sugar, very limited carbs, and mostly vegetable with lean protein was a must. Eventually I’d like to go fully raw, but want to slowly ease into that so I won’t go into a healing crisis. My son went from eating daily fast food to going complete vegetarian and he broke out in a bad rash on his entire body that took a very long time to heal…I’d like to avoid any drastic reactions if I can…

I had to change my diet because my body is not tolerating junk food anymore and will quickly let me know it’s not playing around! I had been getting itchy allergic type sensations after eating certain foods and sometimes my skin would burn. These were foods I’ve eaten for years with no problems, but my tolerance has changed.  After following the strict diet, the symptoms would go away. Even when I slack off and eat something with a lot of additives, my salivary glands start to produce saliva so hard and so fast that it really hurts my mouth. It’s as if the salivary glands are trying to quickly flush the artificial additives out.

My body has been vibrating A LOT. It’ll just come and go spontaneously more frequently than it ever has in the past. I’ve also been feeling like something’s coming out of the side of my head for the past few weeks. It just moves in and out causing a high vibration tingly feeling. I’ve also noticed that when I wake up in the morning, I see a black tunnel/funnel looking thing above me. It kinda looks like the picture below:

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I’ve seen it before in the past, but hadn’t seen it for a very long time…now I’ve been seeing it every single morning for weeks.

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So February seems to be a very peaceful integration so far. Such a calm stillness with loving guidance. I’m going to enjoy it as much as I can because next month is the Spring equinox and also the month I’ll be moving out of my boyfriend’s house…I just have a feeling that next month will smack me upside the head… Even the word “March” implies forward movement (cringe) – LOL

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Energy Sensations – Update January 13, 2014

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The Kundalini has been super active lately. Starting a few nights ago, the energies started tickling my entire body…It lasted a couple of days…I had to keep scratching myself because it felt like someone was running a feather over me. It’s probably the Kundalini sensation that most people describe as “bugs crawling all over your body”.

On the morning of January 9th I felt the “hot spots” on my Crown chakra…This was the first time I’ve ever felt pain on my actual Crown. I’ve had pineal migraines and tenderness on my scalp over the years, but those are 3D sensations…this was different since it’s on an etheric level. It’s difficult to explain, but it feels like it’s painful to my physical body, but it also feels like it’s distant or further away than my physical body, but the pain still comes in…Does that even make sense?

I noticed that my Crown felt different last week, so something’s definitely changing. The hot spots felt like little electrical pulses with heat that kind of stings a little. It’s a very slow sensation, like if it’s happening while suspended in time and my perception is delayed or it skips? I know that probably sounds weird but that’s the only way I can explain it. A few minutes after feeling the pulses randomly on my Crown, I heard three loud chimes…kind of like bells ringing but it was a different type of sound vibration. The sounds were somehow very comforting…

The past few days there has also been a lot of activity on the nasal chakra which feels like warm water pouring out of the top and the bridge of my nose. I’ve also been seeing more than just the little sparkles manifesting around me…now I’m seeing a big circle of layered illuminated blue taking over my entire vision for a split second. It just pops into my mind and takes over my whole vision so fast that I’m startled by it. It kind of looks like this:

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Starting on January 9th I noticed that my Heart center felt larger…when I focused on it, I’d get the image of a big void space, but it had small pinpoints of light that looked like stars.

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That doesn’t make any sense to me because I usually see something there, whether it’s a color, or a pulse, but as of Wednesday, I’m just seeing this vast open space (which literally looks like outer space). My chest feels HUGE. This is a totally new sensation for me…I haven’t experienced anything even close to this so it’s a little bizarre. I’ve heard of a Heart expansion, but wasn’t quite taking the meaning so literally! It seems funny to me and made me laugh at the thought of my Heart center looking like outer space… I’m sure I’ll figure it out soon…

With the chest expansion and the heavier Crown activity, I feel more “alive”, and it now feels like my energy flow is reversed. When I used to get the Torus sensation, it would feel like I was turning inward on myself and it was very overwhelming…but now it feels like my center is turning outward and spreading my energy out instead of bringing it in. When it used to turn inward, I would feel like a pressure cooker with too much inside and I would lose my breath. Now it feels like it’s dispersing outward and it’s a more “free” feeling of expansion.

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On the morning of January 10th I woke up and felt energy entering into the bottom of my feet. I’ve felt this before, but it’s rare compared to the constant flow of feeling the energy pouring out of my feet. The Kundalini was extremely active that day and was just whipping around quickly moving all over my body. When the energy was entering my right foot, I felt clusters of nerves twitching on the bottom of my foot, then I felt the energy move through my lower leg causing my leg to have a very powerful chills sensation, then it moved up through my right thigh, into my Root chakra which tickled, and then quickly moved upward through the rest of my body to the left side of my face…the energy stayed at my left temple for quite a while.

I have no idea why the energy spends so much time at my temples. I can’t find much about “temple chakras” online. I know there are chakras there because I can feel them, but it seems to be a very secretive topic for some reason. I wonder why? I’m gonna do some more research and see if I can find out more about them.

The energies are definitely amping up quite a bit. There’s a new feeling in the air…This is new territory, so I have no idea what to expect… I don’t mind at all, as long as I can stay out of pain :-)

Love<3

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Energy Sensations – Update January 6, 2014

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I haven’t felt motivated to write anything in a while…Not too much has happened since my last post with the exception of December 27th; I got hit with a huge amount of energy…Right after I woke up in the morning, I got dizzy, couldn’t focus my eyes, had a weird pressure sensation in my solar plexus which caused extreme anxiety, and nerves started twitching all over my body in different locations.

I felt like I was having a panic attack. I took some anxiety medication and stayed in bed all day…There’s no way I would have been able to rest if I hadn’t taken the medication, because this sensation was just too strong. I felt like my solar plexus was going to explode.

I had strange dreams and visions while I was in and out of sleep all day. I was shown that there were many fragments of myself that were being returned and put together like a puzzle. The way that it was shown to me, was more like shards of glass and all of the jagged glass pieces were brought together and seamlessly melted into one piece. Maybe that’s why I felt so much pressure from my core, because of the added (returning) embodiments?

I also saw a deity sitting on a throne that looked kind of like a female Egyptian deity but was wearing a really exaggerated tall headpiece that I’ve never seen in any Egyptian artwork before. The headpiece was about 4 feet tall and had many layers of gold and multicolored gems/stones on it. It kind of looked like an “Ezelsdorf-Buch golden hat” (but without the rim at the bottom) which is in the picture below, but in my vision it also had jewels on it.

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When I got out of bed around 5pm, my body was super hot even though it didn’t read on the thermometer. My boyfriend scanned my energy with his hand and said that the heat was coming out of the area of my solar plexus. He also said that he saw a bright white orb on my shoulder. I also keep seeing a blue orb on my left side and I’m starting to think that it’s always around me since I see it so much. Maybe it’s a guardian?

Later, when my boyfriend went to plug in the Christmas tree lights, he had barely grabbed the plug in his hand and the lights flickered on! He hadn’t even touched the plug anywhere near the plug outlet in the wall, so the lights went on from his own energy! I was convinced that something big was going on energetically on the 27th but I haven’t read anything about it yet.

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I had a strange dream on Jan. 3rd. In the dream I was laying down on a bed in a brightly lit room and started to close my eyes to meditate. Once my eyes were closed, I started to see a blue background with one single white cloud in the middle of it. In my mind I was asking for some guidance and big capital blue letters popped up into the cloud that spelled the word “FLEE”.

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I was confused by this message and asked again for some guidance and then a bunch of blue words in another language popped up into the cloud…I couldn’t understand what the words said, so I asked for guidance one more time…the cloud started moving and contracting, and then completely went away. I have NO IDEA what this is supposed to mean. Flee pretty much means to get out quickly, but does it mean for me to get out of Arizona? I guess we’ll find out here pretty soon! I always thought of the word Flee as an urgency to get away from danger.  I don’t really believe in doom and gloom stuff, so maybe I’ll find another meaning or connection later…

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As for energy sensations, I went through a couple of weeks of feeling the “hot spots” (random electrical pulse sensations) everyday on my body (which were pretty painful). I haven’t felt any in a while, so I’m really glad that’s over with. The pulse in my tongue has been very subtle to the point that I can hardly feel it anymore, but I can tell that it’s still there. My Crown has been really active and the movement on it feels heavier…something has changed with my Crown but I haven’t quite figured it out yet…

For the past few weeks, I’d been having crazy dreams about people being mean to me and doing hurtful things. Most of it was little petty stuff (like people at my old job or small arguments with friends), but the dreams have been very stressful. I’ve spent so much time clearing the really big traumatic experiences in the last year, that I hadn’t really paid attention to the little things. These dreams have showed me that it’s important for me to focus on clearing the little petty stuff too…

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When I woke up in the morning a few days ago, I felt a strong pulse coming out of my Heart center…it was almost like an up and down sensation that tickled a little bit (the picture above reminds me of the energies). It felt really good. After that, my upper back was vibrating for a couple of days, so I’m guessing that I’ve had a deeper activation of the Heart center.  I’ve also been feeling a subtle sensation in my throat like it’s closing up…it’s not overwhelming, but it does get a bit uncomfortable at times.  I’m thinking that it has to do with this Heart center activation.  In the past, the High Heart activations have also affected my throat.

Since this deeper Heart center activation, I had been a little emotional and had no idea why I felt that way. I’ve just been resting and had been trying not to focus on anything. Today something feels different… my inner guidance has shown me a picture of training wheels…the message that I’m getting is that I’ve gone through a whirlwind of emotions coming up over the last few weeks from past experiences and am now using my training wheels to “rewrite” these past issues. I really have no idea how I’m supposed to “rewrite” this stuff… but I’m being shown not to “think” about how to do it, and that if I just “feel” (as in a surrendering kind of way), then I will be shown or guided how to do it.

So this seems to be the theme for January…another phase of releasing, but with more ease and in more of a flowing nature. This phase will serve as a sort of training to more easily (but very thoroughly) transform whatever it is that comes up from deep (I’m being shown VERY deep) within. It seems that we’ve come to a high enough vibration to be able to start using this upgrade in transformation. There’s a little bit of confidence that came in today and I’m buzzing with a new “secure” type feeling…it’s very difficult to explain, but it feels really good. It’s very powerful, whatever it is…

For the first time in quite a while, I have the confidence to move out of my boyfriend’s house and am getting a little push to finally go (and to completely let go). I need to get moving… Something has changed within me that has restored the confidence and security to move forward. There’s a sense of excitement and a trust that everything will not only be “ok”, but it will be even better than I imagined. I’m planning to completely move out at the end of February…I just need to get these “training wheels” going so that I can move myself into a balanced state :-)
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Infinity ~Twin Flame Awareness

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In the beginning of November, I had a vision of a key being handed to me with an infinity symbol on it…I also saw an Ankh with an infinity symbol on the top (instead of a circle) but I wasn’t too sure what this meant.  I wrote about the vision in a blog HERE.

After meditating on it for a while, I got the message that the infinity symbol was given to me specifically for the purpose of assisting with the ancestral karmic energies I was currently working through.  I was shown that the sideways infinity symbol (or LEMNISCATE ) was to be focused on or visualized actively moving in my mind while having the intention of clearing the ancestral energies.

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I followed my guidance and used the symbol many times for clearing…I also used it on my boyfriend while doing healing on his sciatic nerve pain that he’s been suffering from lately.  I believe sciatic pain is associated with blocked meridians and nadis due to ancestral junk that we’ve accumulated over many lifetimes.  I also believe that fibromyalgia is linked to this as well.  It really seemed to work on his pain and he said he noticed a big difference after the energy healing was done.

I just recently became aware that the infinity symbol is linked to twin flame/twin soul reunion (awareness).  It all started with a beautiful dream that I had on the night of December 17th (night of the full moon).

This dream was unlike any other I’ve ever had…in the dream, I was visited by a Buddhist monk and we were totally and completely in Love with each other…I could feel this strong feeling of Love just by him being in my presence, it was emanating out of him. In the dream, we were going to get married and I understood that he was going to be my teacher for the rest of my life.

It was a HUGE relief to me, like if everything from that point on, was going to be ok… I was SO in Love with him, it was beyond anything I have ever felt in my entire life…I felt my whole being totally surrender to him and knew without a doubt that he was going to complete me in such a way, that I would never have to search for answers to anything ever again. The feeling was so strong, that I cannot even express into words how it felt.

I know that Buddhist monks take a vow of celibacy and have only read of special and rare circumstances that they may marry someone, so it’s extremely rare. I guess the message that I initially took from the dream was that it was more of an internal union than a literal marriage in 3D. I was thinking maybe it represented the union of masculine and feminine aspects of self?

Video from Meline Lafont:

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I saw a video on December 19th by Meline Lafont that speaks of this phase of currently embodying the I AM presence (she also mentions heart palpitations which I’ve been having a lot of lately).  Her video triggered some questions and I searched “I AM presence masculine and feminine” on the internet out of curiosity. I realized that the I AM presence is actually the masculine and feminine aspects merged which I hadn’t really thought about before. Now that makes sense to me regarding my dream. I later realized that on December 17th the full moon was in Gemini which represents “twin” energy…maybe twin flame/twin soul energy?

Throughout this process, I’ve never really paid much attention to the twin flame stuff…I just never really believed that my twin flame was incarnated here on Earth and the thought of reuniting physically with him didn’t resonate with me. After this dream, I now fully believe that my twin flame is not incarnated on Earth and that my “reuniting” is not an actual reuniting, but more of a remembering, or conscious awareness.

The message that I’m getting from this dream is that I’ve always been merged with my twin flame, it’s just that it was not in my conscious awareness. Now that I’ve become consciously aware and have integrated the awareness of his presence, I feel his presence within me…it’s as if I can pull that feeling of complete unconditional Love from within me anytime I want, now that I’m aware of it. He is always with me. I’m even getting teary eyed right now just writing about it…I’ve never felt this type of feeling before…it’s unlike anything I’ve ever experienced.

Why would I need to manifest this union physically when I can feel his Love always (in all ways) within? I would not want to change this perfection by incarnating it in this imperfect realm…there is no need or desire for anything other than what it is.

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After doing a little more research, I found lots of stuff regarding twin flames associated with the infinity symbol and realized that the awareness of the infinity symbol is the beginning of the twin flame awareness. One of the articles I found showed this symbol:

Infinity Master Symbol

The article says: “By activating the Infinity Master Creative Symbol (all of it) you bring the 5 Elements (Earth, Fire, Air, Water and Ether) into balance. You activate the Alpha – Omega – One-Heart Chakra System once again. You receive and activate the Grail Codes and you activate and bring the Feminine/Masculine and Twin Flame Love into balance. Furthermore you activate the Holomatrix of Love in Pure White Light to begin automatically releasing and healing everything which do not serve your highest good any longer and add all that you need to reach the enlightenment at high speed and with ease and grace.”

The rest of the article can be found HERE

I also found a site that had this symbol:

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The article says:

“Germain began with an image of two circles that symbolized the separate entities before remembering the Twin Flame journey.”

“He continued by showing the infinity symbol and described how this was the beginning of the Twin Flames journey. As the two circles come closer together and begin to form the two halves of the eight, (infinity symbol) this symbolized the beginning of the coming together of the divine masculine and the divine feminine. Through working together whether in the physical or the etheric realms they would experience within the inner eye of the heart the moving energies as it traveled around the infinity symbol. As the two energies meet in the middle it can be clearly seen as the magnetic energies of the divine feminine and the electric energies of the divine masculine.”

The rest of the article can be found HERE

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I’m having a difficult time explaining what’s been shown to me (by my inner guidance) about the infinity symbol, but here are some pictures that might help to explain it better:

From The Emerald Tablet:

“When thou hast entered the form thou hast dwelt in, use thou the cross and the circle combined. Open thy mouth and use thou thy Voice. Utter the Word and thou shalt be free. Only the one who of Light has the fullest can hope to pass by the guards of the way. And then must he move through strange curves and angles that are formed in direction not known to man.”

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From the Emerald Tablet:

“Only they could guard God’s creation. Then did I pass ëround the circle of eight. Saw all the souls who had conquered the darkness. Saw the splendor of Light where they dwelled. Longed I to take my place in their circle, but longed I also for the way I had chosen, when I stood in the Halls of Amenti and made my choice to the work I would do.”

Circle of Eight:

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Old Way ~ Wheel of Karma

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New Way ~ In This NOW

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Infinity Spirit/Sol and Soul/Luna, Male and Female

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There are four elements in this image that are connected by an ouroborus symbol. The lion represents the essence of spirit and the swan symbolizes the feminine soul. Here the lion consumes the female swan within the stage of the work that she represents, namely, the albedo. Thus the silver, or white stone, is in the process of being transmuted into gold. The lion and the swan, spirit and soul, are captured in their cosmic counterparts, sun (Sol) and moon (Luna), within the ouroborus. Typically the snake devouring its own tail is presented as a circle representing a state of primal unconsciousness; activated but not going anywhere. But, here we see this symbol in the form of the infinity sign, thus indicating a shift toward conscious integration of the energies of spirit/Sol and soul/Luna [male and female].  Website for this picture can be found HERE

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I apologize for not being able to explain the information that I’ve received and just using pictures, but it’s such a deep “knowing” that my limited interpretation cannot fully explain.  I hope it makes sense and is my wish that it will help in some way on one’s journey.  The gold/silver, male/female, mirror image, serpent/snakes, I AM presence, infinity symbol are all coming together and the pieces of the puzzle are quickly filling in.  It’s not what I would have expected it to be, but it’s a reminder that following your Heart is so important in this process.  There is no right or wrong, but if you follow what truly resonates with your Heart, you will always find your way home photo GoldenHeart_zps6f0ee8af.gif

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